I stormed back into the office and plopped down in my chair. My nose flared as I calculated the bill for the beamer that Jax had just finished. I knew better than to look up at Gemma because I just might burst into tears. That guy was my best friend. He was the one who had decided to flip the script on me and now he's going to treat me like I have the plague...Fuck that and fuck him! He's the one person other than my mom that I knew I could count on and he just proved to me that I was wrong. It wasn't supposed to be like this. If he didn't want to be with me fine but why couldn't he be friends with me? If he was as crazy about me as Opie said then there's no way he would ever treat me like this. In my sad short life I had managed to fall for both of my best friends and got burned by them both. I guess they were right saying that girls and guys could never be friends because if we could then I wouldn't be sitting here broken hearted by the absolute last person I imagined. I expected it from Ope. He was constantly hurting me or letting me down. Really it wasn't his fault, he didn't know I was in love with him till just recently. But Jax? He knew all the pain that Ope had put me through,knew all the nights that I stayed awake crying my eyes out because Opie got a new girlfriend or he put me down in one way or another. He was also aware that I was confused about my feelings for himself. So the fact that he would do this to me hurt even more.

"So community dick huh?" Gemma's sudden burst of sound caught me off guard. I surprised myself because I laughed. I hadn't realized I said it until it came out of her mouth. In a way it was true, here lately he was trying to stick that thing in practically anything. I guess in his own way he was trying to heal from Tara...There I go making excuses for him again. I thought about him and Wendy and instantly got nauseous. Why couldn't he commit to anyone? Why couldn't he love me actually allow himself to love me? The image of his face when I cussed him out appeared in my mind and i started to laugh again. Then she started to laugh and it caused me to laugh harder. We sat just endlessly laughing for a few minutes, then Clay walked in and saw us. I tried to stop but it came out as a hiccup. Clay stared at us with his hands on his hips, waiting for an explanation. when neither of us say anything he lets out a grunt.

"Anybody want to enlighten me on what in the hell is going on." I shrugged and looked back into my paperwork. Gemma even seemed to sober it up. She normally doesn't allow her emotions to peek to the surface but I honestly felt like she relaxed more around me. She always said she never wanted a daughter, but I think I was the closest thing that would ever come about to one for her.

"Jax is being a douche nugget. I handled it." He rubbed his hand across his forehead. I wasn't willing to elaborate and I didn't think he needed a deeper explanation. He looked at me and I saw the concern fill his eyes. Clay has always looked at me as his daughter. Even when he was being an ass to everyone else he usually was compassionate with me. I was thankful for that since my dad decided to hit the bricks. Honestly we were better off and most of the time I didn't miss him. It just randomly snuck in there like now. I stood up and walked over to him and allowed him to wrap me in a hug.

"Please tell me your not sleeping with the kid," I chuckled and looked up at him with the most innocent look I could muster. I almost thought I seen a look of fear cross his face. I knew the idea of me being with Jax was the works of his worst nightmares.

"No I am not." He pulled me back into a hug. I inhaled the sent of his cologne and was instantly relaxed. He lightly rubbed my back then let me go.

"When in the hell did this happen? I always thought you would lose your shit because of Opie. Now that was something I could stand behind." My face turned scarlet. I put my head down to cover my embarrassment and sat back down in the chair. Gemma gave a slight incline on the shoulders in response to his question.

"Geeze did everyone know about my thing for Opie?" I grumbled. That caused them both to chuckle.

"Sweetheart everyone but Opie knew. We just never said anything. Watching Jax follow you like a puppy, while you chased Opie like one was a sight.' My blush intensified at Gemma's words. How could every one have known? I didn't realize I was being so obvious. I wondered if my mom knew too? As if reading my thoughts Gemma spoke again.

"Your mom and Piney and had already came to the realization that they were going to share grandchildren. I was still pulling for you and Jax though especially now that little tart is gone. I don't know where his head is at. Who knows there might be a chance for you two yet thanks to Donna." Clay rolled his eyes and waves her off, obviously not wanting to hear it.

"The last thing she needs to be with is your son." She stood and placed her hand on her hips. He had obviously offended her. I almost wanted to dip out of this conversation. Not only was it embarrassing me but I wasn't sure if it was meant for my ears. Anyone who disrespects Jax husband or not, was going to get an earful from Gemma. And to be honest, I didn't feel like coming to his defense right now or the shit storm that was sure to follow after I defended him.

"And why is that? What's the matter with my son?" He pointed his finger at her. She walks around the desk to stand in front of him. Here we go. A fight between two people that mean the most to me had started because of me. I started to get up when it was his turn to speak

"You know damn well why he's no good for her. The boy can't keep his dick in his pants if his life depended on it. Do you think that he will change? Cause if so you need to get your head out of the clouds." I eased around the two of them and then walked out of the office. I didn't need their arguing weighing on my conscience too.

I aimlessly walked around the parking lot. I felt almost lost without my two best friends. Honestly they were the only reason that I hung around here, granted I looked at everyone as family but I wasn't just some kid with Jax and Ope. I was their equal. I really hoped this shit worked itself out, I don't know how much more than I could take. I was actually grateful when I saw Donna's car pull into the lot. Maybe I could have some girl talk. She saw me and instantly smiled and made her way over to me.

"Hey girl! How are you?" I flashed her a small smile. How do I say I'm struggling with feelings both with her future husband and my best friend? How do I say in falling apart because I have no one to talk too? How do I say that I feel so alone?

"I'm fine, how are you?" She smiled and rubbed her very obvious swollen belly. I felt the jealousy rise up but I quickly shook it off. One day that would be me. I would meet my happily ever after and we would eventually have children.

"Kinda hungry, was actually stopping by to see if Opie wanted to go to lunch but I don't see him." I looked around the lot and didn't see his bike anywhere. I shrugged.

"I don't see him either."

"Well let's go grab lunch together. How's that sound?" I shrugged. It got me away from here.

"Let's roll."