Warning, this chapter is pretty depressing! And some what short but I am writing the next as we speak so tomorrow it will be up :D xx

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I nodded as the two FBI agents from Los Angeles shook my hand and thanked me for my cooperation. I didn't lift my eyes from my lap as they left; I just listened to their heavy footsteps and mumbled voices as they were shown out of my dad's house. I had been home for three days now, they arrived two days ago and each day spent two hours asking me questions and getting me to identify people involved in Devon. Yesterday had been the hardest. They had been identifying people who Devon had killed, picture after picture of young men, old men, woman. All that I knew Devon had been involved in hurting. I could feel the guilt racking up inside me and no matter how many times the two men in front of me, or my dad, Brady or Leah told me it wasn't my fault, it felt like I had actually been the one killing those people. Like I had played a bigger part that I was hiding, but I didn't hide it, I told them exactly what I did and how I would take them in and still it apparently wasn't my fault.

They had enough confirmed evidence now to raid the warehouses, the raids began last night and so far 25 men were under arrest, men that I had probably come across in the past 4 years. And even that made me feel guilty. I just felt like everything was my fault. I couldn't stop crying. I wouldn't let anyone in my room except the two men but as soon as they left the lock went across and I cried. I cried for Samuel, for his daughter, his parents, his brothers and sisters, I cried for Maria, her family. I cried about the fact I had known all this for 3 years now and I hadn't said anything, only now when so many people had been hurt and killed had I said anything, and even then it wasn't from strength that I was saying it. It was purely because it had been found out. I was a coward.

A soft knocked erupted on my door but I stayed silent. "Ally, it's me can I come in?" Leah's soft voice called in but I said nothing. I wanted to be alone. No one came in here except the two men who just left to go back to LA. "Ally please you need to speak to someone at some point, please? I have food, I thought we could eat and chat or just chill out" She tried again but I just sunk down into my duvet. I hadn't eaten in three days either. All I did was sleep, cry, shower, sleep, cry and sleep again. I was even more pathetic than I was before and right now I would prefer to be back in the life full of lies than in this life where people knew what I was and what I had done.

I shut my eyes, praying her knocking would stop and soon enough it did. They all gave up after a couple minutes of knocking. Paul had lasted the longest on the first day they had brought me home. He knocked for an hour straight and at one point tried forcing his way in through the locked door but my silence broke and I told him firmly that I wanted nothing more to do with him, that he wasn't anything to me and so he left, and he hadn't been back since. I suppose he was helping Rachel with the baby, Leah sat outside my door and told me about the baby. It was a girl; she named her Sarah-May Lahote. Sarah after her mom who died when she was younger, which was sweet but I couldn't find enough care to respond. I had fallen asleep in Paul's arms the day at the hospital and I awoke in them too, but my sleep that day was full of nightmares and even the warmth of his hold wasn't enough to fight back at the cold emptiness eating me up internally.

I got up from my bed and walked to the window the heat felt nice as it hit me and I soaked it in for a second shutting my eyes as I let the natural warmth run over my skin. It felt nice, as I opened my eyes again they fell on the front yard and my heart stopped as I spotted a huge dog in the corner of the yard by the tree line. It was staring right back at me, its grey fur shining against the sunlight, its eyes shot warmth through me much deeper than the sun had.

I moved closer to the window, looking properly at the dog and I realised it wasn't a dog, it was a wolf. It was the wolf, it was so familiar to me, it was the wolf I had knocked down with my car. It's grey fur undeniably as beautiful as it was the day of the crash. My heart restarted and my head began crawling through everything. If the guys were telling the truth at the hospital, and I had really seen what I saw in the woods that night, then the guys were wolves and that was one of them. I focused in again on its sparkling eyes and everything in me screamed Paul but I couldn't be, could it?

I blinked a few times making sure my eyes weren't playing tricks on me but as I looked down at the spot it lay again, it was gone. But surely, it couldn't just go like that? Or maybe I had imagined it. Strange.

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Paul's point of view

My heart wrenched as I sat outside her house, watching her bedroom window as if tearing my eyes away would cause the house to explode. I was sure I hadn't blinked for a few hours now, let alone slept or ate, or done anything other than sit and listen to her cries.

She told me to leave, but I didn't. I sat out here from that moment and I hadn't left, I hadn't even met my niece yet, let alone been home to make sure Rachel was ok. But I guess she was, Emily was staying with her so she would be fine.

I had sat here for three days now, listening as she softly told the two men from the FBI everything she knew, listened quietly as she sobbed to them how horrible of a person she was and listened as they assured her none of it was her fault. I knew she wouldn't believe them though. She was the type of person who cared too much and from her voice as she relived the memories I could tell each one was killing her. They killed me too, hearing the stuff she had seen and had to go through, but I thought no less of her and I was dying to tell her that. No one thought any less of her, she was still our Alianna, she had been thrown into that life she hadn't chose it.

And even as everything in me wanted to be beside her, I respected her decision to be alone and waited outside. But even after three days she was crying herself to sleep and it was getting harder and harder to listen to her family try to talk to her and her ignore it.

"No change?" Sam's voice popped up in my head and I saw him walking around outside my house, he was staying there with Emily and Rachel too and I couldn't tell him how grateful I was for him doing it. Joshua would go crazy if I had left Rachel with a new baby all alone.

"Nope" I replied, I felt shit, like I couldn't do anything for my own imprint but listen to her tear herself up over something that wasn't her fault. So she knew what Devon was doing and she didn't say anything? Who the hell would when he was threatening her family, or hurting her?

"I know man. But she obviously blames herself and she's probably a bit scared that we all think less of her. She just needs time, and she needs to know she's loved" Sam spoke back; he was always full of advice. He was wise; he knew exactly what to say and when. "You're going to make my head big" He chuckled as he ran off toward the other guys on patrol.

"But what do I do to make her know that?" I moaned as I whimpered to the ground, I couldn't even go to her because she didn't want me to.

"Maybe she doesn't want you to, but maybe she needs you to. She's being stubborn, felling sorry for herself and locking herself away and everyone's letting her do it. Sure give her time, but not too much. You know her better than any of us Paul, she needs someone whether she will admit it or not" Sam offered as he ran toward Jared and the others all agreed mentally with him. I had to admit, I agreed to.

She was stubborn, always had been. She would insist she was strong and didn't need help, even in school with stuff as stupid as homework she would insist she could do it all herself. She didn't want help, but she needed it. I blocked the others off from my mind as they began discussing updates on tracking the vampire that had caused the fire and had been stalking Ally, the police said it was started as if arson but the smell of the vampire was all over the burned out office we were sure it was the leech that caused it, I cared about what they were saying but right now all I could do was focus back on the window, the music she was listening to lulled over the open window pane. You could be happy by Snow Patrol was playing softly. We used to listen to Snow Patrol all the time, it was her who got me into them, she started showing me their songs on YouTube and at first I was insistent they were crap but after a while it just reminded me of her when I wasn't with her. When she left I played those songs everyday just to remember her for a split second.

I should never have let her go; it was my biggest regret, my biggest mistake. Letting her leave, not going to find her after she left, and not listening to my gut instinct that told me every day that I needed to go to her.

I stared up at the window and suddenly she appeared, her tear stained and swollen face looking down at the yard before her and her eyes fell directly on me, I hadn't hid myself well. I sort of wanted her to see me here but not as a wolf, it would freak her out. Her eyes grew wide and she focused harder on me, our eyes meeting my stomach proceeded into a series of flips and I was desperate to get to her but I couldn't move, I was floored still by her stare and all I could think of was holding her safely in my arms. But I could hear her scared heart beat and her face fell paler than it had been seconds before, and she began blinking frantically. I took my opportunity as she shut her eyes and I darted into the trees hiding myself more but I could still see her. I watched as she scanned the yard again before backing off.

I settled back down in the shade of the trees and listened as her bed creaked again signalling she had got back in. Her heart beat slowed and the music picked up again. Sam's words mulled over in my brain and I knew I needed to do something, I just couldn't decide what I needed to do and how I would do it.

Sorry it was so short, the next one will be up asap :D leave a review, and any ideas.

Update on the Brady/Gracie story, I am starting it now so it should be up soon sorry I have taken so long :D xxx