Yeh, sorry I haven't updated, I've had literally no ideas on this story. But then right when I lest expected it (in geometry) I had an idea about it. I got all giddy and I got several strange looks…all for my fans!! I hope you enjoy.
Song(S): Before the Worst by Script
Edward's POV
I took Bella's hand that was resting on her lap. I was going to take her to the place that I could go and think, someplace special. My Meadow.
When Bella and I had first separated I had decided to go out for a walk. I stumbled upon this place and I was able to rethink everything, mainly about how much I loved Bella. I haven't told her yet and I couldn't. Jacob is always going to be there and Jessica isn't helping the situation much with her pushy-ex-girlfriend-thinking-that-she's-still-the-guy's-girlfriend mood she's been in.
Taking the corner all too fast Bella gasped and squeezed my hand. Knowing she was scared I decelerated to fifty. I hate driving slow, especially when I still wanted to get to the dance. I requested that the DJ would play a song for Bella.
I stopped near the side of the road and got out and helped Bella out.
"Edward," Bella said, eyeing the forest behind me. I put my finger to her lips before she could say anything else.
"Trust me," I responded and took her hand, leading her into the forest. I felt her hand tremble.
I knew my way around here; I don't know how I did considering I just moved here but soon we were near the entrance of the meadow. I pushed back the tree branch that was covering it and waved my hand in front of me, signaling for her to go in.
"It's beautiful," Bella whispered.
"Almost as beautiful as you," I mumbled but I don't think she heard. Bella smiled up at me and I squeezed her arm, "This place is where I realized how much I care for you and how much I can't live without you." I had to get it off my chest. I couldn't keep holding on to my emotions toward her. But I had to hold on to the love part. What if she didn't feel the same way? I would ruin the friendship I had with her and if it's between telling her and possible losing her friendship or not telling her but keeping her as a friend, I would choose her friendship.
Bella looked down and hid her face; my confidence was just struck down. She's probably thinking of ways to let me down easy.
I let go of her hand and put mine at my sides, turning forward. I knew she wasn't going to cheat but I had to tell her the truth, I couldn't keep it bottled inside. Maybe if I gave her time I could win back her love.
"Edward," Bella said quietly, "I think…I think we shouldn't see much of each other after this."
I was speechless. I just proclaimed everything to her and she stomped on the words and my heart.
Yet, I still loved her.
"We should probably go to the dance now." Bella said smiling sadly. I nodded and took her hand. Alice should've known where I was but just in case we should leave. The dance started about ten minutes ago so we could still get there for my song.
I helped her into the car and walked around the driver's seat. We drove in silence. I had to speed a little if I wanted to get there before they closed the doors.
After finding a parking spot I rushed to help Bella out and, taking her hand and I was glad she didn't pull away, we walked into the gym. The lights were down and speakers pumping. I saw Alice and Jasper dancing and waved to them. Of course Jacob was with them and he made his way toward us. Bella let go of my hand and met Jacob halfway. I didn't bother following them I just went out to the entry for the concessions.
"Hey Ed!" Jasper said pounded my back. I nodded a hello before pouring myself some Gatorade, "Dude, don't even take that."
I raised an eyebrow, "Why?"
"Some spiked the vodka." How could someone spike vodka, it's already a drink. I looked into my cup to see it was mostly vodka and a little punch. Figures got to get here early to actually get something good to drink.
"Thanks for telling me," I mumbled and went to buy a drink.
When I went back into the dance area I noticed Jasper and Alice were sitting on a table near the door. I sat down next to Alice and watched as Bella danced with Jacob.
I had to get my mind off of her; it was good to pine over someone who doesn't want you anymore. My gaze shifted to the live band that they got. That was pretty cool. I loved music, it was so great. I mean who doesn't like music?
After I don't know how long, I stopped thinking about how good music was. I couldn't get my mind off her.
"Jasper, get Em." I mumbled to Jasper before getting up.
"Sorry folks we're going to take a quick break we'll be back on in five minutes. Don't go anywhere." The singer said and jumped off the stage. I ran up to catch up to him.
Jasper's POV
Alice and I watched as Jacob and Bella started dancing, leaving Edward all alone. I hated seeing this happen. Bella was being too stubborn to forgive him. I saw how she looked at him when she came down those stairs, and I know that she's been hurt, I get it. But Edward loves her more than anyone in the world and there was no way he would purposely hurt her. The entire truth or dare thing was a misunderstanding and I had to fix it somehow.
I noticed that Edward was going to the vodka that I watched someone put in and ran over to him. Alice stared after me but once she realized where I was going she didn't look but went to dance with Rose and Emmett. How Alice snuck them in is beyond me.
After telling Edward about the punch I met Alice at a table and we sat and talked.
"He loves her Jazz." Alice mumbled, talking about Edward.
"I know, we have to fix this." I said and put my arm around her shoulder. Her head rested perfectly on my shoulder.
Alice sighed, "I think we should just let them work this one out on their own." I had to agree, it was really hard to go against Alice.
Edward came in moments later and took a seat next to Alice, staring over at the band and at Bella.
"Jasper, get Em." Edward mumbled before rushing toward the band. I shrugged, confused, and ran off to find Emmett.
After getting Emmett we went to find Edward.
"Guys, remember the band?" Edward asked, excitedly. We nodded and he continued, "I need to sing a song to Bella. I get that she doesn't like me anymore but I would rather be friends than nothing." He told us that he got permission from the band to use their equipment
"What song?" Emmett asked, as we jumped on stage, Edward's electric keyboard was out.
"Dude, do you seriously keep that with you all the time?" I asked and took my spot behind the drums.
"No, and the song," Edward turn to the mic, "Hey guys, sorry to disrupt, I just want to sing a little song to someone I don't want to lose as a friend. And I wish I could take it back before it all went wrong. Before the Worst!"
Bella's POV
I couldn't believe that I told Edward that I didn't want to see him anymore. It pained me to see the hurt on his face as I tried to hide the tears that were forming in my eyes. I wanted nothing more than to be with Edward, but he hurt me and I was with Jacob. I didn't want anyone to get into a fight because of me. Someone could get killed!
Edward drove us to the dance, I was thinking and every couple minutes I would open my mouth to tell him I didn't want that, I wanted to be with him. Jacob would be history if you just said you wanted me. Say you want me…
We got to the gym and Jacob met us at the door and dragged me out to the dance floor.
"Did you guys have a nice talk?" Jacob asked in my ear.
"Yeah, nice talk." I mumbled.
I didn't know how long we danced but we stopped when the band had taken a break.
Then Edward, Jasper and I think that was Emmett jumped on stage.
"Hey guys, sorry to disrupt, I just want to sing a little song to someone I don't want to lose as a friend. And I wish I could take it back before it all went wrong. Before the Worst!" Edward said as he looked straight at me. I held his gaze as he started to play the piano and sing Before the Worst by the Script. Emmett was on the guitar while Jasper was playing drums.
(A/N: I'm just going to add some of the lyrics, takes up space I know, listen to the song too please!)
The song was beautiful, I didn't know that Edward could play or sing this good. I couldn't take my eyes off him, and he couldn't take his eyes off me. It felt as though he was singing only to me. I felt horrible because I didn't know what I wanted anymore, I thought I loved Edward and I know I liked Jacob. But I was hurt, I need to recover.
If
the clouds don't clear
Then we'll rise above it, we'll rise above
it
Heavens gate is so near
Come walk with me through
Just
like we use to, just like we use to
Let's take it back
Before
it all went wrong
Before the worst, before we met
Before our
hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before
too long
Then Edward
stopped play, letting Jasper and Emmett continue for the last
sentence. He looked at me and spoke to me:
Let's
try to take it back
Before it all went wrong
That's when everything burst inside me. I wanted to cry but I held it in. The guys took their bows and jumped off the stage. The other band came back on and continued to play.
"Bella, I want to let you know that I heard what you said in the meadow, and I'm going to respect that." Edward said as he pulled me away from the group for a minute. "But I want to be friends, I can't lose that."
"I would like that Edward." I said, I heard my voice crack. That wasn't what I wanted to say…Say you want me…
Edward smiled painfully, "I think we can put our past feelings behind us, I think I'm almost over you and you probably feel the same way.
I nodded, "Yes, I don't feel the same anymore." Lie.
Edward gave me a quick hug and walked the opposite direction as I did, and as soon as I was away from anyone that would be able to hear, I burst into tears.
Edward's POV
"Bella," I said as I pulled her away from the group. Jacob gave me a nasty look but I didn't care right now. My whole body felt numb except for my breaking heart. "I want to let you know I heard what you said in the meadow, and I respect that. But I want to be friends, I can't lose that." I didn't want to lose her as a friend; I don't think I could survive not seeing her. I would rather see her with some guy then not see her at all.
Then I told the biggest lie I ever have; "I think I'm almost over you and you probably feel the same way." I was nowhere near over her; I don't think I ever will be either. Please say you're not. Please just say you still love me and everything was a big mistake. Please.
She agreed. I felt my heart shatter. I felt the lump in my throat and I quickly gave her a hug and left. I had to get out of the school, out of this town, for a while at least.
As soon as I was in my car, I let it all out. I did something I haven't done since I was a little kid. I cried my eyes out.
When I was done crying heavily I started the car and drove. Not knowing where I was going and really not caring.
A/N: I actually cried a little writing this. I hope you enjoyed this and I hope you were deeply moved or something by it.
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