Don't care if you hate this chapter. Not being rude, it's just I don't like it either. I had to lie this down to rest. Sorry about it though.

After Raw Kevin and I slink off to the hotel. I completly forget I supposed to meet up with the girls after the show. It is one of the least important things in my mind right now. When we get into Kevin's room I ask him. "What was it like going through your quad injury, anyway?", plopping down on the bed. Kevin doesn't answer, but begins kissing me. I love the very way his lips touch mine and the way he hold me. He lays me down at the head of the bed. When his hand touches the bare skin of my stomach, underneath my shirt, I let out a mourningful cry in rememberance of what I have long now tried to bury deep.

"Heahter, I know you've been hurt and I'm sorry, but I'm not hurting you...anymore." He continues with his sweet torture, but somehow I can't help but think of the last man. the trespasser, who touched my body with his filthy, discusting hands. I look up at Kevin, who is so handson, gentle and sweet. I wish I could wash it all away, erase it from my memory, but the imprint is always there.

"Can't you help me make it go away!?" I almost shout at him.

Kevin is able to console me, like he always is. "Honey, there is nothing to fear. I'm right beside you. For all my life I am yours."

"Make love to me darling." Tears form again in my eyes. Kevin touches my face, wiping away another fallen tear.

"Please don't cry anymore baby."

I run my hand through Kevin's georgous hair, removing it from the ponytail. I give Kevin a smile. He smiles back and kisses me. My heart is pounding in my head, but I talk a deep breath and tell myself I'm ok. Kevin gently kisses my neck, making me feel more at ease. Afterwards, he lays down beside me. All of a sudden, I jump from start as a loud Disturbed song begins to play. I jump up and pull my IPhone out of my pants. I freeze. "Shit! It's my mom! Better mommy than daddy." I tap the screen to except the call."Hey mom."

"Heather where are you? You missed school today."

"Well mom I ran into an old friend."

"Who?"

"Umm...uhh it's that...uhh...that Evan!"

"Evan?"

I'm giving her the run around now. "You remember Evan. You know the son of that friend of Uncle Tommy's."

"Oh yes. I thought you hated that kid."

"Well, it turns out we have a lot in common. Bye mom." I try to cut her off.

"Heather! When are you coming home?"

"Tomorrow. I'll be home tomorrow!"

"I should really ground you for just running off like that."

"Mom!" you whine.

"Ok. This is your one get out of jail free, but I want you home tomorrow and in school in Wedensday!"

"Ok mom! Love ya. Bye!" I hang up and laugh.

"What?" Kevin asks.

"Mom is so funny." I fall on the bed "She said 'I should ground you for just running off like that!' Like it's such a hassel to have to discipline me."

"You are a wild one. I'm sure she was worried about you."

"Mom was pretty sad when I got taken away."

"I'm really sorry about that again."

I shake my head. "It wasn't anything you could of helped." Hour after hour creeps by as I lie beside Kevin, talking and everything inbetween. Come 3 am I am fighting to stay awake. I don't want to miss a moment of this , yet, at the same time Kevin's embrace is a dream land.

"You're tired."

"I'm not. I don't want to wake up from this dream."

Kevin laughs a me. "Look at you. You can't keep your eyes open."

"No. I can't sleep.I need to tell-" I almost slip off, "To tell you goodnight."

Kevin kisses me. "Goodnight babe." I finally let myself rest. I wake up at about 11am, to my phone vibrating off. I grab it off the stand beside the bed. Reves.

I answer it. "Hey."

"Hey, where were you last night? Where are you now?"

"One guess."

"OHH, but you ditched us last night."

"Sorry. But we have to go back today. Mom called last night and said she wanted me in school tomorrow."

"This blows!"

"Tell me about it. We should probably be getting ready to head out."

Reves' spirits are down."Ok."

I hang up and look over a Kevin, still asleep. I head in the bathroom and jump in shower the real quick. I emerge from the shower, soaking wet. I look deep in the mirror at myself. 'Can I really do it all on my own? I ask myelf. I watch the tears run down your face. 'Or better yet, how ca I go and just leave it all behind?' I wipe the tears from my cheek. I come out of the bathroom, wearing a white robe that the hotel provides for guests. Kevin is awake now. I sit down in front of him on the bed. "My flight leaves a 12:30" I say in a bland voice. I look down, messing with the ties on the robe. I look back up at him with a smile, but tears streaming down my face.

Kevin takes hold of me. "You'll be ok Heather." He kisses me long and deep. I wish I could stay there forever, but I have to get going, or I will miss my flight. I stop off at my room to get the rest of my stuff. I stand outside the hotel with Kevin, waitng for the taxi I had to call. (and Reves) The sun is shining and it's really hot. "Are you sure you don't want me to drive you?"

I shake your head. "We should say goodbye here. The longer I look at you the more my heart will break." I feel raindrops on my skin, but look up at the nearly cloudless sky.

"If you're looking for something to do", he pulls a folded piece of paper from his back pocket and hands it to me,"why don't you work on making a hit out of that?" I know it is my old song. I put it in my pocket and look away, as I sniff and my eyes are attacked by tears. I throw my arms around him.

"I love you! Please! I don't want to be so far away!"

Kevin hold me close "Babe, I love you too, but this is how it is. Heather you're beautiful, you're talented, you're intelligent. You can do anything you want."

"No I can't. I want to be with you!"

"You are with me. Everday. For the past year."

"Ok, we're ready to go. Not!" I hear a voice say and look over to see Reves, standing there with her sunglasses on and her right hand on her hip. Just then the taxi pulls up. I look at it like it couldn't be possible. I throw my things in the trunk. Reves shakes Kevin's hand with a smile, then gets in the vehicle. Kevin looks at me with a sadness that painfully surpasses anything I've ever seen in his eyes.

Out of nowhere, rain begins to pour, dispite the sun still shining down. "Goodbye." I whisper in a faint voice, looking up at him.

"Not goodbye." he says softly as his hand meets my face with his gental touch.

"Hey lady! I ain't got all day!" the drive yells from the cab.

"Until we meet again..." and Kevin meets me with the most passionate, romantic kiss the two of us have ever shared. It is the most bittersweet thing I've ever had touch upon my tongue. I start walking towards the taxi, holding Kevin's hand intil it slips through mine fingers, my hand falling at my side. I open the door and turn around. I swallow hard, then force a smile for Kevin and wave. He flashes one of those cute smiles and waves back. I get in and the driver takes off. I look back at Kevin through the rear window until he is out of sight. I turn around in my seat. The whole ride I stare silently our the window, as tears fall silently down my face.

Our flight is late. As I sit in the terminal, my attention is cought by a young couple. Older than me, but still young. Maybe 18 or 19. "Paris is so far away!" the girls say.

"I know Amanda, but this is your dream. Besides it's only for a year."

"Two is I get picked for the master course."

"I know you will. Your work is amazing." I watch the tears well up in her eyes and I feel her pain.

"That just means the longer I'll be away. It's to long."

"I don't care if it's two years or twenty. I just want you to come back to me." Hearing that reminds me of some of the things Kevin told me. I feel alivitated that I am not the only one. I don't even know this girl, but we sharing the same pain. 'You'll be ok.' I tell her inside my head. 'I'm going to be ok.' Despite my mourning, I smile to myself, because I love somebody.

I hear the loud speaker calling my flight. "Calling all passengers for Flight 63 to Houston, Texas."

Aboard the plane I breathe a huge sigh of relief. I can't explain it. I miss Kevin. My whole heart aches, but I somehow have this strong sense of clarity, like no matter what happens, I'll be fine. After take off Reves turns to me and asks,"Now waht are we gonna do?"

I put my hand atop hers and smile. "My dear, whatever are the deepest desires of our hearts. I'll tell you one thing. I'm not going back to that damn school!"

Ok this is probably the gayest ending ever. I am putting up the first chapter to the sequel right now if you are interested.