Sahira composed herself, and looked at Jac, she kept thinking about she would explain it all about her father and what he did to her, she kept thinking to herself to make up an excuse to get out of telling her.

"You don't have to tell me" Smiled Jac.

"I want to, I need to, I have to tell someone because its eating away at me and I dont know how long I can cope with keeping it in, it's gonna destroy me." Sahira said, almost crying again.

"Oh Sahira, is it really that bad?" Jac looked at her friend.

"It's awful" Sahira said, and looked at Jac.

"Take your time" Jac put her hand on Sahira's shoulder.

"Well..." Sahira composed herself. "It all started when I was 14, I came home from a day out with my friends, my mum was out for the night, my dad was in, I went straight to my room after saying goodnight to my dad, but thats not the worst bit, when I was asleep I woke up to find my dad on me and well... Please tell me you know the rest" Sahira started to shake.

"Please tell me you're not saying what I think you're saying" Jac replied looking shocked.

"What are you thinking?"

"That your own father raped you?" Jac whispered.

"That's exactly what I'm saying." Sahira just sat there.

"Oh Sahira, that's awful, what did your mum do about it?"

"I told her, and she believed every word about what I said. She chucked out my dad and took me to the doctors, the doctor told me everything was alright and sent me home, but..." Sahira stopped as she heard a knock on the door.

"It's Greg, is anyone in here, I got told Sahira was in here?" He questioned whoever was in there.

"Jac, please, no, he can't see me like this!" Sahira panicked.

"You mean he doesn't know?" Jac questioned.

"Of course he doesn't, how can I tell him, he'll got beserke and want to find my dad and kill him, I would love to do that but I have no idea where my father is and I don't want to find out!" Sahira said with a raised voice.

"I'll tell him you're not in here, hide in the toilets." Jac said.

"Thankyou" Sahira rushed off.

"Greg, what do you want?" Jac asked.

"Is my lovely wife in here?" Greg also asked.

"Oh no, she left a while ago, it's her lunch isnt it? I think she was going out to get some lunch, she should be here soon with her lunch, if I see her, I'll tell her you were looking for her"

"Thankyou Jac"

"No problem!" Jac smiled.

Greg left and Jac went to check on Sahira, she was in the toilets, re doing her hair and makeup and looked at Jac who was looking at her looking really sorry for her.

"Don't look at me like that Jac, please, you dont need to feel sorry for me, it happened, it's over, okay, it's in the past, I can learn to deal with it, I have learnt to deal with it since I was 14 years old." Sahira said sternly.

"I didn't say anything"

"I know, I'm sorry but it's the way you looked at me and I just dont want anyone to feel sorry for me because I dont want that. It happened it's over." Sahira out her foot down.

"You have to tell Greg" Jac said. Also putting her foot down. "Oh, you were also going to say something else because you said 'But...' and then we got interrupted by Greg, was it bad?" Jac asked.

"Pretty bad..." Sahira trailed off. "But I need to get back to work, I'll tell you later, meet me in about 2 hours, in the on call room?"

"Okay, I will, come on, I better get back aswel." Jac mentioned.

Sahira and Jac both came out the locker room; Greg was nowhere to be seen. Sahira went to the desk to fetch her paperwork, she saw Greg there.

"Greg, there you are, I came looking for you but I couldn't find you" Sahira said, looking shifty.

"Oh really? Funny enough, I was looking for you aswel, I wonder why we didn't clash with each other?" Greg wondered.

"Oh well..." Sahira was digging herself a hole.

"Can we have a word please?" Greg asked.

"Can't we when we're at home?" Sahira asked.

"Fine" Greg answered and walked off.

Sahira watched Greg walk off, she knew why he was in such a mood but she couldn't tell him what was wrong in front of everyone. She wondered where Jac was, she was meant to be meeting her in about an hour.

"Sahira!" shouted a voice.

Sahira shot round to see Chrissie looking at her.

"Chrissie, hey!" Sahira shouted back.

They both laughed.

"I heard it's your little girls birthday in a few weeks, she's one isnt she?"

"Oh yes, by a few weeks you mean a few months" Sahira laughed.

"Well yes, it's her birthday in June right?"

"Yes, June 13th" Sahira smiled.

"Alright then" Chrissie said and walked off.

"Wait, what have you got planned?" Sahira laughed and looked curious.

"Wait and see Sahira, wait and see!" Chrissie shouted back at her.

A few minutes later, she checked her watch and realised the time, she had to go meet Jac in 10 minutes, she started to make her way to the on call room and thought what she was about to do, she remembered she had to tell Jac what the last part of her secret, this is the part she hated.

She arrived at the on call room and saw Jac coming towards her, no turning back now she thought to herself.

"Come on, let's go in" Jac smiled. "It'll be alright"

"Not so sure" Sahira replied.

They both got into the on call room, sat down, Jac locked the door and sat down next to Sahira.

"When you're ready." Jac mentioned.

"Well, after the doctor checked me out and told me everything was okay, the next few days passed by and I realised I missed my period, I didn't think anything of it because I just started when I was 13 so they were all irregular, so I left it a few weeks and I still hadn't come on, so I got my friend waho was 17 at the time to go to the shop for me in town, she bought me a pregnancy test, I did the test in the toilets in town, classy I know, but then I realised I was pregnant. I told my friend, told my mum, she told me everything was going to be alright and I believed her, I was going to keep the baby and everything but..." Sahira had to stop, she didn't want to say the next bit.

"Take your time Sahira, I'm here" Jac soothed.

"I was about 13 weeks pregnant, everything was going smoothly, until I started getting stomach cramps, they hurt so much so I ran to my mum, she took me the hospital, which there they confirmed that I was losing the baby and there was nothing they could do" Sahira started cry, she was shaking.

"Sahira, I'm so sorry" Jac soothed, looking like she was about to cry herself which is very very rare for Miss Jac Naylor. "It's gonna be alright, come here" Jac pulled Sahira into a hug.

"You can't be sure though, I dont know how Greg will take this, I dont know how to tell him" Sahira said through her tears.

"He is going to be fine with it, just tell him what you told me, he'll be alright and so will you" Jac reassured.

Sahira hugged Jac. They both got up and left the room. Sahira went up to Hanssen's office, she finished in an hour but she wanted to see if she could get off earlier and make up the time tomorrow, even if she was later this morning, she needed to get home, Greg finished work about now and she wanted to go home with him.

"Hanssen, is it alright if I get off early?" Sahira asked and was shocked by his answer.

"Of course, but be on time tomorrow please." Hanssen replied.

Sahira didn't say anything and just went, quickly got changed and saw Greg.

"Greg!" Sahira shouted.

"Sahira?" Greg looked shocked. "What are you doing?"

"I'm coming home now, I got off earlier, I need to tell you something when we're home, it's important, you need to know this" Sahira looked at Greg.

"Don't worry me, are you okay?" Greg asked concerned.

"I'm okay, yes. Come on, we need to get home" Sahira persisted.

They got in the car and went home. Greg was about to get the shock of his life and Sahira just hoped he'd take it alright, she had the right to be scared.