Ben and Jessica paid for the honeymoon, since we did the on spring break, we decided to stay there for only a week.
5 days before the wedding
"What about the Bahamas?" Jessica suggested as we all sat around the table, "I dont know-" Seth began, my stomach turned, Ben and Jessica were already paying for half the wedding. "OH EUROPE! Italy, Paris, like a whole world tour!" Ben shouted, "STOP!" I finally said everyone looked at me, "why not Florida?" "Florida?" They all said together. "Babe why Florida?" Seth asked, "well I have never been to Disney World, neither have you Seth, and this would be good to check out FSU again," everyone thought for a moment, "and it's cheaper," I threw in there. "If that's what you want baby, then that's what we are going to do," Seth said his arm tightened around me as his lips touched my forehead. All I really wanted was for him to be mine, and I didnt care if we where we went, as long as we were together, to me, was a honeymoon all in itself.
We flew down to Florida that night, "Ah, a bed," I said as we settled into the very nice hotel room, with one bed, I just shook my head Jessica, she would I thought. I suddenly felt Seth's arms around my waist, "I love you Summer Clearwater," "hm, Summer Clearwater, I love the sound of that," I whispered. I always thought it felt good, Seth's warm lips on my skin, but this was a different kind of kiss. It started at my lips, then slowly and gracefully moved down to my neck, "Seth?" I said breathlessly, my heart was throbbing in my throat, his head popped up, "yes? What is it?" "I didnt say stop," he smiled, but stayed where he was, "I...I love you," "I love you more," he whispered and continued. I was ready for him, I was his and he was mine. Tonight I would give him everything, I thought I had before, but something makes this different, and I was...I was okay with that.
I remember what had happen to my parents like it was yesterday. I remember getting the call about what had happened. Most people say at first it's like a dream. Well they aren't lying, I almost wanted to laugh at the police officer and tell him April fools day was last month. I knew better then that. Once I got to the hospital, everyone was there, my grandmother, Ben and Jessica, other relatives. I ran right to my grandmother and Jessica. "It's not true," I cried, my grandmother just shook her head, "sweetheart, your father...he's gone," I shook my head, this couldnt be happening, I didnt want it to happen. They took me in to see my mother. She was lying there, sleeping, her head bandaged the rest of her body was covered by a sheet. The heart monitor beeping playing in my head. It felt like years before I reached her, I tried not to cry, I tried to be strong. "Mom," my voice was shaking, "mom, I know you cant. you cant hear me, but I..." I paused, taking her hand, "I love you, and you need to be strong mom, just like you would always tell me be strong," the tears slowly fell, "please for me." It wasn't till an hour or so later that she opened her eyes. "Momma," I said as she turned to me, and smiled, she was so beautiful, she took my hand and whispered, "my baby," her soft voice seemed to bring joy to my heart, "thank you momma, thank you for being strong, your alright now...right?" she just continued to smile, I didnt even believe that I said that. I began to cry, "oh baby, please," I looked up at her, "what do you want me to do momma," her hand softly brushed my cheek. "I want you to smile," it took all my strength but I did what she said, "you are beautiful Summer," she paused, "I have to go now," I shook my head, "momma, please, dont go," "baby your father needs me," my heart hurt more. "Will you promise me something Summer," "anything momma," she took a breath, "promise to keep smiling," I began to cry, "your father and I love you, goodbye Summer," and before I knew it right infront of my eyes, she was asleep, she was gone. "Goodbye...Momma."
I remembered that night as I stared off the balcony and into the sunset. "What are you thinking about?" Seth asked as he came up behind me wrapping his arms around me. That safe, warm feeling washed over me, I love that feeling. " About my mom, what happened," I turned to him placing my arms on his chest, "about you," he smile my heart stopped. I couldn't help but smile, it seems automatic every time I look at him. "You are so beautiful," he whispered, "I love you so much Summer, have I ever told you that?" I giggled, "once or twice," "your parents did a good job," he paused, "they brought one amazing person into this world." I knew I couldn't hang on to that memory, it'll always haunt me, but I know now, that I can face it, I can face anything...because I have hope...because I have something to hope for.