A/N - Thank you, thank you so much for all your reviews, i know i don't reply to all of them but i'm sure you would prefer me to use that time to write the next chapter so i could update quicker, right? But i do reply to those of you who ask questions...i at least do that : D

Ok, alot of you don't like Bella at the moment and i understand but just know that when you're pregnant all your emotions are magnified by 100, i would know : ) So her anger and confusion is much worse than what it should be so that's why i had her reacting the way she was. I hope you all love her again by the end of this chapter.

Love to my virtual family, i miss you all so much, i've been so busy lately : ( *hugs*

This chapter starts with BPOV from the morning after the engagment party, so its Saturday morning...

Lets get reading

I don't own anything twilight...Stephanie Meyer owns everything...wish i did though...

Apologies and Surprises

BPOV

I pushed myself back off the toilet seat for the third time that morning and let my weak form slump back onto the tile floor. I've been sitting here for about twenty minutes vomiting the little that was left in my stomach. The worst part is that it's just acid considering I haven't been eating much and its burning my throat in the process. I felt weak and cold. Today seems to be the first real day of my morning sickness. I took a deep breath and let myself up.

I sluggishly got to the sink and brushed my teeth before splashing some cool water on my face. I forced my legs to lead me to the kitchen where I sat back down at the table. I rested my elbows on the table and cradled my head in my hands, involuntarily moaning as the nausea was making a come back.

"You ok mummy?" Brady asked me as he looked over at me worriedly. I popped my head up and forced a smile and just nodded.

"Good. Can we do something today?" He asked all excited. I couldn't help the groan that escaped my lips this time. I was barely making it the few steps around the house, let alone walking around somewhere like the mall or the park.

The phone rang and I got up to get it, walking slowly as not to encourage the nausea anymore than necessary.

"Hello?" My voice sounded groggy.

"Hey, Bella. Oh…you don't sound too good." Alice said. I could just imagine her wrinkling her nose as she said that.

"No, no I'm fine. What do you need?" I asked trying to lighten the tone of my voice.

"Well, I was hoping you would be up for some shopping and lunch today." Oh crap, I was definitely not up for anything that included any sort of movement.

"Ah…I don't know…I'm not feeling the best."

"Oh come on, you know shopping is therapy." She giggled.

"No really, I feel really weak and my stomach is not the best."

"Well, how bout we take just Brady with us then. That will give you a chance to relax and get some rest. Rose will be with me so it will be fine." I pondered over her offer for a second before I decided I wouldn't mind some alone time.

"Sure, if you don't mind."

"GREAT! See you soon Bella."

"Thanks, bye Alice."

"Bye."

I hung up and walked over to Brady who was watching some cartoons while stroking Storm who was sitting in his lap.

"Brady, Alice is going to be here soon to take you to the mall, so could you please go and get yourself dressed."

"Really?" He asked as his eyes lit up. I nodded.

"YEAH!" He jumped off the couch and crashed himself into me for a hug. He really shouldn't have done that.

As soon as he let go of me I ran to the bathroom and bent over the toilet bowl….again. I retched nothing, my stomach was empty. I had a little bit of bile coming up again but hardly any. I groaned as I slumped myself back onto the floor. I don't remember getting morning sickness with Brady. Brady was a smooth pregnancy.

I got up once again and brushed my teeth. I made my way to the couch and decided to lie down and rest my eyes. I wasn't sure how long I had been asleep but I got woken by a knock on the door. I got up slowly and made my way to the door and opened it.

My eyes grew wide and my heart beat sped up with excitement.

"SETH?!" I yelled before I threw myself into his arms, locking my arms around his neck and almost knocking him over in the process.

"Whoa!" He chuckled as he steadied himself and wrapped his arms around me. "I hope I didn't scare you."

I shook my head against him as I continued to hug him tight. Seth was Jacob's best friend and straight away became mine too. He left soon after Jacob's funeral and I haven't seen him ever since. We grew so close over the years that I was so upset when he left to travel.

I finally managed to let him go but just enough to look him in the eyes. I could feel the happy tears streaming down my face.

"You're back. I've missed you so much." I cried.

"Me too, it's so great to finally see you!" He grinned back at me and I couldn't help but remember Jake when he did that. I grabbed his hand and led him into the house. I took him into the kitchen and I noticed him scanning the place as he entered.

He took a seat at the kitchen table. I stood beside him resting my hand on his shoulder. I couldn't believe my eyes, I had never been so happy to see anyone.

"BRADY!" I called out. Seth's eyes widened.

"Brady." He whispered to himself. "Oh my God, Bella. How old would he be now?"

"Just turned six two weeks ago." Just as I said it Brady appeared around the corner and made his way over to me. I heard Seth's intake of breath as he looked over at Brady. A grin slowly formed across his face and I noticed his eyes began to tear up as he got up from his seat to kneel in front of him.

"Hey there little guy." Brady just looked at him shyly while trying to hide behind my leg. I pulled him away just enough to kneel down beside him.

"Brady sweetie, this is Uncle Seth." Brady furrowed his brows in confusion before smiling shyly at him. "Can you say hi to Seth please?"

"Hi." His voice was soft and shy.

"Brady…I remember you when you were just a little baby, and your dad used to hold you and play with you." Seth's voice broke at the end and I noticed he was trying hard not to let go and cry. Brady nodded at him still smiling.

"You're a spitting image of him." Seth spoke almost to himself. He looked up at me. "He's Jake, everything about him, his skin, his hair, his eyes and his nose….everything." He seemed to be in disbelief. "Can I get a hug?" Seth asked reaching his arms out to Brady. Brady looked up at me as if asking if it was ok. I nodded my approval. He moved into Seth and wrapped his little arms lightly around him. Seth hugged him…tight. I noticed a tear slip down his face as he did. He had his eyes shut tight. I couldn't help but feel for Seth. The last he saw of Brady was when he was two and a half and I'm sure it was a shock to see how much he has grown and how much he reminds us of Jake.

He finally pulled away and tried to discreetly wipe the tears from his eyes. Brady hid back by my side.

"Mummy, I'm dressed." He spoke softly again.

"Ok. Sweetie. Alice should be here soon." He ran off to his room leaving Seth and I alone in the kitchen.

He sat back down in his chair while I got the coffee pot brewing. "Would you like some tea or coffee?" I asked.

"Coffee is good." Seth answered while he looked around the place observantly again.

"What?" I asked curious as to why he kept doing that. His eyes snapped to mine.

"Just….everything still looks the same Bella. You haven't changed anything." I took a seat by the chair that was perpendicular to his.

"I don't have it in me to change anything. I feel like a part of him is still with us this way, you know?"

He nodded. "I know."

"So where have you been these last three years, huh?" I asked trying to lighten the mood. He grinned as he thought about it.

"Well, I was studying to become a veterinarian in Washington State remember?" He asked. I nodded.

"Well, I had just finished my four years just after he passed. I wasn't sure I wanted to get right into it. I wanted to travel, I wanted to see what was out there because I knew once I settled down and started working that was it for me. So I've been travelling for the last three years, Europe and Africa mostly. It's been a surreal three years for me. I've seen absolutely everything."

"So you haven't been back in the last three years at all?" I asked astounded. He shook his head.

"I have a few buddies who helped me out here and there. I was backpacking so most days I was living on bread and butter but Bella, the things I got to see, the things I got to experience…I'd do it all over again in a heart beat." I took a moment to absorb everything he was telling me.

"Wow." Was all that managed to escape me. He chuckled.

"I know it's shocking, but I'm back now and ready to take on anything." I jumped up and poured him a cup of coffee and I internally cursed myself for getting up too quickly. I tried swallowing down the nausea and hoping I wouldn't be in for round 5. I placed the coffee in front of him while I grabbed some fruit and custard tarts from the fridge and placed them onto to a little platter. I walked back over to the table and placed the platter in front of him.

"Thanks." He said as he took a sip of his coffee. "So, what's been up with you? Dating anyone yet?" I snapped my eyes away from his and looked down at my fingers.

"You're not dating yet? Come on Bells, it's been three and half years almost…its time-"

"No, that's not it. I have tried, with one person but we're sort of….on a break?" I stated questioning myself. I wasn't even sure what you would call us now. Just thinking of him still hurt. I wanted to see him, the hurt was becoming too much and I missed him too much to ignore him any longer, I tried fighting it but I couldn't. He nodded and kept quiet. He must have noticed it was a sore subject for me.

"I saw Billy yesterday." My head snapped back up to meet his gaze.

"Y…You did?" I asked.

"Yeah, he said he hasn't seen Brady in a while and he misses him heaps."

"Did he say anything else?" I asked cautiously. Billy never was discreet about his feelings towards me. So I wouldn't be surprised if he mentioned to Seth what happened.

"What do you mean?" He asked looking at me intently.

"Nothing." I figured he hadn't said anything because that was something you wouldn't forget.

He grabbed a strawberry tart and shoved the whole thing into his mouth. They weren't big but it would take me about four bites to eat it. I chuckled. He continued chewing as he tried not to laugh at my expression. I shook my head at him while laughing.

"You and Jacob really had no idea how to enjoy food. How do you enjoy something by just shoving it in your mouth like that?"

"We can." He said still grinning as he licked the sides of his mouth to catch the bits that fell out. I laughed as I got up and grabbed him a napkin.

"Here." I said handing him the napkin.

"Thanks babe." He took it off me and wiped down his mouth. It was good to laugh and forget about everything that was bothering me over the past few days. But deep down my chest still hurt, it always would.

The door knocked so I got up to get it. "One sec, Seth." I got to the door and it was Alice.

"Hey, Bella." she leaned in and hugged me tight, almost soothingly. I lost myself in her hug and rested my head on her shoulder. She smelled great like always. Her scent reminded me of him, everything seemed to remind me of him. She pulled away and studied me.

"How have you been?" She asked searching my eyes.

"Ok, not the best." She nodded in understanding.

"Is he ready to go?" She asked.

"Hey, I have an old friend of mine who just dropped by. Why don't you call Rose and the kids and come in. I want you to meet him."

"Ok, I'll go get them."

"Great." I waited for them all to get out of her car and come inside.

"Rose." I hugged her tight. "Congratulations for last night. How was it?" I asked pulling away.

"Thanks Bella. It was good." As she said that she looked over at Alice and they both exchanged a look, I couldn't make out what it was but it wasn't good.

"What?" I asked feeling worried all of a sudden.

"We'll tell you later." Alice said patting me on the back before passing me to walk inside.

I led them to the kitchen where Seth seemed to be stuffing another tart into his mouth. He looked up at us and a faint blush colored his tan skin when he saw Rose and Alice beside me. He focused on Rose for a little longer than appropriate.

"Alice, Rose this is one of my best friends Seth. Seth this is Alice and this is Rose who just got engaged." I tried to emphasize. He looked over at me and grinned knowing exactly what I was hinting.

"Nice to meet you both." He greeted standing up and shaking both their hands.

"Likewise." Alice responded.

"Nice to meet you too." Rose smiled.

I turned to Charlotte and Peter who were still standing beside Alice.

"Hello, my babies." I gave them both a hug and a kiss.

"Are you coming with us Bella?" Charlotte asked looking at me with her puppy dog eyes. She just made my heart melt.

"I don't know sweetie, I'm not feeling too well. But I'll see."

She frowned. "Ok, but I want you to come." She pouted. I hugged her against me.

"I want to go too. I'll see how I go, ok?" I pulled away and she nodded at me smiling. I gave her a quick kiss on the forehead before getting back up.

We all sat and chatted for about half an hour while the kids played in Brady's room. Seth cracked them up, he was such a goofball and seemed to be such a flirt too. The last time I saw him, he was still a shy boy but now he seems to have become a man. He was really tall, probably as tall as Edward and he was quite muscular but leaner than what Jake was. His hair was black, straight and long, just past his nose, which was brushed away from his face.

"Ok, well I better get going. I have so many things I need to do now that I'm back to reality. But it was great seeing you Bella. How bout we meet for lunch or something?" He suggested as he stood up and took his empty cup to the sink.

"Why don't you come for breakfast tomorrow? Charlie will be here and I'm sure he would love to see you."

"Sure! That sounds great." He walked over to me and hugged me tight as he whispered in my ear.

"I know something is up with you because you don't seem yourself. Remember I'm here now if you need anyone to talk to." He pulled away and looked me in the eye.

"I know, thanks Seth. It was great seeing you, you've made me so happy." He nodded.

"I tend to have that affect on people." He smirked.

"Since when did you become the flirt?" I slapped him on the chest playfully.

"Well, I'm 25 now. It had to happen sooner or later." He grinned at me and I couldn't help but laugh.

He said bye to Rose and Alice and I noticed he eyed Rose up and down again. I just shook my head at him, such a typical man.

"So, you coming?" Alice asked trying to glare at me but failing.

"I guess so, I feel a little better now. How much shopping are you actually planning on doing?" I asked worriedly. Rose burst into laughter and wrapped her arm around my shoulders.

"Bella, never ask that to Alice. She could say an hour but her hour is like ten minutes of our time." Alice grinned at me nodding her head.

"Hmmm…" I thought about how comfortable I was going to be, the nausea seemed to have subsided a little and I wouldn't mind the distraction plus I wanted to know what the look they gave each other earlier was all about.

"Ok, give me one sec to change." I ran off to my room and picked out some clothes. I slipped on my faded skinny jeans and matched them with a white cotton sweater and brown jacket that stopped around my waist. I matched them with some brown flat boots and left my hair out in its waves. I quickly applied some light makeup and then grabbed my bag.

"Ok, I'm ready." I said breathlessly.

"Great, let's go." We all headed out. Alice went in her car with the three kids while Rose decided to come with me.

"How are you feeling?" Rose asked as I pulled out and followed behind Alice.

"I'm…ok, I guess." I shrugged.

"You don't look ok, Bella." She mentioned with worry.

"I miss him." I spoke after a few moments of silence.

"He's innocent." Rose stated looking over at me. "And I'm sure deep down you know that." I blinked back tears because I couldn't cry anymore. I've had enough of my stupid tears. She was right, deep down I did know he was innocent.

"I do."

"Then what's the problem?"

"If you spoke to Emmett on the phone and he said he was feeling sick and he wanted to be alone and then you go to his house believing what he said and taking him soup because you're worried about him and then an extremely breathtakingly beautiful girl answers the door in nothing but a towel, wouldn't you be acting the same way?" I asked turning to glance at her briefly. She went silent for a few moments before she spoke.

"But you know him well enough to-"

"Rose, regardless of whether or not I know him, that alone would make you think otherwise."

"You're right. But what's stopping you from hearing him out now since you know he is innocent?" The truth was I didn't even know the answer to that question. My hormones have been all over the place with the pregnancy that nothing was making any sense any more.

"I don't know. I love him Rose. I love him more than anything in this entire world. As much as I loved Jake if not even more and I hate to admit that but its true. Love with Edward is like nothing I have ever experienced before."

"I don't understand Bella. You're not making any sense." I took a deep breath. I wasn't even sure what I was trying to get at.

"I know. I don't even know what I'm trying to say." We both went silent. I was angry at myself and I had a feeling she was a little annoyed with me too. And I didn't blame her.

"If you saw him last night….." She drifted off. We got to a traffic light and I spun around to face her.

"What about last night?" I asked with fear in my voice.

"No, no nothing serious…but….Bella you need to see him."

"What happened last night Rose?" She took a deep breath before answering me.

"He was heartbroken. He drank and drank. He got drunk, swore at Emmett and Jasper, got into a little argument with them, embarrassed himself a little in front of his family and a few of Carlisle's colleagues. He sobered up a little for his speech then got smashed again and Jasper had to help walk him out and drive him home." She spoke softly and she seemed really hurt talking about it.

"I've been such a bitch." I whispered in disgust to myself.

"Bella, green light."

"I never thought about what he would be going through, only myself."

"Green light Bella." I could hear the horns beeping behind me but I couldn't care less. All I could think about was how I hurt him.

"He may have hurt me but I'm just doing the same to him now."

"Bella, I understand but you're holding up traffic and the lights about to go red again." I snapped myself out of it enough to accelerate. We stayed silent for the rest of the trip, my thoughts about Edward haunting me.

We entered every store thanks to Alice. I wasn't in the mood after hearing what happened to Edward the night before but I had to try hard for all of them. Rosalie and Alice bought so many things while I bought nothing. I wasn't in the mood and also because I knew soon I wouldn't be able to fit into my normal clothes.

We entered GAP and we all took a look around, well I pretended to. The kids were chasing each other around the store and giggling loudly. I decided to take them out to the arcade on the first level so they could play while Alice and Rose shopped. It would also allow me to sit and do nothing but ponder over my thoughts. I took the kids down stairs and handed them some money each while I sat down and watched.

I wanted to see him and to talk to him. I was missing him too much and I wasn't sure how much longer I was going to be able to stay away from him. What Rose told me broke my heart. To think he was taking it hard was too much for me to fathom.

"Earth to Bella." I snapped myself out of my reverie to find Alice waving her hand in front of my face.

"Oh, hey."

"Ready for lunch?" She asked staring at me curiously.

"Sure."

We got back to the cars and Alice suggested we go that bistro we had lunch at once with Jasper and Edward, the one that had a play area outside for the kids. We all agreed but I wasn't too happy about being somewhere that had his memories in it.

We arrived and the waiter led us over to a table while the kids scurried outside to play. We ordered our drinks and then looked over the menu. I wasn't sure of what to eat but I didn't want them suspicious of anything either. I decided a fruit salad would be safest.

The waiter came back and took our orders.

"I'll have the club sandwich minus the bacon." Alice ordered for herself.

"Um….ah…I'll have the…Chicken Caesar Salad." Rose said.

"I'll just have the fruit salad." As soon as I said it Alice looked at me funny.

"Fruit salad for lunch?"

"I said to you this morning, I'm not feeling too well." I shrugged trying to make it seem like nothing. She nodded before taking a sip of her sparkling mineral water.

"So how was the engagement party?" I asked as the waiter took our menus and walked away.

"It was great Bella. Everything turned out perfectly all thanks to this little pixie." Rosalie gushed as he playfully nudged Alice.

"You do have a passion for it." I said to Alice trying hard to smile.

"You should have heard Emmett's speech. It was so funny yet romantic all at the same time." I nodded looking down again. I couldn't get what Rose told me about Edward out of my head.

"So….is Edward ok now?" I asked out all of a sudden. They both looked at me in shock, then at each other before looking back at me.

"So?" I asked growing impatient.

"He is…ok today, I guess. Emmett said he woke up with a really bad hang over and spent most of his morning over the toilet seat." Rosalie answered as she studied me.

"I need to see him."

"What?" they both asked in unison.

"I need to see him." I wasn't sure what clicked in me but suddenly I felt the extreme need to be in his arms. I wanted to forget about everything, I wanted to pretend like it didn't happen and I wanted to be his baby again. Whatever it took I wanted him back.

"O…Ok," Alice stammered still in shock. "What's come over you, you wouldn't even allow us to mention his name and now you want to see him?" I nodded vigorously.

"Yes, I love him. I love him so much it hurts and I've been trying to deal with everything over the last three days to try and come to terms…I don't know….I've just given up. I just want him back." I could feel my hands begin to tremble in nervousness. "What if he doesn't want me back?" I asked suddenly nervous and scared.

"Don't be silly Bella. You obviously don't know how much he loves you because he will take you back in a heart beat." Rose said soothingly.

"Ok. Where is he today?" I asked impatiently. I wasn't sure I was going to get through lunch.

"I think he is still at home. Like I said, Emmett was saying he had a bad hang over so he is probably still at home."

"Ok." I tried to take a deep breath as I settled back into my seat, but it wasn't working. I fiddled with my fingers impatiently as I kept glancing at my wrist watch.

"Bella are you ok?" Alice asked me with concern.

"Ah…no…I need to see him like…now. Can I leave?"

"Um…ok, if that's what you want." She seemed skeptical of my sudden decision but she didn't say anything else. "We'll take Brady to our place. You can pick him up from there once you're done."

"Ok." I stood up and threw some money on the table. "I'm so sorry but I really need to do this." I said as I paused beside the table.

"Don't worry. You go get him." Rosalie said with a wink. I weakly smiled back and then hurried out of the bistro.

The whole drive there I went through all the different things I wanted to tell him, the things I wanted to ask him and most importantly to apologize for being a bitch. My heart sped faster with each minute I got closer. My hands began to sweat and they were still trembling in nervousness. I tried gripping the steering wheel really tight to stop the trembling. I wasn't sure how he was going to react to me showing up at his door. The last time I showed up at his door our world got turned upside down. But I didn't think there would be anything at this moment that would make me turn away.

I pulled up into his driveway and parked. I took a few minutes to try and calm myself before heading out. I walked up to his porch and stood in front of the door. I raised my hand to knock but halted it in the air for a second as I tried to fight back the tears that were threatening to emerge. Once I was satisfied enough that they were not going to spill over I knocked lightly.

My heart was beating dangerously fast as I waited impatiently for the door to open. I heard a light shuffling come from the other side and then a groan, his groan, oh how I've missed it.

"Emmett, I swear…I fucking told you-" He froze mid sentence as he opened the door and saw me standing there. His face looked stunned at he registered my presence. Once the initial shock was over, his expression turned to confusion and pain. He looked tired and drained. He was in nothing but his grey track pants hanging extremely low and a white singlet, his hair in its beautiful bronze disarray, he must have been sleeping.

"Hi," My voice barely came out a whisper as I stared back at him. My heart was doing flips and twists at his presence. He continued to stare at me, furrowing his brows and pursing his lips as he did. He seemed to be having some kind of internal battle within himself. I figured he must have given up on us, that he didn't want to see me anymore.

"I'm sorry…I'll just…I'll-" I gave up trying to explain myself and turned to leave but I felt his hand immediately grab onto my arm and stop me. I spun back around to look at him, his brows were still furrowed and he still didn't say anything.

"Edward…" I spoke softly, hoping to get some sort of verbal reaction from him as his facial expressions were causing my stomach to twist in knots painfully. I noticed his chest was heaving with each of his breaths as he continued to stare at me. He still seemed to be thinking through something deeply.

"Bella…what are you doing…I thought last night when-" He finally spoke up but I stopped him.

"Can I come in?" My voice was shaking with apprehension. He nodded.

"Of course." His voice was reserved as he answered. He let go of my arm and stood aside and let me in.

I walked in and immediately I felt at home. The familiar smells, the familiar surroundings and the electric current bouncing off between us were my home. I stood and waited for him to lead me in. He led me to the living room where he gestured for me to take a seat. He seemed to have gotten over the shock but his face remained serious.

I hesitantly sat down and all of sudden felt like I needed to vomit. Between the uncertainty, the nerves and the pregnancy my stomach was churning. I tried to take deep breaths to try and keep the nausea at bay.

He took a seat on the couch opposite me and I immediately felt like he was too far away, I needed him close to me. I looked down at my lap as I tried to avoid his questioning gaze.

"I'm sorry for just dropping by but-"

"Don't." I snapped my head up to meet his gaze. "Don't apologize." His velvet soft voice was hard and serious. I felt the tears burning my eyes but I tried to blink them back with no success. I felt one run down my face and I broke down. I sat on his couch and broke down, tears streaming freely down my face. I hid my face into my hands and leaned over to rest my head on my knees. Within a split second I felt Edward's hands on me. He lifted me up and cradled me into his lap sideways. I nestled my head into the crook of his neck while I wrapped my arms around his neck also.

He rubbed my back with one hand and stroked my hair with the other, just how I liked it. I sobbed. I sobbed into his neck as I pressed myself incredibly closer into him, wanting to never let go…ever. I took in deep breaths of his scent as it relieved my body.

"I'm sorry." I cried.

"Bella, don't apologize, I don't even know what you're apologizing for." He soothed. "I'm the one that needs to apologize, Bella. I need to apologize for the way I handled things the other night." I cried even more and I mentally cursed the stupid pregnancy hormones for turning me into such a cry baby. Then when I remembered that I had to tell him about the pregnancy I cried harder. He held me, he held me tight against his hard chest, stroking my hair and rubbing my back till I calmed down. This was where I belonged. This is where I needed to be and no where else.

After what felt like forever I managed to calm down till I was just sniffling. My breathing evened out slightly as took control over my emotions. I pulled myself back just enough to find my home in those piercing emeralds that continued to haunt my every thought over the last few days.

His hand came up and cupped my cheek as he searched my eyes, stroking my cheek lightly with his thumb. I couldn't believe I almost lost him. I couldn't ever allow that to happen again.

"Bella," His voice was a mere whisper. "I am so incredibly sorry. You don't have the faintest idea how sorry I am for how I handled the situation the other night. But I didn't do anything. I would never ever, for the rest of eternity ever do anything to betray you or deceive you in any way, shape or form."

"I know." I whispered back as I kept my eyes still locked on his, my voice was hoarse from all the crying.

"I need you to know. She showed up unexpectedly and I wanted answers from her. We went a little crazy at each other trying to sort out the past and mostly venting our pent up frustrations regarding the break up. She started to lose it near the end and even wanted to sleep here but I refused. She asked for a shower at the least and I still said no but she wouldn't let up. Bella, I just wanted her out of here as soon as possible, so I gave in and let her shower while I ran off to book her a hotel for the night. I didn't hear the door knock, and I didn't hear her answer. I just walked out after booking the hotel to give her the information and then I heard the both of you-" I placed my finger on his perfect full lips to stop him.

"I understand." He removed my fingers from his lips to finish.

"I didn't touch her…at all. I don't have love for her Bella. I only have love for you. You are my life, you are my everything. I need you to know just how much you mean to me." I looked into his eyes and could feel the tears streaming down my face again. He wiped the stray tears away with his thumb as he continued to gaze into my eyes.

"I know." I said again and it caused him to chuckle this time. "I love you more than you could ever imagine Edward. I'm sorry for being so cold towards you. I guess my hormones have been running high lately."

"Do you forgive me?" He asked staring straight into my soul.

"You just said you did nothing, so there is nothing to forgive you for." I ran my fingers through his hair. I could never forget that feeling of his soft locks between my fingers.

"I let her in…and most importantly I lied to you. I didn't mean to Bella. I was going to tell you I swear but not that night. I didn't want to stress you over my past, I didn't want my past causing any drama for us. I was going to tell you the next day. I also didn't mean to be so cold on the phone but I had just blown up at her and she was sitting in front of me and crying-"

"I forgive you, I forgive you for everything. And I don't want to hear any more apologizes ok?"

"Ok and thank you Bella. I love you, so, so much." He kissed me on the lips softly, sucking my bottom lip in between his.

"Mmmm, I've missed that taste so much." He whispered against my lips. He continued to stroke my cheek with his thumb as he rested his forehead against mine.

"Me too, I've missed everything about you." I was fighting an internal battle within myself on whether I should tell him about the pregnancy now or to wait. I just didn't want him to think that was the reason why I came back to him because it wasn't. I came back to him because I loved him, because I couldn't live without him and because life without him was just not worth living.

He came to pull himself fully away but I pulled him back to me smashing my lips against his. His lips immediately followed in sync with mine without hesitation and I plunged my tongue into his mouth seeking his. I missed his taste so much, I missed the warmth of his mouth, the feel of his tongue against mine and all I wanted to do was lose myself in his taste. I fisted my hands into his hair and tilted his head so that I could deepen the kiss. His hands went to my hips and he laid me back onto the couch so that he was hovering over me.

He moaned into my mouth as I let my tongue trace every inch of his. He pulled away but quickly moved on to my neck, aggressively sucking and licking the skin there. I missed him so much, I missed the feel of his lips against my skin, the way my body reacts to his touch, to his breath against my skin. I could already feel a pool of wetness between my legs.

Pulling away from my neck he pulled me up into a sitting position and ripped off my jacket viciously before lifting my top over my head and almost ripping it in the process. He threw them both onto the floor as he gazed down at my chest, I was wearing a light turquoise and cream lace bra. His lips curled into his crooked smile as his eyes met mine, filled with such passion and want. We were both hungry for each other. Craving the intimacy that we have missed we were trying to express our love for each other into this one moment.

I grabbed the hem of his singlet and pulled it up over his head and threw that onto the floor with the rest of my clothes. Before I had a second to glimpse at his perfection he crashed his lips to time in a searing kiss.

EPOV

I couldn't believe she came back to me. I thought I had lost her, although I wasn't going to give up if she hadn't. All I could think of at this moment was making her mine again. I wanted her in every possible way. I wanted to do things to her that would make her scream my name in pleasure. I wanted to make certain that I would never ever lose her again, she was my heart, she was that other piece of my puzzle and we just didn't work without the other.

I kissed her with force and need. I had longed for her touch for three days and now I wanted her more than ever at this moment. As I trailed my hand down her neck and lightly grazed it over her covered breast she flinched back slightly. I pulled my hand away wondering why she reacted that way. I kept kissing her trying not to think much of it. She pulled my head away from her face by my hair and bit down on my neck, it sent a shiver down my spine it felt so good. She moved her lips to my ear where she teased my lobe with her tongue, her moaning filling my ears with her music.

Enjoying the sensations I let my hand trail back down to her breast and once again, as soon as my hand made contact she flinched away. I pulled myself away from her to look her in the eye. She looked apologetic almost.

I held myself up by resting my hand on the top of the back of the couch while my other hand rested on the cushion beside her head.

"Bella….are you ok?" I asked with concern.

"Yeah, I'm fine." She grabbed onto my hair and pulled me back to her for a kiss. I decided to test her again and let my hand graze over her covered breast, she flinched….again. I immediately pulled my lips away from hers and stared at her questioningly. There was a feeling in the pit of my stomach that I had a fair idea why this could be happening.

She seemed a little nervous as she stared back at me and that just fired up my assumption even more.

"Why do you keep flinching back?" I asked staring at her intently. She looked away from my eyes and bit down on her bottom lip.

"Bella…" She was trying to avoid eye contact which meant there was a reason and I think I pretty much knew what it was. I could feel my stomach doing flips at the possibility she might be pregnant.

I sat myself all the way up and pulled her into my lap so that she was straddling it. I brushed her hair away from her face as I gave her the time to work up the courage to tell me.

"I have something to tell you." She said still looking down in her lap. I placed my finger under her chin and made her look up at me. She gave me a half hearted smile.

"I think I know what it is." I stated staring deep into her eyes. My breathing picked up as her reactions were supporting my assumption. She looked at me with surprise and relief all at the same time.

"You do?" I nodded at her, giving her a warm smile. Her bottom lip started quivering as she stared back at me. She said before her hormones had been running high but I didn't think much of it. Her throwing up last weekend at the lodge, her tender and sensitive breasts, and her never getting enough of me either, always feeling horny, all these were signs of her pregnancy.

"You're…you're…pregnant." My voice was numb and plain. Saying it out loud made it terrifyingly real. I froze, staring blindly at her. She was pregnant? With my child? I don't why I was panicking all of sudden. I without a doubt I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. I'd never been so sure of anything in my entire life. But we've only been together for two months. We've known each other for three but that still isn't much.

"Edward? Are you ok?" She asked as she studied me. She began stroking my face and her touch snapped me out of my thoughts.

"I'm sorry." I said as I shook my head trying to clear my mind and think clearly.

"You're not happy. Oh my God…" Her voice broke and she began climbing off my lap to get away from me. I quickly grasped her arm and pulled her back to me.

"Bella, what? No, no." She was crying again, her tears dripping from her chin and onto my stomach as she hid her face away from me.

I hugged her against my chest. Of course she would think that, I froze, I panicked. I didn't say anything. It was just a surprise. Being a doctor I should know out of all people that her being on the pill isn't much protection at all. We never used rubber so we were pretty much leaving it up to fate with this kind of shit.

"Bella, baby. Please don't cry. You misunderstood. I'm not upset at all. Please look at me. Let me explain." I tried pulling her away from my chest so that she could look at me with her tear stricken eyes. I stretched over as far as I could reach till I managed to grab the tissue box on the side table beside the couch we were sitting on. I pulled a few tissues out and began wiping her tears away from her face and then gave her one for her nose.

I grabbed either side of her face between my hands and made her look straight into my eyes.

"Bella, baby. You're pregnant?" I asked again to make sure. She nodded.

"And you've done a pregnancy test to confirm it?" She nodded again. A huge grin formed across my face.

"So you're telling me you're having my baby?" I asked with the biggest grin etched across my face. She nodded again, giving me a little smile this time.

"So, you're going to be the mother of my child?" I asked trying to cheer her up. She grinned and then broke down again, crying happy tears. I crushed her to my chest and hugged her as tight as I could, careful not to squash the bun in the oven.

"Oh….Bella…you have just made me the happiest man on this entire planet." I pulled her away and kissed her softly on the lips, trying to express all the love I possessed for her into that kiss. My hands stayed grasping either side of her face as I kissed her passionately. She kissed me back, her tears no longer streaming down her face. I pulled her away and couldn't wipe the grin off of my face.

"You forgot one thing." She said grinning with me now.

"What's that?"

"You're going to be a daddy." Her words made my heart soar. I could feel my eyes prickle with tears but I tried to hold them back. This has been my dream, to become a father one day and I have the most perfect person to do it with.

"I know." I placed my hand over her bare stomach and lightly rubbed it. She looked down at my hand and chuckled as she sniffed back the last of her tears.

"Hey little person…" I cooed looking down at her stomach. "Its daddy here-" My broke so I had to stop. Just saying that made it all so surreal. She noticed my struggle and so brushed her fingers through my hair lightly to relax me. My eyes involuntarily shut at the feeling and my head fell back onto the couch.

After a few minutes of letting her touch comfort me I lifted my head back up.

"When did you find out?" I asked.

"Last night."

"Oh. Before or after I dropped by?" I wasn't judging her by any means but I was just curious. It wouldn't have mattered to me.

"After, but Edward if you're thinking that is the reason why I came back to you, its not…well it is….but not….what I'm trying to say is-"

"Stop. I don't think anything ok?" She shook her head in disagreement.

"No, I want you to know. I came back because I love you. I love you more than I could ever begin to explain. And the thought of never seeing you again is unfathomable. I never intended of leaving you and I never not intended of hearing you out. You're it for me, Edward, my life would be empty and cold without you." She looked down and began fiddling with the draw string of my track pants before she spoke again, "Initially it was anger, that first night was anger that turned into hurt, indescribable hurt-"

"You don't need to explain anything."

"Let me finish please?" She asked softly. I nodded my head for her to continue.

"Ok…that next day I just kept repeating what happened over and over in my head, you lying to me, her appearing practically naked…everything. Then that night it hit me I was pregnant when everything I seemed to be eating tasted off, and I was always so, so tired. I spent all of yesterday thinking about the possibility of being pregnant and where that would put us with where we are now and everything." She took a deep breath before she continued. She was still fiddling with the draw string of my track pants as she spoke.

"Just before you came I had gone to the chemist and bought some pregnancy tests. But I didn't do them right away. I was too scared because I wasn't sure what was happening with us. Then you stopped by and you took me by surprise and I wasn't prepared to discuss anything with Brady around, it just wouldn't have been the place….I'm so sorry for making you leave..." She voice trailed off as she fought back tears again. I studied her and she seemed extremely hurt over what happened. I knew the whole situation plus her thinking she was pregnant would have been a huge load for her to deal with all at once. I didn't blame her for anything, she was right. It wasn't the time and place to discuss things last night with Brady around, I should have thought of that but I was in too much of a rut to think clearly.

"Baby look at me." I made her look at me by placing my finger under her chin and lifting her gaze to meet mine.

"I'm just glad you never considered leaving me." I chuckled trying to get her to laugh. She slapped me playfully.

"I'm serious, I really thought that was it and there was no way for me to fix it. But here I am with my unbelievably beautiful pregnant girlfriend." That sentence made me grin like a kid again. She laughed at me before placing a soft kiss on my lips.

"I love you too Bella. My love for you is beyond measure. It may be only two months for us but I've never been surer of anything in my life than my love for you." She hugged me tight, resting her head into my chest. We sat like that for a while, time passing us by as we reveled in each others comfort, company, warmth and joy. We were having a child together and that meant business. I was going to ask her to marry me before I found out she was pregnant but now I was going to have to step it up and do it soon. I want her to be my wife before she has the baby. I had a lot of things to think about…

Sorry i ended it there but the chapter was getting too long...next chapter will pick up where i left off : D

I hope i have gained all of you as friends again now that they're back together : D I was never going to drag it on like alot of you thought, but i wasn't about to make them jump into each others arms from the next day, things just don't work like that.

What did you think? What did you think of their reunion? Her telling him about the pregnancy? anything at all let me know...: )