"Close the door
Throw the key
Don't wanna be reminded
Don't wanna be seen
Don't wanna be without you
My judgment's clouded
Like tonight's sky
Hands are silent
Voice is numb
Try to scream out my lungs
It makes this harder
And the tears stream down my face
If we could only have this life
For one more day
If we could only turn back time
You know I'll be
Your life
Your voice
Your reason to be
My love
My heart
Is breathing for this
Moment
In time
I'll find the words to say
Before you leave me today..." -One Direction, Moments

"Spectra!" Billy had finally found his girlfriend, in the Mad Science lab, all alone... with a test tube of something, pressed to her lips...

It was too late. She was caught...

"What are you doing?!" Billy ran over to Spectra, whose face had gone paler then usual.

She removed the test tube from her lips. "I... I don't belong, Billy... I've got to go back. To the way I was... Over 150 years of pure hell. No purpose to unlife... I want to live..."

"... Spectra, what's been up with you lately?" Billy had known Spectra was getting depressed lately...

... She had practically gone full-on Goth; switching from purple to all black. Fine. No big deal there.

... She had turned totally anti-social. Again, no big deal. She was never really popular or anything to begin with.

... She got an attitude change. Everything about her was negative. It sort of just... radiated off of her...

... But... things got real serious when... she quit The Ghostly Gossip... Spectra loved gossip more than anything, but... when she deleted it...

"Nothing's up with me." Spectra lied through her teeth. "I just want to be normal."

"Normal?" Billy exclaimed. "What do you mean, normal?!"

"Normal, meaning the way I was before I died! Before I became nothing! ... You wouldn't understand..."

"So?"

"So you wouldn't know what I've been through." Spectra gripped the test tube tightly. "I'm going back to being a normie... It'll make me happy again..."

"No!" Billy reached out to stop her; but it was too late. Spectra had already drank half the tube by the time his hand flew up to knock it out of her grasp. It flew right through her transparent hand and onto the floor; shattering into a million pieces.

"What is wrong with you?" Spectra shrieked. "I had to drink all of it! Or it wouldn't even work! Do you know how hard it was for me to find that potion and..." her rant was cut off by Billy's lips smashing onto her own. She pushed against his chest and tried to force him off, but it was useless...

As he broke away from her; his grey eyes stared deep into her light blue ones.

"Spectra, tell me the truth. What's wrong?"

Ectoplasmic tears flooded her eyes. "... It's... it's so hard to say..." Spectra choked. "I just... I want everything to be normal..."

"This is your new normal." Billy whispered; stroking her cheek lightly. "And what's so wrong about it?"

"I..." she bit her lip. "I don't know... It's just... some... depression. I've had throughout almost all of my death; it... it's just gotten worse, is all..."

"Why didn't you tell me before?"

"I was afraid you'd think that I was some... messed up, kind of ghoul..."

"Spectra..." Billy sighed before giving his girlfriend another kiss; this one more passionate than the last. This one was memorable; more than their first. It was more meaningful...

"Stop trying to make it better..." Spectra muttered; tears streaming down her cheeks as she pushed away. "It's not going to work..."

"Listen to me." Billy replied; grabbing her wrist... That was something special... They were both transparent... So they could actually hold onto to one another... "You're just having some trouble..."

"I've been like this for over a hundred and fifty years, Billy... Nothing will help..."

"... I might."

"You won't do anything." Spectra growled; freeing herself of his grasp.

"Can't I at least try?" Billy inquired; giving her a pleading look. "Please? ... I can't leave you like this."

"Why not? I'm happier than I've ever been."

"That's a lie and you know it. Weren't you happier before? When you hung out with your friends? When you were your regular self? When you used to be starved for gossip?" Billy's throat felt dry and he hesitated. "... When... you know... when you fell in love with me?"

"... I'm still in love with you, Billy. I never changed, in that way."

"Really? Because it seems like it..."

Spectra let out an exasperated sigh. "See? This is why I didn't tell you about this! Any of this! ...You'd think I was playing an act the entire time..."

"Well, how do I know what's real? Now that I've seen the different side of you?" Billy snapped.

"There is no different side!" Spectra shrieked.

... Silence now echoed practically throughout the whole school...

"Years ago, this was me. I wasn't the popular ghoul. When I came here, I did change; but only to fit in."

"Spec... I had..."

"You had no idea." Spectra muttered. "And I never expected you to."

Billy bit his lip nervously. "Listen, I..."

"No... Just..." she backed away from him. "Stop. Don't try to make it better. If you truly love me, then you can accept not the different Spectra, the one you fell in love with, but the Spectra who is... this..."

The bell rang; alerting students that the school day was over.

"I'll be going now." Spectra choked. "... Bye..."

And with that, she flew out the classroom; leaving Billy behind... with a broken heart...

AGAIN, sad fic. XD I am so sorry for making you all cry like the baby yak. XD ... And yes, I made Spectra depressed. Got a problem? *puts on sunglasses* Deal with it.