Chapter Twenty Five
Jasper
I knew she'd seen me watching her at dinner but I couldn't help myself, I'd waited so long to get this close and I was making the most of it. Her words were very cryptic and I wasn't sure if I were hearing the right message but I had to try, hoping Charlotte's words were true. In the elevator I made my first move kissing her and hoping she would kiss me back. She did and the heat in my body exploded, she was my mate, only a mate could cause such a reaction so quickly. Her arms came around my neck pulling me closer and I heard her heart beating faster. All too soon the elevator stopped and the doors slid open so reluctantly we parted and walked to her room. I unlocked the door and stood aside for her, she went in and turned, was she expecting another kiss, one kiss goodnight? My whole body was aflame, lit up like a Roman candle with love and excitement.
Bella
The kiss hadn't lasted anywhere near long enough and we both wanted more. As he opened the door and stood aside for me I knew the next move would be down to me so I turned. His eyes were dark and filled with a longing that called to me.
"Will you come in?"
He nodded and followed me into the room as I took off my jacket and threw it over the chair, more by luck than judgement as I hadn't stopped looking at him!
"Will the others be expecting you back soon?"
"Yes but they'll be disappointed if they see me"
"Why?"
"Because they know how I feel...about you"
"Oh, and what do they say about that?"
He laughed and took his jacket off dropping it on top of mine and walking forward to pull me into his arms.
"Peter thinks I'm crazy and Charlotte says why fight fate."
I felt the breath leave my body as he took me in his arms and pulled me tight, kissing me again more hungrily this time.
"Do you think you should fight fate?"
"I know you can't win. I've fought fate for the last three years and haven't won yet"
"Then don't fight any longer"
I wrapped my arms around his waist pulling him close as we kissed again and again, each kiss more hungry than the last and I could feel his arousal against me, my own ache was driving me mad but we needed to slow down just a little.
"Jasper sit down"
He allowed me to break loose of his embrace and sat on the edge of the bed looking worried, his eyes still so dark they were like pools of obsidian.
"I have to be honest with you, I'm very attracted to you, I want to...well let things progress but I need to know if it's just a game to you. I can live with that but I'd rather know now than find it out later when it will hurt more"
Jasper
I listened to her words and saw the damage that Edward had done to her, far more than I had realized. Bella had drifted since Edward left her, there were no real emotions any more or none that felt real to me. She had toyed with the idea of Jake for a while but never seriously considered him as more than a friend, then he even blew that. When she got to college I watched knowing there were so many guys there someone must appeal to her. When she started seeing Jude I didn't understand what was going on, there were still no real emotions there, she was still acting the part and he made a good partner, he never asked for too much and accepted the role play she acted out for him although I think he hadn't seen just how false was the act she put on until it was too late. Even in bed there was nothing, I felt disgusted with myself listening in but I justified my actions by telling myself as soon as I felt the first signs of love in her I would leave. Nothing came though. Bella didn't think she would ever feel real love again, she was convinced Edward had ripped the heart out of her. Now here with me she didn't trust herself, not because she wanted to play a part but because finally she felt something real and that scared her, so she tried to insulate herself from more hurt.
I took her hands in mine and pulled her over to stand between my legs putting my head on her stomach,
"Bella I'm not playing a game. I've been watching you for the past three years because I couldn't bear to be away from you, it hurts too much. I wont ask anything of you that you can't give me willingly but this isn't a game, not on my part."
I felt her hands stroking my hair and sighed in pleasure, any show of affection from her set my body tingling, my dead heart almost beating once more.
"Thank you for that Jasper. I have no idea where this is leading but I'd like to try...will you stay?"
"Of course, I'm not going anywhere Bella."
"No, I mean will you stay here with me, instead of going to Peter's tonight."
All my dreams were coming true in a single moment,
"I would love to".
We stayed like that for a few minutes before Bella pulled free,
"I need a few minutes"
I nodded and watched as she went into the bathroom, I could feel she was nervous, excited, and concerned, all emotions churning around and knew how she felt because the same emotions were flying around in my own body. I could do this, I could control myself, I could make love to Bella without hurting her, I just needed to be careful, remember she was a human and fragile. My cell phone buzzed and I took it out of my pocket expecting it to be a rude message from Peter but no, it was my nemesis Alice.
"If you do this it will mean the end."
The end of what? I had no idea what Alice was getting at, all I knew was that she was dead set against Bella and I starting a relationship. I sent one back angrily,
"Explain or go to hell"
There was a long wait then she replied.
"Sleep with Bella and you will fall. You and your friends. You have no idea what you are about to unleash."
It still didn't make any sense.
"Make sense"
"DONT"
I wiped the messages and turned my phone off, if Alice knew something she wasn't willing to share the details. I had no idea where she was or what she was doing since we split up but I was sure this was pettiness on her side. As I put my phone on the dresser the door opened and Bella walked back in wearing only a towel and drying her hair. I felt the pull even more strongly now and my body was screaming for hers.