Hey everyone, I'm back with another chapter of Fooling Everyone. I have been getting a lot of reviews about the endings of my chapters lately. I am also happy to know that I am an inspiration for others. And I am happy to have a story where readers kind of don't like Sakura. Not that I want you guys to not like her, it's just a nice change to have people on Syaoran's side. Well, I've wrote a lot for you guys. So I won't waste your time. Happy Readings!
Disclaimer: I do not own CCS. I am however watching Degrassi.
Fooling Everyone
Chapter Twenty-Five:
Struggles with Truth
It was raining hard outside and Sakura was walking home. She didn't feel like calling a cab or talking to any of her friends. She just wanted to go to her new apartment and stop thinking. It was killing her inside. All she could hear were the doctor's words.
"Do you love him?"
That same question rang through her ears. It haunted her more with each step she took.
"Sakura."
Her name came out slow, savoring each syllable.
When she looked up she saw him. Syaoran. The last person on earth she wanted to see. He was soaked from head to toe sitting on the steps in front of her apartment building.
"What are you doing here? How did you even know where I live?"
He stood up slowly walking towards her. "Sakura we need to talk."
"Ok, what do you want to tell me now, huh? What did you have sex with Pam too? Oh no wait, you're engaged to her."
"Sakura please."
"Oh, I've got it. She's pregnant with your kid and you want me to be the godmother. That has to be it." She had an insane look on her face. It was obvious to anyone looking at her that she was angry to the point where all she could do was smile. A crazy looking smile.
"You're one to talk about being pregnant." He turned away from her ready to walk off.
She stood there stunned. All bits of anger went away for that moment. She feared that he might have found out about the pregnancy test.
"What are you talking about?" She almost yelled out in desperation.
He turned around with disbelief in his eyes. "I can't believe you just asked that."
He walked up to her until he was only inches away from her. "How can you ask that? What kind of girl forgets something like taking a home pregnancy test?"
"Syaoran shut up!" She put her hands over her ears trying not to hear his words.
He grabbed her hands pulling them down. "What's wrong Sakura? What you only like to dish out the blame? Huh? Come on speak!"
"Get your hands off me!" Tears were now running down her cheeks but the rain easily camouflaged it. "You have no right to touch me."
He took his hands off of her and started to back away, "You're right. You're right, I have no right to touch you. But I do have a right to known when I'm going to be a father."
He practically screamed out that last part.
Sakura just put her head down and started to walk past him. She almost made it to the door until she felt a hand on her arm.
"I said don't touch me." Her voice was strong and commanding.
"What happened to us? We used to be such great friends. And we were even better as a couple."
He forced her to turn to him but she kept her head down. He watched as each drop of rain hit her delicate body. He watched how the rain had made her clothes cling to her showing every perfect curve.
"Sakura, what we have is way too strong to be broken apart. Not like this."
"Get your hands off me."
He let go not wanting to get her angrier. He did come here to get her to forgive him but instead he ended up yelling at her.
"I know for a fact that you still love me. No one can have what we did and one day just not love the person. That's impossible."
He reached to brush away the strands of wet hair sticking to her face, but she pulled away as if his touch was poison.
She put her key in the door and was slowly backing in as she looked at Syaoran.
"You're right. You are right. I did take a pregnancy test and I did hide it but it's hard to tell someone that considered a baby a burden that I may be pregnant."
He knew she was right. He remembered how he referred to the baby when he thought Eriol was going to be a father.
"And you were right. You can't just not love someone after you fall in love with them, it's impossible." She was inside the building leaving only a crack big enough to stick her head through.
"But I never loved you in the first place."
Syaoran's heart skipped a beat when the door closed. He was cut off from her. And as far as he considered, he was cut off from life.
The next morning Syaoran woke up with a pounding headache. Maybe if he didn't drink so much last night he wouldn't have a hangover. But he had no choice. He couldn't take hearing that everything he thought she felt for him was a lie. He rather drink his problems away then sit up all night thinking about her.
He was only in his red boxers. When he came home from the bar all he focused on was getting out of the wet clothes, nothing more.
First thing he did when he got up was use the bathroom. Alcohol goes right through the system. When he got out he went back over to his bed tossing his body down. When he looked over to see what time it was he saw the picture of Sakura sitting on his night stand. Every single depressing thought came back to him. Every sip he took last night went to waste when her saw those emerald eyes staring back at him.
He laid there thinking of every swear or derogatory word that he could use to describe her, but he couldn't bring himself to say one. Instead he got up throwing the picture into the trash and went into the kitchen.
While he was pouring himself a glass of water he heard a knock at his door.
"Who the hell is it?"
He yelled and mumbled as he went to answer the door. With one aggressive swing the door flew open momentarily scaring the person on the other side.
"What do you want?"
Jake looked confused. He went there to confess everything in hopes of saving their relationship before Rae had the chance to mess things up. And even though he came with good intentions he still had to worry.
"Syaoran you have a minute?"
His drunken looking figure leaned up against the doorframe, "Come in."
Jake walked in unsure of what to expect. He has never seen Syaoran acting like this.
"There is no easy way to say this, so I'm just going to come out and say it."
Syaoran stood there hearing, but not really listening to what Jake was saying. "Yeah sure, just say it."
"RaeandIhavebeensecretlyplottingtobreakupyouandSakuraandI'mreallyreallysorry."
Syaoran stood there dazed; he already had a headache from drinking too much last night. "What the hell did you just say?"
"RaeandIhavebeensecretlyplottingtobreakupyouandSakura. And I'm really, really sorry."
Syaoran stood there confused again. This time he was trying to figure out if Jake was the one talking fast or if it was taking his mind a long time to process.
"Guy, I'm going to ask you this one last time. What the hell did you say? And talk slowly." Syaoran had his hand on his forehead as the pain started to get stronger.
Jake took a deep breath trying to find the courage. "Rae and I have been secretly plotting to break up you and Sakura. Again, I'm really. Really sor…"
Jake didn't get a chance to finish his apology. Syaoran had already punched him almost knocking him onto the bed.
He tried to get up, "Syaoran list…" But all he got was another punch to the face. Lucky for him Syaoran was so angry that he wasn't aiming for his jaw. If he was Jake would be knocked out for sure.
Jake got up preparing himself for another punch, he deserved it, but he felt nothing. Cautiously he looked up at Syaoran.
He was standing there with a red face, tight fists, and veins ready to pop.
Seeing Syaoran like this was actually scaring him more. Jake was already dazed from only two hits, and by the look on Syaoran's face it seemed like he wouldn't be conscious after the next.
"Syaoran I'm…"
Syaoran immediately barked out, "Li."
"Li," Jake's voice was a little shaky. He knew Syaoran wouldn't hurt a friend, but now that he's back to calling him by his last name. There is no telling what's going to happen.
"Li, I am really sorry. I-I was stupid and jealous, you and Sakura have an amaz…"
"Had." Syaoran stopped him mid-sentence.
"What?"
Syaoran didn't look at him. "Thanks to you and your army of bitches Sakura and I broke up."
He paused for a second after saying that. This was the first time he admitted to himself that Sakura was gone for good. And at this point he didn't even want her back.
"You guys couldn't just get a fucking life could you?" His anger was beginning to resurface, but he tried his best to suppress it. This anger ready to burst was no longer for him and the fact that someone else messed up the perfect relationship that he had with Sakura. This anger was because he now knows Sakura for the tramp she was. He knew she didn't love him, and that hurt more than anything Rae could've planned.
"Li…"
That was the last straw. Hearing his name coming out of Jake's mouth almost made him sick. So he did the only this he could do to shut him up. He punched him right in his jaw knocking him out on his feet. Then he grabbed a hold of his shirt pulling Jake to him.
"Come near me again and I WILL kill you."
Meanwhile Tomoyo was sitting in Sakura's old room. Almost everything was gone. All that was left was the bed and her desk with the swivel chair in front of it.
She was sitting there remembering the old days when everything was simple.
Flashback
Little Tomoyo was sitting on Sakura's bed combing her hair while little Sakura was sitting on the floor combing her doll's hair.
"I love combing your hair. It's so shiny and soft." Then little Tomoyo jumped off the bed. "When I grow up I want to be a hair dresser so I can make everyone in the whole world pretty."
Sakura just smiled at her friend. "Tomoyo you're always changing what you want to be."
"Yeah, well at least I'm thinking about it."
Sakura stopped playing with her doll. "And what does that mean?"
"It means that since that Li boy moved in next door you haven't even thought about anything else."
"Tomoyo he's only been here for a week. I'm just trying to help him like my brother helped me."
"You wanna know what I think?" Then Tomoyo jumped onto Sakura's bed and started yelling out, "Sakura likes Syaoran! Sakura likes Syaoran!"
"Tomoyo that's not true." Little Sakura was starting to blush a light shade of pink.
But Tomoyo kept jumping on her bed yelling, "Yes you do! There is even a song about it. Sakura and Syaoran sitting in a tree,"
"Tomoyo stop, someone might hear you."
"K-I-S-S-I-N-G, first comes love then come marriage,"
"Then comes Touya."
"What?" Tomoyo looked down at her friend. "Touya has nothing to do with this."
"Yes I do," Tomoyo stopped jumping on the bed when she saw a preteen Touya standing in the doorway. "My little sister may be a monster but she is not marrying some idiot. Now stop making so much noise, dad's trying to take a nap."
End Flashback
Tomoyo was standing in front of the window overlooking the front street. It was the only window in the room.
"What are you doing here?"
She turned around to find Touya standing in the doorway.
"I was just…um…"
"Yeah I know what you mean." He went in the room sitting on the bed.
"They grow up so fast."
She smiled. It was weird how Touya would always know what you were thinking without you saying a thing.
"How has Sakura been lately?"
She looked down at the floor. 'Should I tell him? He is her brother after all, I guess he should know.'
"That bad huh?"
Tomoyo's eyes widen, "No, of course not she's got her new place and settling in. I'm sure after a week or two she'll be back to normal."
He raised an eyebrow in disbelief, "Really?"
She signed and leaned against the wall. She figured he already knew something was up. No use hiding it anymore.
"She's been taking the break up badly. She won't talk with me and…I…I just don't know what to do anymore."
"Wait, she's breaking up? When was she together?"
Tomoyo opened her mouth to say something but didn't want to risk spilling out more information.
"Tomoyo, tell me. Who is she with?"
She looked around the room hoping that if she delayed her answer ling enough that maybe he would forget about everything.
"Tomoyo answer me!"
"Ok, ok. She's been with Syaoran for about two mont-"
Touya cut her off, "Syaoran? Li Syaoran?"
Tomoyo nodded her head.
Touya still couldn't believe it. "You talking about that little brat that used to live next door? That idiot that Sakura used to always hang with?"
Tomoyo swallowed hard before nodding again.
"That bastard broke up with my sister?"
"Well not exactly it was-"
"Where does he live?"
Tomoyo knew what was gong to happen. She grew up around Touya all her life. She knew what he had planned. "Touya please listen…"
"Tomoyo now tell me where he lives!"
Looking at his face she could see his anger. Hell a blind person could see it. But what should she do? She already shared what were supposed to be the private details of Sakura's life. She couldn't possibly say anymore…right?
Meanwhile Sakura was unpacking boxes in her new apartment. She needed something to do to keep her mind off things.
She barely got any sleep last night. Her conscience was eating her up inside. She knew that she was lying to everyone.
'I love him. I love him.'
Tears were sliding down her cheeks as she was putting away her clothes.
'I lied to Syaoran, my friends, the doctor, and…and myself.'
She was finally finished unpacking one box. When she went to open another she saw drops of tears falling onto it.
"Why!" She pushed the box aside and collapsed where she was standing.
'Everything was supposed to be easier without him.'
The wet tears on her face made her relive the night before. It forced her to remember her words.
"But I never loved you in the first place."
She swallowed hard trying to push back her tears…her pain.
"Why did I say that? WHY!"
She remembered the expression on his face when she said it. He looked the exact same way he did when she first met him as a little boy. When he lost his father.
More tears sprung to her eyes. She promised herself that she would always be there for him. She was supposed to be his understanding friend that would protect him from pain. But instead…she caused it.
Flashback
"Interesting."
"What? What's interesting?"
"You broke up with a man that did something that you can forgive but won't. You obviously have doubts about if breaking up with him was the right thing, and you know he loves you."
"Well, if you put it like that then…"
"I only need to know one more thing."
Sakura sat there silently waiting for him to ask the question.
"Do you love him?"
End Flashback
'I love him. I know I love him. So why won't I forgive him?'
She sat there thinking. She thought of all the other times she would ask herself that question. She wasn't stupid, she didn't need a doctor to ask one simply question.
But all along it was the answer she did not like. After years of Syaoran asking her advice on other girls and seeing her as no more than a friend she waited. She kept that love for him strong in her heart not even thinking about any other guys. And now that it was her turn, now that she could finally express those feelings she was forced to keep hidden for so long, he goes and kiss another girl.
It killed her inside. Not the kiss, anyone could forgive a kiss. But what hurt was how easily she was tossed aside, like she was nothing. To have the person you love, the person that your world revolves around think you're nothing hurt more than knowing he didn't love you back.
But there was more to her thoughts than she led on. She doubted if Syaoran even loved her. Was this 'love' she thought he had for her all just pretend? They were only supposed to pretend to be dating. Maybe his feelings were fake too.
She could hear the doctor's voice echoing through her mind.
"Did he love you?"
"I answered yes so quick but I never really knew the answer" she whispered to herself.
After the havoc they've been through, she couldn't tell if he genuinely loved her or if he just said that because he knew she took a pregnancy test and might be carrying his child.
Sakura went over to her dresser draw and pulled out a picture she unpacked earlier. It was a picture of her standing next to Syaoran on their high school graduation.
She always knew she loved Syaoran, but after what he's done to her she rather have him believe she didn't love him in the first place. He will never know that she lived only to see his amber eyes smile at her everyday. She'd make sure of that.
In another part of the city Touya was pounding on a door. The door to a certain chestnut haired brat to be exact.
Syaoran tossed open the door to find Touya standing on the other side.
His eyes widen, "What are you doing here?"
But the only answer he got was a punch in the face.
Syaoran stumbled back into his apartment and Touya followed shutting the door behind him.
All talking aside Syaoran lunged back at Touya punching him right in the jaw. But Touya was stronger than Jake, so it would take more to put him out.
But before Syaoran could swing another blow Touya hit him in the stomach making him double over giving Touya the perfect opportunity to knee him to the head.
Syaoran fell luckily only hitting his head on the soft mattress before hitting the floor. His headache came back and was worst than before.
When he straighten his head to look at Touya he saw five of him standing there looking down at him.
The next thing he felt was a kick to the ribs as he heard Touya yelling at him.
"I told you to stay away from my sister years ago."
Syaoran was too weak. He hasn't eaten anything solid since Sakura first left his apartment in rage. He looked like shit and that's how he felt. He had managed to beat Jake with ease. But Touya, Touya was a skilled fighter and if he wanted to beat him he would have to at least eaten something in the past 24 hours.
Touya kept kicking him in the stomach as he continued to yell. "How can you fucking break her heart like that you bastard? I thought you loved her?"
Syaoran couldn't take it anymore. He could stop the kicks but at least he could clear his name.
"I….do…love….her." He managed to say between blows.
Touya stopped not knowing if he only said that to get him to stop kicking him or if he really meant it. "If you love her then why aren't you guys together?"
He stood there with his arms folded waiting on Syaoran to answer.
Syaoran started to cough up some blood before continuing, "She broke up with me you dumb shit."
Touya watched Syaoran curl up into a ball before trying to stand. "Then why is my baby sis depressed?"
Syaoran managed to climb onto the bed. "Cause she thinks I cheated on her."
Touya picked him up by the hair. "Did you?"
Syaoran's eyes were half open, "Not on purpose."
Hearing that gave Touya no other choice but to punch him again.
That's when Eriol and Tomoyo busted in the door. Syaoran was lucky that Eriol had a copy of his key.
Tomoyo saw the condition Syaoran was in, "Touya please stop, please."
"Tomoyo this bastard hurt Sakura. So now I have to hurt him." He was going to give another blow to Syaoran but stopped when Tomoyo jumped in the way.
"Please, it's not his fault."
Touya eyed her suspiciously then let go of Syaoran ready to listen to them.
But shocking to everyone Syaoran didn't want the fight to stop. "No Tomoyo let him."
Eriol went over to his friend looking at all the cuts bruises and blood on his face. "Syaoran in your condition you won't live after much more hits."
"Don't you think I know that?" Then Syaoran tried pushing Eriol aside but was too weak. "Come on Touya finish your job you retard!"
Touya took one look at the pathetic kid lying helpless on the bed and turned his attention to Tomoyo. "What's going on between him and Sakura?"
Syaoran cut in, "I'll tell you what's going on, I fucked your sister on my birthday. And let me tell you she was…"
Tomoyo covered Syaoran's mouth while Eriol was working his hardest not to let Touya get to him. Somehow he managed to get Touya out the apartment leaving Tomoyo and Syaoran alone.
Her heart was beating so fast, she thought that Syaoran was really going to die after saying that. Then she slapped him on the head trying to know some sense into him.
"What, do you wan to die? You know you don't talk about Sakura like that in front of Touya."
Syaoran removed Tomoyo's hand from his mouth. "Who cares anyway?" The only thing he wanted now was a huge bottle of vodka to whip out his thoughts, pain, and memories.
Tomoyo went out in the hall to see how Eriol was doing with Touya. By the time she got out there she saw Touya leaning against the wall holding his head.
"Does he know everything?" Tomoyo came out asking unsure.
Eriol nodded to his fiancé.
Touya looked at the two, "So he really loves my little sis?"
They both nodded in unison.
Touya looked back at the door more anger rising. "Was he telling the truth? Did he touch Sakura?"
Tomoyo thought fast, "We don't talk about their intimate life," She could see Touya wince when she said intimate. "You'll have to talk with Sakura about that."
Touya looked at his fist. It was swollen and red.
"I have to go take a walk." Then he left Eriol and Tomoyo while he went to clear his head.
Later that day…
Sakura was still getting settled in her apartment when she heard a knock at the door.
"Coming!"
She ran to the door flinging it open.
"What are you doing here?" Her eyes were wide with shock. Dr. Russell was standing at her door smiling.
"Hi, I just came by to see if you were ok. After that little session we had you still seemed…disturbed."
Sakura put her hand in front of her face trying not to let him see her blush. "No really I'm fine."
"Yeah, that's what you said when we first met."
She stopped hiding her face and finally looked at the doctor in the face. "I'm sorry, would you like to come in?" She gestured for him to enter.
He took a moment to read her body language. He didn't want to impose or make her feel uncomfortable about letting him enter her home.
She was standing up straight with confidence, not the least bit awkward. His eyes searched her face for any doubt, but all he found were two warm emeralds looking back at him. He gaze moved down to her pink kissable lips free from any kind of lipstick. His eyes followed her smooth skin down to her chest, her perfect chest.
"Are you ok?"
Her heavenly voice brought his attention back to her eyes. "Yeah, I was just thinking about one of my patients."
"Oh, well would you like to come in? I have some tea…"
"Yes, that sounds lovely."
He was sitting on her white loveseat when she came back in the room holding a tray. She rested it on the brown coffee table and served the tea along with a piece of yellow cake with white frosting.
"Here you go Dr. Russell." Sakura handed him a cup of tea.
"Please call me Mike." He again noticed how beautiful her eyes were but quickly pushed that thought aside.
Sakura on the other hand had other thoughts in her head. She wanted to tell him that she wasn't completely honest during that session they had the other day. She didn't like knowing that she lied to him.
"Dr. Russell…I mean Mike…about that little talk we had the other day…"
He put down his cup of tea, "Yeah that was the reason why I came over here." He stood up so that he could look her in the eyes. "I wanted you to know that I'm here for you. We don't have to have a doctor client relationship, we can be more than that," he took a closer step to her placing his hands on her shoulder, "I want us to be friends."
"Get you hands off my sister."
Sakura turned to the door shocked to see Touya standing there. "What are you doing here?"
Mike seeing the shock on Sakura's face assumed that the man at the door was the guy she's been talking to him about.
"I have to talk with you…in private." Then Touya set his eyes on the guy with is hands on Sakura's shoulders. "Didn't I tell you to get your hands off my sister?"
A smile appeared on Mike's face as he dropped his arms. "Your SISTER, I must have missed that part." Then he reached inside his pocket pulling out a card. "Like I said, I'm here for you anytime."
She took the card but was confused, "I already have your number."
"No you don't." Then he left.
Touya slammed the door shut behind him and went up to his sister. "What was that guy doing here?"
Sakura rolled her eyes knowing what her brother was thinking. "Touya not every guy I meet wants to have sex with me. I don't know if you've heard of this but there are such things as friends."
"Did you see how relieved that guy was when he heard I was your brother? He had more planned than just being your friend. Plus what with you and Syaoran? Aren't you two supposed to be together or something?"
Sakura turned around surprised that her brother knew anything about her and Syaoran, "And how would you know that? Have you been talking with Tomoyo again?"
"No, Syaoran." He watched as she sister froze. He could tell a million thought were running through her head and all about that boy.
"Sakura, what is it that you're not telling me? That you're not telling him?"
"Touya this is my life. You have no business in it."
"Have no business? I've been protecting you from everything until you went to college. I've always been apart of your life so don't you tell me that this isn't any of my business."
Touya plopped down on the loveseat looking at his right hand. It was stinging a bit but beside that everything was fine.
Sakura took notice and immediately went to examine the hand, "What happened to you?"
"Nothing," He didn't want her to know what he's done. He wasn't happy about it, as much as he says he hates that Li kid he respects him and like how he looks out for Sakura.
"Touya you can't just come in here expecting me to tell you everything while you hide things from me."
He yanked his hand away from her, "Yeah, well you're not telling me anything anyway."
"I'll answer all your questions if you tell me what happened to you fist?" Then she left to get some ice leaving Touya some time to think.
As soon as she came back into the room Touya started talking, "I found out that you were dating Syaoran. Then I found out why you've been in such a bad mood all lately. So being the big brother I had to…"
Sakura walked over to him handing him the ice, "What did you do beast up Syaoran?" She was joking when she said that but when she saw the serious face her brother gave her she knew the answer.
"Touya how could you? You have no right beating Syaoran."
"He broke up with you."
"I broke up with him."
"Yeah well now I know." Touya rubbed his eyes with his other hand. "I talk with him while I was there."
"You mean between punches."
"Yeah, and none of it makes sense."
"It's not your problem, none of it should make sense."
He put the ice on his fist, "Sakura do you love him?"
"Not that question again, why does everyone keep asking that?"
"Because it needs an answer. Do you love him?"
Sakura looked into her brother's eyes. She couldn't lie to him. Even if she tried he would know the truth.
"Yes, alright, I love him. I love Li Syaoran."
Touya was confused, "Then why did you break up with him? It's not his fault that Pam put something in his drink. Yes I know him kiss-"
"What?"
Touya looked at his sister's confused expression, "You didn't know? But I thought…but…"
She couldn't believe what she was hearing. If it was true then everything that's happen was one big mistake. Then they would be able to get back together. But if it wasn't then…then…there would be no hopes of ever being with Syaoran again. And that would mean that he lied to her ad her brother.
"Touya who told you this?"
He looked at her like she was crazy, "Tomoyo and that guys she with."
"Are you telling me that Syaoran didn't tell you anything about Pam putting something in his drink, absolutely nothing at all?"
"Nah, not a thing. Not even while I was kicking him. But he did tell me…" Touya remembered what Li said about him and his sister. Actually that was the whole reason why he went to see Sakura in the first place.
"What? What did he tell you?"
"Sakura answer me honestly. Did you sleep with Syaoran?"
She adverted her eyes and mumbled out, "Yes."
Touya immediately got up from the couch and started to pace around forgetting about his red fist. "I can't believe you let that…that…" He started to grab his hair in frustration. Then another thought came into his head.
"You did let him right? He didn't force himself on you did he?"
Sakura quickly answered, "No! No, he was a gentleman about everything."
Then Touya started to rub his head trying to forget everything, "Sakura why? Why did you let him do…do…that to you? And him?"
"Touya I love him."
"Yeah well that's not what he thinks. Wait. Why doesn't he know you love him?"
Sakura started to get nervous. She didn't really want to tell anyone about this. "Touya just forget about it."
"Sakura answer." His voice was stern.
"I told him I didn't love him."
"You really are a monster. How could you do that to yourself? You know you love him."
Tears were threatening to come but she tried hard to fight it. The last thing she wanted was for her brother to watch her cry. "I'm sorry Touya. I'm sorry." She started to cry. She felt like she was letting down her brother. She has never felt that way before.
He ran to her side holding her, trying to comfort her. The last time he had to do this was when their mother passed away. He now knew how much Syaoran meant to her. He wasn't happy about it but he would have to accept that his little sis was growing up.
"Sakura it's ok, just talk with him, everything will work out."
Her red eyes looked up at him, "No Touya it won't. I told him that I never loved him in the first place. I told him that I was being phony. He'll never trust me again. He'll never take me back."
"You little monster, why'd you have to do all that?"
She put her head down into his chest, "I-I thought that he didn't love me." She looked back up at him, "Do you know how it feels to think that the person you love the most thinks of you as nothing? That he could do whatever he wants and you'll always be there waiting for him to walk all over you? Touya I don't want to be that person."
Then more tears started to fall out of her eyes staining her big brother's shirt.
"I'll always be here for you. I can't protect you anymore but I still keep trying."
Ok so was this long enough for you? I hope this can hold you over until I can get the next chapter up. Please give me some time, writing so much wore me out.
P.S. I hope that for a certain reader this story is turning out how they liked. I'm working hard not letting Syaoran run to her like in every other story. Please tell me what you think.