a/n- I know you all must hate me. :( Im so sorry. I know i say that everytime but thats cause i mean it. For all of you guys who arent giving up on me you rock. Honestly you guys are the reason i keep writing. Your comments warm me up inside. :)
I felt numb. I didn't move I couldn't. I couldn't breathe or talk. Why, he was normally a good person. I just didn't get it. I didn't understand much of anything. Edward pulled me into his arms. I smelled his familiar sweet smell, and felt the warmth of his body. The phone rang. Carlisle stood up and ran to go answer it. Edward pulled me in so close that I almost couldn't breathe. He put his face in my hair.
"Edward, what's wrong?" I asked.
"I'm just worried about you. It kills me to see you hurting" he said. I felt a pain in my stomach. Why did I always have to get messed up in these things?
"I'm sorry" I whispered. I pulled myself a little bit away. I wanted nothing more than to be close to him I just hated that I was causing him pain.
"Bella, don't be. You can't control these things. I love you through thick and through thin, I always will" he said pulling me back into his arms.
"I know that I can't control those things, but I just. I just, wish that I was a better girlfriend. I mean bad things always happen to me. You always get pulled into it" I said.
"Bella, I could care less what you pull me into. I want to be there for you. And you are the best girlfriend anybody could ever have" Edward said squeezing me a bit. I turned myself so that I was full on looking at him. He put his hand under my chin and lifted my head so that it was level with his. He placed a gentle kiss on my mouth. I put my arms around his head pulling him closer. Our kiss turned from sweet to passionate. He rested his hands on my hips and continued to tangle my hands in his hair. There was a cough over by the door causing us to pull apart, much to our disliking.
"Umm Esme wanted to know if Bella was up for coming down to dinner?" Jasper was standing at the door looking quite uncomfortable. Edward looked at me questionably.
"Yeah, I'm feeling much better" I said with a smile.
"Ummmm, okay I'll tell her you be down in a minute" with that Jasper made a bee line out of there. I laughed.
"I'm glad you're feeling better" Edward said placing a small kiss on the top of my head.
"You tend to have that effect on me Mr. Cullen" I said with another smile. It always amazed me how Edward could make everything okay, even in the worst situations.
"Well shall we head downstairs then Miss Swan?" Edward said in a playful voice. I nodded. He picked me up and gently tossed me over his shoulder, I giggled like a small school girl. We went all the way downstairs laughing for really no apparent reason, except that we were just happy to have each other. When we reached the dining room everyone was seated around the table. They were all deep in conversation that stopped when Edward and I entered the room. He slid me off his shoulder and we sat down in our regular seats.
"Bella, you're looking much better" Carlisle said with a warm smile. I smiled back at him; I did feel much better than when I had my breakdown earlier today.
"I do feel much better" I said.
"Well you must be hungry, how about some soup. I made my mother's beef stew" Esme said with a smile. I nodded that sounded amazing! I took the bowl that was at my place setting and lifted it up to Esme to fill up. She poured in the stew making my wrist quiver. They began to sting. Edward must have noticed because he reached over and grabbed the bowl.
"Here, I've got it" Edward said setting it down by my spot. I had totally forgotten about my wrist.
"Thanks" I mumbled. Everyone had looks of questions that they were silently asking. Edward gave them all a look that said not now. I looked down at my bowl and began to eat my dinner.
"Mmmhhh, this is really good Esme" I said looking up. She smiled.
"Why thank you Bella" she said. The silence that had overtaken everyone was ended and conversation sprouted up. Before we knew it we were laughing and having a jolly old time. It was a good thing that it was such a big table; there were so many people here all the time.
After dinner everyone got and dispersed around the house. Edward and I went back upstairs and went in his room. We sat on his bed and he just held me. I curled up in his embrace I was so warm, and felt safe. He began humming my song. I felt good. I wanted to be able to stay like this forever.
a/n- i know it seems happier than it should but i was in a really good mood. I was in my car and my brother had this monkey puppet that he was making dance while we were listening to this song vampire by antsy pants. (i suggust you look it up its awesome!) anyways, PLEASE REVIEW!! It makes me smile, it really dose. :) Blessed be, and thanks!