Selfless Brutality
Description: It was brutal, what he was doing, but it was for him, so it was okay, right?
Couples: onesided KaoHaru
Number of Words: 634
Kaoru has always loved his brother, but now the walls have crashed down, and he sees a new face.
He loves that face, he's willing to do anything for it. There's also... another face, the face that had been with him his whole life. The only face who could tell them apart until she came along. Now it's just the two, Hikaru and Kaoru. See, Kaoru hurts on the inside, he hurts really bad.
Most of it all, is because Kaoru loves her. He can't have her, so he's giving her to Hikaru.
The biggest problem, is that Hikaru doesn't want Kaoru to lie to him anymore, so if Kaoru pretends to not love Haruhi, Hikaru'll get mad, or when Hikaru finds out, he won't want her anymore.
"Kaoru?" Haruhi asked as she walked into the Host Club room. "What's wrong? Were you crying?"
"Nah," Kaoru chuckled as he stood up, wiping away a tear before she could see it. "I was just talking to myself again. I think I'm going crazy."
Haruhi was truly concerned about Kaoru, but she'd never say it. How could she say it? There was a wall between both of them, and only Kaoru wanted to knock it down.
It didn't matter anymore though.
"Kaoru, stop it," Hikaru scowled as Kaoru walked out of the room. "Stop sulking... and where the hell are you going."
"Mom... got us seperate rooms," Kaoru explained. "I'm going now."
Hikaru stared at his brother as Kaoru left to find another room to set up his bed. He lay on it, staring at the wall, the full effect of being alone in a room consuming his thoughts. A couple years ago, Kaoru would be bawling his eyes out and crying for his brother, and he'd also be crying out of boredom. Now he lay there, the loneliness not calling him to cry and shriek, but to stay silent. He needed to get used to this, he had to get used to it. If Kaoru could keep his brother away from him, maybe, just maybe, Hikaru would never find out that Kaoru liked Haruhi.
Or maybe he could find out when it was too late. Kaoru'd accept that too.
Hikaru and Haruhi would already be together, and then Hikaru could find out that Kaoru liked her as well. Then, they didn't have to sacrifice their love for her.
It was brutal.
But Kaoru didn't care.
He'd rather die than see his twin sad. Especially if he was the one who caused that sadness, it hurt so much, to see him sad over Haruhi. There was a problem though, Haruhi liked Tamaki, and Tamaki liked Haruhi. The only problem was, neither of them knew it.
So there he lay, facing a cold barren wall, and tears tugging at his eyes, embracing this cruel, brutal approach he was forcing upon himself. Kaoru could've made it a whole lot easier and told his brother, and the two would work it out. Only, Kaoru wasn't about to do that, he couldn't think of that, and the thought of loving another person made him feel horrible, like he needed to be punished for falling in love with Haruhi, it's true, that's how his mind worked.
It didn't have to hurt.
It didn't have to be brutal and savage.
It didn't NEED to be a punishment.
Yet, Kaoru made it that, none-the-less.
He loved Haruhi, but he'd give everything he ever had to keep his brother happy, and that's why he couldn't cry. Hikaru would know, and he'd come to Kaoru.
"I need a room on the other side of the mansion," Kaoru decided.
As far away as possible, as far away from everything you love as possible, to make the one you love happy.
It's true, Hikaru would be pissed.