OK, so maybe it wasn't my wisest idea to say that I would update when I hit 60 reviews, because you all started reviewing like crazy.. I left my computer for a few hours and I come back and there's now 66 reviews! I'm shocked.. and I promised I would give you the update! SO HERE IT IS!
If you're under like 13 I would say don't read a part of this chapter because I wouldn't want my 12 year old cousin reading some of this.. even though it isn't too descriptive and full on it's still slightly disturbing to me if I know that kids are reading this.
Naming this Chapter Lost Love in honor of Shanna's EP being released, you should all go buy that!
She was angry. If another person ran in front of her and screamed that Blake had done it, she was going to pounce on them. He had won a football game, not saved the human population from mass extinction; she didn't understand the big deal. She felt herself glare at him as the players picked him up and carried him around on their shoulders while he cheered.
Nellie had been in a bitchy mood since Thursday. She'd heard from Lindsay that Blake had a girl in the locker room with him for an hour. She still hadn't told Lindsay what she used to have going on with Blake, but her reaction after Lindsay told her about what she'd heard probably gave it away.
"You're fucking joking-" Nellie snapped, her eyes glaring down the corridor as she saw Blake stood with some of his buddies from the team.
"Nope, Marissa told me. She heard it from one of the guys on the baseball team. Apparently he walked in on them practically dry-humping," Lindsay had explained, not noticing the anger radiating from her friend.
Nellie's glare intensified as she saw Blake look up and smile slightly at her. It angered her even more and before she knew what she was doing, she had marched up to him and pushed him into a locker. She knew she didn't have the right, she had broken up with him, but it still hurt. It had only been a week.
"What the hell Nellie!?" Blake exclaimed, looking at her like she was ridiculous.
"You're a fucking Jerk!" She screamed at him, ignoring the stares she was receiving from half of the student body. "It's been a week! A week! And you're already fucking some slut!"
"Whoa, Nellie-" He looked confused as she was yelling at him. "I have no idea what you're talking about. Why would I hook up with another girl if I still want to be with you?" He asked quietly, trying to keep their voices down.
Nellie glared at him, "Stop fucking lying to me Blake!" She snapped and turned away, stalking down the corridor.
She couldn't believe that he would do something like that. It was so slutty, she really thought he cared about her and it just made the break up hurt even more. He hadn't left her alone since, he kept calling and trying to speak to her whenever he could, but she wasn't having any of it.
Shanna had become her personal bodyguard. After she heard what happened with Blake she hadn't let him anywhere near her, no matter how hard he tried. He would wait for her after class, hoping to catch her alone, but Shanna would always be there to swoop her away before he could get close enough. Shanna had also recruited Lindsay and Marissa to help when she wasn't able too, though they had no idea why Nellie was being treated like a three year old, they listened to Shanna. They had noticed the change in Nellie's mood since they returned after Winter Break and were willing to help, no questions asked.
"If you keep your pretty face like that any longer, it will freeze that way," Shanna spoke up from next to Nellie as they fought their way to Shanna's car. She could feel her phone buzzing in her pocket, she already knew it would be Blake, hoping she would eventually pick up. She didn't understand why he was trying so hard, they were over, done and dusted.
"It's not like it matters, no one is looking at me, they are all jumping with glee for Blake fucking Jenner and his winning touchdown," Nellie mumbled, stopping once they reached Shanna's mini cooper.
Michael appeared in front of them. "Hey, we don't need any of that," he said, hugging Shanna, and she leaned into his side, her arm around his middle. "Have you noticed that the F bomb comes from her mouth a lot lately?" he asked, looking over at Shanna, who had her head snuggled into his shoulder as she nodded slightly.
Nellie felt herself frown as she watched her best friend snuggle up with her boyfriend. She wanted that, but she wanted it with Blake and she couldn't have it with him.
"Leave me alone and hug your girlfriend," She snapped him, and he obliged immediately, wrapping his arms around Shanna. Nellie sat down on the hood of Shanna's car, staring at her skirt intently because she thought it was more interesting than watching her best friend cuddle with one of her ex boyfriends friends.
"There you guys are," Lindsay's voice rang out and Nellie looked up at her, nodding in hello as she noticed Marissa behind her, cuddling up to Cameron. "The parking lot is clearing out so that mean's the party is starting and we all know how much I hate being late for a party," Lindsay explained and pulled Cameron away from Marissa, making Nellie smirk slightly. She didn't want to see all these happy couples right now.
Nellie watched as Michael pulled away from Shanna and whispered something to her before he kissed her and started walking to what Nellie guessed was Blake's car.
"Let's go," Lindsay said with a smile, and Shanna unlocked her car letting the four girls climb in and Cameron went to meet up with Damian and Abraham.
"What's wrong Nell?" Marissa asked as she sat in the back seat next to her. "You look really pale," She muttered, staring at her concerned.
"Get me out of here Shanna," Nellie demanded softly as she noticed Blake in the distance, staring at the car.
"Huh?" Shanna looked confused, before she noticed Blake stood by his car, staring at them intently. "Right." She nodded her head quickly and started her car, driving them out of the lot.
"Don't worry Nell, this party will cheer you up," Marissa said softly and wrapped her arm around Nellie's shoulder.
Nellie was quiet the whole ride to Aylin's house. She knew her friends were worried about her, but she ignored their looks and stuck to just staring out the window. When they eventually pulled up at the house it was already surrounded by cars, so they had to park on the street.
The four girls climbed out of the car, leaving all their belongings locked inside. "Are we going inside or what?" Lindsay asked with a wide smile.
"I'm going to wait for Michael, but I'll meet you inside okay?" Shanna replied, and the three girls nodded, making their way to the party.
As soon as they entered they were greeted by being passed a bottle of god knows what and being forced to drink a shot of something vile. That was the only way Nellie could describe it, Vile. Not even the drinks that Charlie concocted were as bad as that.
"Let's dance!" Lindsay squealed and Nellie felt herself smile at her friend as they made their way to the dance floor. Lindsay may not always be able to keep their secrets, or realise that not everything revolved around her relationship with Damian, but she was always there when a friend needed her and she was the best cure to a break up, even if she didn't know she was curing a break up.
As the night went on, Nellie felt herself start to enjoy herself and she almost forgot about Blake. She'd danced all night long, revelling in the relaxation that it gave her, but after a few hours, Marissa and Lindsay had fled to find their boyfriends and she hadn't seen Shanna since they got here, so she found herself alone.
She pushed her way through the crowds of people in the living room when she felt arms wrap around her waist and she was pulled back and into a chest. She didn't even have to look at the person to know who it was, she knew the feeling of his chest all too well, his scent was lingering around her and she could hardly control herself. It was Blake holding her.
"I've been looking for you," he murmured into her ear softly.
"Well, you found me, I have to go now," She replied, and tried to walk away, but his arms were locked around her so she couldn't go anywhere. She knew she had to get away from him, if she didn't he'd convince her into not wanting to leave, he had such an effect over her now and she almost hated him for it. "Blake..." She whispered in a pleading voice. She wasn't sure what else she could say.
She could feel his breath on her neck, tickling her softly. "God Nellie, you don't know how much I've missed you," He admitted quietly, feeling her relax into his body.
Just like that she stopped trying to get out of his arms, and she felt herself lean back into his chest, enjoying the feel of him pressed up against her. "You're so beautiful Nel," He whispered, and she felt his hands move down her body, gripping at her hips.
"Blake-" She whispered almost inaudible over the loud music blasting from the stereo and the various teenagers in the room. She could feel him kiss her neck, but it was mostly a blur. She knew she shouldn't be doing this with him anymore, they were done, over, but she couldn't resist the boy.
"Just, be with me," He whispered, his voice just as low as hers and he twisted her around so they were chest-to-chest.
A small sigh escaped her lips as she let her head fall on his shoulder, trying to get a grip of herself. "We're not doing this anymore Blake-" She said quietly as she pulled back from him, looking into his eyes, her own set showing him just how conflicted she was.
She wanted him. She wanted to be with him, but she couldn't. Charlie had gotten hurt because of them; he'd lost his chance at a football scholarship because they were idiots and tried keeping their relationship a secret.
"I know," He whispered, his face inching closer to hers. Before Nellie knew it his lips were on hers and they were walking. He was guiding her through the crowded room, she wasn't sure how he managed to keep them from running into something, but within seconds her back hit something hard. A door. And she was turning the door knob, their lips still pressed together in a heated kiss.
They didn't check to see if anyone was in the room as they fell back against the bed, their kisses becoming more frantic and desperate. Their hands clawed at their clothes, she heard her shirt rip as he ripped the buttons off and she pulled the shirt down her arms, throwing it to the floor.
She felt like an addict. She needed more and more of him as every second passed. She could feel his hands over her body, one was under her bra, making her squirm as the other traced the skin on her stomach and waist, making her whole body tingle.
"Oh god-" She let out a moan as she felt his fingers under her bra and she couldn't take it anymore. She wrapped her legs around his back, pulling him impossibly closer to her and pulled his shirt over his head, attaching their lips back together as quickly as possible.
It was a whirlwind of kissing and touching and rolling around the bed and before she knew what she was doing, she'd un-buttoned his pants and she was pushing them down his legs.
"Someone's in a hurry-" Blake mumbled, a smirk on his lips as he kicked his jeans off.
She ignored his comment and moved her hand downwards, caressing his stomach slightly before she felt his hand on her own and she looked up at him confusedly. The confusion soon turned into a look of shock as she felt his hand travelling south until he found her bare thighs.
"Oh god-" She groaned as he pushed her skirt up and his hand travelled further up her leg, closer to her inner thigh. She could feel her chest moving up and down at a fast pace.
His fingertips rubbed the hem of her underwear and she gasped slightly. His lips were back on hers again, and his fingers pushed her panties to the side and she pulled him closer by tugging on his neck. She gasped as he slipped his finger into her.
The thoughts of this being wrong, all the guilt that she had built up over the past few weeks had disappeared as she felt him rubbing her slowly. She was sure she was going to regret doing this with him tomorrow, but right now, all she could do was crave him even more.
His finger dipped further into her and she broke away from his lips, her head falling back against the comforter and he entered another finger. She could feel his lips on her neck as she tried to control her breathing as he moved inside of her.
She could feel the heat inside of her building up and her vision was getting blurry. She turned her head to the side as she felt the burning in her stomach get hotter and then she saw it.
A picture of Charlie was sat on the bedside cabinet.
This was Aylin's bedroom.
She cursed herself for being so careless, she was getting fingered in her brother's girlfriends bedroom.
Her eyes widened, remembering her brother sat at home, alone. "Blake, stop!" She said quickly.
"Trust me, Nel," He mumbled quietly, keeping his lips attached to her collarbone, but his fingers had stopped moving, waiting for her to agree again.
"No, get off!" She snapped and pushed him away from her with all of her strength. "I shouldn't be doing this!" She muttered to herself and she was crawling off the bed and pulling her shirt over her head.
"Nellie, don't," Blake said softly, getting off the bed himself and pulling his own shirt on.
Nellie shook her head and looked down at her shirt, seeing the broken buttons, but she ignored them and put her hands over her chest, making her way to the door while Blake was pulling his jeans on.
"Nellie, don't leave, please!" He pleaded and rushed over to her before she could open the door.
"This is stupid Blake," She whispered and turned to look at him, seeing the pained look on his face made her cringe. She was the cause of that. "We can't do this to Charlie, not again." She said, reaching for the door handle again, but Blake stood in front of it.
"Then we can tell him Nellie, this doesn't have to be a secret!" He pleaded with her.
Nellie bit her lip and shook her head, trying to keep her gaze away from his. "I can't hurt my brother anymore Blake," She said quietly, staring at his hand on the door handle. "I'm sorry," She admitted and finally looked back at him, only to regret it when she saw tears in his eyes.
Blake sighed. He was silent for a few minutes before he spoke up again, "Fine." He whispered and stepped away from the door, letting her walk away. "Go." He spat out, a little harsher than he had anticipated.
"Blake-" She said quietly. She didn't want to hurt him, that was the last thing she wanted to do, but she had.
"Just go Nellie," He whispered, trying to pull himself together.
Nellie nodded slightly and left without another word.
Blake watched as the door closed and he felt a single tear slip down his cheek. He had got her and then he had lost her. He'd finally gotten a chance with the girl of his dreams and she didn't want him anymore.
DID YOU THINK I WAS GONNA LET THEM HAVE SEX!? I know, in my previous notes it sounded like I was going to be, but I couldn't let it happen just yet.. anyway, that was like my first kinda smutty thing that I have ever wrote.. what did you think? Was it okay? Or was it too cringey and I should just stop?
Also, Blake's such a jerk for hooking up with another girl after only a week, right!? HAAHAH, did he really though!? I'm seriously so hyper right now, I'm running on like five hours of sleep and have had too much caffeine... you guys and all your reviews aren't helping calm me down either! :D
BUT THANKS SO MUCH FOR ALL THE REVIEWS! I love reading them and they give me more motivation too write.. but I don't have any more chapters written at the moment, so I'm not going to make another deal :) but hopefully the next one will be soon! :D