Vague spoilers for #54 in the last paragraph, PG/K+. Prompt: "Heritage: Animorphs, Aximili, balancing between the ideal Andalites he was raised to believe in and the examples of his people he keeps being faced with" on LJ.
He's sitting in the classroom and listening to the teacher describe Andalite ideals. They sound perfect to his young ears and he wants to make them real.
He's meeting his older brother for the first time. Elfangor is brave and honest and good and Aximili wants to be like him.
He's training at the academy on the home world, learning how to fight, how to kill, and how to die. How to block an attack with his tail blade, how to fire a shredder, and how to prepare for the end. He wants to become a warrior, but is it worth it?
He's trapped on an alien planet in a plastic bubble in the sea. He watches the alien life forms swim by overhead and wonders what they're thinking. He's alone and he wants to leave. He wants to go home.
He's fighting alongside his human friends. He doesn't understand their customs or why they insist upon calling him "Ax-man" but he likes them. They're brave and they're good and they carry Elfangor's final moments and he wonders why he was taught to believe Andalites were superior. He wants to learn more but he can't break the law.
He's just come back from Leera and he struggles with accepting that one of his own could have crossed over to join the Yeerks. He wants to explain how he feels to Tobias but how can he describe the beliefs he was raised on? He wants to have another Andalite to talk to. He wants to have a friend who isn't human.
He's aboard the Pool Ship, watching as his own race prepares to destroy the planet and the six billion humans that live there. And him. He wonders how the Andalites he used to dwell among and consider his people could even contemplate such a crime. He struggles to cling to his beliefs but he knows they're just lies. He wants to go home.