LOVE FOOLS

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FULL CIRCLE

They didn't talk much and he cut his talk even shorter than he intended while they washed dishes. He could sense Bella was not very open right now. Maybe his cold behaviour had got to her finally .

Bella didn't want her short time with Jacob to go up in smoke before it even ended. He surely seemed to be warming up to her but he was not interested in talking to her.

Bella slipped on the black v neck dress that Rose had sent her, she was going to pick her up in an hour .

She took a glimpse of herself in the mirror; her long hair was in a high ponytail with a strand of hair to hide her elastic. She was happy she had done it right as she had seen the Hollywood celebrities in the papers yesterday .

She had applied gloss to her lips with smoky eyes make up, which seemed to stand out more against her fair skin. Her self esteem needed a revival, she looked really attractive but it was of now of no use to her. Jacob didn't look at her with adoration now.

Bella looked at her reflection with a white clutch in her hands, hoop earring in her ears and brand new red peep toes flats "have fun, okay "she repeated to encourage herself as she was doing it for the first time in her 25 year old life .

She had not gone clubbing even with her classmates in college , she didn't need it anyway as she used to trek in the scenic places of Shimla with her gang of close girl friends .

"Who are you talking to? Is it Edward? "

Bella almost jumped in surprise, twirling around to see Jacob standing in the doorway of her room. He let out a whistle.

For the first time after the divorce spat, his eyes lingered on her slim frame before reaching her face. She thought 'you don't look so bad yourself' as she checked him wearing red jacket over brown t- shirt and jeans.

"No, it's not Edward. Where is mom?"Bella asked . She had not seen her since she came back home from her workplace .

"She met her cousin while shopping, so ... she will be coming home for dinner "Jacob said as he stared at her legs. They usually avoided talking to each other but seeing her like this he was feeling a twinge of jealousy.

Jacob was not expecting it to rise in him with such a force.

She was trying to avert her gaze from him as he was trying now as she said nonchalantly "I am going clubbing with Rose"

It felt nice to Jacob to see that they still had that simmering attraction toward each other .

Instead of telling her how beautiful she was looking politely , he instead snorted at her " No way . NOW that's calls for a big LOL"

Bella grabbed her clutch and then pushed past him as she went out from the house. She had just reached the ground floor of her of her building complex and met Rose.

She had threatened her to wear nude kitten heels despite her protests .Bella loved her red wedges. she descended on the stairs of car park extra slow because for heels, giving Jacob the time to follow her. "Sorry, that was rude. Bella, stop…."Bella opened the door of rose's Audi car and zoomed away.

The trance music was awesome that was playing in the background.

Two hours later, Bella found herself lost in a haze of artificial fog and alcohol with rose.

She enjoyed the paani puri sorbet (puri's are canopies which are bit sized that are filled with potato mousse with spicy and tangy flavour of tamarind) with Rose. She had no problem as she was talking animatedly with her.

Rose was little sloshed from the tequila shots but Bella was sober as she didn't drink much .

Jpov

I didn't know why, but I decided to follow them. I saw Rose and Bella both were getting drunk .though she didn't drink much , it was her first time .

Bella had been coughing a lot , thankfully it stopped after sometime .

Bella was looking like the epitome of female beauty ,her skin white as hair was making her look like Aphrodite! The soda was looking fine as I took it from the bartender.

I didn't think they would be able to drive home safely as Emmet was drinking too .

His friend Aaron was sipping only cocktails, I couldn't believe any new comer driving her home with my beautiful wife.

Bpov

"Rose, snap out of it!" I yelled in Rosalie's ear, she was busy checking out her husband who was on the far end of the lounge .

I got up to go the counter and order drinks for us. As I was taking the drinks, it spilled a little on someone's shirt, I saw it was Jake's shirt when I turned around to apologize "I am so sorry!"

"Yes, it was your fault. Totally your fault, when you can't walk on a flat surface then you should not step out of the house" he snapped at me. I was not expecting him to bark at me in public.

Agreed I did some shit on him, the little bit of alcohol swirling in my system didn't help my case either.

I got MAD! As my patience finally snapped "I said I was sorry! But you can be at least polite? What the fuck do you know where I should be and should not be?"

"You know very well that I know you are least sorry after you did. Do what you want, dear. Maybe you have forgotten who I am?" barked Jacob .

"I am sorry for what I did to you . Now I will tell you why I was so indifferent to you all those months" I said taking a breath.

"After few months of my so called crush, my parents decided to get me married but I didn't agree to their idea. They both tried a lot and convinced me to move on in my life. I didn't agree to their idea not because I was in love with my EX but because I had lost trust on the word ' LOVE', I thought no guy can love a girl selflessly. After few months of pestering from my parents, I finally agreed to have a look at the marriage proposal which they showed more interest."

Now Jacob was looking at me in shock, but I couldn't stop .

"There was a guy named Edward summers, our common relative asked my father to consider that match. A well educated, good earning person and settled in USA. The day before the engagement, Edward came to my house with his parents unexpectedly. He came to know about my love story in college and accused us for keeping it as a secret and shouted on me and my parents for trying to play with his life. " I started crying as I remembered those words ,I couldn't forget that day ever.

" I agree I liked that guy during college but t I never went out with him alone or on dates ever . I just used to talk and hang out with him in college. Is it sin to like a guy?After everything was settled dad again started to look for a guy. I didn't agree but they didn't listen to my words. They arranged a meeting with a new guy's family and when elders left us to talk in private, I told him about my college love and also about Edward Summers . I don't want my parents to get humiliated like before but the guy rejected me as he doesn't want a girl who has past .I got rejected and I didn't mind it."I shouted but didn't stop as Jacob came near me.

I stepped back as I want to continue my tale without any interruptions . "The same thing repeated for the next two proposals. When my parents asked the last guy to tell the reason for rejecting me, he told the same thing which I told him. My dad was so angry at me for revealing those things to them. My relatives started spreading rumours among our relatives and friends. This started to impact my dad's health."

Rose came near me and place her hands on tops of my shoulder.

I started speaking again," I thought you didn't like me as you didn't even say a hello . But next day we got a call from your mother that it was a 'yes' from your side. I was shocked while my parents were on cloud nine hearing the news as before inviting them to our house , I told my mom that I first want to tell you everything; she didn't agree which made me to argue with her.

For two days, mom didn't eat anything and continued to give me silent treatment. Finally having no other choice I decided to say 'yes' and then thought of telling you about everything .

But my mom took a promise from me not to talk about anything about my past with you . Soon our engagement was conducted. All this happened suddenly one after the other within months."

"Stop .let's go home ..." Jacob cried again but I need to tell him everything.

I have been keeping inside me that me for a long time. I continued," But as the days passed, you always tried to get to know me and shared about the things which were happening in your life. Slowly guilt crept within me, I was hiding the most important thing from you , it was very much needed for you to know..." I wiped my tears away ,the only true companion of my life till now .

"I tried so much to forget everything and start afresh but every time when you showed some care and affection towards me, that guilt came back to my never questioned me for ignoring the truth .You always tried to understand me ."

Jacob came near me and I allowed him to stand close to me as I tried to control my sobs .

" You have no idea how many times I cried at night when you were sleeping . That night when we went to the party every family member of your friends spoke very high about you. I felt even more guilty for not giving you the happiness you deserved . After coming home,you kissed me and I too responded to that kiss as I was dying to show my love. While kissing I don't know why but I got the flashbacks of that Edward summers humiliating me and my parents in front of my relatives but instead of Edward summers I saw ,you, Jacob humiliating me and accusing me of cheating.

Because of your behaviour that ill fated night.I realized that I can't make you happy without telling the truth . That promise won't let me reveal anything . That's why I decided to free you from this unhappy marriage and especially from me so that you can be happy with some other girl. It was not easy decision for me . I couldnt make you happy with my guilt .I can't destroy your life by denying your wishes for long, so I thought the divorce was the best solution for both of us."

" I'm not defending my self, I didn't had any other option at that time. First it was guilt which made me shut my mouth, later it turned to fear, a fear of losing you because I LOVE YOU, damn it ! "I sighed .

Finally I spat it out. Everyone at the club was looking at us as I felt no music now, Jacob was also shell shocked on hearing it.

Shit! what I have done ? They were staring at me and I felt like a total fool.