3/23/15-Update

Thank you for all the lovely reviews! I'm glad you guys like this so far :) Like i said in my last chapter, I was way to excited to keep this chapter away for another days soooo here it is, date night. It's incredibly cheesy but that's the way I like it ;) Enjoy!

Note about silent moments: Dear readers, Silent moments is filled with triggers. From Cutting, rape, suicide attempts, and murder. I'd like to make it really clear that I do no condone any of these and I do not wish to hurt or offend anyone by writing this. It's just something that came to my head while I was going through issues. I will put this trigger at the top of each chapter, as well as several additional warnings.

"One of the reasons I fell in love with you, was because you always smiled at me for no reason…"

Edward

I hate ties, I really do, but Alice swears I look so 'deviously handsome' and that blue would just love it so here I stood. I was wearing a pair of black jeans, a white button down, a vest and a blue tie-ironic, right?-.

This was the first, and only, time that Alice would be allowed to dress me. I felt like a dork. Blue didn't care about ties or vests, in fact-I think she secretly preferred my usual band tees and leather jacket ensemble.

"Stop touching it," Alice scowled as she tried to tame my hair. Yup, she didn't give me much of a choice. So she stood behind me on a step ladder trying to Gel my hair in some way.

"I look like a douchebag."

"You always look like a douchebag," she scuffed. "No one dressed by Alice looks like a douchebag," she sniffed. "Bella will love this, I swear."

My shoulders slumped and I let my sister continue to have her fun.

I suppose a first date should be a bit classier, I did make reservations at this classy romantic restaurant in Port Angeles. I suppose we have to look the part to be able to get in.

Blue didn't know where we were going of course, or what we were doing. I figured I'd start with a nice romantic dinner and then take her to a movie-a zombie flick the complete opposite of a lovey dovey romcom. And after that, well I haven't planned that far ahead.

It depends on if she was tired or not-which I knew she'd lie about regardless-and what was still open. I wasn't opposed to driving out to Seattle but with her new parents-aka her siblings-I'm sure they'd freak the fuck out and in turn that'd cause blue to freak out.

Yeah, I didn't want the date to end like that.

Maybe I'd just have to be a gentleman and take her home at a proper time. I could always sneak back later.

That was appealing.

"Anddd, done," Alice stepped down and admired her handiwork. "I'm a genius. I should really go into business for this kind of stuff."

I still felt like a dork but I decided to shut up and not rain on Alice's parade.

"Thanks, I don't know how I would've managed to get dressed without you."

Alice rolled her eyes at me and tugged me around so that I could look in the mirror. I looked the same, minus the fact that my hair was actually tamed for once. I don't know if I liked it or not.

Also, I realized that I needed to shave. I should've done that in the shower but I was-at least up until Alice snagged me-in a rush because I had a session with Esme plus some potential volunteer work gig that Carlisle had set up for me.

Yeah, me volunteering. It wasn't exactly something I wanted to do but Carlisle insisted that Alice and I would enjoy it. Alice seemed more thrilled about it then I did but then again, she didn't have old ladies pinching her ass as she walked by.

"Thank you, Alice. You're a fashion genius!" she tried to imitate my voice. "Oh, Eddie, you're so welcome! Come to me anytime, darling."

I rolled my eyes at her but couldn't stop smiling.

Ten minutes later, I was pulling up to blue's house.

All the lights were on and both her parent's cars and her sibling's cars were parked in the drive. I could only hope no one was messing with her today, of all days. I didn't want her feeling down while on her date.

But then again, I seem to be able to take the frown away whenever I'm close to her.

Still, I hated that it was there in the first place.

I still say I deserve a medal for not kicking the asses of her parents, and I would say siblings but apparently they have been trying to be there for her. It's her parents who wouldn't allow it.

The day she told me, I had become so angry that I punched the wall in my bedroom, nearly breaking my knuckles. I wanted to go after her parents but blue wouldn't let me, she begged me not to leave her and started sobbing and I couldn't-even if I was livid. I didn't want her to be scared that I'd leave.

And thinking about it now, with a clear head, I realize that I probably would've ended up in jail because I don't think a simple punch would've been enough once I got my hands them.

"Edward, come on in," Jasper greeted in a very dad like manner. "Bella is upstairs with Rose."

"Ah so I'm not the only one subjected to the torture of a sister."

"Girls," Jasper snorted.

"Yup." I laughed. "So, I see both of those dickbags are home." As I said this, Dickbag one-aka Phil- was striding by with a glass of wine. We made eye contact and I challenged him to say something to me, anything. I could already feel the adrenaline pumping through me.

"Oh, you're here."

"Wow, you're actually right for once."

"Excuse me?" he thundered. "This is my home. How dare-"

"Phil, can it and walk away," Jasper had drifted so that he stood between the two of us. I think it was more for his step father's protection than anything but why anyone would want to protect him is beyond me.

So maybe it was for his sister, which would be for my benefit technically.

"What's going on here?" I heard blue ask hesitantly.

I turned to look at her and my mind went blank.

As beautiful as she is to me every day, she looked phenomenal tonight. I've never seen anyone more perfect.

She was wearing a black silky looking dress that ended mid-thigh. She was wearing black tights though so I wasn't able to see her pale ivory skin which was a slight disappointment but I quickly brushed that away. Her hair was falling down around her face, past her shoulders, in loose ringlets and for once she was actually wearing make-up.

Blue sans make up made me hard as steel, blue with makeup and I'm surprised I didn't just pass out from the lack of blood flow. Honestly.

Ruby red lips

Dark brown eyes

Pink tinted cheeks.

My blue was a knock out.

"This vagrant just insulted me in my own home!" dickhead fumed. "I already told you I do not want him-"

"Fuck off," blue mumbled as she stumbled on the last step. Thankfully, I was close enough and managed to catch her before she face planted the floor. "I told you I'd die in these shoes," she grumbled.

I looked down and saw the vibrant red high heels that currently adorned her feet.

"You'll be fine," Rosalie insisted, as if she didn't just see her sister nearly fall down the stairs. "It just takes a few minutes to get used to it."

Blue sighed.

"You can change your shoes if you want," I told her softly. "You're stunning either way." Her pink cheeks darkened even more.

"Are we really going to ignore-"

"Phil, shut up."

"Ready to go?" I asked, stroking her warm cheek.

"Yeah."

We headed for the car, but before we left the house I made sure to grab her converse that sat by the door-I didn't want her to be uncomfortable all night-.

"So gentlemanly," she teased as I opened up the door and helped her in.

I stuck my tongue out at her and ran around to get in myself before I got frostbite. Damn it was cold outside. I felt bad for blue since she was wearing a dress and thin tights.

I made sure to crank the heat all the way up before I backed out of the drive and headed for Port Angeles.

"So, where are you taking me?"

"Well, I thought dinner would be a great place to start. And the rest, my dear, is a surprise."

I snuck a peak at her to find her smiling.

The short trip to Port Angeles, which would've been much shorter had it not been snowy and icy out and I wasn't afraid of crashing if I pushed dangerously past the speed limit-was spent talking.

We hadn't been together since we left school earlier, which is by no means a record but it made us both uncomfortable to be away from each other for too long.

She complained about Rosalie forcing her into this dress and the heels, and making her do her hair and make-up. She found it comical when she found out that Alice was responsible for my look.

"You look really good though," she said as we pulled up to Nomad's valet service.

"As do you," I retorted.

"Don't get used to this," she mumbled.

"I already told you, I don't need a girl coated in make-up and frilly dresses to make me happy," I stepped out of the car and passed the valet my keys before running around to help blue out.

She blushed, "You did. I still think you're crazy though."

I rolled my eyes. Of course she still thinks I'm insane for wanting to date her but then again, she doesn't see herself clearly. I'd spend the rest of my life trying to prove to her that she is beautiful and that she doesn't need to put herself down like she does.

"You know, I've never been to a restaurant like this," she whispered as we approached the hostess.

"Me either." I chuckled. "Reservation for Masen."

"Masen," the woman behind the small podium didn't look like she wanted to tear her eyes off me. At least until she received a harsh stare from me, then that book became very interesting. "Ah, yes. Table for two in our private dining room. Right this way."

"Private dining room?" Blue asked, confused. "Masen…" I could tell she wanted to protest but she cut herself off and mumbled something to herself.

Good. I'm glad she wasn't putting up a fight. I wanted to spoil her, she deserved it.

I had dipped into some of my trust fund to afford the private dining room in this place. I was lucky too. They had a last minute cancellation for tonight and I managed to snag it at a pretty decent price-alright so decent isn't the right word. It's expensive as fuck but it's all worth it to see blue smile.

The private dining room was by no means small but it wasn't extremely large. It was a bit larger than my bedroom back at home with a small table with two comfy looking white chairs and a dark gray table cloth. The centerpiece was a mixture of a candles and flowers and the rest of the room was lit up with small twinkling lights. To the left of the small table was a small dancefloor complete with a stereo which I had requested.

"Thank you," I told the hostess as I pulled a chair out for blue.

She gave me one last long eye fuck before disappearing out the doors.

After connecting my iPod to the stereo and starting the playlist I made specifically for tonight, I went to sit across from blue. She looked close to tears.

"Blue?"

"Sorry," she sniffled.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing," she promised, looking up. "I just-I didn't expect any of this. I thought maybe we'd grab some food at the lodge or something. I mean, wow. You rented out a whole dining room for me?"

"I may have."

"This is a dream isn't it?"

"You certainly look like one."

She scuffed, "Definitely a dream."

"Then I'll make this the best damn dream you've ever had." I vowed.

"My dreams are always amazing…when you're in them," she whispered, softly. "Everything is better with you. You've given me a reason to live again."

"You've given me a reason to smile, every day," I told her, stroking her cheek.

"Hello, my name is Evan and I'll be your waiter tonight." I sighed and reluctantly pulled away from blue. "Can I start you off with a drink? Appetizers?"

"I'll have some Sprite."

"Dr. Pepper," I responded not taking my eyes off blue. "And any appetizer that you think is good we'll take."

"Alright, I'll be right back with your drinks."

"I probably should've ordered a water, this place is expensive," blue whistled as she glanced at the menu. "Wow."

"Don't worry about the price."

"I feel bad if-"

"I want to take you out, I want to spoil you, let me."

She sighed, "Next date is on me."

"Deal," I grinned. "Phew, I'm so relieved to hear I'll get a second date."

She laughed loudly, "Really?"

"Ya never know. I could've totally fucked this up." I teased causing her to laugh again. The sound was like music to my ears.

We fell into a comfortable silence as we waited for our drinks and appetizers, which weren't a disappointment by the way. We got a large sampler platter that looked tasted fantastic and probably cost an arm and a leg-but again worth it.

"So you're going to be working in the hospital soon, I hear."

I scowled, "Carlisle thinks it's a good idea."

"Well, when you think about college, it is."

"I actually haven't even started thinking about that."

Blue looked surprised, "Really?"

"Yup. You have to remember that up until recently, I didn't want to leave Alice alone."

"But in the last few weeks you haven't thought about it?"

"I have," I confirmed. I didn't want to add that I was just planning to follow her where she wanted to go. I knew she'd try to talk me out of it, or feel bad that I would be leaving Alice behind if she chose an out of state college but it was time.

I've come to realize that Alice will be fine, especially since Carlisle and Esme had legally adopted not just her but also me as well. They haven't told us yet, they wanted it to be a Christmas surprise or whatever but I found the paperwork.

Yeah, shouldn't leave stuff like that on your desk in an office that isn't locked.

But I digress.

I felt comfortable knowing that Alice would be with Carlisle and Esme because I knew that even if I wasn't there with her, they'd take care of her and watch out for her.

Besides, in this day and age, there were so many ways to keep in touch with loved ones.

"What do you want to go for?"

"I was thinking about the medical field, not a mind doctor-God no. but more of the E.R doctor like Carlisle. I dunno, it seems kinda fun."

"I think you'd be a great doctor," blue stated.

"And what is it that you want to do?"

"Well, I was thinking about going for game design or any kind of designing really. I'd love to draw for anything, anyone. If the pay is decent of course." She flushed. "I also thought about being an editor because I love reading so why not you know?"

"I definitely know you'd rock being an illustrator, and editing is also good-boring but good."

"And also really hard to find a job for these days. Everyone wants to do that it seems."

"Very true," I agreed. "Where do you plan to go?"

She shrugged, "At first I was thinking about going someplace like Hawaii, Britain even crossed my mind for a while. I want to get away," she added with a whisper. "But I'm not so sure anymore."

"Does your curiosity for Britain have anything to do with British celebrities?" I teased.

"No," she blushed.

"Which one?"

"None!" but I could tell she was lying as her cheeks got darker.

"Mmm, do you have a secret crush miss. Swan?"

"So maybe there a couple Harry Potter actors that I have a crush on, no big deal," she huffed.

I couldn't help but laugh at her embarrassment. It was adorable.

"Where would you like to go?" she flushed.

"Hawaii sounds cool, Britain could be cool too. As long as I don't have to fight celebrities for my girlfriend."

"They don't stand a chance," she smiled, brightly, warming me on the inside. I love her smile. She just recently started smiling all the time and I knew part of it was because of the medications and part of it was because she was finally learning to accept that she did have people out there who loved her.

Regardless of the reasons, her smile made me feel happy-always. It calmed me.

Dinner was great. The steak I had filled me up but after I tasted blue's salmon, I couldn't help but eat half of hers. I didn't feel bad about it because she ate more than her fair share of my food as well.

After dinner was cleared off the table, our waiter went to fetch us our chocolate cake-I doubt I had the room for it but blue nearly drooled as she read about the triple chocolate explosion.

But since it would take some time to prepare, I decided to dance with my blue.

"Care to dance with me?" I asked, standing and holding my hand out to her.

"Promise not to let me hurt myself?"

"Always," I vowed, speaking about more than just the dancing. Blue kicked off her red heels before taking my hand.

"And time stands still. Beneath the air of waiting hours. To touch, just to feel. A love that seems to overpower me, she's all I'll ever need. And you know her love just hypnotizes me. Till all I see is beautiful…"

We simply stayed close, bodies pressed against each other's, as we swayed slowly to the music. As always, having blue this close to me not only caused a hard on but caused my heart to thump erratically in my chest.

How I longed to shout out the words I've been holding in for weeks now.

I love you.

It was on the tip of my tongue but I didn't utter it.

It's not that I was scared, or ashamed, of loving her. It's not that I thought that it was too soon either because honestly, I don't give a fuck what's too soon or too late. If it feels right then that's all that matters.

I just didn't want to scare blue.

Being with me was a struggle for her.

She gets better by the day with our closeness but sometimes she still flinches, still has fear painted in her eyes. I don't want to spring I love you on her just in case she thinks I'm just saying it to get even closer than we are.

"What are you thinking about?" I asked, swallowing thickly.

"You, this date, us."

"Only good things I hope."

She smacked my chest, "Of course. How could they be anything but?"

I smiled, pleased.

Even with all the preparations that I put into this date, I was of course still nervous. This was blue's first date, my first date with someone I was in love with, I didn't want it to be something lame. I wanted it to be something big and amazing that'll knock her socks off.

And I succeeded.

"You're really amazing. You know that right Masen?"

"So are you," I responded, squeezing her tightly.

She sighed softly, and changed positions. Her arms were now wrapped around my neck and she stood on her tip toes. For a second, she looked like she was going to kiss me but she tensed as she got closer and pulled away looking so sad.

"Don't, don't be sad."

"I'm-"

"No apologies, blue." I told her, making sure she stayed looking at me. "I know what happened to you, and I know it isn't something that's going to be easy to overcome, but don't feel bad that you're not able to do it yet. One day, we will and when we do-well shit, it's going to be fucking epic isn't it?"

She sniffled and smiled sadly at me through her tears.

So I decided to change my tactics. I would distract her.

"Beautiful-like the summer rain to wash away the winter stain. Beautiful, like the morning sun inviting the dawn to break. Beautiful, like the joy that comes when the love you've longed for has just begun. Beautiful, making everything brand new…beautiful you…"

Her eyes never left mine as I sung to her. Yet the tears remained but the sadness was gone and replaced with the same intense emotion that surely sat in my eyes.

I love you, blue.

And you know what? Despite not saying it aloud, I swear that I could feel the same emotion, same response, rolling off her in waves.

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