The Reason I am Afraid

"Mama?" Koyuki asked as she was put to bed the night of her birthday party, being tucked in by Kyla and Sebastian both, but it was Kyla she was interested in.

"Yes honey?" Kyla asked softly.

"Are you afraid of anything?" Koyuki asked.

Kyla looked thoughtful for a moment. "I'm afraid of loosing you and your sister and Sebastian, i'm afraid that my entire life is only a dream i forced myself in, and i am afraid of light and silence"

"Why would you be afraid of light and silence?" Koyuki tilted her head.

"I'll explain to you when you're a little older, sweetheart" Kyla said. Koyuki looked displeased at the answer. "Alright..." She sighed lightly before yawning and closing her eyes.

Kyla smiled very lightly, then left the room with Sebastian. "Why are you afraid of the light and silence? You never really explained completely" Sebastian said.

Kyla blushed lightly. "Its because of my childhood" Kyla said simply. "Even for a darkness angel... i used to be afraid of the dark. It was still scary, it was still a dark element... a creature much more powerful than i could have attacked me. For instance, at my age, someone like you. But thats not all. When i was younger, my mother started teaching me all the duties and rules of being a queen... we'd get into fights very often it usually scared me when we started... but it so often in fact that i just got used to our constant yelling, but that didn't mean i liked it. I found that since we sleep during the day where i come from, and it being very silent, i had so many awful nightmares and i always woke up screaming. Thats how the insanity started... i made a voice in my mind to make sure that no mater where i was, i would never be in a place where it was quiet. Now it never shuts up... in fact, if it wasn't for the voice in my head, i would have stayed and died in the Antarctic" Kyla said.

Sebastian frowned. "That would have been rather unfortunate" He said.

"It would have... because i have you, so i have no worries of ever being quiet again" She smiled lightly.

"Was Polara also a solution to this problem?" Sebastian asked.

"Maybe" Kyla smiled. "But you're a better fix" She said, hugging him tightly as he chuckled, embracing her back. "Well, you've become so affectionate of me all of a suden" He said.

"Because, you darken my miserably bright world and lift my impending silence, in a healthy way" Kyla said. "And, you've made me a better person to treat Yuki and Koyuki, and thats something to be thankful for. At least, to me... what are you afraid of?" Kyla asked.

He looked a bit thoughtful after her question, then sighed lightly. "I cant really think of anything besides loosing you... rare few demons ever find love you know... when they do and they loose it..."

"Its devastating, i know, been there done that" She rolled her eyes with a giggle. "I know, did loose a lover..."

"I know" Sebastian kissed her forehead lightly, and she snuggled into his chest. "Wouldn't this be more comfortable in a bed, love?"

"It would..." Kyla dragged him to her room, where she opened the door, flopping onto it and pulling him ontop of her, giggling lightly. "Sorry... i usually end up on the bottom..." She blushed bright red, the demon could see it in the dark. He lit the candle next to her bed, and forced the door closed. Kyla turned him over so she was laying on him, and giggled, breathing his scent deep. "Your hair smells like lavender" Sebastian smiled and she giggled once more. "I know"

She smiled lightly with her eyes closed, until she gripped his coat. "Sebastian?"

"I'm here" He said.

She relaxed. "I'm sorry..." Kyla said.

"Don't be sorry" he replied.

She snuggled up a little more. "Will you make some sort of noise...? So I know you're still here?"

He laughed lightly. "How would i leave? You're laying on me"

"I don't know... i told you, i'm afraid of silence... come on" She said.

"Better idea" Sebastian said. "Why don't you elaborate more on your fear?"

"Sebastian" She sighed lightly. "There isn't much more"

"Would you rather participate in my activity of choice instead?" Sebastian asked, kissing her neck lightly.

"No" She laughed. "Not tonight..."

"Then, elaborate" He said.

"Well... fine. I can be surrounded by people, but if its quiet, then i'm shifty... i dont like it. And light? It can be simple, like the room can be too bright, too many candles lit, or simple daylight... you know? But like this..." She nuzzled him lightly. "This is perfect, Sebastian-kun..."

"I'm glad" Sebastian said lightly.

"What about you?" She nudged him lightly. "You said you're afraid of loosing me... explain that a little more"

"I'm not sure i can" he chuckled.

"Come on, how long will it take for me to be gone before you freak out?" She asked with a small smile, making small circles on his chest with her finger.

"Hmm...knowing you, a week, if there was no threat" he chuckled. "If there was something wrong in the area? It would be mere hours"

"I was worried for a second" She giggled. "I figured you'd say it would be a week no matter what"

"Why would i? I'm a reasonable demon" He said.

"Reasonable? You should be worried if i'm late to anything for any reason, and that includes my body too" She winked at him. "Then, you're REALLY in trouble"

Sebastian laughed lightly. "Why would you ever be pregnant?"

"Because i'm a hybrid, and despite being a slut and a dream eating monster who adopted two children, i still want a baby of my own flesh and blood" She chuckled. "And, hopefully, you'd be kind and give that to me? You know, after you eat Ciel's soul and yada yada"

He kissed her lips softly. "We'll see Kyla... why don't you go to sleep?"

"Make noise so i don't have to talk to myself" She said, holding on to him tightly.

"I'll do something" He patted her head. "Do not worry your pretty little head over it"

"Okay..." She buried her head into his chest, holding onto him tightly, like a lost child. Sebastian rubbed her back lightly then hummed something. She sighed in content and soon enough, sebastian heard her breathing slow considerably, showing that she was asleep. Wanting to attempt to join his 'Dove' in dreamland, he too, let himself confide to sleep, for her sake.

Its short... but i mentioned that these wouldn't be my usual 3K chapters. But, its a crap ton of fluffy for you. If you're curious as to why i didn't do a lemon, as it was perfectly set up to do one, i don't want to creep my readers out for one, I'd like to keep the T rating on this story as well. But, if you want a Sebby/Kyla lemon, leave a review saying so and i'll write one and send it to your PM box. But i'm not actively posting one on fanfic. There was this guy i read from that wrote a lot of lemons, and he got taken down. And, i dont know about you, but i dont want to get taken down from fanfic by some small chance. I know you can easily lie on the internet and say you are 18, so i'm not going to give that limitation. If you're mature, and want to read a lemon of these two, just ask. If you dont know what a lemon is by some chance, then dont ask. Thats all i'm going to say.

~Tigrissa18