(A/N Thank you for all the amazing reviews so far for this story…I can hint that there may possibly be a happy ending for Bella and Edward but that may all change…I hope you like this chapter…I have to admit that I nearly got a little teary writing it…
Disclaimer- I wish I did…but I don't own Twilight…
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Chapter 25
Blessings.
EPOV
Just as I was settling into a peaceful sleep I could hear someone desperately call my name
"Edward…Edward please wake up"
I opened my eyes to see Bella half out of her bed, tears streaming down her face getting ready to call my name again, I jumped out of the chair and closed the short distance between us.
"I need to get sick…help me"
She was desperate I knew that she was trying to get to the bathroom so she could keep her dignity in tact. I did the first thing that came to mind I put one arm under her knees and the other behind her back and swept her up bridal style of course that made her feel sicker but I rushed to the bathroom on the other side of the room and got her to the toilet and had the hair out of her face when she started to get sick, after she was finished and wiped her mouth with the back of her hand she took a deep breath and she heaved again…
"You don't need to see this…"
"Bella, I told you I would be by your side…and that means at times like this…"
She turned and got sick again, when she was sure that she was ok I got her a glass of water to rinse her mouth and she insisted on brushing her teeth.
When I got her back into her bed and she was all snuggled up I looked at her fragile form she had failed a little since we had been sleeping I looked at my watch to see that it was 3:00, I was just about to go back to my chair when she whispered
"Stay with me"
"I am Bella, I'm not going anywhere"
I went back over and planted a small kiss on her fore head and she smiled grabbing my shirt as I went to pull away
"No…Stay with me!"
And I seen that she had moved over as far as she could go, I took the hint and got into the bed beside her, placing my arms around her and holding her to my chest, I could feel her heartbeat begin to relax and her breathing change to a regular pattern…she was sleeping and sometime later I fell asleep, terrified that our time together was limited.
Finally it was morning, we had to get up again for Bella to get sick during the night at about 5:30…it really annoyed her she got a little panicked worrying that the chemo wasn't going to work…it took the best part of a hour to convince her that tiredness, weakness and getting sick was the side effects of chemo…but at times I think that I was mostly trying to convince myself that.
So when we woke up and 11:30 we were both shocked at how long we had slept, and when we seen the way our bodies were entangled I have to admit that we both blushed, just as we had untangled ourselves Vikki came in.
"O you're awake…Finally! You are extremely lucky that I am on the early shift if any other nurse saw the way you too were situated this morning they would have thrown you out Edward…"
She said smiling at us.
I owed so much to Vikki, she had discovered Bella's illness and was there for her when Bella was told, I owed her a lot.
After Vikki done some tests on Bella, she disappeared to her office and came bag with a big school bag and from that bag she pulled out some food.
"Edward your mother sent this with me this morning; she knows how terrible hospital food is…"
I was off the bed and standing in front of her in flash…God I loved my mother.
After eating the wonderful breakfast Bella and I just lay there on her bed, I had her in my arms and I was happy, I told her about Kevin and his story about how cancer had in more than one way changed his life, she felt sorry for him that his friends were pricks.
I knew that this would be the only time my father was going to allow me stay with Bella, so I was putting together a little plan in my head, I didn't want Bella to be alone I wanted her to have someone to talk to, some who knows what they are talking about…someone like Kevin.
I didn't say anything to her, but I was hoping that I would get the chance to see Kevin again soon.
Then my father came and checked Bella over to see if she was ok to go home. Alice went to school with a note from my mother excusing me from my classes as I was sick.
Dad was happy with how her body was reacting to the chemo and determined that for now she would be fit enough to have a chemo session every week…it greatened her chances of beating it.
BPOV
When we woke up the third time after the worst night of my life I was embarrassed to see how tangled up we where, we were both on our sides in the small bed, my head was resting on his chest with my left arm around his neck, he had his left arm under my neck coming around my shoulders and is right hand was resting on my ass, our legs were all twisted up…and it was nice, being this close to him, to know that even in our sleep we needed physical contact.
Just then Vikki came in to see us telling us we were lucky that she was on shift because Edward would have been thrown out for being in the bed with me never mind being that close to me.
I was happy to see that Esme had packed us food, because I hated hospital food…I didn't really have much of an apatite but I ate so that it wouldn't worry Edward.
When we were finished we lay back on the bed in each others arms and talked, he told me what he spent his time doing yesterday when I was away for chemo, he told me had had met a guy named Kevin who also had cancer, he said that he was a nice guy who had been through a lot.
He told me about how his friends dropped him as soon as they discovered he was sick that made me feel so sorry for him, because I know that not having my friends around me would make me miserable especially at a time like this.
Every now and then he would get a distant look on is face and I would wait for him to come back to me; I didn't want to know what he was thinking.
Soon after Carlisle came to see if I was fit enough to go home luckily he thought I was fine, he also told me that he thinks my body is fit enough to have chemo every week, that was both good and bad news.
Good that it would raise my chances of beating the cancer, bad that I would be in here once a week, feeling like crap and most likely taking forever to get over the treatment and most of all I would be away from Edward, there is no way Carlisle and Esme will allow him to take a day off school every week just to stay with me…and they were right I will not destroy his education or his future.
Edward drove me home, he carried my over night bag into the house. After my parents had hugged me and told me they missed me my father asked Edward if he could have a word with him, I knew by the tone in his voice that he wasn't going to be nice to Edward.
When they disappeared towards the garden my mom and I followed them to hear what dad was going to say and how Edward would react.
EPOV
I was nervous…was he going to shoot me or something?
"Edward, I can see how much you care for my daughter, but frankly I don't know if you care enough to stick by her through this. If you stay with her you stay through all the rough times as well as the good, if you leave her when she needs you the most I will make you're sorry ass pay…"
I couldn't listen to him any more, there was no way he could possibly know how I felt about Bella, I wanted him to know how much I love her, to know how much I need her…
"Look Chief Swan, I love Bella more than anything, if I could change everything so that it was me with the cancer and in pain I would do it in a heart beat.
I am nothing without her and I know that for a fact, because not so long ago I had to imagine a future without her in it and that was my own fault and I promise that never again as long as I should live will I ever hurt her like that again.
I know I'm not the man you want your daughter to be with or to love but for some insane reason she loves me as much as I love her, she wants me as much as I want her, Chief I want Bella to have any and everything she wants.
I want to make her dreams come true, to make her my wife and the mother of our children, sit with her on the front porch of our house when we're old and grey telling our grandkids how we met, how strong their grandmother was to beat a terrible disease that claimed the lives of so many people all around the world.
I want to be with her when we die of old age after living a full and happy life together…
And the mere thought of not having any of that is scaring the hell out of me, tearing my heart apart, making me hurt so bad that I feel as if the pain of loosing her could kill me, she is the reason I get up in the mornings and look forward to the day ahead, she saved me from a miserable life of hurt and pain, she is the reason for my existence and if I were to loose her I would simply cease to exist"
When I had finished I noticed that Charlie stood there stunned, I'm not sure if it was because of what I said or the fact that I was now crying and my entire body was shaking.
I kept waiting quietly for him to say something but when I seen the tear roll down his cheek I knew he had heard and understood me.
"I can see that you love her, I believe that you would do anything to save her and yes I agree with you, you wouldn't be the man I would choose for her, but now I know that no other man could love her more than you. I trust you with my baby girl, Edward I trust you with her life, her heart and her happiness and more importantly her future"
I know that you will take care of her and when the day comes your children too. I give you my whole hearted blessing to love, care and make Isabella happy. The only thing I ask of you is that you don't whisk her away to settle down and that you don't occupy all her time so she has none for me…"
Now we were both crying…very macho right?
I knew that this was one of the most important moments of my life; I was receiving his blessing to love Bella, to care for her and make her happy. I took a step closer to him and raised my hand
"Thank you Chief for trusting me to love your daughter, it means so much to me that you approve of our relationship"
He looked at my hand but didn't shake it instead he shocked the hell out of me by giving me a man hug, just then I heard her sweet delicate voice
"Daddy"
And then I saw Bella standing at the door with her mother both of them were smiling with tears rolling down their cheeks, she ran to Charlie and hugged him tightly, he held her securely and together they cried.
"Dad I will always love you. Nothing could take me away from you now even this cancer, no matter what I'll always be your little girl and I'll always look up to you even if I die…I'll always be near you"
He smiled down at her and let her go; he took her hand and walked towards me. He took my hand and placed it over Bella's and then put his hand on top of ours
"I know that nothing not even death will ever falter your love for each other, so now that I see the strength of your love I can step down as the main man in your life Bella and trust that Edward can now fill that role"
He lifted his hand and walked towards Renee who kissed him as soon as he reached her, then she said
"I am so happy that you trust him Charlie because I do too, I'm proud that you gave her up to him and I am glad that you saw the love he has for Bella that my father saw in you for me"
Bella held my hand tightly watching her parents, silent tears streaming down her cheeks.
"I wonder if I would be strong enough to trust a man with our daughter."
I asked turning to face Bella as her parents went inside, she crashed into my arms and I held her tight
"I'm sorry" She sobbed
"So so sorry"
"Bella…what could you possibly have to be sorry for?"
She looked up at me with a heartbreaking look in her eyes
"I'm sorry that I can't promise all that you want to be your wife and have your children, to grow old with you and be happy, I'm sorry that…"
I silenced her with my lips.
"A/N I really hoped you like that chapter….and if it was good enough that you would maybe…possibly review…
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