I was the beauty and he was the beast. I was the rose and he was the thorn. I love him with all of my heart but he wanted to push me away. Now I would follow him into the darkness, hoping he would give me a glance.

Summary

A beautiful girl with a secret she needed to keep. Who would ever accept that Katharine Keeler was in love with Severus Snape? Not her friends and especially not her mother. After a year of passion and romance he pushes her away and instead of running she follows him to the darkest part of his life. She wants to be with him, she wants him to love her and she would do anything for him. Even if that meant risking her own life.

Dark-charmerxo: First off sorry for the delay this weekend! The past few weekends have been crazy and even this coming weekend I will be away all Saturday so there will likely be a bit of wait for the next chapter. I am pretty happy the way this chapter turned out. Like I have mentioned before, what happens in this chapter has been planned out pretty much since I started writing. Thank you for all the wonderful readers and everyone who is alerting and liking the story! Also big thanks to Rachel who reviewed again (Sorry I just HAD to keep everyone hanging LOL). Anyways happy reading!

For a few moments I stood frozen to the spot with my hand was still against my mouth. I could feel my eyes was still widened at the realization of who was kneeling in front of me and what I was being asked to do.

"Come now, this is what you wanted isn't it?" The Dark Lord was in front of me now, blocking the sight of Addison, his grin making the acid in my stomach rise. But this wasn't what I expected or wanted to really do. I could tell from the look in his eye, even without him saying anything, he knew more about my story than I would have wanted him too.

I finally lowered my hand to my side, the limb shaking slightly and turned my eyes to the ground, not wanting to look at him anymore as he found pleasure in my suffering.

"You must realize Katharine that I wasn't lying when I told you I know everything. " Suddenly, his hand was on my chin, forcing me to look back up at him again. This was the closest I had been to him and I could see how hard and cold his eyes truly were.

"I know your loyalties lie no more with me than they do with your mother. You did all of this for Severus, not because you believe what we believe or feel how we feel."

I went to protest but my voice got caught up in my throat. My body trembled now, no matter how much I willed it to stop and the tears were starting to form. I was terrified of what was to become of me now that he told me what he knew. I had betrayed him from the very beginning when I promised to serve only him.

If I didn't die right then and there, I was sure he was going to have something else in store for me.

"No need to be afraid. If I wanted to kill you, you would have already been dead. I am merely trying to get you to open your eyes and understand how much potential you truly have. I want you to learn from your mistakes. This isn't a gift I give out easily. You must know that."

Somehow I found my voice, shaky and weak. "What potential do I have?"

"That this is where you should be. Not because Severus lead you but because you belong here. It's in your blood, your true nature. You were always meant to be apart of this Katharine, despite your mother trying to shelter you from it."

"I…"

"No need to hide it anymore. Not from me."

I knew he was right. There was no reason to keep anything away from him anymore. He probably knew more about me and my past better than I did.

"If I belong here, then why make me do this?"

"You know why Katharine." he moved away from me so I could see Addison again, her pleading eyes burning into my flesh like lasers. He was behind me now, his breath hot against my skin as he spoke.

"You need to let go of that life you lead before. You need to let go of your job, your family and your mudblood friends." He moved over to Addison and stared down at her. She looked straight into his eyes, unafraid. The action making my stomach knot even more. Addison wasn't afraid of him, she was being strong.

I wish I had her strength.

"Everyone important to you thinks you're weak. Your mother, your stupid mudblood friend…" he took a step forward. "Especially Severus thinks you don't belong here."

I knew it but hearing the confirmation leaking out of the Dark Lord's mouth made the fire bubble inside of me. All my life I had been babied by everyone and even the man who I thought was in love with me, kept me hidden like a sheltered puppy. They had all made it clear to me that I would never be able to do anything I would put my mind too.

"Prove them wrong."

I wanted to prove them wrong, show them who I truly was. I was going to have control over my life and there was no one who could stop me. Every breath I took was filled with rage and determination. There was finally someone who was seeing my strength and my power, someone who believed in me.

Still, it didn't make this task any easier.

The Dark Lord reached over and ripped the gag from Addison's mouth. She let out a powerful scream before turning her attention to me. Her speech was frantic but with a purpose, she was always good with staying under pressure.

"Katharine!" she took in large gulps of air. "I've been so worried about you! We all have! I didn't know what happened to you and your mother wouldn't respond to me. Please help me!"

Hearing her voice, begging for help made it all too real. I couldn't feel the tears slowly starting to form again but pushed them out. I needed to be strong and in control.

I reached into my pocket, feeling the hardness of my wand and slowly pulled it out. I would have to use it, even if I decided to turn against the Dark Lord and try to escape with Addison. He would get a fight from me if my heart was in it.

Even still, I knew my mind was already made up.

"Katharine please! You are like my sister! We can escape from here! Get you help to hide away from this monster."

I caught the Dark Lord's eye and I realized that even if I ran from him I would never truly be away. I had taken the mark, a vow to be called upon whenever he needed me. Slowly I rolled up my sleeve and exposed my arm, showing it to Addison.

"There is no hiding from him. We would never get away."

For a moment, her eyes were wide as she looked at the mark and then a flash of anger crossed her face. "So that's it! You're going to let me die here? I am your best friend! You can't possibly be considering this!"

I gripped my wand tighter.

"Severus knew." The Dark Lord's voice came from nowhere. "He knew my plans and did he come to warn you? Did he tell you who I was bringing here and what I wanted you to do? Do you think this mudblood would have saved you?"

There was a chance he was lying, but when I looked right at him, something inside me told me it was the truth. Severus never wanted me to be here. He was probably hoping I'd fail and be killed.

"Do this Katharine and I will know where your true intentions lie. You will no longer be weighed down by the shame of not being good enough. Do this and I will never doubt you again."

"Oh my god. All of this for Severus Snape?" Addison's anger almost had her foaming at the mouth. "You did all this for a man? You're so pathetic you know that? All those people in school were right about you! You're weak Katharine!"

Deep down I knew that it was only her fear talking but, the words released a surge of anger that was at its boiling point. Everyone in my old life, did see me as weak and fragile, a woman unable to keep herself afloat. Now here the Dark Lord was, giving me a way to prove myself to everyone. Something that had never been given to me before.

"You bitch." she was wailing at the top of her lungs now as I circled around her, taking a spot next to the Dark Lord. I didn't want to see her eyes as the lights went out or her face contorted in horror as the act I was committing.

"I fucking hate you! I never loved you! You will rot in hell! You deserve everything you get!"

I felt like I had floated away from my body, my mind was going blank and my arms felt heavy as I lifted the wand up.

This wasn't about Severus anymore, this wasn't about my mother or my best friend. This was about wandering through life never feeling like I belong in the world my mother had carefully created for me. Always knowing that there was something missing but never being able to put my finger on it. In a short amount of time, this place had became my home, I had found myself a family and for once, I felt like the missing piece have been found.

This wasn't about them anymore.

This was about me.

"I hope you remember this night for the rest of your life Katharine Keeler." her words were full of venom.

I heard the Dark Lord laughing and then whispering the words I needed to say into my ear even though I knew them by heart. It was the curse we had been warned about, the one that would land you in Azkaban for the rest of your days.

"Avada Kedavra."

I felt nothing as her body hit the ground with a loud thud and I felt nothing as he laid his hand on my shoulder and told me what a good job I did.

"You belong to Severus no more. You are a true Death Eater now."

His words meant nothing even as he dismissed me and sent me back into the house to climb up the stairs alone. My body felt as if it was on autopilot while the driver was taking a nap. I saw Lacey waiting in my bed with a worried expression. She called out to my a few times.

I didn't respond, laying there for awhile until she came back into view.

She was getting frustrated with me, yanking me up and shaking my shoulders. Screaming in my face, even slapping me once. The slap should have stung but I couldn't feel anything, not even physical pain.

Suddenly I was being moved and pushed into the bathroom. My clothes were being torn off and the shower was being turned on. I was put underneath the water, the drops falling over my hair and into my eyes. Someone pushed the hair away from my face.

"Katharine!" Lacey's voice was clear now as she stood in front of me, naked as I was. Her hands were on my shoulder, trembling as she dug her fingers into my flesh. "Please speak to me!"

I locked eyes with her and she began to cry out. "You're back!"

"I'm sorry…" Slowly I felt the water begin to tingle on my back. I blinked a few times and rubbed more water away from my face. "I didn't realize I was…" my words trailed off as the water began to sting more.

"What the hell happened?" she gripped my cheeks with both of her hands. "What did he do to you?"

"He didn't…" I searched for the words but nothing made sense in my jumbled mind. "I just…"

A cold chill ran through my body as bits and pieces came back to me. Lacey was shaking me again, trying to get me to listen to her but I couldn't stop the flashes of memories. Nothing had felt real in that moment. It had been like a movie.

"What happened?" her voice was softer now and she let go of my face.

My mouth was running dry as I watched myself raising my wand over and and over again, the Dark Lord laughing behind me. My stomach began to twist over and over again until I tasted something sour in my mouth.

"I hope you remember this night for the rest of your life Katharine Keeler!"

"I killed her." Emotions started flying towards me all at once and I couldn't stop them. "Oh god I killed her!"

"Wait...killed who?"

I didn't have a chance to answer. Lacey jumped back as I began to gag and empty my stomach into the shower, unable to stop the sobs that were coming with it. All I could see was her face, over and over again.

"Katharine!" Was the last thing I heard before everything went dark.