She walked into the attendings lounge, April, Maggie, Jackson and Alex already sitting there - worrying.

"Have you heard anything from Owen?" Alex asked Meredith.

"No. I've paged and called multiple times but he isn't answering. I even checked at his house." She said, concern in her voice.

"Should we worry? We should worry, right?" Maggie asked, equally as concerned.

"This isn't like him. He doesn't just run off without warning… he runs off, but not like this…" Meredith wondered.

"You don't think… he would…" April couldn't finish her sentence.

"I shouldn't have left him in the washroom the other day… damit!" Jackson ran a hand over his head, pacing up and down the attendings lounge.

"What? What happened?" April asked shocked.

"The day Amelia was admitted I saw him in the washroom. He was throwing up, crying, hyperventilating, basically having a panic attack, he was a complete mess. He couldn't even get full sentences out but I think he was blaming himself. He said he couldn't loose her." Jackson explained.

"Why did you leave him?!" Maggie asked in an almost angry tone.

"I got paged 911 to the ER. I calmed him down, he seemed… well… okay, considering the circumstances. Damit! I shouldn't have left him!" Jackson blamed himself.

"Ok shifting blame for things that no one's to blame for seems to be what got us here in the first place, so stop!" Meredith interrupted. She knew that this wasn't like Owen. Yes, he had gone MIA before, but not like this. When he had to get away he'd sign up for another tour of duty and leave or he would burry himself in work, but he wasn't the type to just go missing without notice.

For a few moments there was a tense silence, then April spoke what eveyone was thinking. "Should we call the police?"

There was another silence. This time Meredith broke it. "I think we should keep looking for him first. Maybe he just short circuited and drove down to Megan. We should call them."

"I can do that." Maggie offered. "Maybe he just needed his sister and bestfriend to vent, maybe…"

Meredith interrupted her, the expression on her facechanging "What did you just say?"

"He might need his sister?" Maggie offered confused.

"No, no the other part!" Meredith exclaimed. Everyone was looking at her now.

"He needs to vent? Well of course he does, everyone in his situation would…" Maggie answered even more confused but Meredith interrupted her again.

"Damit!" She exclaimed between clenched teeth. She looked at Jackson and Alex "You two need to come with me, I think I might know where Owen is." She said, a concerned look on her face "Maggie don't call Megan yet!"

The three quickly left, leaving a confused Maggie and April in the attendings lounge.

Please let him be there. Please let him be okay. Please let him not have done something stupid.

Meredith hoped while hurrying down the hospital floors followed by Jackson and Alex.

Editors note: Anyone got an idea where Owen is?

Did you get the clue? ;)