Stefan sat there in the dark of Bonnie's room. He hadn't actually left. He just left Elena there, and eventually she'd left. When he watched her go in tears no less. He felt guilt for not being able to return the feeling that she felt for him. He couldn't though. He didn't feel that way for her. He hadn't felt that way in a long while; he just hadn't completely realized it till she kissed him. She'd kissed him, and he felt nothing.
She had a small gas fireplace, it must've been installed during the weeks that she was moving in. it looked like it hadn't even been used. It just sat there. Slowly, he walked over and turned it on. He moved back to where he sat previously on the edge of the bed. His thoughts were blank as to what he'd tell Bonnie.
As if on cue to come in, he could hear talking. There was a female voice, Justin was ecstatic. Bonnie was home.
"So what was this whole journey of discovery about that it took you nearly two weeks?" Justin inquired
"I was having problems still, and she helped me get through them. I didn't think it'd be possible, but I'm…okay." Bonnie replied
She was okay. Stefan breathed a sigh of relief. He didn't move from his spot though. He just listened to their conversation, and the elevator coming up and Meredith walking in to join the meal. The two had actually hugged or rather Meredith hugged her, and she just hugged back slowly. He didn't move an inch. What would he say if he did go out and see her? Would hugging her be the same? Kissing her?
So he just sat there waiting for her. She talked more and told them about it all. She had only figured that she was out for a few hours. She asked about him, but neither of the two had an answer for her. They didn't know what to say. Bonnie only shrugged it off.
When she did retreat to her room to relax she paused slightly then smiled his way.
"Hiding?" she asked as she made her way over to him, then hugged him
She felt a little reluctance in the hug and looked back up at him questioningly. He just scratched his forehead and took a step back in the semi dark room. Bonnie could tell that there was something bothering him all too well.
"Something must be on your mind. Speak." She said
Stefan looked at her with regret.
"Elena-"
"I did not have a pleasant conversation with her, and I'm sorry if you worried. I just wanted to get some space to breathe and I just couldn't do that hanging around here." She said
"She kissed me." He blurted
Bonnie looked at him blankly for a few seconds. The seconds felt like hours to him. He wanted her to speak, to yell, to something.
"Okay…and?" she asked a little squeaky
He just shook his head no.
"I couldn't…your face was the only thing going through my mind. I was walking out the door to go look for you again. No one knew where you were, not even me."
"That's probably because Anica blocked out any chance for someone to disturb me." Bonnie said half thinking about it
"Anica?" he asked
"My boss." She informed him
"Oh, right." He said quietly
The space between them felt as if it were getting wider all of the sudden to him. He looked at her, and she looked as if she were just looking around the room. Then she just took a few steps toward him an closed the space between them.
"It's fine." She said shrugging "After what Elena had said to me I shouldn't be as surprised as I feel."
"Say? What did she say?" he asked
"She only said that she was going to get you back and that I stole you…if it happened…"
"It won't." he reassured her
"I would've stepped back like the little girl I am." She finished "I don't want to have to fight for something. I didn't know I was supposed to. I'm going to lose."
Stefan took her face in both hands and had her now looking directly at him.
"You're not fighting okay? You don't even have to." he said
She nodded lightly and pulled away.
"I'm tired." She said quietly and made her way over towards the bed
Stefan could feel her pulling away, but as she sat down on the bed ready to get under the covers she looked back at him.
"You don't have to sleep in the graveyard if you don't want." She said
She laid down. He heard her sigh deeply and moved to lie next to her. He laid on top of the covers. Bonnie reached back pulled his arm over her and held it close. He let out a deep breath and held her tight. She turned over and buried her face into his chest.
"Bonnie, I'm not going anywhere. She was the one that left." He said
She only nodded. Stefan lifted her chin so that he could see her face.
"Talk to me." He said quietly
"I saw him…he let me let go…" she said
Stefan's eyes closed, and he kissed her forehead. That's why she'd seemed not so focused when he'd told her. She'd been thinking about that. He only smiled at her and she returned one. He brushed her hair from her eyes like he'd done a few times before then lightly kissed her. That's when he felt it. He knew that she had to have felt it too, because the kiss grew more intense. His hand lingered at the back of her neck and moved down to hold her closer.
Bonnie had that feeling again, and she was glad that there was something separating them. Even more, she couldn't figure out why she wasn't angry with him. He kissed Elena or rather the other way around. That meant something right? She ignored the questions gnawing at her mind as his tongue traced her bottom lip seeking something more. Bonnie's eyes closed as she felt his tongue moving against her own. Was it bad that she thought he tasted good? She couldn't complain and any thoughts she had were long gone and replaced with him. He pulled away after a while, his forehead against hers.
"We don't have to move so fast." He breathed
"Like you did?" she said
He chuckled lightly and kissed her again. The spot in Bonnie's stomach that was driving her to want to do things made her dizzy. Stefan pulled away again and looked around.
"Uh, Bonnie?"
She looked around and noticed that they weren't exactly on the bed anymore, but somewhere else. The room was more elegant, and she gasped. They floated about one foot off the bed, and they quickly dropped causing them both to yell. The image around them faded, and her room came back. Bonnie sat up and did a double take of the room.
"What just happened?" he asked
"I think I forgot to tell you that I have my power back."
"Yeah, you forgot." He said
"Oh…sorry…I haven't exactly used it." she said "I didn't mean to do all that."
Stefan grabbed her around the waist and pulled her back over towards him making her squeal.
"Not fair Salvatore!"
"Oh, so now you yell at me." He said
She continued laughing as she felt him kiss her neck. He made it too difficult to be mad anyways.
