When I got to Kong Noodle and Russel were already waiting for me outside. Russel looks different; like kind of a bit heavier and sort of almost like he's depressed or just not himself anymore. I didn't ask him about it because I didn't really want to upset him or something like that; I think I'll ask him later. Noodle has grown so much!
Her hair is all purple and kind of long and she's real tall now and mature looking. It's crazy how much she's grown since the last time that I've seen her. She's less little sister and more big sister now, plus her English is way better than it was when she was little.
She told me that when she had gotten to Kong the place was over run with demons and zombies. She wasn't really sure why they were all there, but it was insane and before she had called any of us she had taken care of what she could. She cleared the kitchen, two of the bathrooms, our bedrooms, salvaged Murdoc's shag wagon, and cleared out the recording studio and living room. There was still a lot more, she said Russel had helped her a bit when he had gotten there the day before.
So that's how we spent our first real day all back together, well all of us except for Murdoc. Nobody had heard from him and I didn't say about him drunk calling me at my mom's house or even calling me when I had been on my way back to Kong. I sort of hope he won't show at all, is that wrong of me?
I don't know how I feel about him or how I'll feel when I see him again.
Anyway like I said the place was, still sort of is over run. We took out a lot of them last night and burned them in a huge pit out behind of Kong Studios. When that was all finished up Noodle said she's been working on songs and lyrics and all kinds of stuff since getting there because she has a ton of ideas, but she refuses to show or tell us until Murdoc gets here or until he says he just isn't coming at all.
So we ordered some take out, caught up a little bit. Everybody seems a little distance. Russel didn't talk too much and Noodle told us a bit about how she found the man who basically created her and about how she's actually a product of a child army in Japan and how she was going to be killed because they changed their minds about the experiment. Yet this bloke hid her and raised her a bit then sent her to us so they couldn't hurt her. Crazy isn't it?
I'm glad he did save her and send her to us, she's such a great kid.
Right now I'm in my bedroom. Doesn't look much different; a little fucked up because of the zombies that had been roaming around in her, but other than that the same pile of junk it had been before I went to my parents' house.
I keep thinking about Murdoc; I hadn't thought about him much, well um…Okay I had been thinking about him, even having dreams about him. Not bad ones, the kind where he doesn't hate me or want me six feet under in a crappy wooden box. The kind of dreams where he's kissing me and holding me and everything is passionate and crazy great and he's telling me I'm beautiful and that I'm not totally useless and stupid and he even tells me that he loves me too.
Stupid dreams, stupid fucking dreams.
I don't want to see him, I can't see him because I don't know if I'll want to take him to the restroom and shag him sodding brains out or if I'll want to punch him in the throat.