"Are you OK Baby?" Roger asked rushing into the bathroom hearing Alexandra crying in the shower.
"Um, yeah I'm fine. What are you doing home so early?" she answered wiping her eyes.
"Joey's coming down with something, I thought it would be best if we cancelled practice today. Why were you crying in here by yourself?" he asked turning the water off before putting a towel around her shoulders.
"I was thinking about some things. I'm OK." she said getting up wrapping the towel around her body.
"Alex talk to me. What things?" he asked helping her out of the tub.
"I was thinking about what a great father you would be and the fact that I can't give you the chance to do it." she said starting to cry again as Roger took her into his arms to comfort her.
"Alex, I love you. You know it doesn't matter to me if we have kids or not. I have you. That's all I care about." he said kissing her wet hair.
"But Roger, I wish I could have your kids. They would be such beautiful, lucky kids." she cried as he held her tight.
"Yes they would, with a mom like you." he whispered holding back his own tears. He hated seeing Alexandra cry. He loved her so much and that bastard ex boyfriend of hers killed any chance she had to be a mother. And she would have made a great mother too. The love they shared deserved to be passed on. Before he knew it, he was thinking of a way they could do just that. "Baby, how would you feel about adopting a baby?" he asked as she looked up at him.
"What do you mean?" she asked wiping her eyes.
"I mean, we could adopt a baby." he said smiling at her.
"Are you sure? I mean, it could take years to get a baby." she asked looking up at him.
"So we'll adopt an older kid. Alex, I want you to be the mother of my child." he said taking her face in his hands.
"And I want to be the mother of your child." she said smiling up at him.
"OK, so tomorrow we'll ask Jo how we could go about adopting a kid." he said leaning down to kiss her.
"I love you Roger." she said wrapping her arms around his waist and holding him close.
"Alex, you have no idea how much I love you too." he said kissing her head again.
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"Are you guys sure about this? I mean, it's gonna be hell getting a child." Joanne asked looking up at them.
"We're sure Jo. We really want a child." Alexandra told her as Roger held her hand tight.
"You heard my girl." Roger said smiling at Alexandra.
"OK, but it's not gonna be easy you know. Especially with your HIV Roger." Joanne said digging the legal papers out of her desk drawer.
"Jo, we know that. We just wanna be parents. We're willing to do anything we need to do." Roger told her smiling.
"OK you two. As your lawyer, this is gonna be a long grueling process, but as your friend I just wanna say, congratulations. You two are gonna make amazing parents. If you love this kid half as much as you love each other, this is gonna be one very lucky kid." she said smiling back at them.
"Thanks Joanne." Alexandra said before they got started on filing the paperwork. They spent most of the day filling out papers and for Joanne to call adoption agencies. She submitted their application at every one in the city to give them a better shot at being matched with a child.
"Now it's a waiting game. When I hear something I'll call you guys, OK?" Joanne said hanging up the phone.
"How long do you think it'll take?" Alexandra asked looking up at her worried.
"It'll take a while sweetie, but you and Roger have a very good chance of being paired with a child." Joanne said smiling at her.
"Thank you so much Jo. We really appreciate you doing this for us." Roger said reaching over the desk to hug her.
"It's the least I can do for my two best friends. Everything is gonna be OK, don't worry." Joanne said taking one look at Alexandra who looked scared to death.
"I'm just really nervous, you know. I mean, what if they don't think Roger and I would make good parents?" she said looking up at them.
"Baby, listen to me. You are gonna be the best mom in the world and with you by my side, how could I not be the best dad?" he said putting his arms around her.
"And that's why all of your friends and family wrote letters for you. They don't know you guys like we do. When they read all of our letters, you are gonna be lucky if you only get one child. Don't worry about it Alex. I'm the lawyer, let me worry about it." she said smiling at her.
"You're right. I'm sorry Jo. I'm just having another meltdown. I just worry, you know?" Alexandra said still holding on to Roger.
"I know, but you don't need to sweetie. Everything is gonna be fine. You'll see." Joanne said looking up at Roger. He was worried that his HIV status was gonna get in the way of Alexandra being a mother. He didn't want to be the reason she couldn't be a mother. She was gonna make a great mother.
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"Baby, do you really think I'll make a good dad?" Roger asked looking down at Alex who was laying on his chest.
"Of course I do Roger. If you love our child like you love me, we are gonna have the luckiest child there ever was. The way you take care of me and make me feel like the most important person in the world, how could any child get better than you as a dad." she said leaning up to kiss him.
"Well you are the most important person in the world to me Alex and whatever kid we get is gonna be the most important person in the world too." he said caressing her face.
"I know Roger." she said laying back onto his chest and falling asleep.