A/N: OMG GUYS! We're almost done with this series!

2nd to last chapter ='(

Renesmee's POV

I was tired, but somehow wide awake at the same time. Carlisle said it was because of the drugs he had me on to ward off the pain but I think it was just the thrill of being alive again. I was so happy to be back and with my family!

Even the pack was here! Seth came barreling in this afternoon like the forest was on fire and as soon as he cleared it with my family, scooped me in one of the largest most comforting hugs I'd gotten since coming back. He then proceeded to make my pain go away by making me laugh until my stomach hurt. Seth had always been good at that.

I was glad to see Jacob had help from the pack to get through this; I could only imagine what he was going through. And when he walked in holding Leah's hand, I knew he'd be okay. He had a good support system. And if I had to beat it into him, I would reassure him that I'm here to stay.

My throat hurt enough to leave my voice hoarse at best and my throat burned when I talked. But I was cool enough to spend some time in Jake's arms. I would suffer through it. So he just held me as I slept a little more then sat with me as I watched a movie to get my mind off of the pain in my neck.

Chiyo suggested I stay inside for a few days and rest up- you know, let my body recoup. And though I was looking forward to being able to spend a lot of time with Jake and my family, I wasn't so sure about this whole "no talking" thing.

"Yeah good luck with that." Mama teased lightly after Chiyo made the suggestion. She poked me in the rib as I sat curled in Jake's lap. I couldn't help but laugh.

"A day or two and it won't hurt so bad, but until then not speaking will help you heal faster." Chiyo continued. I thought for a second then nodded solemnly. I guess it was back to using my gift all the time.

I reached my hand out to Mama and she rested her hand against it. I told her I was thirsty and she bustled off to get me a glass of water. And though my family was around me all the time, I was left alone with Jake while my aunts and Grandma made themselves busy making a meal for me and the pack. Dad, Grandpa and Chiyo had just left to prepare another dose of medicine to dull the pain.

I took my opportunity to show Jake how happy I was that he was here. I pressed my hand against his cheek and showed him a few images of how happy I was to be back. And when he opened his eye my lips were covering his.

But strangely, he pulled back. Twin lines creased above my brow. I tried to kiss him again but he moved away so I failed again.

"Jake," I whispered hoarsely but he stopped me.

"I'm glad your back too, trust me I'm really happy. But-" he was cut off when Mama popped back in the room with a glass of water in her hand. She reached out to me and I took it willingly, gulping down the entire thing.

When I gave the glass back to my mother, our fingers brushed and I used the opportunity to tell her I needed some time alone with Jake.

"I'm going to check on dinner and get you another glass of water to have on the nightstand. I'll be back in a bit." she lied, swiftly sneaking out of the room.

I waited until she was completely gone before I shifted in my seat to face Jacob. I was about to chew him out- mentally because I'm not supposed to talk- but he grabbed my face roughly and kissed me hungrily.

His mouth was hard and determined against mine and his hands were unbreakable against my face. I pulled at his neck and plastered myself to him; begging for more. He forced my mouth open and his hot breath poured into my mouth and I could taste him on my tongue. Though my fight for life was arduous, it was minute compared to the aggressive way Jake was suddenly kissing me.

The bomb within us was slow to build and fierce to release. I moaned as it exploded within the confines of our mouths and Jacob pulled at me for more. We'd never gone this far before; our relationship had never been this…hot before. Jake was usually so sweet and kind with me. All of a sudden he was belligerent and fervent and the way he was kissing me was almost malevolent. Seconds ago I was beseeching. Now I found myself pulling away from Jake's vicious kiss.

Jake pulled at me harder but I successfully broke free of his grasp and crashed to the floor in my efforts. Suddenly, the room was full of people; Dad, Mom, Chiyo, my aunts, my uncles, grandma and grandpa, even Seth and Leah were suddenly standing over me.

"What's wrong?" they all asked in different manners. Seth helped me upright and Alice quickly fixed my hair while Rosalie righted my outfit. Everyone's face was pinched in worry. Carlisle was about to reach out and check my neck when I pulled away.

"Nothing. I'm fine." I hoarsely whispered as I pulled back. I wasn't sure what the look on my face was but Mama looked to Jacob before she looked back at me questioningly.

"Are you sure?" Dad, Seth and Carlisle asked at once. I nodded as convincingly as I could manage but a few people didn't believe me. The men did and Dad, Carlisle, Seth and my uncles left with a weary glance over their shoulders but my aunts, Mama and Chiyo stayed. Alice reached for my hand.

"Come, I want to show you something." she sang with a enchanted look in her eye. I took her hand and let her lead me out of the room. Her and Rosalie lead me down the hall to one of the unoccupied gust rooms. Chiyo flitted to the door and opened, gesturing to the length of the room.

What is this? I asked to Alice with my hand in hers. She smiled at me as Chiyo danced about the room joyously. I caught on and gaped at Alice.

"We're letting Chiyo stay here with us. We've been working on her room while you were resting these last two days." Rosalie chimed with a smile. As I slowly took register of the reality, a smile spread on my face.

Then I bounced to Chiyo and wrapped her in a hug. My new sister.

Jake's POV

I watched Nessie fall. I watched her tell everyone off. Then I watched her leave. I saw Bella stay behind but I didn't know why.

I saw all of this but none of it registered in my mind. I was watching with gray eyes until Bella spoke up.

"What the hell were you thinking?" she barked quietly at me and I looked up to see her furious face. I just shrugged. To be frank, I didn't know what I was thinking. "That was, by far, one of the dumbest things you've ever done, Jacob Black. How dare you kiss her like that?"

"I don't know, Bella."

"Yes you do! You know why, and I know why you did that." Bella murmured and I looked up surprised. No way she really knew.

Bella's face softened and she took a seat next to me on the bed. "Jake, I get that you feel guilty over this. I understand the culpability you feel; but, Jake, this wasn't your fault."

"I should have been able to protect her, Bells. I should have been able to save her." I whispered dejectedly. Bella grabbed my hand in her little white fingers.

"Does not matter. What matters is that there's a girl in the room down the hall who needs you and wants you. You can't push her away now. And of all people, Jake, you should know pulling something like that with Nessie isn't going to push her away. Its only going to raise questions your not ready to answer." Bella whispered sincerely and I sighed. She was right. Getting a tad violent with Nessie wasn't going to work…I need to do something different.

"Promise me you won't do that again? Because I will kick your ass mutt." Bella threatened darkly, looking me in the eye. I nodded.

"Sure sure, Bella. I won't kiss Nessie like that again." I agreed but was too lost in thought to hear her next words as she got up and shuffled out of the room.

I laid back in the bed to think.

Being rough wasn't going to work with Ness. She needed a different reason to hate me. Something worse. Something more thorough. Something she couldn't ask questions about. I needed a plan. Because I can't have Nessie in danger anymore and I can't keep her safe when I'm too concerned with the feel of her skin and the pattern of her hips.

I needed to figure out a way to be around Ness without being with her.

I needed to figure out a way to end things with the girl I love.

A/N: Obvious use of a thesaurus in this chapter LOL. And sorry for another cliffy but the next chapter I have planned is going to be long so I decided to end it here.

Okay, so we're nearing the end. I'm almost done with this Renesmee/Jacob story so this next chapter will be a little bit different since I'll be winding down the story. I'm sad to see this story go but I feel like I'm leaving it in a good place. ONLY ONE MORE CHAPTER! =(