I stood up quickly, taking in my surroundings once again. I could smell the blood that was all over my clothes and I turned to Sam quickly, apparently too quickly because my head started spinning and I felt dizzy.

"You can't take him back to Billy like this, Sam." I was shaking still and I rose my hands up to cover my eyes as I sank to the ground. Sam proceeded to stoop down to my level.

"Bella, Billy died almost 3 years ago. The only family that Jake had was the Pack." I gave him a look of utter disbelief.

"Oh My God…" I trailed off into sob wrenching thought. "Billy died and I wasn't there for Jake. I wasn't there when he lost someone really close to him. I didn't stay true to my best friend title, Sam, He was hurting and I didn't help him like he always helped me… I fail… I fail…" Sam put a hand on my shoulder as I sat there on the ground. Edward growled but I ignored it… That was the last thing that he should be worried about. It was his fault after all… Alice spoke up suddenly as I dry sobbed.

"Bella you're bleeding" Edward stooped down next to me immediately and I raised my hand to where he was looking, my eyes. I felt under each of my eyes and sure enough I was crying tears of blood.

"Carlisle what is going on?" Edward demanded an answer and I sat there, shocked. I still found the ability to speak however.

"Edward in five years I've never had a reason to cry but I guess God has decided to be lenient on me today." I rose to my feet and started walking out of the clearing, Edward followed, he touched my shoulder but I shrugged it off. "Get your hands off me." I said it slowly and quietly without even turning around but when he tried to take my wrist I grew defensive. I turned around quickly and Edward didn't even have time to stop walking and proceeded to nearly walk into me. "I SAID DON'T TOUCH ME! YOU CAN'T SAVE ME FROM THIS! THE DAMAGE IS DONE!!!!!" I yelled it in his face and I ran away. I ran into the forest and away from the scene. I ran all the way back the way I'd come, passed the Cullen house and at least 50-60 miles from the Forks City limits. Then I sat, on a broken tree branch… Sure it wasn't broken until I got there but in my frustration I found that breaking though a tree trunk was like breaking a toothpick and I took that opportunity.

There I sat, staring out into the woods with great distain. I was crying my personal tears but I found that the more hours I spent crying the thirstier I got so I feasted off a nearby Deer.

I must have sat there in the forest for over 4 hours but finally I heard someone coming up behind me. I was preparing myself to yell at Edward again but as I turned around it was Alice who stood behind me.

"Bella?" She asked nervously like I would lash out at her too. She hadn't killed anyone today. I had no reason to be lash out at her.

"Alice." I said it under my breath half relieved, half disappointed.

"He's really sorry Bella, he won't come out of his room, he really really misses you and he wants to you to come home." I sighed.

"Where is home Alice? Is it where you came from, is it the place where you completely trust everyone? Because neither of those places are your house." Alice became agitated.

"Bella, home is where you have people who love you and you love them back. Edward is your Husband, he'll always be home to you and you'll always be home to him no matter where you go."

"I'm pretty sure that you only have to forgive her husband if the thing that they did wrong can be fixed in marriage counseling, I'm not sure killing your best friend counts…"

"Bella you're being ridiculous! He loves you and you love him! He made a mistake! And I think you yelling at him and then taking off for 4 hours pretty much taught him a lesson."

"I don't know when I'll be home, Alice, I don't know if I'm coming home…" She sighed once more.