1I do not own Twilight!

Hi! So I was in Tennessee for spring break, and it was awesome!!! but I also realized that I am beginning to love the fanfiction stories better then the actual book, well at least one story in general. It is called THE RED LINE, It is a SICK!!! story that you should read!!! I'm going to start off where Edward got into his car during Chapter 23, on his way to see Tanya. Sorry for the wait, I haven't been exactly wanting to write but I am, for you guys. Anyways, ENJOY!! =]

BPOV of chapter 23 [The last time Edward was in the picture]

"I love you Edward, always and forever. Now go." I pushed him gently away from me, and looked into his face. His sad eyes were looking back at me.

"And I love you, Isabella. Never ending and always there. Keep my heart safe, I want to come back to it, as soon as I am able. Bye my love."

EPOV

I kept my eyes on my Isabella for as long as possible, not taking them off of her until I got into my car. Even as I put on my seat belt and started the car, the rearview mirror was directed towards her.

I knew if I didn't leave then and now, I would never leave. I put the car into drive, and started driving away from the love of my life.

It's so weird to think of her as the 'love' of my life. I mean, I've known her all of a week or two and since that glance in the lunchroom, I knew. I knew she was the one, and only, girl for me. Then why the hell am I driving to Tanya's?! Don't answer that. It's for both of us, to keep us both safe from suspecting suspects. If anyone were to find out about our forbidden love, it would be the end of my career and her love life. I would be marked down as a sex offender and no guy would be able to compare to her dating a real man. Way to boost the ego, Edward.

It would be so much easier to just drop her like a dirty kleenex into a garbage can, but even the thought of never seeing her again makes me want to turn the car around.

As I pass the street before Tanya's, I come to a conclusion. If Tanya can bring to the table what Bella has brought from the week of being with her, then I will try with Tanya. And, damn it, I'm going to have to convince Tanya that there is nothing between Bella and I.

Sex.

That's the only possible way to get Tanya to believe that I'm serious about not having feelings for Bella. I may have been in musicals and plays in high school, but this was going to have to be the best acting I've ever done in a long while.

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"Eddie, I missed you!" Tanya crashes into me as soon as I get into the door, squeezing her arms around me in a death cage. I guess she does have strong feelings for me.

"Hey Tay. Sorry I'm late. I had to...." I couldn't even give her my lame ass excuse before she interrupted me. Can I mention, I didn't even have my coat off yet...

"Oh, I don't care where you've been, because you're here now and that's all that matters. Here I'll take your coat. I have a little dessert cooling down in the kitchen, and there's some wine in the living room. Help yourself." Wow. She made me dessert and there was wine, I hope it's white. I've tasted both red and white, but I just like the color of white, its more relaxed. I like drinking red if I'm in a fiery mood, like a 'let's get between the sheets' mood.

I walk into Tanya's living room. There's a flat screen against the far wall, so when you walk into the room, your not missing anything. Tanya got the flat screen as a moving gift from her parents. There is a antique wooden coffee table where the red wine is, and a black soft cushioned sofa. It can fit three comfortably, but sometimes four. There's also a mini couch that only fits one, two just doesn't work, trust me. There are some family pictures to the left of the couch, and some photos Tay took when she was in photography in college. She still does photography as a side job, but she is a preschool teacher at the local day care center in town. She just loves those little kids...

I realize what kind of wine is on the table, red, and I laugh with myself. Fiery mood, Tay?

"What do you mean by fiery mood, Eddie?" Shit. I usually keep the thoughts inside my head, not out. Tay is giving me this sultry look, or sexy in her case, and I don't even need the wine to tell that she wants to get a little hot and heavy. I hope Bella will be able to forgive me...

"Oh, I think you know what I mean. So what type of dessert have you made me?" I was utterly curious, Tay has never been a cook in the time I've known her.

"Chocolate brownies with powdered sugar on top. Here, try a piece." Tanya tore off a little piece of the brownie and brought it closer and closer to my mouth. I parted my lips as she stuck her fingers, with the brownie, into my mouth. I closed my lips around her fingers, closed my eyes, and licked the brownie, along with her fingers. She couldn't help but giggle as she pulled her fingers out of my mouth and away from my tongue.

"You were supposed to eat the brownie piece, not my fingers!" She was giggling at me, in a, once again, sexy way. Bella who?

"I couldn't exactly taste the difference, I just know I wanted more of those fingers. Can I get another taste, please?" I gave her my puppy dog eyes, with a pouting lip, as I reached for her hand. I brought her hand up to my lips, and kissed each and every one of them. Then I reached for her other hand and kissed each and every one of those fingers. I took one hand in each of mine, brought them down, and looked into her eyes. She had nothing but love in her eyes, and I'm pretty sure that's all I had in mine too. She started walking backwards, towards the bedroom, and I knew I didn't have to act the way I was feeling towards her.

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"Edward?" Tanya was laying in the crook of my arm as we lie in her bed after a wonderful night of love making. There weren't words to describe what happened last night. Each and every time was something more magnificent then the last. I looked at Tanya, and couldn't help but smile. She had the covers pulled up to her upper chest, covering her beautiful lumps, [haha, my lumps, my lovely lady lumps. sorry... ] and she was biting her nail on her left index finger. I pulled her hand away from her mouth, and pulled it to my lips so I could kiss her fingers again.

"Yes, love?" I had my eyes closed as I moved my head side to side, smelling her palm.

"I want to know what your feelings are about that girl Bella...?" Tanya was biting her lip now, not looking at me but towards the window of her bedroom. I turned her face towards mine, and waited until she looked into my eyes before I answered. I didn't know exactly what I was going to say, but it was going to be the truth. After last night, she deserved nothing but the truth.

"You may not like what I'm about to tell you, but it's going to be the truth. Bella and I have kissed, that's it. I feel love for her, but it's different from the love I feel for you, and it's not just because we had sex. Mine and Bella's love was love at first sight, but there's underlying feelings, and I still have to figure those feelings out." Tanya had looked away, with tears in her eyes. "But, I'm with you. For as long as you'll have me. I can't promise that I won't think of Bella, because I will, but I can promise that we will not see each other for as long as we are together. After I think of my feelings between you and Bella, which ever is the more...crushing feelings for the loves of my world, they will be the first to know. I don't know what's going to happen, but I can promise my attention will be on you. I will understand if you decide to kick me out of your bed, apartment, life, but know this, you will still remain in my heart no matter what happens." Tanya had closed her eyes, and tears were spilling out from the corners of her eyes.

"Tanya, please say something...please...?" I wanted to know how she felt. I soon found out.

Tay's lips crashed to mine with such force, I found myself laying on my back with my eyes open wondering how she got on top of me. After I reconnected the wires of my brain, I started kissing her with as much force as she was kissing me. Round 2 begin...*ding*

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Three weeks later

The last three weeks with Tanya have been quite fantastic. We haven't had sex since that first day, we were waiting till an important day. We still were unsure what the perfect day was, but we were determined to wait. Before coming home one night, I went to a ring store and got a ring for Tanya. It wasn't the 'engagement' ring, but a ring to represent our promise to not have sex.

I got to Tanya's before she did and luckily I had a key. But when I walked into the apartment, all the lights were off. Tanya always kept the living room light on, just incase she came home late one night, she would have a light on. I walked, slowly, over to the wall switch and hit the hallway area into light.

What I saw surprised me entirely. There, on the floor was a blue arrow pointing around the corner. I walked around the corner, and saw another arrow, this time green, and it pointed into the kitchen. The lights were off along the way into the kitchen, but I was flipping them on as I went. When I got to the kitchen, there were candles lit everywhere, and the overhead light was not needed.

There, sitting in the middle of the table, was a jello mold. There was a piece of paper lying right in front of the jello mold. I read the note by candle light...

Deep inside lay my heart,

just like this green jello,

find what belongs to you.

I looked more closely at the jello, and saw a tiny little object. It was a ring! I couldn't believe that we both had the same idea. I started ripping apart the jello, and pieces of it were flying throughout the room. When I reached the ring, I pulled out the one I got for Tanya, and compared it to the one Tanya got for me. They were practically the same. The one Tanya got for me was made of a bigger band, more silver. But the one I got for her, was more delicate and feminine. There was no detail, just a plain silver band.

"How do you like it...?" I turned around, and saw Tanya standing there. She was looking at her feet, feeling insecure at the moment. I knew she was going to look up, so I waited until she did. When she finally looked at me, I bent down to one knee and represented my ring for her.

"How similar we are. Here is my promise ring for you. To keep our hearts as pure as we both can, at least with each other. Accept this ring as a token of the love I have for you. When the time is right, we will take this to the next level. But until then..." Since I kneeled almost right in front of her, all I had to do was reach out and grab a hold of her hand and place the ring on her finger. Perfect fit.

"How similar indeed. Let me put yours on..." I handed her the ring, and she placed it gently on mine. We had another perfect fit.

I stood up, grabbed Tanya into my arms, and held her there. I wanted to sleep with this woman... Wait, I want to lay next to this woman while we sleep. Before I knew what I was doing, I picked her up bridal style, and carried her to the bedroom. When we got to the bedroom, I placed her on her feet, and turned her towards me.

"Tay, I wish to lay next to you, while we both sleep. It may even be nice to hold you in my arms while we both sleep. Do...do you think you'll let me do that, sleep with you in my arms?" I was unsure of what her answer would be, but I kept my hands on her face. Her eyes started to tear up, and I was afraid I had upset her.

"Please...?" I was relieved to hear her say that.

"Go change into crappy clothes, and meet me back here...?"

"Of course." Tanya reached up to kiss me, and I happily obliged. I picked her up, spun her around, set her back down on her feet, and pushed her, gently, towards the closet.

I pulled off my jeans, and grabbed a pair of basket ball shorts. Since I had a wife beater on underneath my cotton t-shirt, I pulled off my t-shirt. I started undoing the bed, taking the unneeded pillows off and pulling the comforter down, when Tay walked back into the room.

"How do I look...?" Tay did a little spin for me, with her arms bent at the elbows. While she was slowly spinning, I walked up behind her and picked her up. I threw her onto the bed, and soon was on it after her.

"Well, obviously not that good since you want to shove me under the covers."

"I...uh...."

"I'm kidding you buffoon!" Tay hit me over the head with a pillow which started an all out war. She ran from the room when I grabbed for a pillow to fight feathers with feathers. Bring it!

Tay had left early in the morning after our night of cuddling. Before she left, she asked me if I had figured out my feelings between her and Bella. I really hadn't thought about it at all. So, I went to the kitchen table and after I cleaned up the jello pieces, I decided to make a list.

Tanya Pros & Cons

~ Known for three years

~ Best Friends for two

~ Know parents

~ Similar Interests

~ In the same, and legal, age range

~ I love her

Bella Pros & Cons

*Known for about three months

*Very little info known about life

*Will not meet parents for awhile

*Illegal relationship

*Drawn to her, unsure why

*I love her

After I had just started Bella's list, I began to struggle. I didn't know her favorite color, song, movie, music group, or if she had any pets. I realized my decision and knew I had to talk to her before the week was up. It was Friday, about 7:30 in the morning...7:30!!! I had to be at the school in thirty minutes, and I was about forty-five minutes away from the school. I called Ms. Pena and told her I would be arriving later then planned. She said it would certainly be alright, and that I should arrive as soon as possible. I quickly got dressed for the day ahead, and ran out the door. I totally forgot to take a shower, so I sprayed the axe on me, as I was running out the door, and threw it in my bag. I knew I was going to need it later.

The day was long, and hectic. I stayed away from Bella because I knew the phone call I was going to make after school would be a drastic one, and I knew she was going to freak. I was so sure about what I wanted it was making me sick. I had to step into the bathroom at least three times, and I barely had anything come out of my rump. [—hehe–] Plus there were always students coming in and out of the bathroom so I couldn't exactly let it 'flow' easily.

But the end of the day was a relief. I knew Tanya was going to be downtown till late, so I would have the time to call Bella. I waited till about 5:00 to call her. She didn't pick up.

Ugh...Hi Isabella. I was hoping to catch you. I would like you to call me back as soon as you can. Lov... um...Bye Bella.

If I could redo that message, I would never have gotten it right. Should I have said 'I love you', or was I right to not say it. I mean, she could have a boyfriend that I don't know about. I just hope she calls me back soon.

I waited all night for her to call me back. I even fell asleep, and when I awoke, I grabbed my phone and checked to see if she called. I don't know when I realized she wasn't going to call back, it must have been after Tanya got home around 1:00 a.m. She asked why I was still awake, but the next thing I knew, I woke up with the sun streaming on my face. The scent of pancakes were in the air.

"Bella...?"

"Did you say something sweetie?" Tanya was leaning over the back of the couch. She didn't hear what I had said because my voice was raspy and barely over a whisper from not using my voice.

"Pancakes?" Nice.

"Of course. I figured you might like some after you stayed up half the night waiting for me to get home. You didn't have to do that you know, you could have fallen asleep on the actual bed. I bet your back hurts. Come, the pancakes are on the table."

"Heck no it doesn't hurt. I'm right behind you." Hell yeah it hurts! I followed Tay into the kitchen where the pancakes were waiting in the middle of the table. I grabbed three, layered them in butter and poured a cub full of syrup over them. I like me some pancakes!

I left Tay's apartment around noon, and headed downtown to buy some new books that had just come out, when Bella called.

"Hi Bella! I'm so glad you called." I had loads of enthusiasm in my voice, but I didn't care, I was happy to hear from her.

"*haha* Hi Edward. So, what did you need to talk to me about?"

"Well, remember Tanya. Duh, of course you do. Umm, she asked me how my feelings were divided between her and you. She told me I had to chose between her and you, and I've kinda made my decision..."

"Bells!! Who you on the phone with? Come on, the movie's about to start! I'll be right there. Sorry, what was that last part, something about a decision...?" Bella sounded like she had a smile on, and I don't think it was because of me...

"Umm, you seem busy, maybe I should call back later..."

"Silly, I called you, now please tell me...."

"Um, I had to chose between you and Tanya..."

"Oh, and what did you decide?"

"I decided...I can't be with you..." What!?!? You want to be with her remember! She is everything you want! What are you doing!?!?!!?

"Oh...okay. Well, I'm glad you told me, I guess. I'll see you on Monday then..."

"No, Bella listen. I love you. I will until the day I die. I want to be with you, just not right now... After were both in our careers maybe, if you haven't found somebody else. And even if you have, I'll understand, because it's kinda what I'm doing now. God, I'm blabbering."

"Listen, I love you too Edward. I understand, later, after I'm... legal. I do understand. Monday I'll bring your heart keychain. Even if you want me to keep it, when we get back together, give it to me then. If you give it away before that, totally understandable. But listen, my movie's about to start, and Jacob will come back out here if I don't hurry on in there. I love you, I'll see you Monday. Bye."

"Okay, I'm going to email you, bye Bella. I love you, too." I don't think she heard the 'I love you' part, because I heard the dial tone soon after I said bye...

Okay, please do not hate me. I had to. It's not right for a teacher and a student to be together. Jacob fits her better too! But maybe I'll have a twister at the end, which is coming soon... Please review, even if its sharing your hatred with what I've done with the story. But remember, Edward wanted to be with Bella, his mind just took over his heart and made him say he didn't want her anymore.... sound familiar....! =]