I paced the room for three hours, as they tried to get Alexandra's vitals stable. My breathing was starting to come quick and I was scared. I tried to think about things to take my mind off of things that I didn't need to think of at this time. Things that I shouldn't be thinking about. After god knows how long a man came out and looked at me. "Are you in immediate relation to Miss Alexandra Cade?" He asked me and I thought about saying I was her sister, but brushed the idea away.

"I'm her lawyer and by law I am allowed to see her." I said and straightened my posture. She looked at me and then at the door.

"She's not stabilized fully yet, but you can go in." The nurse said and I ran right in. Alexandra was lying on the bed. She was pail and sick. I walked over.

"Ms. Cade?" I asked. "Do you remember me?" She opened her eyes.

"Woods." She said. "Rachel?" she asked. "Rachel Woods?" I shook my head and sat down next to her.

"Nope, try againe." I said and smile. She closed her eyes.

"Is the R right?" I nodded. "I almost have it." She muttered. I bit my lip. "Do you want me to tell you?" I asked and she shook her head.

"Don't. I need something to keep track of time now that I'm here." She said and I laughed.

"I hate hospitals. They always make me want to throw up." I said and Alexandra smiled. She really wasn't evil. She wasn't evil, but I could not let Johnny stay with her, as bad as I felt.

"Have you ever been to a hospital?" She asked. I nodded.

"More than once." I recoiled. "I remember once when I was pretending to fly and I jumped off of the couch and I broke my arm." I said. "And I was running from David Langford when I was ten, as he always pulled my pigtails I tripped and broke my foot." I said laughing at the memory. "David always liked me. He felt so bad when I got brought the hospital he bought me a little thing of candy and a necklace made of Christmas lights." I said and Alexandra smiled a faint smile.

"Is it Roxanne?" She asked and I laughed out loud.

"I wish!" I exclaimed. "That's always been my favorite name. People could call me Roxie then. My name is much less snappy. It's-"

"Don't tell me."

"Ok." I said. It was starting to get a bit annoying and I just wanted to tell her so that I could talk.

"Is it Rose?" She asked and I laughed.

"Againe, I wish, but no. It's Robyn. Robyn Woods." She smiled weakly at me.

"That's a very pretty name." She said and I let out a nervous laugh and then silence. I wasn't sure what to say. I just needed to make sure that she would be ok, but a part of me wanted to scream at her and ask why she let that happen to little Johnny. I settled on something in between.

"Your son is here too." She looked up at me and for once I saw a resemblance between her and her son. They were both scared and alone. I sighed. "He needed to go into ICU."

"Is he ok now?" She asked and I nodded.

"He'll be fine, Ms. Cade, but I'll be honest with you for a minute." I said and she looked down. "It's your fault he's here and I can't let you continue this. As horrible as your husband's treatment of you makes me feel, I need to get Johnny out." I said and she started to cry. "I feel horrible, Ms. Cade, truly I do, but it needs to be done. This can't go on." I said and she looked up.

"You can't take my baby away." She begged.

"I 'm so sorry." I said and she cried a little harder. "I really am. I just think that this is what's best for us all and I can assure you visits and-"

"No, please." She cried and took my hand. "I'm begging you. I am trying to turn it around. I really am." She said.

"And when you do you can have custody." I assured her and she squeezed my hand.

"Robyn, you can't do this."

"Ms. Cade-"

"Have a heart, please, this is my child. Not you're!"

"DOCTORS!" She screamed and I got up. They came running in. "Make her leave! She's trying to take my baby!" I was grabbed by one and escorted out.

"What do you think you're doing, greaser?" He hissed. Oh my god, the doctors were in on it two? It wasn't just the courts?

"My job!" I snapped back.

"Yah, well, make mine easier and get out of here." He quipped and practically pushed me into the waiting room. Someone grabbed my wrist and sat me into a chair. Dawn. I was getting worked up and fast. Sure I felt bad, but what did Alexandra want? Custody? Because I can assure you now that that wasn't going to happen.

"Calm down, Robyn." Dawn said and I could feel myself slipping into panic mode. She grabbed my hand and started to stroke it. "It's ok. Calm down." She said and I nodded, pulling myself together. Dallas walked over.

"What happened?" He asked Dawn. "Is she ok?" I nodded. I had no idea why I was so worked up, probably because I knew that Alexandra didn't have a future and that I had forsaken her. Another part of me hated her. It was confusing. Part of me saw myself in her. I knew the familiar feeling of blood trickling down your wrists and I knew the taste of blood mixed with vomit. Though I can't say I know what it's like to be beat senseless, I have come pretty close to it with the socials. Dallas slapped me. "Stop it and shut your trap, you god damn whore. Why the hell do you care what happens to her?" He asked me. I stood up.

"Because that could have been me!" I yelled gesturing franticly to the room. "It could have been me in that bed! If I hadn't left Tulsa it probably would have been me!" I hollered.

"Well, it's not so calm down and shut your mouth!" Dallas snapped and grabbed my wrist. "We are so going for a drive. You can calm down and-" I shook my head.

"No, Dallas. I'm not going anywhere until I make sure that she and Johnny are ok!"

"She doesn't want your help, Robyn! She wants you to get the hell out of here and leave her alone! You're trying to take her kid away! You can't sit down with her afterword's and have tea and cake!" He screamed at me, grabbing my shoulders.

"Do you suggest that Johnny stay with them?" I hissed.

"I suggest that you screw off, mind your own freaking business, and go back to Boston where you cam from!"

"Dally!" Dawn said, shocked. "You don't mean that!"

"I damn do! She's so emotional! She has a mental freaking breakdown every day! And don't get me started on how god damn sweet she is! To sweet, in a matter of fact! She's all sugar and rainbows to everyone she meets no matter how much they deserve to get yelled at!" He snapped.

"Was I sugar and rainbows to Judge Terry or Mr. Wayne! Was I sugar and rainbows to you and Michal! Or what about Jared and David!" I yelled. He rolled his eyes and laughed a cruel laugh. Now I saw the Dallas that got jailed. Not the Dallas that stopped me from drinking or the one that loved Johnny like a brother. The Dallas that got jailed at ten. I stepped back and walked out, back into Johnny's room. Johnny was lying in bed and reading a book. He had a confused look on his face and when I entered he put it down.

"I hate reading, Miss Woods." He said and I smiled.

"I hate math." I countered and he shrugged.

"S'ok. I just don't like school." He commented and I sighed.

"What you reading, sweetheart?" I asked and he showed me the cover. Gone with The Wind. Well, that was a joke. "That's a good book." I said and he shrugged.

"You really do remind me of Miss Scarlet." He said and I sat down.

"Can I stay with you here the night?" I asked and he nodded.

"Dallas really does like you though." He said and I yawned and stretched out on the chair that Dallas had set out as a bed.

"Whatever you say, Johnny." I yawned and he suddenly got quiet.

"Miss Robyn?" He asked. I sighed and sat up againe. "Is my mom here?" He asked and I nodded. "Is she going to be ok?" He asked and I nodded againe. I smiled a sad smile at him and he sighed. I lay back down. I couldn't go back to Buck's tonight. Dallas was on my nerves and Johnny needed me. It was frustrating. I'm not going to lie. It was like I was seeing all the signs for where I wanted to go and I was following them but I wasn't getting anywhere. Dallas walked into the room. I got up.

"You can stay." He said in a deadpan tone, but I didn't. I got up and shook my head. Dallas and I had a weird relationship. One moment we could be screaming at each other and the next we could be kissing or just talking. "You know something, Ginger?" He said and I looked at him. "You can't save everyone. People are jerks and you can't save people that don't wanna' be saved." He said and I nodded.

"I guess you're right." I told him and he turned back to Johnny, who was sleeping. I walked out of the room thinking about Tim Sheppard and Dallas. They didn't want to be saved. As much as I tried to convince myself otherwise, I could never save Dallas Winston. He was another sign. Leading me somewhere that I'd never get to and when I tried to help him he shunned my help. I wasn't sure what love was, but I was sure that I could never find it in Dallas.