Hey guys! Sorry for such a long break but I've been really caught up in the real world lately and trying to do everything possible to finish school by this December. I also lost touch with my muse and I admit, I kinda lost my passion for Gossip Girl. The last episode of the season kinda made me remember why I loved it in the first place, but for some reason I am not really looking forward to season 3. Too much staged drama and utterly unnecessary garbage, but that's just me. So I am going to try to finish the two stories I have abandoned, Hidden Moments and The Virtue of Sin. Once I'm done with that, I'll be writing AU stories that may or may not follow the series, depending on if and when I get to watch episodes of Season 3 come September. Either way, I'm also going to be writing for CSI: NY, so any of you guys who love that show can check me out when I start writing stories for that show :-) Anyway guys, sorry if my "swag" isn't totally there at the moment, but it has been a long time and so I'm a bit rusty! OK, on with the show!!

Chuck in Real Life

"What took you so long?" Blair whispered as she stared up at Chuck who stood above her, feasting on her body with his eyes. She felt the tingle of anticipation already coursing through her veins and her heart jumped and palpitated a bit faster from that simple intimacy that glowed in his eyes.

Chuck stared down at her and felt the tingle of anticipation already coursing through his veins at the sight of Blair in all her wonderful beauty, sitting and waiting for him to take what was his. His heart jumped at the thought. She was his. And she was giving herself to him. His words came out on a hoarse breath when he was able to finally speak, "If you thought that was long, you have no idea what you're in for...."

He removed his jacket slowly, making sure to never break contact with her eyes. He could get lost in her eyes. Lost in the emotion and passion he saw lying just beneath the surface. He was the only one that could see that in her, maybe because he was the only one who could ever really bring out that sort of feeling from beneath her cold exterior. Closing the distance between them, he leaned forward and captured her lips with his, feeling his body come alive again. Finally.

They'd been dancing around this for a while now, both wanting and flirting, but never taking. He felt her lips open up willingly beneath the strokes of his tongue and he felt the familiar tightening in his groin. This woman... this beautiful creature would be the death of him.

Blair let herself fall back on the bed and sighed in anticipation. He was kissing her. His body was finally close to hers, his mouth was back where it belonged, and her heart swelled at the notion that soon they'd be making love once more. She kissed him with a fervor that scared her, all her pent up frustration and desire being unleashed by the tenderness in his touch and the weight of his body pressing so intimately close to her.

He broke away suddenly, pulling away long enough to murmur, "Say it."

"Say what? I'll say anything," her voice sounded foreign to her own ears. The desperation to have him close, his skin on hers, their bodies joining together once again, had her on edge and willing to agree to almost anything.

He pulled away and stared down at her once more. His eyes piercing into hers. "Say those three words you wanted me to say."

Blair felt her heart skip a beat and fought hard to maintain a look of incredulity on her face, instead of the sudden nervousness that had overtaken her. "Are you kidding?"

"Not quite," Chuck's eyes remained fixated on her, his features showing no indication of what was running through his mind. "Eight letters. Three syllables. Say them and I'm yours."

"But I'm already yours. You're ruining the mood with all this talk," Blair complained as she tried to pull him back down to taste the sweetness of his lips again. He held himself back and continued to look at her, the tension in the room shifting from one of desire to one of pain and rejection.

"You can't say it. You wanted it from me," Chuck stated simply, his heart and mind in a tailspin. Not really knowing why he suddenly needed to hear those words from her, but knowing that he needed to hear it just the same.

"I'm prepared to settle," Blair offered, trying to stop this conversation from steering into dangerous waters and return to what they were doing before he decided to ruin the moment.

"Maybe I'm not," Chuck prodded on, waiting to see if she would take the next step and put them both out of their misery.

"Chuck Bass, I- will never say those words to you."

His eyes cold and revealing nothing he pulled away, "then you will never have me."

Blair sat up quickly in bed, mouth open in a shock that was quickly mixing with anger at his rejection. "Is this because of Vanessa? It was a game chuck. That's it," Blair bit out bitterly as she watched him put on his jacket and set his clothes to rights.

"Maybe I wanna raise the stakes. You ready to play that game?" Chuck threw back at her, his patience growing thin. "I chased you for long enough. Now its time you chase me," he said simply, knowing full well that he couldn't continue on with this game with her. Something about tonight had changed everything. She thought it was because of Vanessa, and maybe she was right. Not for the reasons she may have had running through her head, but things had changed.

He walked away then. Walked away from the woman he had come to love but couldn't find it in his being to say it to. He needed to be reassured that she loved him too, that when he finally said those words to someone, he wouldn't be rejected and hurt. He'd spent his entire lifetime building those walls around his heart, he couldn't risk doing away with them so easily. So he walked out of her room, hearing her footsteps on the carpeted floor as he walked out, hearing her sigh reverberate through the walls of the hallway as she reached her bedroom door, and finally hearing the door slam shut with a resounding thud.

He may have just royally fucked up.

Then again, that's all he was good for.

His own father loved reminding him of that.

A/N: So have I totally lost my "swag"? LOL I hope i did ok with this chapter. I'll see when i can update The Virtue of Sin, but no promises as to how often I will be able to update. I'm taking summer courses that are killing me. Anyway, Reviews=Love guys. It's good to be back!