SO SO sorry i suck i know. i'm going straight to the story you all know this belongs to stephanie meyer K? k. here we goo.
BELLA POV
They said yes. After a lot of convincing they actually said yes! Mom wanted to give me one more week which i gladly agreed to because, well, they said yes! I was sitting on my bed, imagining the conversation last night, the shocked look on all their faces. I was pulled out of my thought when Jasper walked in. "Well somebody is just glowing with excitment." his southern accent, and quirky smile brought a smile to my own face.
"Of course i am. I get to go to school, they said yes!" I jumped up and threw my arms around his neck. He laughed, grabbed me around the waist and spun me around. When he stopped i stood on my tip toes and kissed him gently on the lips. After a moment I heard him make a strained noise and pull away, leaning his forehead onto mine, his eyes closed and he was breathing heavely, I knew it wasn't need but I could tell he was trying to gan control. I thought back to his eyes when he had walked in, they were black, when was the last time he had fed? I tried to pull away but his grip tightened just a bit.
"I''m sorry," He whispered, "I'm still trying to get control of myself when i kiss you. It's easy to get carried away."
"You should hunt. You need it, your eyes are pitch black." he reluctantly nodded in agreement.
"I've been having too much fun with you, I kept putting it off." He smiled, "I'll go with Rosalie and Alice, they are leaving soon. I should go change though." He looked down at his nice white button up shirt that i loved on him. I agreed, this was my favorite shirt of his, i didnt want anything to happen to it.
"I have some of your shirts over there," I pointed to a corner were some of his clothes had ended up, "You can just change into on of those, they are just t-shirts." I saw the look on his face dramatically shift, he went from smiling and loving, to instantly ashamed. He turned away.
"I'll find something in my room." He said and turned to walk away but I grabbed his arm, he instantly tensed, but stopped.
"Don't do that," I said and he turned to face me, "Don't shut me out," He opened his mouth to protest but i didn't let him, "No, I saw it on your face, your walls went up. You can't do that. Not to me. Tell me what's wrong."
"Bella," He closed his eyes, "You haven't seen my what's left of my past. It's branded me in the worst way. You don't deserve that, you don't deserve to see that. What you saw that one day across my back, that was the best of it. It's much, much worse."
I isntantly figured out what he was talking about. His scars from the war.
"Shut your southern mouth and take your shirt off." i said, repeating the words i had said last time, no blush came this time. He smiled a little remembering the same thing I was.
"No Bella." He whispered. Sighing I lifted my hands to his top button and unclasped it. He closed his eyes again and let out a small whimper.
"Bella please." His voice was strained.
"Jasper," I strained up and kissed his chin, "It's okay." I undid the second one, he remained still as stone with his eyes closed, but he said nothing. My hands, shakingly undid the last few and his shirt slid off. I couldn't help but let a small gasp escape from my lips.
Jasper turned away, the movement was so sudden it actually made me jump. "Jasper, stop." I kept my voice firm and made him turn to face me again. slowly i traced the more dominate scars on his chest. I felt an urge to kiss each and every one until he wasn't upset anymore. "What's wrong? Why didn't you want me to see this?" I asked, My eyes glued to the scars marked on the man i love.
"It's my past Bella, it shows the horrible thing I was, the lives I took, the way I acted. It shows all my imperfections, what I really am."
"What you really are," I took his face and made me look right into my eyes, "Is someone who is absolutly wonderful, the greatest man I have ever met. You're the man who, each day finds another reason to amaze me and each day I fall in love with all over again. You're imperfections are what make you beautiful." (A/N: Anna holly madison)
"Bella..." He pulled me to him, I rested my cheek on his bare chest, "God, I love you so much Bella. More than anything imaginable. I thought I knew what love was but you showed me a whole new defenition."
His words brought tears to my eyes because he described my feelings perfectly.
"Go put a shirt on so you can go hunt." I pulled away and laughed looking up at him.
"First you say take off your shirt, now you are saying put one on. I'm going to need you to make up your mind. do you want me to put a shirt on or not?" He smiled, teasingly at me, I was happy to see the smile back so quickly.
"Honestly? No I don't, I would be just happy to have it like this, but you need to hunt." he rolled his eyes and in a blink of the eye he was wearing a navy blue t-shirt.
"Better?" He asked I rolled my eyes now.
"Just go before they leave without you." He gave me a kiss goodbye and then he was gone. A few moments later a heard the front door close and I knew they were gone. I went downstairs and found Emmett sitting on the couch. "Hey Bellsy, want to arm wrestle?" He asked, his childish eyes glowing with excitement.
"I'm not even going to answer that." I said sitting next to him.
"How about tennis...On the Wii?" I smiled over at him.
"You're on." I said. Neither of us expected what would happen next...
APOV
The three of us hunted in silence like we always did, this was a time of pure concentration, sure the deer weren't the greatest but they did the job. The only distraction was when I would get a vision during the hunt. It always messed me up, and everyone else would stop to see what my vision was about.
Thinking about it must have triggered something because just as I was about to go on to my next prey I froze and a vision took over.
A pale hand knocked on the door, Vampire obviously, Bella came to the door, glowing and smiling, but as soon as she got the door open and saw the person at the door the smile fell and all the color drained from her face. I saw Esme walk behind Bella and freeze, Emmett and Carlisle did the same.
I heard a silky voice say, and Bella broke into tears.
"Edward!" Esme yelled, I saw his face then just as it had been last time I saw him.
I was pulled out of the vision abruptly. He was close, oh no, Bella. Edward would mess everything up between her and Jasper, that poor girl would have no idea what to do.
"Oh no." I muttered then something clicked in my head. Dear god, Edward was alive! but how? I should have seen him where had he been. Oh, my god Edward wasn't gone! I fell to my knees, completely stunned, I wasn't sure what to do.
"Alice?" I heard Jasper and Rosalie both say. I glanced up and saw them looking down with concern.
"He isn't dead. I saw him, he's very much alive!" Rosalie and Jasper knew exactly who I was talking about, smiles lit their faces, and then I saw the smile on Jasper's face slowly fall. "He's close, we need to go back, Bella she's-"
"Let's go." Jasper siad and began to run. I had to run extra fast to keep up with him, Rosalie was only a few feet behind us.
"Is she going to be with him then?" anger stained his voice, but behind it I could hear the fear and the pain.
"I don't know," I said honestly, "You are her soul mate, but I never saw this coming..." I didn't know what was going to happen I just knew we needed to get home.
JPOV
I saw her freeze and a few minutes later she fell to the ground. I knew right away Alice had had a vision.
"Alice?" Rosalie and i both asked.
"He isn't dead. I saw him, he's very much alive!" Edward, I realized right away who she was talking about. He was alive, my brother was alive. I smiled, I couldn't believe it! Bella, the smile fell, if he was back where did that leave Bella. "He's close, we need to go back, Bella she's-"
"Let's go." I said and began to run faster than I ever had. Where did this leave Bella and me, would she choose him? Could I let her go? Yes, I realized with anger, I could. I wanted that beautiful girl to be happy, if he was what makes her happiest I would let her go. I remembered only a few hours ago we had been in her room joking about things as simple as clothes. And she had broken down yet another wall when she uncovered and accepted my scars that came with my past. Geez i don't want to give her up, please, I silently begged, don't take her away from me.
I vaguley remember having a conversation with Alice, but my mind was elsewhere i focused on only one thing. Getting home.
BPOV
The Wii game was intense, I was winning so of course we couldn't stop until Emmett one fair and square. I was relieved when a knock came on the door, it gave my hand a break while I went to answer the door. I opened it and froze, I had to be seeing things. The angelic face standing before me couldn't be real. This face had died.
I was vaguly aware of the rest of my family coming to the door behind me, all freezing and i knew that sad the same thing i did. I wasn't crazy or seeing things. This was real...Edward was here. "Bella, love." His velvet voice whispered. Hearing his voice, my composure cracked, and I began to cry.
I grabbed me pulling me forward into a hug I had missed so much.
Everyone huddled around hugging and sobbing tearless cries. They backed away again, and Edward pulled me closer again. He placed his fingers under my chin tilting my head up. I knew what was coming, yet I couldnt force myself to move away. He closed the space between us, pressing his cold lips against mine. It was the way i remembered it, it was better even. His lips moved with hunger, as if he'd been starving and finally was fed. As ashamed as I was to say it, i kissed him back, matching his hunger. Then my brain seemed to turn back on and i quickly pulled away. "No, stop." Guilt already ate me up inside. I looked up at Edward's confused look and saw behind him, Alice, Rosalie, and Jasper who's expression was obvious pain. "Edward?" Rosalie was completely shocked. Her and Alice ran to him hugging him tightly. Jasper and I remained standing in pur places, staring at each other silently trying to figure out what was going on here.
"Jasper?" Jasper snapped out of it then, looking up at Edward who had called his names. Everyone must have been gaurding their thoughts because Edward seemed to know nothing.
"How is this possible?" Jasper asked staring at Edward.
"During the fight," Edward came back to me I nonchalantly walked over to Emmett, wrapping my arms around his waist before Edward could wrap his arms around me, "Alec used his power on me, i stopped and was unable to soo or move. They took me with them, I guess you couldn't see the flames were everywhere. They have this new member She is able to block my presence, if that makes sense. That's why I am guessing Alice couldn't see me alive. But I made a deal with Aro, I read a handful a people's minds for him, and he let me go. I came back as fast as I could. I missed you all so much." He looked around his gaze landing on me, a small smile crept onto his face. Jasper cleared his throat and my eyes snapped to him. But Edward continued speaking again, this time to me. I squeezed Emmett, scared and I knew he knew why, and he held me tightly right back. "I'm so sorry, I Can't imagine the pain I put you through. I missed you, so much." He came closer to me before the pixie came to the rescue.
"Edward." She stepped forward, "A lot has changed since you disappeared." He turned to her staring curiously.
"Alice why are you reciting every beatles songs in your head, what are you hiding?"
"A lot has changed." Alice whispered.
"Like what?" He asked, looking around at everyone, "I know things would change, but you guys are acting as if something life changing happened."
"Alice and I are divorced." Jasper stepped forward, finally stepping out of the doorway.
"What!" He asked looking between them.
"I knew I wasn't Jaspers mate. We realized who it was only after you left."
"So... Jasper is with someone now? Who?"
I took a deep breath and stepped away from the protection of Emmett, "Edward, I'm... I'm with Jasper." Jasper's eyes flicked to me, I saw the smile in his eyes and at that moment I wanted to run into his arms and hold him.
"What?" Edward looked shocked, and it broke my heart to see the pain, so obvvious in his eyes. "But you just kissed me? We... How?"
"I'm sorry," I whispered, tears began to flood and pool over, staining my cheeks, "I'm sorry. So, so sorry." I pushed past everyone and ran up the stairs, going straight to my room. I had no idea how to handle this. I knew I loved Jasper, I knew it, but Edward was back, he was my first love. What was i supposed to do?
"Emmett," I whispered, "Please come." a half second later he was standing by my bed, wiping away the tears.
"Shh honey, don't cry."
"What am i supposed to do!" I asked, burying my face into his shoulder.
"Follow your heart." He said, rocking me.
"That doesn't help." I laughed a little.
"I don't know what else to say. Listen Bellsy," He pulled back and looked me in the eyes, "You love Jasper, I can see that so clearly, how happy he makes you, how much alike the two of you are. The two of you move in synce, you finish each others sentences without even realizing. You are like two puzzle pieces that fit perfectly together completing each other." I laughed again hearing Emmett say things like that just didn't sound right, "I know I'm getting all sappy like a little girl, any minute I'm going to start playing with my collection of my little ponies but that's not the point right now. The point is I see your love for Jasper. But I also see it for Edward. He was the first guy you ever really loved, you only stopped becuase you thought he was dead. He's back so now those feelings may be too. I can't tell you who to choose. I can only tell you follow your heart. Think, which one would you be disappointed not to be with. Love is a fire. But whether it is going to warm your heart or burn down your house, you can never tell." (A/N: Taininess! yaaay)
"Thank you Emmy." I hugged him tightly, he couldn't tell me who to choose, but his words helped.
ED's POV (AHHHHH)
Bella and Jasper? I stared in shock as Emmett ran up the stairs after Bella, I turned to Jasper, infuriated. "How could you?" I asked, "You knew I loved her and you knew damn well that she loved me. How could you do that Jasper?"
"We thought you had died, Edward! I was in love with her too! I realized I had been for a while. After a while she realized it too, i never pushed anything, Edward. I waited for her everytime. She was finally happy again too."
I couldn't believe this, Bella, my Bella. Maybe she was with Jasper then, but I was here now, she was my soul mate, we were meant to be together right? I headed towards the stairs, ready to go up and talk to her, i knew she would see things the same way. I knew she loved me still, that kiss proved it.
"Edward don't." Jasper's voice caught into my thoughts, "Let her be with Emmett for now, either of us up there will just confuse her more." I glared at him but Rosalie cut in.
"He's right Edward, let her be for now, Emmett can help her right now. Either of you up there will confuse her more." I stopped and turned, facing Esme who hadn't spoken at all. She came over and placed a hand on my cheek.
"Oh Edward." She said softly, and brought me in for another hug. I hugged her back, her thoughts completely on the fact that I wasn't okay and not dead.
Emmett was up there for a while, I could hear his thoughts but i tried not to listen. That was until I heard Emmett call me in his thoughts. "Edward. Can you tell Jasper to come up here. I know you won't be happy about that, but i know what I'm doing I need him up here first." I grit my teeth and turned to Jasper.
"Go, Emmett wants you to go up there." I said coldly. He stared for a moment then looked towards the steps.
"Go Jasper, it'll be okay." Alice said assuringly. I turned my focus on her but she was now quoting the lyrics to all the rolling stones songs. I was blocked from her thoughts. I turned back to Jasper and watched as he walked up the stairs to the woman we both seemed to love.
(A/N: sorry his is short, more importaint things need to be done ha.)
JPOV
I knew what I had to do, i had to make this as easy and painless for her as possible. I walked up the steps going over my plan, I knew what to do. I opened Bella's door, both her and Emmett turned to me. "I'll leave you to alone." Emmett said and stood, patting me on the shoulder before leaving the room.
"Hi." Bella whispered, "Jasper, I am so sorry. That kiss, the way I reacted, my god, I am so sorry." She buried her face into her pillow, I saw her shoulders shake with a sob. Instantly i was by her side.
"Bella, no, don't cry." I lifted her up away from the pillow so she was facing me. "I wish you wouldn't have kissed him," I smiled slanted, "Seeing it ticked me off, there's no lying there but I understand." She smiled at me. I knew what I had to do, I took a deep breath, knowing what I would say would break my heart.
"Bella, it's alright. I love you, you know I love you more thatn I thought my dead heart was capable of. And because of that," I looked straight into her beautiful eyes, using her life to give me the strength to do this, "I'm willing to let you go." I saw her eyes darken and her expression drop.
"What?" she asked her voice extremly low, sounding dangerous.
"Bella I love you, I want to fight for you, but I know the pain it would cause you. I can't be the reason to cause you pain. You love him, it's still there and very obvious. If you want to, be with him, Bella."
"But I love you too Jasper." She said, panicing.
"I know," I placed my hand on her cheek, "That's why I'm going to make it easy for you, be with him. I'll back out gracefully." I kissed her forehead and wiped the tear that had slipped out away. I then stood, "Goodbye Bella, I love you and always will. I want you happy no sadness." I walked out of her room, as soon as i closed the door I ran, into the woods and away from the house, the sob that erupted from my chest was more pain than I had ever experienced.
BPOV
I stared at the door in shock. Jasper... left. He didn't want to fight, he knew it would make me uphappy to see. So he left hurting himself to try and preserve my feelings. My heart. He would let me be with Edward, that was what he thought, who he thought, I wanted. I thought about it, about being with Edward. Never again kissing Jasper, hugging him tlaking to him the way I had. Never hearing him say I love you. Then I thought of Edward, being with him, being able to hold him again, and having that feeling I had before he had 'died'. I thought about both options and realized who I wanted more. Who I needed. Who I really loved. I stood and went to find... Edward.
I needed to tell him, now, I didnt want to wait anymore.
I found him by where Alice had put up his gravestone. "That's so weird." He said staring at it. He turned to me, "Are you okay?" I nodded.
"I'm guessing you heard all that?"
"Yeah, sorry it was hard to block out, I tried. So... He made way for you and I to be together again." I nodded again.
I took a deep breath and looked into Edward's eyes. He beautiful face looked back at me. He was so perfect, i never understood why he chose me, everything he did, he did perfectly. But Jasper, he made mistakes he laughed at himself. He was so much like me, well as human like as you can get being a vampire. "Edward, Jasper left me because he thought I wanted to be with you, he wanted to make it easier for me, so there would be no fighting. But Edward... I want to be with Jasper." I said the words and felt my heart swell with love when I said the words, i automatically knew it was the truth. I wanted Jasper, that's it.
"What? But Bella, we... We love each other, we are meant to be together."
"Edward no. I'm so sorry. I love you, I always will. But the way I love Jasper. It's different than anything I ever felt. I love him so differently than I have ever loved anything else. I'm sorry." My voice cracked, I saw the pain on his face now.
"I can't believe this Bella. I refuse to. its, it can't be true. It's not how it's supposed to be."
"Edward, it is. Listen to me I'm talking about fate here - when feelings are so powerful it's as if some force beyond your control is guiding you to someone who can make you happy beyond your wildest dreams. (A/N: Tainiless) Fate brought me to Jasper. I'm happy it did. I love him Edward. It's stronger than anything, it's honest to god love."
"You mean it?" I nodded, "I don't want to stop fighting for you." He said.
"I don't want a fight Edward. And there was no fight to begin with Edward. He's already won. I'm sorry."
"I don't believe it's over, I can't..."
"Edward," I interrupted, "I love Jasper. I don't want to have this fight with you right now. I just need to find him before it's too late." He stood and stared for a moment.
"Cut through those trees and go straight, you'll run right into him." I looked towards the threes with excitement.
"Thank you Edward."
"I won't give up Bella." He said looking at me straight on.
I walked over to him and kissed his cheek but said nothing then went the way he sent me, looking for the man I loved.
It seemed like i was walking for hours, but I finally came across a clearing and saw Jasper sitting on a tree stump, his back to me. I knew he knew I was there but he said nothing so i continued to quietly walk towards him. "Jasper?" I finally said.
"What are you doing here? Why aren't you with Edward?" He turned to me.
"Because I wanted to talk to you. You see you left after you said everything but you didn't give me a chance to speak."
"Bella." He began to protest.
"Just shut it and let me speak would you?" I snapped, he closed his mouth and listened.
"You gave me the go to be with Edward, to be happy. But you didn't consider that I wouldn't be happy with Edward, not like I would with you. You chose Edward for me, which was really rude by the way. Well I choose you for me Jasper. I want you. I love you. You showed me what real love is so there's no room in my heart to love anyone else."
"No Bella. You don't love me, not like you love him."
"You're right, I don't love you like I love Edward. The love I have for you is different, stronger. I love you and just the little things about you Jasper. I love the way you hold me in your arms when I am drifting asleep. I love the way you gently tuck my hair when you think I do not notice. I love the way you give me butterfly kisses so that it wouldn't disturb my sleep. Most of all, I love the way I feel secure and loved in your arms." (A/N: Anna Holly Madison)
"Bella... Out of everyone I'm the worst possible choice for you. Why, me?"
"Because... because I'm scared Jasper. But with you, well with you I don't feel so scared." I admitted and saw him chuckle when I mentioned me being scared.
"Bella, you are the strongest person I know, what would you be scared of?"
"Me? I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I've seen, I'm scared of what I've done, of who I am, and most of all I'm scared of walking away and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I'm with you." (A/N: reading is my passion! sorry i had to change a few words to help it fit the scene.)
"Bella." He didn't finish his thought because he had brought my body to meet his and pressed his lips to mine. This kiss was different from Edward's, and i liked it so much better, it was as if we moved as one. He pulled away, kissing my nose then kissing away the tear that had slide out and down my cheek. "This changes everything." I heard him whisper.
"What do you mean?" I asked, wrapping my arms around his neck and looking up at him.
"Bella... I never believed i had a soul, a real heart. Not now like this, as a killer. I didn't think I could be a kind of person who could love and be loved. I mean yes I loved Alice, I loved her a lot, and in many ways I still do. But I blocked a part out, I didn't put everything into it because I didn't think I deserved any kind of love. Then I fell in love with you. You make me feel... real. I don't feel like a killer with you, i feel like I have a heart, a soul. I can love, fully and completely with you. And Knowing an angel like you can love me, can choose me over a man so obviously better than myself. It changes everything, the way I see everything. Darlin' you've made me believe for the first time since I was changed that I've got a soul."
"Jasper..." I couldn't figure out what to say to this. It was the sweetest thing I had ever heard, the most emotion filled speech anyone had ever given me. "You helped me through everything. Life, deaths, you saved my life multiple times. Not just when you stepped in front of a gun for me but you saved me from myself. When I lost Edward I thought that was it but you showed me there was so much more, you showed me more love than I ever thought was possible. Thank you Jasper. Thank you for helping me and loving me." I stretched up to him and kissed him softly. I pulled all the love I could and pushed it towards him. I heard his sharp intake of breath, a human habit. He looked at me his eyes shining with adoration that, no doubt, matched my own.
"That's the strongest feeling I have ever felt." He whispered pressing his forehead on mine. "And its for me." He laughed.
I hugged him tightly, "Always." I said. we stayed there for a little while longer before he spoke.
"We had better get back before Emmett and Esme send out search parties." I laughed and agreed walking hand and hand with my soul mate.
UNKNOWN POV
"We can get a plane to Seattle but that's in four days. From there we can drive to the house I bought. It's just outside of Forks, Washington. Near where this othert coven like us lives." I stared at my wife who seemed uninterested in the words I was saying. "Hey, you're the mother here, you have to at least act a little excited so they can know this is all going to be okay." Her face softened and she came over to hug me.
"I know, you're right. They're all worried enough, I can see the strain it's caused on Natalia and Lucky's relationship. They're worried about us and the Volturri and they're taking it our on each other. Sarah is doing her silent worrying. And Steven is trying to find ways to protect us. This shouldn't be put on their shoulders." She looked up at me and nodded, "Okay, this move is good. It's for our family. Four days we go to Washington. All I can say is you better have gotten me a kick ass house." I laughed and kissed her. We were protecting our family. Hopefully. And hopefully this other coven can accept and maybe even help us. We could only wait and see. If only we had someone who could see the future. That would help us all so much.
A/N: SORRY if there are errors oor the format is weird! My Microsoft word is GONE! so I wrote this on the little notepad application that doesn't help correct anything. Anyways i hope you all enjoyed a litte twist and a little sapp :) reviews are lovved!