sookie pov

I ripped the covers from my body, and legitimately jumped from my bed. I then picked the baby up being careful not to wake him; I had to give him a name, I mean I could keep calling him Eric and Pams son, erm I would call him Jonah, for now just until I gave him back, I threw my housecoat on, practically hiding the infant underneath it, and then left my room padding down the hallway. I had grabbed the car keys and within seconds I was out the door, fumbling for my keys I unlocked the car slipping inside of it, how would I even proceed to explain what I had done, I had to think through my options, I would just…Fuck I could, I bit my bottom lip, pulling the gear stick it to drive, and began driving down the road with Jonah in one of my arms, this stunt could probably get me killed but I didn't care, I deserved it, what kind of person was I, what had I become?, my mind tugged back to the date that all this had started…

Flashback 72 hours and three days before

I watched with jealousy as Eric held his new baby daughter looking her with eyes of love, knowing that the second one wouldn't be far behind which meant I had to work quickly, he stood by Pam who was on the couch, his eye's fixed on the baby 'she looks like you' he blurted out towards pam

'god help her' Pam stated with a slight frown on her brows

'What's the matter Pam?' Jessica queried stepping closer while Doctor Ludwig Packed up her equipment,

'I don't know it's just-she was cut off when she winced holding the bottom of her abdomen doctor Ludwig's head shot up causing me to swallow hard my eyes searched around the room,

'are you okay?' came Eric's voice he was next to her in the blink of an eye, and Jessica held the new-born in her arms, whoa this was giving me whiplash,

'im fine…I guess I just need some rest…' she stated

'I can get the baby cleaned up, Eric do you…want to come?' I asked Pam glared at me, Eric looked to her for consent and she eventually nodded, I walked towards Jessica, opening my arms so she could pass me the baby, Pam stood on her feet wavering then nearly stumbled Jessica caught her, by the arm Pam nodded to signifying that she was okay, I briefly watched behind me to make sure Eric was following I left the room gliding up the stairs and peering down at the new-born baby she was still covered in blood, her blue fixed on my brown ones..

Eric stood behind me as I cleaned his daughter, I took one of the cute mini towels I had brought from the store and cleaned the top of her hair, the baby made cute whimpering sounds as the warm water made contact with her bare skin, I couldn't help but notice the strands of golden hair on her head that I guessed the baby had inherited from both parents as I cleaned the remaining blood of her, once she was completely cleaned up I wrapped her in a fluffy towel and turned around to face Eric,

'She's beautiful' I uttered out stepping closer towards Eric, and handing him the baby he took her into his arms peering down at her why could she be mine, why did it have to be pam my jaw almost twisted in anger, he exited the bathroom while still talking to me.

'I never really wanted, children- but now she's here…I can't imagine how life would be if she didn't exist' he admitted well l thought let's see how your feeling change when number two comes along,

I pressed my lips into a thin line then spoke 'do you love her?' I asked referring to Pam his back was facing me, so I could see him practically tense up as my question washed over him,

'I'd rather not discuss my feeling for Pamela with you' he admitted

'Do you love her?' I repeated'

'If you want my honest answer…Yes' he stated honestly you didn't have to be a mind reader to know he was telling the truth,

'How long?' I asked my country accent making itself known I balled my fists feeling my eyes rim with tears

'one hundred and forty eight years to be exact' that meant he had loved her the entire time he had been with me he had fed me lies, but I had felt it his love for me, I still felt it I had to know so I asked

'But you love me, you still love me how can you love two people? I queried

'I asked you the same thing twelve months ago' he nodded I cut my eyes, walking around him so that I could see his face

'But you don't love her like you love me, if I get rid of her then she won't be in our way, all you need to do is say the word' I shot out desperately

'No' he growled out causing me to flinch

'Eric you don't see it now but in time you'll come to understand that- I was cut off when a scream tore from downstairs it travelled all the way from downstairs and echoed off of the walls, it was without a doubt pam

'this conversation isn't finished' I muttered when he handed me the baby, and then was gone vamp speed down the stairs, I followed after him, and soon found myself in the hall way and peering into the living room, where I saw Pam arms gripping the couch, while she groaned incoherent and tried not to push, she let out sounds of Pain as she shifted position

'What's going on?' I asked pointly to Jessica

'I don't know' the redhead burst out 'she just clasped'

Pam cried and letting out another groan of pain it was sharply cut of when she pulled her hand up, seeing it was coated with blood, she gasped and shook her head, the bleeding was getting heavier

'Bill take the baby' I ordered, doctor Ludwig had long since left the only person to help now was me, Bill obeyed taking the little girl,

'Pam can you move' I asked she shook her head and gasped out a weak no, her skin had turned an almost ashy blue, which was extremely worrying, she lay back flat on the couch in the position she had been in earlier when doctor Ludwig had delivered the first baby,

'Eric' Pam shivered weakly looking around to catch sight of him

'Im here Pam your gonna be fine' He kneeled next to her taking her hand in his, I was praying that she died, then she would no longer be in the way, she wouldn't be clouding Eric's feelings for me, I stared at the pair of them swallowing back bitter jealousy

'Im scared' Pam squeaked

Pam let out a strained moan then spoke directly at me 'what's happening, what's going on what are you doing? Okay I knew how I would do this the idea hit me and I held back a smirk

'Im so sorry for your loss' I spoke with false sympathy

'What?' Pam shrilled out

'Your baby's dead' I told her, Eric kissed the top of her hair, as the confusion and grief hit her all at once, I guessed that Eric felt the same thing

'What do you mean? I was having one baby there wasn't two?' she rambled in confusion

'It's a terrible loss' I spat out she let out a cry of disbelief and broke down sobbing, 'we have to get it out' I stated no

'No I wanna be a sleep I wanna be asleep' she broke down shaking her head and staring towards Eric

'it's too late' I told her looking down and between the legs the baby was almost half way out

'no!' she wailed then screamed out again, 'no what are you doing, what are you doing!- she screamed

'You might feel some tugging' I explained generally starting to feel bad for her Jessica shushed the other baby then left the room bill following behind her

'No…Eric!' she cried gripping his shirt,

'Im right here Pam' he stated his voice horse and choked she cried in Pain again shifting position, then she full out screamed in a mixture of agony and grief as the baby made it's way out

'Oh my god' she cried weakly the baby slipped free into my waiting hands,

'It's a boy' I declared

'I wanna see him' Pam cried,

'Pam…no' Eric stated stroking her hair

'I wanna see my baby…Please Eric' she begged shaking her head I cut the babies umbilical cord and then slipped out the doorway with him his eye's opened revealing twin aqua eyes, Pam's crying became unbearable and that's when I knew I had to make them forget...

reality...

I opened my eyes as the memory washed over me and pulled up towards fangtasia, Pam was stood outside refusing to go inside I could hear their faint conversation from the car

'The boy' Pam stated

'I saw a boy in my dream Eric I knew him his connected to me somehow and he needs my help they both do, you have to believe me' she rambled sounding half mad 'I do believe you Pamela I do just come inside' He ordered, I sat there observing for around ten minutes until they both disappeared inside, an hour and a half later Pam re-appeared outside dressed in a black she wore latex dress that fit her figure perfectly and heels, somethings never changed her memory may have been lost but her dress sense certainly wasn't. Taking a deep breath I exited the car, stalking towards her with the baby in my arms, her blue eyes fixed on me in confusion

'Pam?' I uttered out shakily 'you probably don't remember me but… my name is Sookie and you were right I do have something of yours'

She eyed me coldly when I stepped closer to her then they fixed on the bundle I held in my arms, 'you're not gonna understand why I did this hell I don't even understand why I did It but… but pam you have to understand,-m

'I know perfectly well who you are...Sookie now Get to the point' she spat sounding more like herself

'Pam meet your son' I rushed out