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Chapter 25
Surgeons are detail oriented. We like statistics and checklists and operating procedures. Our patients live because we enjoy following the steps. But, as much as we love to always rely on the numbers, the plan, we also know that some of the greatest medical discoveries have happened by accident. Mold- penicillin, poisonous tree bark- a cure for malaria, a little blue pill for high blood pressure- impotence pre-empted... It's hard for us to accept that's not always the hard work or attention to detail that get us the answers we're looking for. Sometimes, we just have to sit back, relax and wait a happy accident.
Meredith sat down on the chair on the opposite side of the table. She knew that the board had met a few hours earlier and asked "You wanted to see me?"
Richard sighed and looked at a sheet of paper. "I'm sorry to tell you, but the board has decided to remove you permanently. The board met this morning and discussed the matter with me. We feel that a suspension would send the wrong message." Meredith heard the word subconscienciously and hundreds of thoughts rushed through her head ‚She was fired, what would she do, what would Derek say, what would the other say' while Richard continued to inform her „They looked at your file and they remembered the incident with the LVAD wire, they saw the note from Dr. Miller where you and Karev took his patient to the OR without his consent, they looked at this incident and Meredith, I told you not to wheel patient around the hospital . We feel that what you did disgraced the hospital, the profession." End. He had stopped talking and Meredith looked at Richard.
She laughed "I disgraced the hospital by bringing a mother to see her child?" She couldn't imagine how stupid that sounds.
"You're no longer a doctor at Seattle Grace. You're fired, effective immediately, I'm very sorry Meredith. They didn't care about the circumstances. You crossed a line here and it wasn't the first time. There have to have to be consequences." Richard said and looked down at this paper.
"Fine. I'll go now. Goodbye." Meredith got up from her seat and started to walk out of the room.
"Fine? This is clearly not fine." Dr. Webber yelled „You just got fired. Does being a doctor mean so little to you?"
„It doesn't Richard, I love being a doctor, but I guess there's nothing I can do about it. Your decision is final and you don't have to look into my face anymore, into the face that resembles her face. That's why…" Meredith said shaking with tears.
„I can help you to find a job somewhere else, Meredith." Richard assured her, but Meredith was sure it had been him who had insisted on firing her. She snapped. "Are you asking this as my boss or my mother's ex lover slash half sister's bio dad? It is fine, Dr. Webber, I'll pick up the kids from day-care now and go to the park with them and I don't need your help."
"Meredith, let me help you" Richard insisted and Meredith turned around. Her eyes focused Richard.
"Chief, Dr. Webber, respectfully, I don't think as of now this what I choose to do or not do is any of your business. I can find a new job without your help and even if I don't, I don't have to be a surgeon, I'm a mother and I enjoy being a mother. I'm not like my mother or my sister. I'll go now. Good bye."
After Meredith had left the room he sat down on his chair and looked at the directive in front of him. Ellis would hate him and right now he hated himself because he was sure if he had pushed the board harder to keep her like he had done for Isobel Stevens after the LVAD incident they would have listened to him, but now things were said and done.
Meredith was walking down the hall when Cristina caught up with her „I misdiagnosed Harper Avery in front of Harper Avery. Do you know what that does to my chances of one day winning a Harper Avery award now?" He had been brought into the ER accompanied by Jackson after experiencing abdominal pain and was now laying in an ER bed waiting to be admitted.
„Well, he could die before then. I mean, he could die today even." Meredith suggested and added „I was fired. The board fired me"
„Is it true Harper Avery is here?" Lexie approached them.
"So George walked in on her naked this morning while she got it on with Alex." Meredith told Cristina.
„Meredith! What?" Lexie coughed.
"Oh, I'm just cheering her up. She's having a bad day. Be generous." Meredith stated. In fact all of them have had a bad day so far.
"You are having a bad day. We are all having a bad day." Cristina nodded and another man approached the circle of women.
„Bad day? Well Yang, I heard you met Harper Avery." Derek chuckled. Cristina's clumsy attempt to impress Harper Avery with her limited knowledge in general surgery had been discussed everywhere around the hospital.
„Did you know that pretty boy's grandfather was God?" Cristina asked Derek.
„Yes, Meredith told me right after the merger. It's kind of cool that she told me and not you, though." Derek explained.
"You knew?" Cristina asked him and looked at Meredith.
"I know a lot of things" Meredith smiled.
„No, it's not cool. Okay, he's an entitled brat with no skills except for a really good bloodline" Cristina said.
„It is not Jackson's fault that he's related to Harper Avery." Meredith stated.
„Oh, whatever, Ellis Grey's daughter." Cristina coughed.
„Huh? How do I look? " Derek wondered and put on a tie.
„What, are you nervous?" Meredith laughed.
„He's one of the most powerful surgeons in the country." Derek insisted.
„He's just a guy who happens to have an award named after him." Meredith said.
„Whatever, Ellis Grey's daughter." Derek said and kissed her cheek „You want to meet him too."
„I met him before and I have to go." Meredith said. After Derek had left Cristina leaned over to Meredith „Where are you going?" Cristina asked „I mean you have to hand over your pager and ID card to HR now, but after that"
„Home, to the park, wherever, I was fired I can go wherever I want. Well, first I'm going to complete my leftover charts, but after that I'm going home." Meredith sighed.
„What?" Cristina wondered. She was surprised she had not expected Meredith to go out without fight.
„Fired as in no longer working here." Meredith repeated.
„I'm not stupid. I know what fired means. I may have misdiagnosed god, but I'm not stupid. Have you told Derek?" Cristina asked.
„No. He doesn't even know about the suspension. I'm lucky he's been too caught up in his research recently – whatever that is about..." Meredith smiled „I'll see how Zola is doing. The kids are the only thing I can feel good about right now and maybe this is a blessing in disguise. I mean now I get to spend all this time with my kids."
Meredith sat on the floor at day-care with Christopher and Zola beside her. "Zola, peekaboo. Peekaboo" she giggled when Janet approached her. She turned her head and said "Hi, Janet."
Janet smiled and greeted her „Hey, Meredith. I'm just finishing up your home study, and I thought I'd check and see how Zola's doing? "
"She is doing great." Meredith smiled. She was still wearing her light blue scrubs holding on to the notion that everything would somehow turn out to be fine.
„I figured you'd be busy today." Janet said surprised. She was right. The ER was packed and most of her friends were working overtime.
"Yeah, I'm just, uh, in between surgeries." She lied „and with to kids, I guess I'll just make more time."
„So how are things going? Is she sleeping through the night?" Janet wondered.
"No, I not really. Um, she's up a few times. But it's fine. I don't mind. I'm used to it with Cristopher." Meredith smiled.
„Just you, or are you guys taking turns?" Janet wondered.
"No, yes, well, he's great with her. He's, Derek's great with her. With both of them." Meredith said.
The kindergartener approached both of them and wondered „Dr. Grey, is Dr. Shepherd going to pick the kids up from now on or are you still coming in for that? But you can take her home now."
„Wait. I don't understand." Janet interjected.
„No. I am." Meredith said „We are still taking turns dropping her off and picking her up. I'm not taking her home. I just came to, uh, to-to say hi. I actually should get back to work. Okay, Zola. I'm going to go."
„Okay." Janet said slightly irritated looking at the kindergartener.
„It was nice to see you, Janet." Meredith smiled and got up.
„You, too, Meredith." Janet smiled.
Jackson and his grandpa were still sitting in an bed in the packed ER. A woman was constantly on her phone and had told the story about how they had gotten there on the phone for what felt like the twentieth time. Dr. Bailey approached the bed and Jackson's granddad asked "Why is this taking so long?! Is it me or are those two women terribly annoying?"
"Bailey my apologies, Dr. Avery." Bailey introduced herself.
„Dr. Shepherd, we're working on getting you up to your own room as soon as poss- " Derek said when he approached the bed, but William Harper Avery interrupted him.
"You said that before. Are you the same Shepherd who did the clinical trial on the gliomas?" Jackson's granddad asked.
„Yes, sir." Derek nodded.
"You brought me a neurosurgeon for some abdominal cramps?" he looked at Dr. Bailey „I don't need a cruise director. I need an experienced surgeon. Page Dr. Grey."
„You are asking for an experienced surgeon and ask us to page a resident?" Derek wondered.
This remark sent Jackson's granddad into a little rage "Ellis Grey is not a resident. I hope you've heard of her because otherwise I'd question how you passed medical school."
Bailey looked at him and said „and she's dead and her daughter isn't working here anymore. I can get you her half sister. She's a resident too."
"Who else then? Does, uh, Richard Webber still work here? " He looked up.
Dr. Bailey said. Dr. Webber had left the hospital after he had told her that Meredith had been fired and she was the one that had to made sure she wouldn't touch another patient. „Unfortunately, he is, uh, he is not available today."
„I'll page Dr. Webber. Dr. Bailey, can I have a word with you?" Derek wondered.
After they had walked into an empty trauma room Dr. Bailey looked up to the neuro surgeon and wondered „Dr. Shepherd, what's the matter?"
"You said that Meredith wasn't working here anymore." Derek said.
"She isn't. She was suspended and the board decided to fire her for that insanely stupid thing she did." Bailey said. „I can't believe she'd throw away her career like that"
"What has she done?" Derek asked in shock.
"That's something your wife should be telling you." Dr. Bailey said and walked out of the room. „I have to get back to my patient."
After they had done a few tests and had brought him up to a private room Dr. Webber and Dr. Bailey were discussing the diagnosis with him „As you can see, you've got dilated bowel here and here, Indicating an obstruction."
„It's a good thing that our young dr. Avery Brought you straight in." Bailey noted.
„Dr. Bailey can do the surgery right away." Dr. Webber said and looked down.
Jackson looked at his grandfather and closed his eyes because he knew what he was about to say. "I want Webber. No offense." Jackson heard.
„None taken." Bailey smiled and handed over the chart.
„Dr. Bailey is more than capable of performing the surgery—" Dr. Webber said.
"I want you." Jackson's grandfather insisted "And I want to watch."
"What?" Bailey's and Jackson's eyes widened.
"I'm going to be awake for my surgery and watch." Jackson's granddad said.
„So much for the low-stress day." Jackson muttered. „A packed ER and my grandfather wants an awake surgery"
"And I want Dr. Grey's daughter to assist you. Jackson spoke very highly of her and Jackie should be in there as well." He said and all of them looked at him.
Carlos approached the blonde surgeon that was supposedly his daughter's fiancée „Dr. Robbins?"
Arizona turned around and looked into his face. „Mr. Torres. I'm surprised to see you."
„I'd like to see my granddaughter." Carlos said. „You said I could see her."
„Alright, I'll get you a nurse and she's going to bring you to the NICU. I'll be here checking on patients if you need me. Do you want me to page…" Arizona said enthusiastically, but Carlos interrupted her. „No it's fine." He said. He wasn't ready to look at his daughter yet, but after all the little girl was his granddaughter.
„Just a little warning. Sofia was born very premature and there are still a few tubes attached to her." Arizona explained. „That's normal and so far she has developed very well because she has been monitored very closely and because we were lucky. Dr. O'Malley spent almost his entire time off looking at that child and observing her vitals."
Carlos said like it was a matter of course „He's the father."
„Well, Callie obviously hasn't told you everything." Arizona smiled „I'm not sure if it's really my place to tell you, but Callie went to a sperm bank. He wrote something on the form that she sort of recognized and she was immediately drawn to his profile. She didn't realize it was him until after she had told him that she was pregnant. But she thought it was a sign from the universe telling her that she should pick her ex-husband as father of her child. Nurse Susan, can you take Mr. Torres to the NICU?"
"Meredith, what did you say to Janet?" Derek asked angrily.
"Nothing. Why?" Meredith eyes widened and looked at Derek in shock.
"I just finished answering a whole slew of questions about your employment details and your future." Derek yelled.
"She's finishing her home study.- That's routine." Meredith said and tried to calm him down.
" Okay, there was nothing routine when she said that HR told her you were fired and Bailey confirmed it. Apparently I'm the last to hear about this." Derek yelled. ‚He knows, crap!' she thought.
"What did she say?" Meredith asked.
"She said that she spoke to you and that some red flags went up, so she checked with HR." Derek said „and Dr. Bailey told me it wasn't her place to tell me why you were fired"
"Well, I did see her earlier, but I didn't say anything." Meredith said and suddenly her pager went off. "I gotta go. Webber wants me to scrub in on a surgery." Derek stood still.
It was a surreal situation. Meredith was standing in the OR, next to the man who had fired her merely three hours ago and the patient was the wide awake Harper Avery who had insisted on having her in the OR together with his own grandson. "Not a bad looking bowel, is it, Webber?" Harper Avery asked.
"No, sir. If I had to guess, I would say it was the bowel of a 50 year old." Dr. Webber said. "Suction, Dr. Grey."
"Dr. Grey, I've got a question for you. It's of a personal nature." Harper Avery said and looked at her.
"Yes, sir?" she smiled behind her mask while Jackson looked at her nervously.
"If your mother was still working here, Would you have chosen to, uh, Study at a-a different, lesser quality hospital In order to avoid the advantages of her legacy?" he asked. She didn't say a word, but he insisted. „I'm waiting here, Dr. Grey."
„Um Dr. Webber, What do you think about intraoperational dye to help determine intestinal viability?" Jackson interrupted them.
„Uh, well, they say that it enhances clinical judgment. I'm not real sure." Webber replied.
The gallery was packed, everyone wanted to see this surgery. „I don't get it. Why does he get to scrub in on his own grandfather's awake surgery?" Lexie wondered.
„The same reason why Harper Avery personally requested Meredith Grey to be his resident and Webber granted that even though he fired her this morning" Cristina said.
„Nepotism sucks." Alex said and looked at Cristina „Mer is fired?"
„Yeah, because of that stupid thing ALL of you had a part in." Cristina said and looked at April, George, Lexie and Alex „Seriously people, you can't do this. Meredith got fired and we all know she didn't bring Callie there herself."
„What are we supposed to do?" George wondered.
„Tell Webber what happened." Cristina suggested.
„Yeah, she told us that we weren't supposed to say anything." Alex said.
„She got kicked out of the program because of something all of you did. Don't let her take the fall for that. If you don't go to Webber, I will." Cristina said.
„What?" George asked.
„People, when Izzie cut that LVAD wire we stuck together, Lexie and April, you don't know about that, but George and Alex, you do. We all took the blame, Meredith opened her house to you, Lexie, George, Alex, you've all been living there." Cristina said „She loves that job and we love her. We owe her that much"
„What's going to happen Yang? She got fired, I don't want to get fired, too. I worked too hard to get here." April said. „Reed is working somewhere in the middle of nowhere now"
„I have to go. I got a page from Hunt." George said and left the gallery in a hurry.
„Cristina, I'll talk to them and Avery and Kepner. I have to get back to Dr. Hunt now. too" Lexie promised and hurried.
Suddenly the monitors indicated signs of distress. „BP's dropping." Jackson said.
„I think I've got a bleeder." Webber said "Suction."
"Did you check the SMA ?" Dr. Avery asked while most of the surgeons hastily tried to locate the bleeder.
„Yes, it's okay. Dr. Avery, stay calm." Dr. Webber said while the monitor indicated that the problem got worse.
"I'll be calm when you find the damn thing." He said.
Jackson looked at the monitors and knew that there were clear signs that there was something to worry about. "Okay, shouldn't we put him out?"
"No, don't put me out." His grandfather insisted.
„Hang another unit of FFP. Meredith told the nurse.
"There it is. I've got it. I've got it." Dr. Webber finally said and the monitors began to return to normal and his vitals stabilized.
„Okay. How are you feeling, Dr. Avery?" Dr. Webber wondered.
"Okay." He said.
„Heart rate's stabilizing." Jackson said with relief.
„Hang in there just a few more minutes, okay?" Dr. Webber said with a smile.
"No, use chromic. Don't get lazy on me." Harper Avery insisted.
Jackson rolled his eyes and said „Yep, he's fine."
„Chromic instead, Boki." Richard nodded.
After surgery Jackson didn't have a minute to himself. A bunch of residents gathered around Jackson in the resident locker room. All of them had heard that Harper Avery was in the hospital and tried to persuade Jackson to introduce them to him "Look, it's not going to happen, all right?"
„Come on, man. Five minutes with your grandpappy. That's all I ask." Alex said.
"Right, 'cause the two of us are such good friends." Jackson said surprised. „He's an old man who just had surgery, he needs to be left alone"
„Well, this would go a long way to help that." Another resident said and pulled out a few bank notes.
„Back off, Karev, if anybody's a friend here, It's me." April said.
"You're not meeting him either, April." Jackson insisted „Nobody is meeting him"
After they had left Jackson sat down next to Meredith „I hate it. I hate it when they know I'm related to him- The way they treat me, The way they watch me as soon as they find out. And I know the name has helped, But he is not easy. Brilliant, but really not easy to be related to."
Meredith put down her pen and smiled „I know. That's why I haven't told anyone. But I honestly don't care because I was fired and the only reason I'm wearing my scrubs right now is because he personally requested me and Webber tries to suck up to him. But that probably was the last time I've ever been in an OR"
They were interrupted. Jackson's pager vibrated. Jackson and Meredith looked at the pager „It's him. 9-1-1."
Jackson and Meredith ran as fast as they could "What is it? You paged? Are you okay?" Jackson wondered when they had reached his room .
"We never got a chance to finish our talk from this morning." The surgeon said. Meredith and Jackson exchanged a glance.
„Our talk? What, are you kidding me?" Jackson coughed.
"And you brought Dr. Grey. That's good, actually." He smiled „You look more like your mother everyday. We haven't seen each other in a long time and you got rid of the pink highlights that your mother hated so much. Answer me this time, Dr. Grey. If a spot was being held for you to study at the greatest hospital in this country, would you turn it down?"
„A spot? Well—" Meredith bit her lower lip.
„Yeah, he saved a spot for me at Mass Gen" Jackson explained „Ever since I graduated, which is the only reason he came to visit- To try to convince me to take it again."
„It's an incredible opportunity." Meredith said.
„An opportunity I don't want." Jackson interrupted her and looked at his grandfather „I don't want to work for you. I don't want your help. I don't-look, it's enough—"
"No! I decide when I've said enough." Jackson's grandfather yelled. „I-you-you think I am arrogant and overbearing and you've made that very clear, and maybe I am. But I am also your only living grandfather. And it has become very clear to me today that my time is coming. I don't-I can't l-leave- leave—" the ECG heart monitor showed rapid movement.
„Grandpa? Grandpa? V-tach. No pulse. No pulse here. We need a crash cart in here. Now!" Jackson yelled.
Meredith, Jackson, Bailey and Dr. Webber were all standing in the room. „Your CT shows that there's been a complication. Dr. Webber will take you back into the OR. And fix it right away." Bailey told Dr. Avery after looking at his scans.
"Fine, but you're not putting me out. Clearly a mistake was made. I'm not letting that happen again." Jackson's grandfather said „That's not going to happen this time."
Richard got mad „You're in my hospital today. You will abide by my rules. That means you go under general. Your grandson will be sitting in the waiting room as family. You refuse, and I will personally declare you unfit to make decisions regarding your own care. Have Bailey do the surgery and Grey, you go home now." Meredith nodded and left the room without a word.
They brought him back into the OR and opened up the sutures again. „His bowels are all swollen and hardened." Bailey said after examining him.
„The anastomosis is leaking which explains why he went into shock." Dr. Webber looked at the ultrasound.
„All in all, I'd say this is about the best news we could've asked for, Dr. Webber." Bailey smiled.
April looked surprised and confused „I don't understand. His bowels are perforated. He's leaking intestinal contents."
„Because Dr. Avery was allergic to the chromic suture." Dr. Webber explained „He didn't know because he was always wearing gloves in his own surgeries."
„And you couldn't have known either—" Bailey added.
„Which is why I am smiling behind this mask. Get the 3-0 silk ready, Boki." Dr. Webber said and began to exchange the chromic with silk.
After surgery Meredith hurried to get to day-care where Janet and Derek were waiting for her. „Hey, you called." She said. Janet looked at her in surprise, after all she was wearing scrubs and a nurse had told her she had been in surgery.
„A lot of questions came up today about your relationship, about your employment." Janet said and bit her lips.
„Well you are not the only one with questions about her employment." Derek added and glanced at Meredith
„You're allowed to have some bumps in the road. But this afternoon, it looked like your wife got fired, she lied to me about it." Janet said.
„and I'm sorry about that." Meredith said.
„I talked to Dr. Torres about the incident, but I set off some alarms. Now I'm trying to dial them all back, but it's not that easy to do. Once the system is set in motion, there's a certain protocol that has to be followed. Once the agency believes that there are questions about Meredith …" Janet explained, but Derek interrupted her.
„Janet, Meredith is the best mother a child could have. She loves Zola. She loves me. And if there is a flaw with her, it's she loves people so much that she'll do anything for them." Derek said and for a second Meredith was relieved that he seemed to understand.
„Derek, please. I hear you. But no matter what I say, social services still has to revaluate the placement. And while that happens, Zola can't be in your home. I'll give you a minute to say good-bye." Janet said.
After fifteen minutes Janet came back into the room. "Sorry, it's time to go."
"Derek." Meredith tried to encourage him to hand Zola over to Janet, but he didn't look at her and turned around and walked to Janet.
"Here you go." Derek said, kissing Zola's cheek and placing the child into Janet's arms.
Meredith walked up to Janet "Janet is a very nice lady. We like her a lot. She's going to find you a very nice family to go stay with for a while. And then you're going to come right back to us, and everything's going to be fine."
Janet looked at Meredith and Derek they both nodded. „Okay."
Meredith handed over Zola's diaper bag to Janet "She likes her bottle room temperature, not too warm. And she cannot sleep without that giraffe. It's in the front pocket of the diaper bag. And there's extra pacifiers in there. You're going to need them when you p-put her in the car." They watched Janet leave the room and heard the sound of the closing door. Neither one of them said a word. Meredith looked at Derek, but Derek didn't look at her. After he turned his head and looked into her eyes by accident he left the room and Meredith stayed in there alone. She was alone.
"Hey. So he's fine?" Meredith asked and looked up from the last charts she was updating. „Lexie said it was an allergy caused by the suture."
"It was his fault. Wow. That's awesome. Why don't they publish that story? Yeah, I know." Jackson laughed and sat down next to her.
"I get it. The famous grandfather, the legacy he's trying to force on you, and you didn't ask for any of it- -trust me, I get it." Meredith said „You're putting up walls and you're avoiding him. And you don't want to introduce him to your friends. It was the same with my mother. But if she were here right now in a room upstairs, I would want to go see her and make things right with her. And I definitely would want to go learn from her. And you still can." They sat next to each other for a while, Jackson looked at the movement of the pen while Meredith finished the last few lines.
When she was finished she put her pen down, she looked at Jackson and sighed „Anyway, I have to leave now because I was fired. Do you think your grandfather would give me a job because in that OR I sort of realized that I can't be a housewife for the rest of my life? And at the moment I don't even know whether the wife part is going to last that much longer."
"You're desperate." Jackson laughed.
Meredith looked at him. "I have to go home to my husband, who didn't know I was fired and the social worker took away Zola because I was fired and I didn't tell her and Derek left 13 angry voicemails while I was in the OR with you and a hour ago we had to say goodbye to Zola." Meredith said and took a deep breath. She deeply regretted how everything had played out those last few days.
"I'll see what I can do." Jackson said and looked at the charts Meredith had completed „I'll put in a good word for you, but I'm sure I don't need to."
Meredith sat in the living room with a cup of tea. She sometimes hated the loneliness of the house in the woods. She was alone, Derek hadn't come home. There was a possibility that he had gotten pulled into an emergency surgery, but she wasn't sure that this was the reason he hadn't come home. She knew he was mad at her but she had hoped that she would at least get to explain what had happened. So she was just sitting in the living room and starred at the door knob, hoping it would turn and he would come home, but as the hours passed she was getting less hopeful and all of a sudden the silence was broken and she heard a noise from the baby monitor. Christopher was up. She got up and went to his room. „Hey baby, you don't have to cry. Everything is going to be fine. Mommy screwed up, honey, we do that sometimes. But I want you to remember that whatever happens I'm always going to love you, buddy. I'm not perfect, but I don't know a perfect person. I only know flawed people and I hope that your dad still thinks I'm love worthy when he finds out what I did." She cradled him and carried him into her bed room, she pulled him closer to her after she lay down next to him. Derek wouldn't come home tonight.
No matter how many plans we make, or steps we follow, we never know how our day is going to end up. We'd prefer to know of course, what curve balls would be thrown on our way. It's the accidents that always turn out to be the most interesting parts of our day, of life. The people we never expected to show up. The turn of events we never would've chosen for ourselves. All of a sudden, you find yourself somewhere you never expected to be. And it's nice, or it takes some getting used to. Still, you know you'll find yourself appreciating it somewhere down the line. So you go to sleep each night thinking about tomorrow, going over your plans, preparing the lists and hoping that whatever accidents come in our way will be happy ones.
Arizona sat in front of Sofia's bed when George walked into the room. „We put her off the ventilator, she can breathe on her own." Arizona said. George sat down next to her. „I know, I'm… I don't know what I am… but I care for her…" George said a a tear rolled down his chin. „She can breathe. She will live."
„Our little girl is going to live" Arizona nodded „I know, you are a good person, George. She's so tiny. I work with tiny babies everyday, but if it's your tiny baby it's different. You worry and you never stop worrying."
„But she's a fighter, she beat the odds." George smiled and took her little hand.