A month Later

Jasper's POV :

I'm hiding on the roof..

Dammit! How could I sink so low. Hiding on the roof to avoid gardening with Esme.

She's tryin' to "bond" with me. But her pity and care for me are overwhelming. They nearly knock me off my feet every time.

I hope Alice won't rat me to Esme.

Suddenly, I hear Emmett and Rosalie's voices coming from the window below me.

"Come on Babe, sit down. Tell me what's wrong.

You are so tensed. I know there's something you're tryin' to hide." asks Emmett lovingly.

I can hear Rosalie 's pacing. She's now leaning against the window sill. I hear the wood creaking.

"Nothing, I just don't like their presences." she spits back.

I hear the ruffles of the covers as Emmett probably leans toward her.

"Arrff, come on Angel, I know it is not that. You like Alice. I saw it in your eyes."

Rosalie sighs.

"How can you read me so well, Hon? Even Dear Edward didn't notice it that fast."

"A wizard doesn't reveal his tricks Babe.."

I roll my eyes, feeling Emmett's emotions slipping toward Lust. But the determination is still there. Wow, didn't know Emmett could be so subtle and perceptive. I knew he was smarter than he seemed to be.

"Come and sit with me Rosie. I wanna hold you against me. And King Edward The Prude is an ass. He believes hearing thoughts is enough to understand people. But , thoughts are very easily manipulated. And, it is not because an idea crosses your mind that it reveals who you are. People change and evolve and their thinking process is a constant flow, deceiving mirrors. He just doesn't understand it yet.

I lean back, lying on my back, my head close to their window. Guess I know why Alice won't say where I am...

The bed is now cracking under their combined weights.

I close my eyes and concentrate on their feelings.

Safety , reassurance, love.

Rosalie seems to be relaxing.

Emmett is still oscillating between determination and and lust. I can feel love and his need to protect her. Just like me when I hold Alice against my chest.

"aaah Rosie Baby, that is so much better. I love holding you like that."

Rosalie is giggling.

"Cause you've got a good view of my cleavage?"

Emmett growls playfully as Rosalie's laugh rings around

I can picture them . Emmett's huge frame sprawled against the headboard, Rosalie between his tights. She must be leaning in his chest, his huge arms around her shoulders.

"Seriously Baby, what's troubling you? Remember my promises. How can I protect you and make you happy if you don't tell me what's bothering you. And stop grounding your ass against me, you won't seduce your way out of that conversation."

Damn, he is serious. No more lust. Not a single hint.

Rosalie's clothes are ruffling. She must be squirming to face him.

"That's why I love you em..." She whispers.

I hear them kissing chastely.

"That Jasper scares me . Did you see his scars?"

I tighten at the word, my fists curling tightly.

"He could kill and hurt everyone of us so easily." She admits, in a defeated whisper.

She is genuinely scared. I curse inwardly. Damn!

"Not if we stay united Rose, you know I won't let him touch a single hair of your head. " answers Emmett, probably flexin' his arms.

I shake.. There is nothing I can do. I was polite and always at a safe distance. I can't erase those fuckin' scars. I brace myself for what's coming.

"I know, but I'm more scared for you Honey. And well, he's always been so gentlemanly, and he's given me space. I don't know. He makes me feel weak and defenceless. Just erm, like, well you know." She concludes.

Oh Fucking shit! Those feelings I know by heart.

She was raped. No wonder my dangerous aura makes her react the strongest. Every fibre of her body is screaming at her, and now, at me.

how the hell can I make it easier for her?

I clench my jaw cussing. I need to relax more around her.

So , that's why she was the one to understand my repulsion and hate for physical contacts. Maybe I should talk with her about that.

"Rosalie, look at me. Royce is dead. And NO ONE will ever touch you and hurt you again."

The resolve in Emmett's voice is downright scary.

"I trust you Em, always and forever"

She is kissing him and I can feel her needs becoming stronger. She wants to drown in him.

Emmett complies, as I flee once again from the house

As I reach the ground I hear Esme calling me

"Oh Jasper, i've been looking for you"

Her feelings hit me like a ton of bricks

I grasp my head in my hands, trying to stay calm and her concern grows stronger.

"STOP", I scream, kneeling in the ground as my head throbs painfully.

She takes a step backwards, in fright

She calls Carlisle and both him and Edward rush to us.

The feelings are stronger

I grip my teeth

"Not. Helping."

Suddenly, my light, my sun filled butterfly appears, wrapping her small wings like arms and I'm drowning in her peace.

The others disappear, leaving Alice to deal with my weak self.