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"Kenny?" I heard Dani ask as I tried to hide my tears.

"Hey…I…uh…How are you feeling?" I asked as I sat next to her bed.

"I'm incredibly sore. Why are you crying?" she asked.

"I saw the babies…they're cute."

"That's good. How are they?"

"Noah is a cutie and Monroe looks just like you. "

"Benjamin?"

"He…I just…Fuck. He's so…"

"Kendall…tell me."

"He's sick. He may need a kidney transplant, he doesn't have a hand and he's half deaf."

"What did he do to deserve that?" she asked as she started to cry. I just held her hand and cried with her.

"I called my mom…she's on her way and everybody else is too probably."

"I want to see the triplets."

"The doctor told me you can't see them until tomorrow. He doesn't want you to move that much. He's gonna' send a nurse in later to help you pump so you can give milk to Benjamin."

"That's not fair. I want to see them now."

"Well you can't!" I said quite harshly.

"Yes I can! They are my babies. I'm their mother and I have to right to see them."

"You can't though. I'm sorry." I told her as she sobbed.

"I need to see Benjamin!" she shouted and a nurse came in.

"What's going on?" she asked.

"She's freaking out cuz' she can't see her children." I explained as Dani continued to cry.

"I'm sorry honey but you can't."

"NO! NO! NO! PLEASE!" she shouted. I've never seen her like this.

"we're gonna' have to sedate her." The nurse muttered and injected Dani with a sedative. "She'll be out for about 2 hours."

"I'm going to visit my babies…if my family comes tell them to wait." I muttered as I left.

"Kendall. You're back soon. What's the matter?" Nurse Lydia asked.

"I just wanted to talk to them so they know my voice and stuff. Dani wants to see them but they sedated her."

"Poor girl. I feel terrible for her. She can spend all day down here tomorrow if she likes."

"That's against the rules." I said as I pulled a chair next to Noah's incubator.

"Who cares? If you'd like you can touch Noah and Monroe as long as you wear gloves. I'll bend the rules for you." She smiled and handed me latex gloves.

"What about Benjamin?"

"He needs to be in a sterile environment. I don't want to take that risk with him."

"Thank you."

"I'll be in the corner if you need me." She waved and I focused my attention back on Noah.

"Hey, Noah. Man, you look just like me." I smiled down at him. He had light blonde hair and bluish-green eyes since his eyes had yet to fully change from the generic baby blues that babies were born with. "you are going to be so loved and I'm gonna' teach you how to play hockey." I placed my hand through the incubator and lightly grabbed his hand. "You're my first born son. You have to protect your siblings especially Benjamin. I can't wait to see you guys interact. You're gonna' be the sporty one out of my children I can tell. Your mommy can't wait to visit you and I'm sure your aunts and uncles will be down to fawn over you later. I love you Noah and I hope I make you proud because you're only a few hours old and I don't think I could get any prouder." I told him as I lightly squeezed his hand. I sat with him for a few minutes before I moved onto Monroe.

"Hey, little princess. I can't call you bugger or anything like that or your sister will get jealous." I chuckled as I held her hand that I had just put a new glove on. "You're so beautiful. You're gonna' be the brainiac just like your mommy. Emerson is the leader and the artistic one. You're so beautiful. You're the spitting image of your mommy and I can't wait to see you win the science fair or the spelling bee. If you fail just know that I will always love you and failure is a part of life. Don't overwork yourself either. I'll be back to visit you soon." I told her as nurse Lydia approached.

"I'm gonna' take Monroe and Noah to eat then I'll be back for Benjamin. Your wife was pumped while she was sedated." She ecxplained and I nodded. "Don't be afraid of him." She told me as she left with my babies.

"H-hey Benjamin. I'm your daddy." I told him as I sat next to him. "I want to reach out and hold your hand so badly and I'm sorry I can't. I'm sorry you turned out the way you are…it's all my fault. Your mommy and I are gonna' try our hardest to make sure you get the best care. I don't think you'll be getting a kidney anytime soon because I don't want to put you through that just yet." I looked down and noticed his hand. "I'm so sorry about your hand and all the teasing you'll face. I…maybe I could homeschool you? Maybe uncle Logan could. I need you to be okay. Get your lungs better so you don't have to have an oxygen mask on." I told him as he shifted a bit. "I love you so much and I hope you can forgive me for making you this way." I told him as I started to cry. He began to wail and I didn't know wat to do. A nurse came running over and took him out of the incubator and changed hhim and started feeding him with Dani's breast milk.

"why can't I do that?"

"you're clothes aren't sterile and neither are your hands. I'm sorry but eventually you will." She told me and I nodded.

"I'll see you soon Benjamin." I gave him a small wave and headed back up to Dani's room.

"Daddy!" Emerson yelled as she ran towards me. I picked her up and squeezed her tight.

"hey Lovebug! How are you?" I asked with fake happiness.

"I missed you. Where's mommy?" she asked with big green eyes.

"she's sleeping right now. She's very tired."

"Where's the babies?"

"They're in a special room."

"can I see them?"

"Not right now. Why don't you go with Aunt Katie to the cafetieria and grab a cookie."

"come on Emerson. Let's get daddy a coffee too." She said and I smiled graciously.

"How is Dani?" James asked.

"She's sedated. She freaked out before." I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair.

"The babies?"

"Monroe is Dani's mini me and Noah is my mini me."

"How's Benjamin?" my mom asked.

"He…I fucked him up. He's not even a day old and he's suffering because of me."

"it's not your fault Kendall. Having triplets is high risk in general." Logan told me.

"he doesn't have a hand! He needs a new kidney and his lungs aren't developed! He's deaf in one ear! My son is going to having a shitty life thanks to me."

"It's not your fault Kendall. He'll grow up just fine as long as you let him." My mom told me as she hugged me.

"I can't let him get hurt."

"When can we see them?" Carlos asked.

"later, Dani hasn't seen them yet."

"Which one of you does Benjamin take after?" Logan asked.

"He's the perfect mix of the two of us. Her nose and my mouth."

"his eyes?" james asked.

"they're taped shut."

"Poor baby." My mom whispered.

"I'm going to see if Dani is up. I'll call you guys in when we're ready." I headed off towards Dani room and away from the waiting room.

"Wait!" JAmes called out as he ran towards me.

"what?" I asked.

"It's okay to break down Kendall…no one will judge." He murmured as he pulled me into a hug.

"I'm just so scared." I murmured against his shoulder as I cried. I could feel my shouler getting wet signifying he was crying too.

"You're strong, Daniella is strong and those babies are strong. You'll get through this. We're all here for you." He told me. He just held me as I cried.

"I need to go see Dani now. Thanks James… for everything."

"anytime."

"Can you..can you make sure Emmy is taken care of and happy?"

"Definietely."

"thanks." Itold him as I entered dani's room.

"Hey Kendall."

"hey baby. How are you feeling?"

"I'm good. I'm sorry about before."

"no need to apologize. I held the hands of Monroe and noah and they are like mini versions of us."

"that's so cute. I can't wait to see them. I pumped for Benjamin. Do you know if they fed him?"

"they did, don't worry. The gang is here…do you want to see them?"

"No…just sit here with me for awhile."

"It would be my pleasure."

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~Amanda