"Chris! Wake up Chris!" Who the hell is shaking me?! He must not cherish his own life.
I opened my eyes and saw John. My first thoughts: this isn't what I demanded...
"Chris! Thank god you're all right! Where have you been all this while?" Tears formed in John's eyes. I hadn't forgotten that he killed my dad however, all of that doesn't matters to me now since it has been so long since it happened. I was just surprised that he wasn't in jail yet.
Then it struck me. He works for the government and that dirty society. Apparently, he was needed and thus, his crime was overlooked.
"Go away..." I croaked out while pushing his arms away from me. I stood up and looked around me. This was the lake I first drowned in when I committed suicide or at least tried.
How the hell did I came back?
I look up at the dark sky. It was a beautiful full moon... maybe it has something to do with the full moon. It can't be a coincidence that twice the time I decided to commit suicide that I'm transported to somewhere else, on a full moon.
"Look Chris, I'm really sorry. Please let me make it up to you." I nodded. Seriously, I just didn't have the strength to throw him or even argue with him anymore. I just had a miscarriage and not to mentioned the fact that I was fished out from the lake.
"How did you know I was here?" He looked nervous.
"Spit it out." I growled at him.
"This was the last place the tracking device showed me before you disappear."
Tell me he didn't just confessed that he place a tracking device on me.
On top of that, he looked a little smug. I smacked his head, once, to get rid of my little rage that I had for him. Most of them disappeared when I started dating Shinpachi... After all, they always say, to forget about your old love, find a new love.
I arrived at his house. His house was full of weapons: guns, guns and guns. I don't really know the different names of the guns nor do I care to know.
I knew he was doing something illegal for the government but I never questioned him since I didn't want to die without knowing why and out of nowhere. I took a nice long bath.
I reminisce of the times when I was playing around with Shinpachi, tumbling around, holding each other. I didn't wanted to cry but my tears won't heed what my brain thought of.
Why would he not believe in me... in our love… I had believed that he will save me, both me and my now, dead, unborn baby. It must be because of Itou... but no matter what, the harm is done... and my relationship with them is as good as gone...
I didn't realise how much Shinpachi meant to me to be able to make me think of him this much even after he disappointed me this much...
"Chris! You okay inside?" I wore a pyjamas and walked out of the bathroom. John hugged me tightly, breathing in my scent. He seemed to have relaxed after doing that. I sat on his bed, too tired. When he tried to lay beside me, I kicked him.
"Ouch! Why?" I was smiling but my eyes were cold.
"You're sleeping on the floor for your punishment." With that, I tugged myself in and slept. When I woke up, John had already left for work and left a note for me, saying that he will be back soon and asking me not to run around.
"I'm not your wife." I muttered to myself while pouring myself some ice water. It has been the second day and I already missed the Shinsengumi. Usually by this time, Heisuke would be barging in when I'm sleeping to wake me up, Souji and Hijikata-san would be fighting verbally with me, Shinpachi would be laughing and trying to calm me down by holding my hand. I had gotten used to the routine and I guess changing immediately isn't going to happen within a day. I cooked myself an omurice and played it nicely. When I started to eat, I started to cry.
I swear I was super ugly with my food in my mouth and me crying with my mouth open, unable to close due to the amount of food I stuffed in my mouth. I missed them so much despite the distrust they showed me. They were the ones that saved me in the first place so they should be able to do whatever they want with me yet they just let me roam free. They shouldn't be blamed for what had happen… for the most part but Itou should be the one that should be paying for his own sin.
Then, I decided. I would get my revenge on Itou. Wait till the next full moon and enjoy it to the fullest because that would be your last scenery.
For the Shinsengumi members, wanting me to forgive them for partially causing my miscarriage was impossible but... well... we'll work it out. Now I'll need to prepare for my plan... an evil grin spread across my face.
*normal pov*
"She's nowhere to be found..." The captains were having a meeting in the common room. They looked really tired from all the running and searching they've done for the past weeks. The captains have tried to look for her during their patrol, Shinpachi took time to find Chris, even Kira used her connections however, Chris was just nowhere in sight.
"Maybe she's dead..." Heisuke muttered to himself but covered his mouth when he realised that Shinpachi heard it.
"One little girl that could be a spy dying isn't such a big deal." The words from Itou's mouth stabbed like a dagger on Shinpachi's heart. He was extremely furious with Itou but he cannot do anything about him since it would means breaking the rule. He walked out of the room with nobody stopping him. They all knew he needed his own time alone.
"Chris..." He longed for the girl who had entered his heart for the past months. The girl who was playful, mischievous, annoying yet fragile, caring and cheerful. He hated himself.
How could I have doubted the person who I claimed I love, right in front of her?! We weren't even married yet she had entrusted her body to me, isn't that her way of telling me she gave me her everything? How stupid can I get?!
He knocked his own head with his fist. Tears of sadness overflow his eyes. Maybe Chris really is... it's all my fault... and like a little boy, he cried himself to sleep.
"I'm hungry... Chr-" A drowsy Heisuke walked to the kitchen. He had forgotten that Chris wasn't there anymore. Whenever he plead Chris with his puppy dog eyes, even though she would grumble and complain, she would in the end, prepare food for the members. Just not very often. However, it was an exception if they were sick. Saito and Souji glared at Heisuke.
"You did that on purpose didn't you"
"N-no! I just unconsciously- Saito-san! Put down that knife!" Saito held his knife up after Souji spitted his words out at Heisuke. Their expression suddenly changed from murderous to sadness, causing Heisuke to turn around. It was Shinpachi, his eyes were red and his hair was messy. Where did that useless confidence of his went? He was like a zombie, walking aimlessly.
"Shinpachi..." the usually silent Saito spoke. However, he didn't know what to say to him. They did no such thing as to stop Itou from kicking a girl, the girl that cared for them, the girl they supposedly believed in. He can't say any words of encouragement, it won't come out from his mouth. This went on for a few days. They had already given up searching for Chris.
"Shinpachi, have a seat." Hijikata-san had called Shinpachi in, unable to stand the state he was in any longer.
"I need you to work with us. You can't be like this any longer." Shinpachi gave no respond. Hijikata-san gave a big sigh before continuing.
"Chris has recite a poem she claimed written by me, once." When Shinpachi heard Chris's name, he looked up.
"We need to protect Kondou-san. She has said it before, that he will die, and she was willing to help as much as she could. You should help with fulfilling her wish now that she's gone." A light ignite in Shinpachi's eyes. Hijikata-san was right, the only thing he could do now is to fulfil her wish for her. That was the only thing he could do for her.
"And... keep an eye out for Itou." Shinpachi looked confused for a moment.
"'Traitor', that's what Chris have said before. I can't get that out of my mind. And with the rasetsu starting to get out of control, I need people keeping an eye out." Hijikata-san grimace when he mention about rasetsu. Shinpachi grinned, for the first time since Chris's departure. He was more than glad to be able to have a chance to kill the person who cause all the problems with his big mouth. He has a reason to live again, but sadly, it was to kill.
"I wonder if Shinpachi-san is ever gonna recover..." Heisuke saidly dejectedly while preparing for the patrol.
"I doubt so, Chris was a stubborn girl however, beneath all that, she was really nice and kind and most of all, warm." Harada said while looking at the direction of where Chris used to live. Souji agreed by nodded, reminiscing the time where Chris cooked omurice him even though he spite her before.
"What are you guys talking about?" A cheerful voice made everyone turn towards him. Shinpachi walked down confidently while the others eyes him like they've seen a ghost.
"Shinpachi!" They exclaim in unison.
"I'm back! Sorry for worrying you guys!" He ruffled Heisuke's head with his knuckles. They smiled and went along with the flow. They didn't ask the reason but they didn't care either, as long as their buddy was fine.
"I'm going to make Itou pay for it..." Shinpachi swore while glaring at the room Itou was assigned to.
*chris pov*
The day has finally arrived. All I have to do now is to wait for the night to fall before heading to the lake. I turn my head towards the luggage that I had packed. Lucky for me, John hasn't been able to come back lately since he was busy with work so I took the chance to pack some of the guns into the luggage. Of course, I also used his connection to get the vaccine for tuberculosis. Since I've prevented Souji from any mishap during the Ikedaya event, I'm pretty sure that his immune system isn't that weak yet. I had to try to inject the vaccine into him.
"I wonder what he's doing right now..." I muttered to myself. One month has passed and I caught myself missing Shinpachi too much. However, I do not wish to meet him face to face. It will be too awkward... meaning, I will have to find myself a place to stay for the time being. I bet Kira could help. I giggled at the pink luggage I bought, it was stuff with makeup products. Yes, the whole luggage. I had about 6 luggage prepared and boy they weren't small.
I walked to the kitchen and started preparing food for John. Indeed, I don't love him anymore, however, this doesn't change the fact that he was the one who was taking care of me for the past month. I made a simple fried rice with his favourite prawn in it and a pot full of chicken soup. It's good for his health. I left him a note before I took my luggage and took a cab down to the lake. I sat there alone, enjoying the view while I wait for the moon to shine at its brightest. I threw the luggage with my abnormal strength into the lake, one by one before preparing to jump in. I was really nervous.
"Chris! What are you doing?!" A familiar voice snap me out of my nervousness. It was John. Damn it, why is he here... when he started making his way towards me, I accidentally slipped on a rock covered with moss and fell into the water. The last thing I could here was a loud voice muffled by the water. I closed my eyes and hoped for the best.
Hi guys i'm back with another chapter. Decided not to be a tease so i compiled what originally should be two chapters into one. I recently just came back from Hong Kong and Vietnam and seriously it drained my energy so that be the reason why i didn't update. Another would be i had people sending me threats and all and being me, i was pissed and didn't feel like updating. But now i'm back so enjoy and review!
replies:
Ri-hcna: Well, now you know where she went~ hope you enjoy it!
RevengeSweetness: Thank you for your compliments, means a lot to me! And yeah well, now Itou's gonna have his retribution~ hope you enjoy!
Blonde Neko-Chan: Sorry! But now i'm back! Enjoy!
Luisalawliet: *Hands some tape* Now your heart has no reason to be heart broken ^^
STARLING GEM: Don't worry, she won't die so easily. She is Chris for a reason ;)
dbunny66: Thank you! Please enjoy this chap too!
SilverTail: Nah~ hope everything is going well with you moving houses! Chizuru was just like any other captain but of course, more sadder since Chris had helped her before. Anyways, enjoy!
P.S. If there ia any mistakes, please overlooked it since i edited it myself because this pitiful person doesn't has a beta.