KAGEYAMA

"Yeah…." he says softly as his fingers move up and down my arm. "Since I met you my memories have started to come back. It's like…..you were my missing link." I kiss the hair on the top of his head as my hand rubs his waist up and down. I hold back tears because deep down I believe that. I believe I was the missing piece. He loves me that much and I love him. I blink back happy tears as I don't want to come off as an oversensitive idiot. "How come you didn't try out for the Olympic the first time you could?"

"What?" I ask. "We just got in engaged and that is your first question?" Hinata lifts his head resting upon his hand that is resting on my chest staring me.

"Answer the question," he replies. "I'm asking for a reason." I sigh looking at him before closing my eyes because it is embarrassing.

"I was heartbroken," I admit. "Playing…..playing without you was hard, it wasn't the same. Every time I tried to play it just hurt." I open my eyes looking at him in time to see a tear fall down his cheek.

"Playing with you…." he says slowly. "Is everything. It's why I haven't felt the passion to play before….you weren't a part of it." I look at him realizing how intertwined we are. I lean up kissing him passionately.

"I love you….."I tell him against his lips.

"I love you too," he whispers before kissing me.

"What is it like?" I ask against his lips. "Remembering?" Hinata pulls away looking at me.

"It was weird," he replies after a minute. "It was strange to wake up each day remembering more." He sighs. "I remember who I am now as well as then." He glances at me rubbing his eyes. "You have no idea how much it means to me that you accepted me, you loved me this whole time." I hug Hinata as he buries his face in my chest. I don't bother holding back the tears. I truly thought I would never see him again. Then I thought he would never remember me, remember us.

We dry our tears. After that we get some ice cream from the kitchen having dessert, we watch some volleyball talking about things I can try out during training. Now that I'm on the Olympic team I know it will be up to them on how I train and what I need to do on the court. It still feels wonderful to be able to talk about volleyball with Hinata, my love. We make love numerous more times before finally deciding to let sleep take us.

I awake the next morning feeling pretty good. I can't help but smile thinking about how Hinata asked me to marry him. I mean sure we are young but why the hell not? He is the love of my life after all. I reach out to touch him but grab nothing but comforter. I open my eyes noticing he is not in bed. I wonder if he is in the bathroom? I wanted to cuddle…..maybe more. I want to discuss more about us getting married. I actually have a few ideas in mind. After a few minutes I get up walking over to my bathroom noticing Hinata is not in there. Cooking breakfast maybe? I go to open my door but hearing Oikawa voice causes me to stop moving.

"You remember now?" Oikawa asked.

"I don't know what you're talking about," hisses Hinata. "Please let me alone."

"You're going to seriously tell me you didn't feel the chemistry between us?" asked Oikawa lowly. Not low enough because I certainly heard that. I'm doing my best to keep myself calm and listen for more information. "From what I remember you were pretty sensitive to the touch."

"Don't you fucking touch me!" cries Hinata. I can hear the shaking in his voice a little. What the hell? "I was young and not very well in control of my body."

"I thought you said you didn't remember?" asked Oikawa. I bite my lip with it dawning on me these two have a history. As far as when and where I don't know. Who the fuck am I kidding? Oikawa clearly mentioned did he remember so this means something happened at camp. When the fuck did that happen? We were together every moment of the day once we got closer. I step back from my door folding my arms not wanting to hear any more. Depending on what I hear I may end up going off on one or both of them. After what feels like forever the door opens with Hinata walking into my room.

"Hey…." he says shyly. I can't help but stare at the guy I love. He is such a beautiful person inside and out. "You're up."

"I would have still been sleeping if you had not left my side," I tell him. Hinata walks up hugging me tightly. I wrap my arms around him holding on for dear life. I try not to think about what I just heard but it's pretty hard. Hinata sighs into my chest as his hands slide up my back. "Everything okay?" Hinata is still holding me tightly. I know he is upset, his little body feels all tense.

"I….I have something to tell you," he says lowly.

"Okay," I reply pulling out of the hug. I hope it is about this Oikawa bullshit because if not I'm going to ask him. It's taking everything in me to not demand to know what happened between them. Hinata and I walk over to my bed. I get back under the covers since I'm still naked, Hinata is wearing one of my tee shirts with nothing on underneath. He sits down with the sadness in his eyes are so heavy. I decide to say something first because it seems like he is struggling to get his thoughts together. "Why are you so upset? Do you not want to really get married?"

"No!" he exclaims looking at me. "I meant that more than anything. I'm scared you aren't going to want me anymore after what I tell you….." I look him trying to put on my calm face.

"You won't know for sure until you tell me," I reply softly. "I can't see there being any reason I wouldn't." Hinata is breathing hard. I grab his hand quickly. "It's okay Hinata, don't have a panic attack. Just tell me what you need to." He nods closing his eyes.

"You know how I have been remembering camp," he says lightly.

"Yes," I reply still holding his hand. I can tell he needs my support although he is afraid.

"I also remembered briefly hooking up with Oikawa," he mutters.

"What!" I exclaim unable to hide my shock. Hinata eyes are shiny from unleased tears.

"I only get bits and pieces," cries Hinata. "All I remember is him saying that I couldn't be completely satisfied by you and h-he would show me how I was really suppose to feel. I didn't mean for it to happen but….he was so forceful."

"Are you saying my friend raped you?" I asked my voice laced with anger. Hinata opens his eyes.

"No, of course not," says Hinata. "I didn't fight him after a while and just let it happen…..I couldn't stop from…." I feel like my heart is crushed. I thought I was the only one who had Hinata. Furthermore, Oikawa what the fuck! Hinata begins to cry. I would comfort him but I'm too pissed off.

"When did this happen?" I ask him coldly.

"I think it was the morning you left camp," he cries. "I just remember being really upset and sad. Please don't be mad at me. I love you, I love you so much."

"I can't say that I'm not mad because I am," I say to him. "I mean….this is hard to swallow. You willingly slept with my friend…."

"That's not entirely true!" cries Hinata. I get out of bed with my anger rising.

"I'm going to take a shower…" I mutter. I wasn't going to shower until a little later but I need to get away from him right now. This feels like he betrayed me. I almost feel ill just thinking about it. The hot shower actually does manage to soothe me. As I'm drying myself with the towel I come out to my room to see Hinata is gone.