YOUR SUICIDE
Why did you tell me how you feel
Now im haunted
By your words
I can't stop thinking about you
What you said
It's carved inside my mind
Stuck forever
I can't get you out of my head
I guess im stuck with you
Torturing me with guilt and agony
I know you didn't mean fro this to happen
I blame myself
For not being able to help you
To stop you
Why did you have to do this
Of all things
Why did you have to pick this
And right in front of me
I just walked in and there you were barely alive
Staring at me with those eyes
Full of pain
So tortured inside
I could hear you screaming
Though you weren't making a sound
I could see what you were thinking
"Please let me go,
I don't want this life,
I can't take it anymore,
Just let go,
Walk away,
Leave me here,
Forget about me,
You'll be fine without me."
I could see it in your eyes
I told you
"No I can't do that,
I won't let you die not now,
Not like this."
Why couldn't you understand that
You just gave up
You stopped fighting
And went into silent bliss
I watched you die
Wanting to cry
Unable to shed a tear
I guess I was trying to be strong for you
When I knew you would see right through
I want to die
I couldn't take the pain
I couldn't stop seeing your cold dead face
Feeling the iciness of you dead embrace
I see you in my dreams…
No my nightmares
I relive that day
Over and over
Wondering if I could have stopped you
If had walked in a minutes earlier
Maybe you would still be here
I couldn't save you
You didn't want to be saved
But that wouldn't have stopped me from trying
Now im tortured and slowly dying.