AN: Yay another chapter~. I've fallen back in love with this story after I worked out all my issues with it. So most previous chapters have been edited for typos and such and re-uploaded. Chapter nine was the biggest mess up but I fix it...thank god. I almost quit this story cause of that... Anyway...lesson learned. Always have a back up of your story on a jump drive or something.
Also...To be clear... Allen doesn't blame Cross for what happened to him. Cross didn't force Allen to pay the debt. Tyki did. Tyki would have found one way or another to get Allen under control. Even if Cross didn't have the debt. Yes Allen one time said he blamed Cross but really he was only saying that to hurt Cross because he was mad that Cross didn't let him die. He didn't mean it.
Standing in the kitchen Allen was making some tea and getting a glass of wine ready for Cross. Allen usually didn't drink chamomile tea but it was Kanda's favorite and he was missing Kanda even though it had only been like two days since Kanda had went back to work. Once the tea was ready Allen headed to the living room with the drinks setting them on the coffee table. Cross was sitting on the couch looking around, he hadn't really been in the house yet so he didn't know what it looked like on the inside. When he had the piano delivered he was standing in the entryway telling the guys to just put it in the living room. Which worked for Allen luckily. There wasn't really anywhere else to put it.
"So kid...Why did you call me over?" Cross asked after taking a sip of his wine. He hadn't really expected a spam of text messages from Allen yesterday demanding that Cross come over. Well some texts were demanding and some were sweet and pleading...A clear display of Allen's bipolar ways. But from what Cross knew Allen was actually doing a lot better about all of that. Apparently he had changed his medication and added some as well and it seemed to be working as far as Cross could tell. It seemed the biggest change had been Allen's anti-anxiety medication. If he wasn't nervous and anxious there was no need for his bipolar tendencies or for Nea.
"Well... I have a favor to ask of you... You're the closest person I have to family or to a father figure... So...would you mind being the one to walk me down the aisle and give me away at my wedding...?" Allen asked staring down at his tea he held in his hand a blush forming on his cheeks. He was really happy to be getting married to Kanda and really happy that he and Cross were getting along again so he could have Cross there.
"Wow...He moves fast... He only just asked me the other day..." Cross commented setting his glass of wine down looking to Allen.
"Yeah...I know. He told me when he proposed to me... He said he had planned to wait but I said some embarrassing things in front of his family about how much I loved him and he walked off...I thought I had said something wrong...But then he came back from his room and proposed to me. And then I fainted..." Allen confessed blushing more as he did.
"I am not at all surprised you fainted." Cross replied with a chuckle not helping Allen out at all.
"Yeah yeah. Anyway...will you answer my question?" Allen said setting his tea down before he could drop it out of embarrassment. Once Cross stopped laughing he looked to Allen in all seriousness.
"Of course I will kid. I would love to. Thank you for asking." Cross said with a hint of a smile. Allen smiled a little shaking his head some.
"Thank you Cross. It really means a lot that you will do that." Allen said truly grateful that Cross agreed to walk him down the aisle. He didn't really have any reason to doubt Cross saying yes but it had still made him nervous. With that part done there wasn't really anything else that worried Allen about the wedding...Other than what he would wear... If he really did wear a dress then...It would have to be long sleeved or something... Allen groaned as he thought about that. The stupid scars would ruin his wedding. Not the ones that Tyki had given him but the ones he had given himself. The scars he hated the most were the ones on his wrists from a few months ago. Maybe he would just wear a suit like Kanda. It would hide all the scars. Or wait... He could wear white gloves with the dress... Allen let out a soft sigh of relief when the anxiety stopped bubbling up in his stomach over the dress. Cross sat watching Allen go from happy to stressed out then to... okay?
"Everything okay kid?" Cross asked once Allen seemed to be okay again. He had no idea what was going in Allen's head most of the time and he wasn't too sure he wanted to know sometimes.
"Yeah. I'm good. Trying to figure out what to wear to the wedding. But I got it worked out now..." Allen answered with a smile. Cross made a puzzled expression but didn't question it. The talked for a while before Cross had to leave to get back to work. Allen cleaned up the glasses they had used before he got a text message from Kanda. Kanda told Allen that they were having a Skype date later tonight and that Allen needed to be prepared. Allen had no idea what Kanda meant by him needing to be prepared, he figured Kanda just meant that he needed to be signed in and ready to accept the call from Kanda.
Later that night Allen was sitting on his bed with his laptop on and logged in to Skype. He was drying his hair with a towel since he had just gotten out of the shower, he was wearing a tank top and a pair of shorts for pajamas. When his computer started ringing Allen jumped a little before accepting the call. A huge smile grew on his lips when Kanda appeared on his screen.
It was clear Kanda was back in his hotel sitting on his bed as well. Allen still had his towel sitting on his head which made it obvious to Kanda that Allen had just showered.
"Hey Moyashi. All squeaky clean now~?" Kanda asked smirking a little. Allen blushed pulling the towel off of his head tossing it off to the side.
"Sorry... Anyway...How are you?" Allen asked still smiling happy to see Kanda. Yes he had only been gone a short while but it sucked to have to be separated so shortly after getting engaged.
"Busy...Anyway. I have a question. Do you remember when I offered to give you a show if you gave me one?" Kanda asked with a smirk. It took Allen a second to recall what Kanda was referring to but Kanda knew when Allen knew because his face turned bright red.
"Y-Yeah... I remember... Is that...why you called?" Allen asked still blushing. It was highly embarrassing what Kanda was asking for but it made him kind of happy that Kanda liked him that much. He was worried Kanda might one day cheat on him but at the same time re really kind of doubted it given how true to his morals Kanda was.
"Is that okay? Its been really stressful and I figured a nice call with you with some fun could be good for us. Plus its kind of kinky~." Kanda replied his smirk ever present till it faltered a little. "Unless...you don't want to...It's fine either way to be truthful. Don't feel pressured...you can say no." Kanda added on not wanting Allen to feel like he had no say in the matter. Allen always had a say and Kanda wanted him to know that. Which Allen did know that. After their months of dating Allen was well aware he could say no.
"No...It's okay... We can...You...would do it too?" Allen asked still blushing as he looked to Kanda out of the corner of his eye trying to hide his apparent blush.
"Of course I would. That's what I said." Kanda replied with a smile to reassure Allen. There was no way Kanda would make Allen do something like that alone.
"Okay...I uh...It's been a long time since I've done this..." Allen said as he shifted in the bed reaching over to his nightstand where he still kept the lotion.
"How long is a long time?" Kanda asked as he watched Allen move around.
"Um... over six years..." Allen admitted as he sat normal in front of the computer again. Kanda's jaw actually dropped a little at that answer. "W-what about you...?" Allen asked blushing even more.
"About a month ago when I was stuck here last time..." Kanda answered leaning back against the headboard a little.
"O-oh... So that's why you jumped me as soon as you got back...?" Allen asked still blushing quite a bit.
"Because I missed you... I missed being able to be close to you." Kanda replied giving Allen a serious look. Allen's eyes cast down feeling a little bad for some reason.
"Okay. So...I just...do as I used to?" Allen asked looking to Kanda again in a much more shy manner.
"Pretty much...Allen." Kanda's use of Allen's real name made Allen look directly at Kanda a little confused. "Tell me truthfully... are you actually comfortable with this?"
"Yu...I'm fine... If I wasn't...I would tell you. It's just...A little embarrassing...because... I like you so much..." Allen admitted looking Kanda straight in the eye. He knew that Kanda was worried about him. But if it was with Kanda it was fine. Allen was completely comfortable with him.
"Okay..." Kanda replied sitting up straight again before pulling off his shirt. Allen sat watching Kanda undressed before he snapped out of his little daze and started to undress as well. Just as Allen was about to remove his shorts his phone went off making him sort of squeak in embarrassment.
"Moyashi...You didn't silence your phone?" Kanda asked as Allen leaned over to see who was calling him. It was Lavi. Allen sighed texting Lavi telling him he was busy before he shut his phone off.
"Sorry..." Allen said before they continued where they had left off. Once both were naked Kanda sat cross legged as Allen sat with his knees sort of bent and for now closed.
"Dear Moyashi I can't see anything if you sit like that..." Kanda commented causing Allen to blush more as he slowly opened his knees some for Kanda to see. "Ah so my Moyashi is enjoying this little idea~." Kanda said with a smirk seeing that Allen was already half hard. Allen quickly covered his member with his hands looking away embarrassed.
"Its your fault..." Allen mumbled still looking away highly embarrassed that he was so obviously turned on by what they were doing.
"It's nothing bad that you like it Moyashi. See?" Kanda said making Allen look at him. It was obvious that Kanda was enjoying it just as much even though they hadn't even actually started anything yet. Seeing Kanda in the same state did calm Allen down a little bit though he was still very nervous about this. He had never ever done such a thing in front of anyone, except Cross but he hadn't known that at the time. "Moyashi look at me." Kanda said softly earning Allen's attention. Allen blushed as he sat watching Kanda's hand which was stroking his already hard member. Yes Allen had seen Kanda's member but watching him pleasure himself somehow felt more intimate.
"See? Just like this? It's fine Moyashi." Kanda said to encourage Allen. Nodding a little Allen spread his legs again before he started to slowly mimic Kanda's hand movements. Soft moans escaped Allen as he stroked his member occasionally stopping to tease the tip a little. "So you like your tip being teased~?" Kanda asked with a smirk as he watched Allen pleasure himself.
"Y-Yu please don't comment..." Allen protested blushing bright red at Kanda's observations. This was embarrassing enough without Kanda's comments on how he pleasured himself.
"Do you have any toys Moyashi?" Kanda asked causing Allen to pause in his work to stare wide eyed at Kanda.
"W-What!? N-No...!" Allen protested rather flustered now. Just what exactly did Kanda plan on having Allen do over video chat!?
"Aw that's a little disappointing... I'll keep that in mind~." Kanda's smirk grew making Allen let out a sort of eep sound. This did not bode well for Allen. How perverted was Kanda exactly?!
"Can I get back to what I was doing now...?" Allen asked his legs slightly closed out of embarrassment.
"Yes yes Moyashi." Kanda chuckled softly as he himself resumed what he was doing. Allen puffed out his cheeks a little before he too continued what he was doing before this strange conversation.
When they were done pleasuring themselves in front of each other Allen was laying on his side half asleep staring at the screen. Kanda was still sitting up smiling softly at Allen. It was kinda cute how quick Allen was to get tired after doing anything intimate. Maybe with the fact that Allen never really did anything but write left Allen with little stamina... That gave Kanda an idea that would have to wait until he was back with Allen in town.
"Get some sleep Moyashi..." Kanda said softly with a very light smile on his lips.
"You too Yu... sleep well." Allen whispered smiling at Kanda. "I love you."
"I love you too. I'll see you soon." Kanda replied before he hung up on Allen. Sighing Allen closed his laptop before setting it off to the side. Once his bed was cleared Allen curled up under the covers falling fast asleep.