Disclaimer: Well let's see, I don't think Stephenie Meyer would be writing this… especially the songs I put in there…

Disclaimer deuce: I had fun with this chapter… It all came from the lyrics of Welcome Home by Coheed and Cambria.

Embry's POV:

When we got in to the house and Emmett was grinning. I stepped further in and saw something I'd seen before.
"Is that Guitar Hero World Tour?" I asked Emmett. He nodded still grinning.
"Actually we have Rock Band in right now." My mind was still blurry.
"Wait a second, when did we get an XboX 360?" Emmett laughed and Edward shrugged.
"A couple hours ago?" I rolled my eyes.
"Oh Emmett got bored and wanted to play something so we picked it up." Emmett passed me the microphone.
"Come on I found a song you need to sing right now." I laughed as they picked a song called "Welcome Home" by Coheed and Cambria. I didn't like singing in front of people. Esme and Carlisle left the room disheartened by the choice of song. Edward was on the drums, Jasper climbed on guitar and Emmett on bass. The song started and it had a bad ass guitar part, then drum part. Something told me there was something in the lyrics that Carlisle and Esme didn't approve of, and the words began.
"You could have been all I wanted
But you weren't honest

Now get in the ground." Oh, it's going to be a song like that isn't it? well I know there is a reason he picked this song…

"You've choked off the surest of favors
But if you really loved me
You would have endured my world" Damn I guess I know why they picked this one, I wonder how bad it's going to get.
"Well if you're just as I presumed
A whore in sheeps clothing

------- up all I do!" Well I guess that's why they left. I assume that was fucking. I

laughed to myself.

"And if it's here we stop

Then never again

Will you see this in your life" Wow this is some heavy shit right here, I guess I see why they wanted me to sing it.

"Hang on to the glory at my right hand

Here laid to rest, is our love ever longed." Wow seriously this is some heavy shit, no wonder Carlisle and Esme stepped out.

"With truth on the shores of compassion
You seem to take premise to all of these songs" Crap I'm almost failing!

"You stormed off to scar the armada

Like Jesus played matyr

I'll drill through your hands" Woah… this is a bit heavy for me. I shook my head at the lyrics. Crazy.

"The stone for the curse you have blamed
With love and devotion I'll die as you sleep." Wait, what the hell? I spent my time trying to figure out what I just sang.

"But if you could just write me out.

To neverless wonder… happy will I become."

"Be true that this is no option

So with sin I condemn you

Demon pray, demon out" I'm pretty sure I don't want to know what that means… What the hell could be next?

"Hang on to the glory at my right hand

Here laid to rest is our love ever longed

With truth on the shores of compassion

You seem to take premise to all of these songs."

"One last wish for you
One last kiss for you

Please make up your mind girl
I'd do anything for you." I felt the song building.

"One last wish for you

One last kiss for you

Please make up your mind girl

Before I hope you die!" Wow. I thought to myself as Jasper played a guitar solo. The song ended and I hadn't gotten over the lyrics. I didn't know what I felt about them, I knew right now I felt most of them, but if I could never say them, then I remembered Edward could read my mind and turned to him, his eyes were on me. Color drained from my face.

"I need to go think." I said quickly running out of the house. Edward nodded but everyone else thought it was strange. I made my way to the garage grabbing my keys for my bike, the loud engine would help clear my mind. After leaving the driveway I took a back road and a couple turns and I was on the freeway. I pushed to eighty and held there, the wind in my face the loud noise of the engine, all were comforting. I weaved out past an Acura, slightly closer then I should have. I guess I was pretty aggressive. I turned off at the Clearwater exit and took it back to it's water tower. I parked my bike at the bottom of the water tower and climbed up the rungs. I heard a familiar bike and saw as I made it to the top, Jasper's motorcycle. He parked at the bottom of the water tower next to my bike and was up the rungs at my side.
"What did Edward tell you?" I asked without turning around to face him. I turned to face him and read his face, I'd gotten better at reading him when he wasn't trying to hide something. Right now he wasn't hiding anything, I knew that much.
"Nothing, Edward told me nothing, I came because the lyrics of the song were pretty strong, knowing you, knowing what you were feeling, I'm guessing you came here to figure out what you really think about her." So we've gone back to call her Her? Did he ever stop calling her Her?

"Well you figured me out I guess." Jasper laughed next to me and put his cold hand on my shoulder only for a second, as a sign of comfort, but when some one does that it's supposed to be warm, I guess the sentiment could be lost on vampires, but not the meaning.
"Emb, I haven't ever gotten close to figuring you out, I cheat." I laughed in response to Jasper, he was my best friend, even though he was a reformed blood addict. I laughed to myself.

"What is it Emb?" Jasper asked not understanding my laughter.

"Just thinking of titles for you."

"Like what?" Jasper asked curiously.

"Reformed blood addict." Jasper chuckled next to me.

"Like HA? Humanalic's anonymous?" Jasper said continuing my thought

"That or Humalic." We stopped and pondered for a bit.

"I think I prefer Blood Addict." Jasper concluded. I shrugged at his side. We stared silently out across the freeway and over to the fields, neither of us saying a word, the cold November wind was refreshing. Here we were at eleven P.M. on top of the water tower, watching the cars fly by, for most you wouldn't be able to appreciate the scenery, but we could, we both had much better then average sight.
"Jasper, did I make the right choice." I said without elaborating he knew what I was talking about though.
"Yes Embry, you did, she'll come back if she can." Jasper sighed wistfully. I raised my eyebrow looking at Jasper.

"How do you know?" I asked him. He was never close enough to her to get her feelings off of her, unless he did at the airport, which was unlikely given the distance.

"I don't know… I just feel it off her, and not because of my ability." I nodded in response. I looked in to the vast night, having one of my many moments of reflection.

"I some times wonder, if I jump what will it feel like to land, how will the air feel in my hair, how will my bones break? Will I die?" I asked out loud. Most people would immediately tell me not to think of such things. Most people would tell me it's not worth it. Most people would tell me they need me and I shouldn't do it. Jasper isn't most people.

"It feels great, the wind flying through your hair, and for a short moment believing you have control, that you can end your life if you please… then you realize it's all for naught, you can't end your life, you have no control, you simply have what you had before… Just now you realize that is it." I wasn't surprised at Jasper.

"Really, it's all just futile, because as we grasp for control, we realize we never had control, just the illusion of control, not real control at all. With age comes wisdom? Ha with age comes stupidity. I'll take my ignorance and young vigor over age and realization of the real world." I stopped and realized he was ranting.

"Jasper, the difference is… You're immortal I'm not." Jasper threw his head back and laughed.

"And just like I you have no control. Just the illusion of control, oh how I wish I could return to that sweet bliss that came with my youth." I raised my eyebrow at Jasper.

"Are you calling me stupid Jasper?" he smiled.

"No, just young." He continued as he stared wistfully.

"Granted it's not all bad, I've changed you've changed me." he threw his head back and laughed.

"You're the most interesting thing that's happened to me since I joined this family."

"Jump Embry, but it won't change anything." I looked at Jasper then took two steps and leapt. Jasper was right, the air felt like freedom I expected pain to follow but instead I felt cold hands wrapping around me and before I knew it I was on Jaspers back on the ground.

"What did you do?" Jasper shrugged.

"I just jumped down instead of jumped up caught you and pushed off the water tower, flipped and landed on the ground." Jasper said offhandedly like it wasn't a big deal. My jaw dropped at Jasper, he never ceases to amaze me. Jasper walked back to the bikes and climbed on his.

"I needed to get away from Edward, I wasn't prepared to have him hear those thoughts."

"Edward didn't tell anyone emb, not even Bella." I must have looked relieved and surprised because Jasper continued.

"Edward gives us our privacy for the most part." Jasper said. We drove back home on the freeway I wasn't pushing the speed limit and neither was Jasper this time. We got back home and everyone was doing their own thing. My bodies sleepiness finally caught up with me and hit me like a truck. Once I had stopped things and stopped for a second I was tired. I threw my body in to bed and turned on the radio by my head.

"So if you're pissed like me

Bitches, here's what you gotta do

Put your middle finger up in the air

Go on and say "F--- You!" You've got to be kidding me. I laughed listening to the lyrics.

"I hate my job, all of my rich friends

I hate everyone to the bitter end

Nothing turns out right There's no end in sight

I hate my life!" Hmm sounds pretty accurate. What about the Cullens? Their my rich family I argued with myself.

"So much at stake, can't catch a break

I hate my life!

No it's nothing new to hear "It sucks to be you"

I F------ my life!" I turned over trying to fall asleep, now laughing, How true.

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