So I had to write another chapter after all those reviews! You have no idea what that did for my stamina, you wonderfuls. I think it was a combination between all the reviews and the shittiness that was last night's episode. Speaking of, I may be writing a fic to redo the graduation episode completely so that it goes as it should have gone. It would probably be either a one or two shot. I'm not sure. I'm just very frustrated with RIB and Co. If you have any questions are comments on that you can find out more on my tumblr. That being said, I'd like to thank Rosetoast and Wendy for each of your reviews. they meant a lot. And Rosetoast, I will tie up all the loose ends. I'm going to finish this you guys. But the more reviews and feedback I get the faster my updates will be. I know that sounds like I'm pestering you guys, but it's the truth. Also, I need more followers on my tumblr. If you have one you should go follow me. I follow back :) Anyway, here it is. A new chapter. Mistakes are mine.
"Puck is going to be pissed," Santana said without even a fraction of sympathy she should have had for the whole situation.
"It's not my fault you couldn't keep it in your pants," Brittany replied as she shifted up into fifth.
"I wasn't wearing any pants, silly. Call me crazy, but I like to shower in my birthday suit." Brittany didn't respond, just smiled as she switched lanes. Santana was already dreading their destination as they sped toward the airport. She couldn't believe her vacation was over. Soon she'd be back in L.A. Dealing with all the stress of her life that she had left behind as soon as she landed in Lima. She also couldn't believe that her time with Brittany was ending. After probably the best morning of her life Santana wasn't ready to go. "So what are you planning on doing for the few hours before Puck's flight arrives?"
"Probably go back to his house and throw his sheets in the laundry since we ran out of time."
"You're going to drive back and forth?"
"Maybe," Brittany answered quietly. "Driving calms me." Santana didn't need to ask why Brittany needed to be calmed. She too was feeling a little anxious at her departure. The girls still hadn't come up with a plan about the next steps in their relationship. Santana, a natural born planner and analyst, was far from at ease with this whole situation.
"So maybe I can fly back out in a few weeks for a weekend or something," Santana suggested to try and at least set one goal to appease herself.
"I'd like that," the blonde answered with a half grin.
"And then the next time we get together you could come visit me. We could always just trade off."
"Mmhmm..."
"And over the summer maybe you could get like a week off from work and we could maybe do something special. Go to Mexico or something?" This time Santana asked because Brittany's lack of opinion was worrying her.
"Sure."
"Do you have anything in particular you would like to do?"
Brittany was silent for a few seconds as she chewed on her bottom lip. "I want to see you, Santana. I really do. But I'm not sure I can afford to be flying out to California. I don't make a lot of money as is. And I've gotta pay rent and buy food and put gas in my car."
"Oh, yeah." Santana had considered the fiscal implications of a long distance relationship already, but she forgot to calculate Brittany's income in. She knew she couldn't afford to fly out to Lima as much as she'd like if she were to see Brittany on a monthly basis. It just wasn't plausible. "Well we'll figure it out. I can still come out here sometimes. And in the meantime we have cellphones, email, Facebook, Skype, and old fashion letters to look forward to. It's not like we have to lose touch."
"Yeah. We can Skype like all the time! And maybe even do some dirty things over it! I've always wanted to try that."
"You want to have cybersex?" Santana asked nonchalantly, but in reality her cheeks were heating up at the thought. She really hoped the blonde wasn't kidding.
"Only if you want to."
"Oh, I do. I want to have all sorts of sex with you. Cyber, public, romantic, rough, anything possible." Santana hadn't really meant to sound so eager, but the words kind of just fell out. Fortunately Brittany just smiled and gave Santana a silly wink. The moment dissipated into thin air as another thought hit the brunette. She still hadn't found a label for their relationship. Usually she didn't like labels, but with Brittany she wanted to find one that fit. She wanted to wear the label proud, just like the hickys on her neck. "What should I tell Quinn about us?" she asked after a moment of silent debating on the approach to take.
"What do you mean?"
"Are we...are we dating? Like exclusively? Or are we friends with benefits? Or casually dating? I just want to know what you want us to be."
"What do you want us to be?" Brittany asked in return.
"You're deflecting..."
"What? Off the windshield? I think that's normal," Brittany said anxiously as she peered into the windshield with an eagerness that startled Santana.
"No. You're deflecting. Not reflecting," Santana finally giggled as she caught up. "I meant you made me answer first so you didn't have to."
"Oh," Brittany sighed, much more relieved. "And you're right. I was."
"Well I asked first so you have to answer first."
"Well I want to be with you, Santana," the blonde started. "And I only want to be with you."
Santana could feel her face break out in one of those ridiculous goofy smiles that people get when their life gets almost too good to be true, which was fitting because Santana felt like she was going to wake up any minute to find this whole thing a dream. "Good because I want to have you exclusively to myself too."
"Does that mean I can change my relationship status in Facebook?"
"If you want to."
"And you'll turn down all of the beautiful California girls that throw themselves at you back home?"
"I doubt there will be all that many of those, but you don't have to worry. They're no competition."
"Awesome."
The car fell silent again as Santana savored her last few minutes with Brittany. Signs saying the airport was just ahead were already beginning to line the roads. Both girls wondered why car rides always go so much faster when the destination is not desired. When Brittany pulled into the drop off area, she unbuckled her seatbelt and pivoted all the way over so she could see Santana clearly. "I'm going to miss you," she whispered when their eyes locked.
"Me too."
"I made you something," Brittany exclaimed suddenly remembering. "It's for the flight back," she added as her hands dug around in the middle console of the car. Suddenly she pulled out a small CD case and handed it to Santana. In the cover slot Brittany had slipped a photo shopped picture of the two of them together. The picture of Santana was one of the shots from her Facebook. In it she wore a bikini top underneath a pair of faded blue overalls and a pair of Ray Bands that same color blue as Brittany's eyes. Next to her was a picture of Brittany in almost the same outfit except her hair was up in a messy bun and her sunglasses were big round white ones.
"Did you steal this picture from my Facebook?"
"Yes. I was Facebook stalking you and I found it and it reminded me of that picture I have. So I went and found it and put us together. Doesn't it look like we're twinsies?"
"It does," Santana answered smiling like a fool. She flipped open the case to find a blank CD. On it Brittany had written "Songs that remind me of you. Love Brittany" in her big loopy handwriting. Santana could feel the blonde's gaze analyzing her reaction so she looked up before thanking her girlfriend. "I love it."
"When you sang that song to me the other night I felt so good and honored so I wanted to give you something that might make you feel the same. And I don't sing that well and I was at work so I couldn't have recorded myself singing anyways, so I burned you a mix CD."
"When did you make this?"
"Yesterday at work."
"That's really sweet, Britt. I am sure I will love every song." The blonde smiled and bounced in her seat a little as Santana placed the CD in her purse. When she turned back Brittany was opening her door to get out. Santana followed suit, climbing out of Brittany's car and shutting the door behind her loudly. People nearby were all saying goodbye to their loved ones, but Santana couldn't look at anyone besides Brittany. The blonde pulled each of Santana's suitcases out of her trunk before making eye contact again. "I'll call you later today, k?"
"Ok."
"And I have my laptop so I can listen to the Cd on the flight."
"Cool."
"God, I'm going to miss you."
"A few weeks, right?"
"Right," Santana answered as she stepped in closer to Brittany. She had to look up the tiniest bit to make eye contact, but when she did all she saw was unadulterated love in the sparkling blue oceans in Brittany's eyes. She glanced down briefly to the glossy lips before returning to the eyes. Santana could never get bored of looking into those irises. When Brittany saw the glance Santana had made she closed the last little bit of space between them.
The kiss was desperate, but still soft somehow. Both girls were putting their whole heart into it because they knew it could be the last time for a while. Brittany laced her hands in Santana's hair to pull her in closer so their tongues could dance. Santana, in return, slipped her hands in the back pockets of Brittany's jeans, giving a small squeeze to encourage the blonde to do what she wanted. Santana would have been completely content with giving all the people milling around a free show if Brittany had pushed further. But the blonde didn't. She pulled away with a gasp, in taking as much air as she could to stifle the tears brimming in her eyes. It didn't work. As soon as she looked back into Santana's dark eyes the tears fell.
Immediately Santana began wiping the tears away with her thumbs, but she couldn't keep up. Finally she pulled Brittany close again. Standing on her tiptoes, Santana began kissing each tear away just like she had done that morning in the car. It caused a choked little laugh to fall out of Brittany's lips as two more tears slipped out. But after that the tears stopped, but the smile stayed. "I love you," Santana said.
"I love you too."
"Soon. It won't be long."
The blonde ran her hands through her hair once while looking off past Santana. "See ya later, Alligator," she whispered once she found Santana's eyes again.
"After a while, Crocodile." Santana took one step back, but couldn't leave just yet. She flew back into Brittany's arms, holding her in a tight hug that knocked the wind out of them both. Brittany squeezed as tight as she could as she buried her face in Santana's hair. After a few short minutes the girls loosened their grips and pulled away. Santana grabbed her bags and turned away. As her feet carried her into the sliding glass doors, she glanced back over her shoulder once. Brittany leaned up against the car with a sad smile. Before Santana turned back the blonde used both her index fingers to point at her own chest. She then lifted them up to her face where she drew an imaginary heart over the outer rim. Finally, she pointed at Santana. In return Santana gave her a little wink to say she felt the same.
Santana didn't have to wait long in line for her boarding pass and security wasn't much of a wait either. Instead of waiting at her gate for an hour she decided to go grab some breakfast at an Einstein Bros. As she ate her bagel and sipped at her coffee, Santana started putting together a list in her head of her money and how she could make it work with Brittany. She almost texted the blonde just to tell her she loves her, but decided not to distract her from driving.
When she did finally board her plane, Santana was pleased to find an aisle seat. She sat patiently waiting for the announcement that electronics could be turned on again. Once they had been in air for about fifteen minutes the pilot gave the ok, so Santana pulled out her laptop. She popped in the CD as soon as she had plugged her headphones into the jack. And when the music started she closed her eyes and allowed her mind to get lost in the words Brittany had selected just for her.
Ok, so now that you are all finished up I wanted to post the playlist. So here it is. The playlist Britt put together.
1. Oh, It Is Love-Hellogoodbye
2. California Gurls-Katy Perry feat. Snoop Dog
3. My Heart Beats For Love-Miley Cyrus
4. All My Loving-Jim Sturgess (I chose the version from Across The Universe because I think Brittany would be more likely to watch the movie then listen to The Beatles on a regular basis.)
5. Call Me-Blondie
6. Wouldn't It Be Nice-The Beach Boys
7. If We Ever Meet Again-Timbaland feat. Katy Perry
8. My Girl-The Temptations
9. Dreaming of You-Selena Quintanilla Perez
10. I Am Your Kitty Cat-Secrets and Horses (I don't think Brittany could resist putting one weird and funny song so here it is)
11. Miles N' Miles-Stephen Jerzak
12. Crazier-Taylor Swift
13. Your Love Is My Drug-Ke$ha (She had to have one Ke$ha song)
14. Toxic-Britney Spears (I didn't use Slave 4 U because I think it would have been a little OOC for my Britt since she doesn't dance anymore)
15. The Edge of Glory-Lady Gaga
16. Wonderful World-Sam Cooke
17. Feel So Close (Radio Edit)-Calvin Harris