HEELO ALL! Not been feeling this much lately so possibly only 1 chapter after this so enjoy!

I woke slowly my eyes hazy to the sound of beeping, talking, machines, trolleys being wheeled around, I slowly moved aching all over feeling cold, a mask on my face, soft sheets wrapped around my body. I looked around at the wooden panelled room, frowning, my neck aching, no-one there, where was all that noise coming from? My feet were bandaged up, I had a drip in my arm, various body parts were wrapped up. I dozed off again.

I was back in the woods, Edward with my Aunt and Uncle, I woke up shouting and trying to get away, there were things holding me down, my eyes were open but I couldn't see, I felt paralysed, I cried out for help I could hear noise but I couldn't make anything out.

'Lil, Lily' I heard Paul call out to me through it all I stopped looking for where his voice had come from.

'Paul?' I called out my voice broke I felt his warmth come close to me I reached out for him I felt his hands come on my arms.

'Relax, it's okay' he said soothingly in my ear, I just held on to him as he tried to lay me down, I lay there, his warmth right next to me as he whispered to me, tears streaming down my face, I dozed off to someone barging in and a sharp needle in my arm.

The next time my eyes opened, Paul was slumped in the chair next to me, he looked exhausted, I took it all in my surroundings, my body.

Mr. Cullen walked in smiling at me

'Nice to see you awake' he said and walked over to me checking monitors and my pulse then my eyes.

'Where am I?' my voice weak

'You're in my hospital' he said shortly, things were still confusing me

'What bout the others?' I asked looking around frantically, i needed to know if we were safe, Luke everything, the monitor started beeping faster and fast making my panic.

'Don't worry everyone is fine, you need to focus on getting better,' he said rolling a trolly of different foods towards me, I thanked him and nibbled at different things, a nurse came in, she looked at Paul, I hated how much attention he got but he never encouraged it, she helped me up and took me to the bathroom, slowly, my legs were unsteady, I climbed back in to bed and ate some more. I lay back, I reached my hand out for Paul.

2 weeks later.

I was feeling better, stronger, Paul had been by my side the whole time, Sue had been every day. I could now have visitors, everyone came to see me, sitting with me, chatting, letting Paul go back to look after himself. Sam made sure Paul washed and ate something everyday, I thanked Sam and the guys for everyone they had done, no-one asked too may questions about what had happened, I had told Paul some bits but not all of it, I didn't want to relive it if I didn't have to.

I was dressed and just come back from some final tests to see if I was nearly ready to go home, I was dreading the bill, how much all of this would cost, I had the money from Mom but that was for my life, though I guess this was it. I kissed Paul as he settled down in the chair for a nap, I sat on his lap, playing with his hair, we had never been so close, all of the pain and worry from my shoulders, chest, my pain even Dr. Cullen could tell it was gone, I felt like the old me it was brilliant, Sue as well as everyone could see the difference in me. I kissed Paul and climbed off of his lap. There was a knock at the door, Paul growled and woke up I looked it was Luke standing in the door way, I just looked at him, my eyes filled with tears.

'Hey, I heard you were on the mend' he said peering in

'Luke' I called out and went over to him throwing my arms around his neck, he laughed and wrapped his arms around me.

'How are you Luke?' I asked letting him go and looking at him, Luke and Paul nodded to one another

'I'm good, me and the Wife' he smiled

'Oh congratulations' I gushed

'Thanks, anyway it has just been crazy setting the story straight and knowing how much to say, adjusting to normal life and spending time with my kid it is brilliant, because of you' he said passing me some flowers

'Thank you, they are lovely, oh Luke it all sounds amazing, I'm so pleased' I smelt the flowers and showed them to Paul, he just nodded and gave me a small smile, keeping an eye on Luke, I know Paul had found Luke and thanked him and told Luke that I wanted to see him, we all sat around and chatted for nearly 2 hours before Luke had to leave, we exchanged numbers, I gave him another long hug and we thanked each other over and over. I went and sat back on Paul he wrapped his arms around me as we sat comfortably in silence.

'I love you' I said into Pauls neck

'I love you too' he said turning and kissing my forehead.

Paul drove us back in his truck to his house, I just sat next to him watching the trees, we went down the driveway, he cimbed out and took my bags for me and opened my door. i had missed everything so much, the smell of the truck, the trees, the sight of Pauls house, i still had some healing to do but i felt 100% better. Sam had told me how with out me Paul had nearly given up, how he had been out everyday all night looking for me.

'Thank you' I touched his arm as we walked to the front door he unlocked the front door, when he opened it there was a loud noise

'Surprise' everyone called out it took my by surprise I jumped back into Paul and held on to him as he held me close to him. A 'Welcome home' banner hung across the back wall I looked around at everyone's smiling happy faces. Emily was there holding a large cake, she put it on the table, I looked up at Paul

'They all wanted to welcome you back, they insisted' he said placing my bags down, I gave him a kiss on the cheek and whispered

'You're the best' before moving over quickly to Emily, I wrapped my arms around her so tight as she did the same. I closed my eyes, I felt her sob, I pulled away keeping my arms around her.

'Hey' I said wiping her tears away I pulled her into a long hug again, then I saw Kim, and Beth, I moved over and hugged then both tightly. The music started, I moved around the room seeing everyone, I saw Seth standing in the corner, he held his arms open to me, I almost ran into him. He lifted me off of the ground as I laughed, he held me so gently

'I'm glad you're back' he said as I hugged him

'I''m glad to be back' I said squeezing him tightly Seth was the best brother a girl could have.

'Quill is in the kitchen' he told me

'Thanks' I kissed him on the cheek and moved through to the kitchen, Quill didn't look the same, he looked so distant away from the others, drinking a beer, he turned when he heard me

'Lily' he said smiling he didn't move over to me

'Quill, I've been worried about you I moved over to him and took his hand in mine

'No I was worried about you, I'm so so sorry, I'll never forgive myself for what happened to you' Quill said looking down as a tear rolled down his cheek,

'Hey, come on, it's okay' I went on tiptoes and wrapped my arms around him

'No you could be dead' he sobbed

'But I'm not, a new born could have killed me but you stopped them, Quill please it's breaking my heart seeing you like thins' I whispered to him, he just kept his head buried in my shoulder, I tried to calm him down but it wasn't working.

'I'm so sorry' he said over and over it made me so sad how he thought it was his fault, I closed my eyes tight as a tear rolled down my cheek.

'Quill I forgive you, please everything is fine' I told him looking up trying to blink away the tears, Paul moved into the kitchen behind Quill facing me, I just looked at Paul and swallowed as Quill sniffed a few times.

'Paul hates me everyone does' Quill said unaware of Paul being there

'I don't' Paul said his deep voice reaching Quill, he lifted his head, I wiped away his tears from his cheeks as Quill sniffed a few times

'You don't?' Quill asked turning around Paul shook his head

'No man, you're a brother, I'll never hate you' he said moving towards Quill, Paul put his large hand behind Quills head and pulled Quill close to his head so they were touching foreheads.

I left Paul and Quill talking to one another, I picked up some food and drink and looked around at everyone thinking how lucky I was to be here, then I spotted Bella and Jake it seemed they had just arrived, Bella was taking her hat off, Jake pushing her hair out of her face and taking her hat and coat off for her, She was her usual shy self, I let them settle in I stood talking to Kim and Beth as they filled me in with everything. I was starting to feel tired, I looked over Paul and Quill were still chatting they were both smiling. Kim went to see Jarad as Beth went to the bathroom, Bella and I locked eyes, she left Jakes side and came flying over to me as she swept me up in a hug taking me by surprise, I saw Jakes face of shock, I reached and put my plate on the table and I hugged her back, we went to the living room where it was quieter and started talking.

'So how are you feelng?' she asked me tucking her hair behind her ear

'Better, still strange I know Edward has gone, but I still can't un-see things, I don't feel the pain now,' I smiled looking at her

'Lily that is so good, I know since Edward has gone, everyone seems to be less on edge, even though Jake is still so protective, I feel like nothing can hurt me, I feel in control of me and my life' Bella said glancing over at Jake, who was laughing, I smiled at her

'I'm glad to hear it, you seem more confident, thank you for helping with the battle' I told her placing my hand on hers, I didn't hear anything

'Thank you, you helped wipe them out, I mean and Edward' she said placing her hand in top of mine, we sat chatting for a little longer I stifled a few yawns, it was quite over whelming after so much time resting, the house looked amazing, Sue told me they had been in sorting it out, the bedroom had been completely stripped and everything new, I went and mingled a bit more, before finding Paul, I kissed him as he wrapped his arms around me. A few hours later, people started to leave, Emily was packing away I walked over to her and gave her a tight hug thanking her for everything she had done for me

'Anything Lil, I'm just so glad you're back' she said as Sam came over and collected her. i said goodbye and thank you to everyone.

That night I was with Paul in our shower, close to one another, his large warm hand running over my body bubbles sliding down my body.

I leaned my head back, resting it on Pauls chest, he kissed my cheek I smiled and turned so I was facing him.

'You alright?' he asked me I just nodded. i stayed close to him s he ran his hands all over me slowly, he climbed out and wrapped the soft towel around me and then one for himself.

'I'll let you get ready' he said starting to leave

'Please don't leave me' i blurted out he turned and walked over pulling me close to him kissing the top of my head

'I'll never leave you' he said in his deep voice. I climbed in to the clean sheets in the bedroom, It had been redecorated. I curled up close to Paul, as he whispered in my ear, I fell asleep our fingers laced together.

I was running through the woods, Edward hot on my heels, that horrid laugh, the bullets Luke were firing travelling so slow they never reached Edward, I tried to shout and scream but nothing came out, then my vision went, I was still running, where was I? was Edward still there? I heard the gun shots.

My eyes flew open as my heart was racing, I looked around my eyes wide open looking around.

'Hey' Pauls sleepy voice said from behind me, his arm came around me I just held on to his arm as he pulled me closer to him. my back against his chest, Paul holding my close to him, i pulled the covers over me, I squeezed my eyes shut as he stroked my hair as I calmed down, I had disrupted sleep all night, when the alarm went off I felt shattered.

I lay on my back my arm over my face, Paul was dozing, I looked over at him, I was hungry, I stood up and stretched, I went to the loo. i knew i was safe, Edward was gone, there were still threats out there but nothing like what i had put up with. I leaned over and kissed Paul on the cheek and ran my fingers through his hair. I walked downstairs, it was quite a mess. The food was in the fridge I made up a large plate and some glasses of water, I looked out of the window, it was just the woods, the faces of my Aunt flashed into my mind, I sucked in my breath and nearly dropped my glasses, I looked again, they were gone, they were dead I knew that. I turned the heating on as I climbed the stairs with my tray, I placed it down on the bedside cabinet and climbed into bed with Paul, he grumbled and pulled me towards him burying his head into me, making me laugh. It sounded strange to me.

'I got you breakfast' I said softly to him

'Honey I'm supposed to be looking after you' he said running his hand through my hair

'You have, you have done so much for me, and stayed with me, supported me' he kissed me, cutting me off

'You are the best thing that's happened to me' he said when our lips parted this took me by surprise, I just smiled as I felt the heat rise up my face, I moved to get the tray and Paul sat up I placed the tray down, Paul crossed his legs, I climbed under the covers, and we sat eating and chatting about last night.

'So what did you and Quill talk about?' I asked taking a bite of Pizza and leaned into the pillows looking at him

'Not too much really, he was just saying he was sorry, just stuff really' he shrugged off

'So you're cool with each other then?' I asked him looking sightly worried

'Don't stress it's all good' he said taking my hand and laced our fingers together

'You're cold' he said his smile fading and he put his food down turning to me

'It's okay, I put the heating on' I told him he moved the tray and moved towards me, taking my other hand and feeling it. A worried look on his face

'Paul, it's fine honestly, you worry so much' I smiled taking my hand from his as I was putting the last of the pizza in my mouth and chewing it. I moved over to him and wrapped my arms around him, I leaned my head against his chest listening to his heart beat. I looked up at him as he placed a kiss on my lips.

'I'm so happy to be back here' I told him running my fingers along his jaw

'Me too' he said the creasing either side of his eyes appearing as he smiled

'Can we have a lazy day?' I asked him

'Anything you want' he said pulling me closer to him, my eyes closed when I had warmed up.

After a few weeks, I felt more like myself Paul had started going to work in the morning or the afternoon, calling me and texting me, making sure I was okay, but I knew he enjoyed seeing the other guys. I was cooking some tea for us both, the radio playing quite loud, I was bobbing along. Suddenly there was a loud knock at the door it made me jump, I froze, I turned the radio down and listened, another loud knock, I pulled my phone out, it wasn't Paul. everyone messaged before they came over. I dialled is number it rung once before he picked up.

'Lil?' he asked the noise from the garage in the background

'Paul someone is here' I said quickly staying behind he counter

'What? Where are you? Is the door locked?' he asked quickly

'I'm in the kitchen, yeah they are locked', I gasped when the loud banging at the door came through again

'Go upstairs, I'm coming home, love you' he said when he heard the knocking

'Okay, love you' I said then hung up the phone I ran upstairs to our room I kept the lights off, I peered out the window, to see if I could catch a gimps of who was down there, I couldn't see any one, no one was shouting or tried my phone. I climbed into bed, I waited for Paul, my heart pounding fast, things had been going so well recently, I heard the knocking again. I pulled the covers up.

I heard the growl from Paul, the knocking gone, as he came home, I flew out of bed to the window, I saw his wolf sprinting from the woods toward the house his teeth showing, I heard some snarling as he went around the house a few times, I went down the stairs to meet him, the radio was still on, I checked the oven tea was halfway through cooking, I couldn't hear him, I looked around, it was getting dark, the drapes were all closed, I needed to know if Paul was okay, I had left my phone upstairs, I walked over to the door, I peered though the peep hole, there was nothing there, I unlocked the door and opened it slowly, I looked I couldn't see Paul, I opened it a little more still looking out.

'Lil!' Paul called out making me jump he was jogging from coming round the house I saw him, I smiled and ran over to him and threw my arms around him, his arms came around me, his forest scent washed over me I closed my eyes, he took me inside and locked the doors, I dished up tea as we sat chatting away

'No-one was there, maybe just a prank, I'll make sure the patrols cover here more often, we can't let our guard down'

,i kept looking at the door and windows as I told him everything that happened, Paul looked well rested as we had been chilling for the past 2 weeks.

I had a shower with Paul, I dried myself and passed him the towel though his body heat had dried the majority of the water off of his body, he just gave me a cheeky smile, I dropped the smile, the scars on my belly and legs were still painfully visible, though Paul still loved me we hadn't really done anything just cuddled and kissed. I walked over to him, his wet hair flopping over his eyes I reached up pushing it out of his eyes, I pulled his face down towards mine, his hands snaked around my waist so our bodies were against each others, I didn't take my eyes away from his for a second.

As I lay back in the crisp fresh sheets, my head buried in the pillows, Paul between my legs, deep inside me, as he kissed my neck, softly pulling at my skin, my limbs wanting to move and stretch out, I smiled and moaned and he kept his rhythm, my hand went through his hair pushing his head deeper into my neck, his hand reached down, trailing down my side, as he moved off and out of me slightly, his finger flicked my clit a few times, my head stretched back, my eyes rolling and I groaned. My hand ran along the sheets, gliding up his muscular arm gripping onto him.

'Fuck' I said biting my bottom lip, all I wanted right now was to have every sense filled and to just take this moment and be lost in it. He thrust up into me firmly, I gasped, he turned his head towards my ear

'Too much?' he asked his voice slightly ragged

'Perfect' I told him closing my eyes letting everything wash over me, he began to pound into me, my body being moved around by the power in which he was hitting into me, Paul let out a deep moan as his heart was pounding, he went rigid as he cried out his dark eyes just visible as his eyes closed, I just held him as he almost landed on top of me, I was glad we used protection, he pulled out as he tried to catch his breath. His eyes were going back to the ones I knew best, he was sweating, I was hot my hair sticking to my face I just flopped back on the bed. Paul walked to the bathroom, to clean himself up, he came back with a towel, I wiped myself down, he cupped my face and placed a soft kiss on my lips.

'That was amazing' I smiled looking up and brushed his hair from his eyes

'Same here darlin' his dep voice making my heart race, we both slept sound that night, the alarm never went off, so when we both woke up it was nearly 10am, Paul just groaned and swore under his breath, he just lay back his arm coming over his face, I rolled over and rested on his chest.

'Please don't go to work' I aid pouting up at him

'Lil I needed to be there over 2 hours ago' he said running his finger down my face moving my hair away from my face

'So that's a no?' I asked closing my eyes again

'You got it' he said moving down the bed the covers off as it was so warm with Paul, he kissed the top of my head and squeezed me tight. moving down my body, his hand pulling at my leg, pulling them apart as his kissed down my body.

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