"Hey, loinfruit" Lorelai pulled open the door with a big smile.
"Hi Mom" Rory smiled. "How was Ava last night? Did she sleep okay?"
"She was as good as gold as usual. How was your date night?" Lorelai asked as she wiggled her eyebrows.
Rory nodded "Oh it was good, it was fine."
"Downgraded from good to fine in less than three seconds – there's a story there somewhere - spill" Lorelai demanded.
Rory rolled her eyes. "Can I at least have a cup of coffee first? Where is Ava anyway?" she said looking around for her daughter.
"Oh, she's over at Luke's diner right now. He promised her a stack of chocolate chip pancakes with cream and cherries if she went straight to sleep last night and she delivered on her side of the bargain, so now it's his turn" Lorelai smiled.
"Bribing my daughter? Nice work. I bet Luke is hating having to give in to junk though" Rory laughed. It had always been Luke's mission in life to make the Gilmore girls eat more healthily and he hated it that Ava had picked up their bad habits.
"So, come on what's the matter?" Lorelai asked. "Talk to momma."
"There is nothing the matter really it's just that last night…Logan kind of asked me to live with him. Or for him to live with us maybe. I'm not entirely sure where we would live now come to think about it, I didn't ask." Rory said puzzled.
"Whoa, that's a really big step kid," Lorelai said with her eyes open wide.
"Yeah, it is" Rory sighed. "And that's the problem."
Lorelai cocked her head to one side. "You don't want to live with him?"
"No, I mean, no, it's not that I don't want to…I actually really love the idea in theory" Rory said "Logan is great, he's amazing with Ava and I know that things would be good but…oh, I just don't know. Ugh, can't you just tell me what to do mom?"
"Oh Rory, you know I can't tell you what to do, I try really hard to not get involved in your life decisions – that has bitten me quite firmly on the ass before, but what I will say is that at some point, if this is the relationship you want to be in, you're going to have to move forward. Plus, you've already lived together, so there are no surprises there…" Lorelai reasoned.
"But that was a really long time ago and a lot has changed since then. I mean, now we have Ava which kind of makes everything more complicated" Rory said.
"How so?" Lorelai asked.
"Well, what if we do this – we go all in and we start living together. What happens if we break up a few months down the line? That would break my heart but it would destroy Ava. She loves Logan so much. I'd hate to put her through so much pain."
"Are you intending to break up?" Lorelai asked.
"Well…no" Rory rolled her eyes.
"So what is the point in worrying about something that might never happen?" Lorelai shrugged. "By being afraid to take the next step and trying to protect Ava from getting hurt you're also preventing both you and her from experiencing something that could be pretty wonderful."
Rory looked at her mom thoughtfully. She was surprised that Lorelai seemed to be so much on Logan's side on this.
"Rory it's easy to overthink things but when it comes to love? Sometimes, it can't be rationalized. It's just one giant honking leap of faith hun."
Logan sat at home with this coffee, stewing over the events of the night before. Had he really judged things that wrong with Rory? He hadn't thought so. After their conversation at dinner, he was pretty sure that she would be receptive to the idea. Driving himself crazy with his thoughts, he decided to call Honor to talk it over and get a girl's perspective.
"Hey bro" Honor answered the call breezily.
"Hey," Logan said quietly.
"Oh no, what's wrong Logan…" Honor asked. She could tell by his voice that something was up.
"Well…last night, I told Rory that I thought we should start living together," he said.
Honor paused. "And?"
"And she didn't say yes, she said she wants to think about it, which can only mean one thing right?" Logan scoffed.
"Which is?" Honor asked carefully.
"That she thinks it's a ridiculous idea and she doesn't want to," Logan said.
Honor sighed. "Or it could just mean that she actually wants to take a moment to before making a major life decision…"
"You think so?" Logan said. He hadn't really considered it that way, he'd kind of thought that she was just using it as a delaying tactic before she was brave enough to let him down properly.
"Of course I do you bonehead" Honor exclaimed.
"Bonehead? Really Honor? What are we, twelve?" Logan laughed.
"Shut up Logan. Ugh, sometimes you frustrate the hell out of me! Logan – can't you see that this is about so much more than just you and her? Have you even considered Ava in any of this?"
Logan felt himself getting defensive. "Of course I have! I love Ava and she's a driving force in this – I want to live with her more than anything."
"Right. And Rory loves Ava more than anything too you know that. So what do you think she is thinking about right now? There's no doubt she loves you so it's not that." Honor waited for her brother to respond but he stayed quiet. "Ugh. She's a mother Logan! Her first concern will always be her child. I'm pretty sure that right now what is running through her head is all the different 'what if' scenarios that could occur if you guys don't make it."
"But we will," Logan said.
"You can guarantee that? How many times have you broken up before Logan? Rory is going to be nervous, it's natural. This is no way reflects how she feels about you or your future together. Just give her some time and space."
Logan ended the call with his sister and thought about what she had just said. It all made a lot of sense and Logan cursed himself for being so standoffish with her that morning. Of course, Rory would be considering the impact on their daughter. Logan hadn't given it too much thought because he had no worries about their future – he was so sure that this was the right thing for them.
Rory couldn't do anything but mull over the matter all day; it was all she was able to think about. She looked at the clock. She knew that Logan would have probably gone into the office but right now she needed to speak to him. She hated the feeling that everything was so up in the air between them. She picked up her cell phone and waited for Logan to answer.
"Hi, everything okay?" Logan said as he answered the phone. He had looked t the caller ID and when she saw that it was Rory he had made sure to answer it straight away.
"Yeah…I just…are you busy?" she said. She knew that she sounded nervous.
"No, not at all. Just let me go shut my door okay" Logan said.
Rory waited on the line. She heard Logan walk across his room and close the door to his office. He was obviously keen to stop people eavesdropping straight into his private life.
"Okay I'm back," he said.
"I just wanted to speak to you because well I have been thinking about what you said last night and I have some questions that I wanted to run past you," Rory said tentatively.
Logan took a deep breath. "Okay…"
"Well I guess my first one is…where would we actually live? I mean we both have our own places…would you move in here with us? Would you prefer us to move in with you?" Rory was aware she was rambling a little.
"I am happy to do whatever you want. I'm not emotionally attached to my place so I am happy to live at either, or perhaps look for somewhere new together." Finding somewhere new would be Logan's preference, he'd love nothing more than for them to create a home of their own together but he wanted Rory to be comfortable and if that meant them staying in one of their existing homes he was happy to do that.
"And you think we're ready for this? To start living together?" Rory asked.
"We've lived together before Rory" Logan reminded her.
"I know, but this is kind of different isn't it?" Rory said.
"How?" Logan asked.
"Well, it just feels more…I don't know…permanent" Rory said.
"And that's a bad thing? This isn't something I've asked you on a whim Ace. " Logan said quietly.
Rory hesitated. "I guess not but I'm just worried about the consequences if we can't make this work."
Logan sighed. "Rory, I have every intention of this working out. In fact, I'll do whatever it takes. I am all in. I know that us living together as a family is a big thing. In Ava's life, it will be monumental but we can do this."
Rory thought for a moment. "Look I am sorry for bothering you at work Logan. We can talk about this later. Can you stop by on your way home, so we can talk properly?"
"Of course. I'll see you later" Logan said.
"I love you, Logan," Rory said
"I love you too Ace"
Later that evening when Logan finished what he was doing at the office, he drove across to Rory's apartment. He was a little apprehensive about the evening ahead of him, but he knew he had to do whatever he could to make Rory feel comfortable.
"Hey," Rory said with a smile as she opened the door.
"Hey," Logan said as he leaned in to give her a kiss on the cheek before he closed the door behind him.
She lifted her eyes to meet his and nodded at him. "Okay"
"Okay?" he looked at her confused for a moment before catching on to what she was saying. "Oh! Yeah? Really?"
"Yeah" she smiled "Let's do this"
"Oh my God, I can't believe it!" he yelled as he picked her up and spun her around. "This is going to be so good Rory" he whispered in her ear.
All the noise and commotion made Ava come running in down the hallway from her bedroom to see what was happening. "Daddy daddy!" she squealed "Put mommy down!"
Logan laughed and put Rory back down on her own two feet. "Shall we tell her?" he said quietly.
Rory nodded. "I don't see why not"
Logan crouched down to be at his daughters level. "Ava we've got something kind of exciting to tell you. How would you like us all to live together?" he said.
Ava's eyes widened "Really!" she said as she looked up at her mommy.
Rory nodded at her and smiled.
"In our house here?" Ava asked.
"Well probably not sweetie, I think we'll probably look for somewhere new for all of us," Rory said as she smiled at Logan.
"Yeah," Logan said "A new home all of our own"
Ava thought for a moment "Will I still have my own bedroom? Can it be pink?"
"Of course" Logan laughed as he cuddled both his girls. "It can be anything you want"
As Logan and Ava snuggled down on the sofa to watch some TV, Rory slipped into the bedroom to call Lorelai and let her know the news.
"We're doing it," she said to her mom.
"You went for it? This is big kiddo!" Lorelai exclaimed.
"It is, it's very big but it feels completely right," Rory said. "I need to stop being afraid and just take the leap."
"I'm really happy for you. Did you work out where you would actually live?" Lorelai asked.
"We're going to get a new place together I think, start totally fresh" Rory smiled.
"That sounds like a great idea hun. Have you told Ava?"
"Yes, and she's thrilled. Actually, they're waiting for me in the living room so I had better go. I just called to let you know. Speak soon mom" Rory said as she hung up the phone and went back out to get on the sofa with Logan and Ava.
Logan moved over a little to make some room for Rory and he put his arm around her shoulder as she pulled her legs up and snuggled into him. In that moment, he had everything he wanted in life right there in his arms. A beautiful girlfriend and a beautiful daughter and now they were going to go and find themselves a beautiful home. Life was absolutely perfect and he was loving it.
A/N: Do you know, it feels like a two chapter day today!
