Story of My Life
Chapter 25
Walking Away
Disclaimer: This is the last chapter, so this is the last time I'll have to tell you that I don't own Harry Potter. Kind of sad, really.
Sirius looked uncomfortable and didn't want to meet my eyes or answer my question. I grabbed his shirt and shook him. "Now you listen to me!" I began in a demanding and angry voice. "I have the right to know, and you will tell me!" I felt my eyes begin to fill up with tears.
Sirius finally met my big, brown orbs and became sad. "It's your father." He said in a whisper.
It felt like an eternity before the answer sunk in and I understood. I let go of him and looked down on the ground. I didn't want to look at Sirius anymore because I couldn't let him see me like this; weak. I turned my back to him and closed my eyes. A tear escaped them and dripped from my cheek to the floor. Another tear fell to the hard wooden floor, and another and another. "Leave." I demanded in a quiet tone, so it was almost not heard.
Sirius didn't answer. I heard him walk a few steps and I felt his hands on my shoulders. "I'm not leaving you." He said. His voice was so warm and kind, it soothed me. He caressed my cheek and I closed my eyes at his touch, it was so soft and caring. Another tear found its way down my cheek and Sirius brushed it gently away. He embraced me and laid his head on my shoulder. "I'll never leave you when you need me the most, Lyrae." He whispered in my ear.
"I know." I breathed as I let him comfort me. I turned around and buried my head in his shirt. Sirius led me to my bed and we sat down, my head still stuck on his chest. I cried and he just held me tight, never letting go.
"Get her to sleep, it's been a rough day." Ofelia said from her portrait on the wall.
I wasn't quite awake but I wasn't asleep. I felt Sirius tuck me in. He laid a blanket over me and kissed my forehead. "Sleep." He said as he rose from the bed.
I grabbed his arm. "No. Stay." I mumbled drowsy. I didn't want to be alone. He didn't say anything, just slid in under the blanket and wrapped his arm around me. I curled up next to him in his arms. "Thank you." I said as I drifted off to sleep.
I woke up and saw Sirius by my side. He had been there the whole night, watching over me. He was still asleep so I decided to go and get us some breakfast.
I got loose from Sirius' arm and walked downstairs to the kitchen to make us something to eat. The chef had already made breakfast so I smuggled some of it upstairs on a tray. Sirius was sound asleep and didn't hear me opening the door. I walked to the bed and laid the tray on it. I kissed Sirius on the lips and he stirred. I smiled, he would wake up.
Sirius grinned and opened his eyes. "I would like to wake up like this every day." He said with his goofy grin.
I kissed him again. "I bet you would." I got comfortable next to him and took a piece of toast. "Want some?" I asked Sirius.
"Mhm." He said as he took my toast.
"Hey, that was mine!" I exclaimed.
"Yeah, it was. Now it's mine." He smirked.
"You should be careful before I throw you out." I smirked myself.
Sirius kissed me. "You would never." He said as he continued to eat my toast. I shrugged; there was nothing I could do or would do, so I just took another piece of toast.
Once the food was gone I turned serious. "Sirius, why do we fight so much?" I asked him, frowning.
He looked at me with dead serious eyes. "Because, Lyrae, we're afraid." He answered.
"Afraid of what?"
"Of what is happening to us." He answered. "It's scary." He admitted to me.
I nodded. "It is." I agreed.
"It's scary to feel this for another person. I have never felt like this for anyone, and now I have all this strong feelings about you and it scares the crap out of me." Sirius said, cupping my cheeks. "All I want to do is love you."
I smiled. "I love you too." Sirius kissed me and didn't let go, just as he promised. When we finally broke apart, I smirked. "You know, you could have told me all this without mentioning the word crap." I chuckled.
Sirius grinned. "Yeah, I could." He laughed.
"You know what?" I asked him.
He shook his head. "No. What?" He asked.
"I could do with another kiss." I smiled all innocent.
"Yeah, me too." He said as he kissed me again. It feels so good, to be kissed by the person you love.
The door to my bedroom banged opened and Gregory stormed in. "What the hell is he doing here, Lyrae?" He demanded, shouting things he was going to do to Sirius.
"Well, err… he…" I was at a loss for words and it didn't help Sirius.
Gregory stepped closer to Sirius. "I thought I made myself clear." He said as he came closer.
"You did." Sirius replied coolly.
"Then what are you doing here?" Gregory asked, getting closer.
"I'm here for Lyrae. She needed me and I didn't plan on disappointing her." Sirius answered.
Gregory was right in front of Sirius now and he looked pretty angry. "You ruined her." He growled.
What? "Wow, wow, wow. Ruined me? What do you mean?" I asked him, stepping between him and Sirius.
Gregory seemed to get a bit shy. "Well, I found you two…err, in…err, bed." He finished stupidly.
I sighed. "It isn't your business what I do in bed or not. So butt out and don't go do stupid things like threaten my boyfriend." I exclaimed loudly.
"I'm your brother." He protested.
"I don't care." I said stubbornly. Gregory and I stared at each other.
"You both care!"
I looked at the door. "Oh. Hi, Kay." I greeted my other brother.
"Hello, Lyrae, and welcome home." Kay said as he stepped inside my room. He looked at Sirius and smiled a little. "Hello. You must be Sirius." He said as he walked towards him and held out his hand.
Sirius took it and shook it. "Sirius Black." He presented himself.
"If you'll excuse us, we have to talk to our sister." Kay walked back out and stopped in the doorway. "Well, are you coming?" He asked me and Gregory. We looked at each other and followed him out.
We walked down the hall to Gordan's office. Gordan is twenty-eight and my oldest brother. He has the common dark hair and blue eyes that the White boys have. Kay is twenty-six and he is the fair and good one of my brothers. Like all of my brothers he too has the dark hair and blue eyes. Gregory is my youngest brother, he is twenty-four. He too has dark hair and blue eyes. What separates my brothers is their features and personality. Gordan is noble and very proud. He's Father's assistant and will follow his steps to become Head of the Magical Law Enforcement office. Kay is the nicest of my brothers. He goes his own way and has succeeded. He is Head of the Auror department, something I am very proud of; I want to become an Auror myself. Gregory is very watchful and likes to keep an eye on things, that's why he's so protective, especially when it comes to me since I'm the youngest daughter of the Whites.
"There you are." Gordan said as we entered his office. "We need to talk." He said as he seated himself behind his desk.
"Why?" I asked.
"Do you know about our situation?" He asked, lacing his fingers. Kay and Gregory walked to the desk and sat down on two chairs in front of it.
"About me having to get married or Father dying?" I raised an eyebrow.
"So you know?" Gregory said, not at all surprised I did.
"Yes. Sirius had the decency to tell me, something you should have had." I said, angry at them for not telling me sooner. Inside I was sad and unhappy; Father was actually dying. Sirius told me yesterday but it was still so unbelievable. Father had always been this strong rock that no one could break and now he was soon to die!
Gordan, Kay and Gregory looked down and not at me. "Well." Gordan said, breaking his stare on the floor and meeting my eyes. "I guess you have figured out why you have to get married then?"
I sighed. "Yes I have." I answered glumly.
Kay seemed to be sad on my behalf. "Lyrae, I know it's a burden on your shoulders, but you know you don't have to do this." He said, trying to smile.
I nodded. "I know. But I have to. If I don't we'll lose everything." I replied seriously.
"What about Sirius?" Kay asked.
"What about him? My family is more important than a guy, right?" I chuckled sadly.
Kay rose from his chair and hugged me. "We're not more important than your happiness." He said as he let go of me. I didn't answer.
"Who's this Sirius I've been hearing about from your sisters?" Gordan asked protectively; he was like Gregory, trying to protect the youngest family member.
"He's my boyfriend." I replied. "Was my boyfriend." I corrected myself after a second thought. I got a sad and miserable look on my face. I didn't look at my brothers but I could feel them looking at each other with concerned eyes.
"I don't like the fact that he's here. In your bedroom. With you." Gordan said clumsy.
"Nor do I." Gregory concurred.
"It's not up to you! If I want him here, he's staying!" I informed them.
All of my brothers sighed in unison. "Lyrae, you're so naïve." Gregory said.
"Yes, Lyrae. Men only care and think about one thing." Gordan said.
"Don't listen to them, Lyrae, they're just jealous." Kay said with a grin.
"I don't care what anyone of you think!" I said as I exited the room in a calm and civilized manner.
I walked back up stairs and to my bedroom. I didn't see Sirius anywhere, until I checked the wardrobe. He was in my wardrobe! WHAT THE HELL!?
I coughed to make my presence known. Sirius turned and saw me. "Oh. Hi." He said as he continued to look in my closet.
"Err, Sirius? What are you doing?" I said, uncertain if I wanted to know the answer.
"Nothing." He replied. "Just looking." He said.
"Okay." I said slowly. I decided to join him and grinned when I saw why he was so interested in my wardrobe. "I've never worn it before. Maybe I should try it out sometime."
Sirius' face lit up and he grinned like an idiot. "Yeah, you definitely should, it would look great on you." He said and held up my red, laced bra and panty.
"Down boy." I chuckled, turning around and sitting down on my bed.
Sirius got a sad look on his face. He walked over and sat down next to me. His sad look disappeared to be replaced with a serious one. "What do we do now?" He asked with a frown.
I shrugged. "We'll have fun for a while and then we'll return to reality where life sucks." I lay down on my bed, watching the ceiling. Sirius did the same.
"I don't want to return to reality. I want to stay with you forever." He said as he kissed my cheek.
"I know and nor do I. But this is something I have to do." I said, determined but sad.
"I know." He sighed.
"I know that you do, and I love you for it." I said as I rose from the bed.
Together, Sirius and I walked downstairs and to the entrance hall. I opened the door. Sirius gave me one last look telling me how he felt without saying the words, and kissed me briefly on the lips. Neither of us needed to say a word because we both knew, we both loved each other like we had never done before. Sirius and I stared at one another, memorizing each other's face. I kissed him one last time to remember how he tasted and felt like before he walked out of my life. He walked out the door and I watched him as he turned to a little black dot in the horizon and disappeared. I was once again alone.
I smiled; I was maybe alone but I was still loved by my one true love, and I had had the best year of my life. And Sirius' and my path would cross again next year. Who knows what may happen? I can't wait!
The End
AN:
Hi!
This was the end of this fic! I promised myself I wouldn't cry ¤ wips away a tear ¤ But the story goes on in "Story of My Life 2."
I hope you've enjoyed this as much as I have and that you'll read the sequel to this fic. I know that many of you probably didn't like the ending, but remember that I have to have something to write in the sequel and many questions will be answered there, just so you know.
Thanks to all of my reviewers and readers, I love you all. I really hope that all of you who have read this story will review now since this was the last chapter, I would really appreciate it! Thanks for sticking around!
-FayTheLioness-