Hey guys! This song is Welcome to the Black Parade by My Chemical Romance. Really great band. This was a request from BlueRoseRabbit. Hope you guys like it!
"I will Wake you up early tomorrow. You have a meeting at eight o' clock with a business leader who is visiting from London. Goodnight Young Master."
Ciel groaned in response. Sebastian slowly closed the door and walked down the hall. Once Ciel knew he was alone he sat up in bed and looked around the room. He sighed. He couldn't sleep. He knew that. He hadn't been able to sleep in weeks. Not since he attended that orchestra performance last month…
He still remembered the day it reminded him of all too clearly.
"Come on son we are going to a performance!"
He remembered how excited he was to go with his father.
"An orchestra! I just know you are going to love it."
He remembered all the excitement and the music. He was dressed in his nicest clothes, and his father was wearing his nicest suit.
"Isn't this fun Ciel?"
They listened to the music and enjoyed every moment. After the performance his father pulled him to the side and smiled at him.
"Ciel you must always remember to be strong and to help others to be strong alongside you. I won't always be there to be strong for you."
And that was it. Ciel never thought much about it at the time. But now that he is older he realizes what he meant. Going to that orchestra performance last month made him realize and made him remember.
His father was telling him to always carry on, even after he wasn't there.
Ciel looked out the window and sighed. He finally understood what his father meant that night. And he hated it so much.
Ciel then did something he hadn't done is a long time. He folded his hands, and bowed his head in prayer.
Not to god, for he still didn't believe he was there. He was praying because he hoped. He hoped that some way his words would get to his father and mother.
He closed his eyes and whispered the words to himself.
"Father, mother. I Love you still. I want you to know that. I could never forget about you. I am living well now as you might see, for I have someone watching me for you. He will help me stay safe for the time being. Mother, I miss playing with your hair very much. I remember we used to braid it together and put flowers in it. You looked so beautiful. I hope you still put flowers in your hair. I know father likes to see you like that." He stopped and smiled at the memory. "And father…I still keep those words you spoke to me many years ago dear to my heart. And I promise I will not let you down. Even though you both are no longer here with me, I will carry on. I will keep your memory and fight for this family. I hope you know that. I love you both so much…"
A loud knocking shocked the boy and he opened his eyes, quickly ending his 'prayer'.
"Are you still awake lord? You are to be getting up early like I said…" Sebastian opened the door and paused. "…Young master?"
Sebastian looked at Ciel whose eyes were flooded with tears. His cheeks were damp and his bed shirt was stained with droplets of his water.
Ciel hadn't realized he was crying.
He quickly brought a hand up and wiped the tears from his face and looked away, face full of shame. "I'm fine. I'll be sleeping soon."
Sebastian hesitated and then looked away hastily. "Indeed. Good night, my lord."
He closed the door, and left Ciel to remember.
Whether Ciel wanted to remember or not, it didn't matter.
All he knew is that remembering made part of him feel whole again.
We'll carry on,
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And in my heart I can't contain it
The anthem won't explain it.
Yay! Okay. Hope you liked it! Until next time, bye!