A/N: Well, well, well . . . look what the cat dragged back in. I know it's been more than a while and I hope someone's still out there that hasn't given up on me! I would have updated sooner, but life has been stressful to say the least . . . and I don't think this story would benefit from an inebriated author! I'm sure no one that cares about an update wants to listen to me ramble anymore, so I do hope it was worth the wait. Before I shut up, though, please be warned that this chapter is extra, extra lemony. So, please don't read it if you're not into that stuff. Other than that: enjoy, my pretties!

Edward

It was so incredibly easy to get carried away when Bella and I were alone— I had to force myself to keep it somewhat regulated. Even though I didn't deserve it, Bella wanted me in every way. I owed it to her to be certain she wanted sex for the right reasons. It wasn't right to bang someone so emotionally fragile just because I was a horny-ass teenager.

The fucked up part about getting intimate was I would always have shitty worries, if not consciously, they were always at least in the back of my mind. Worries like, What if I put my dick in Bella and it gave her a flashback of Jasper raping her? I didn't want sex with Bella to be associated with rape; I wanted it to be associated with love. There had to be a way to approach it just right.

As always, it was possible that I was worrying fruitlessly.

The one thing that kept me going was the fact that the both of us could definitely use a good lay after all the shit we'd been through.

I must have forgotten how observant she was of her surroundings, because Bella immediately noticed my mental battle.

"What's wrong?" she whispered anxiously. "Did I do something wrong?"

I shook my head. "Of course you didn't. I'm really just worried about this. Are you sure you're ready? Because if you're not, we really don't have to go through with anything."

Bella sighed and glanced toward the floor, looking for a distraction. She was clearly uncomfortable. "Leave it to me to ruin a perfect moment," she sighed.

I quirked an eyebrow at her. "What are you talking about? You haven't ruined anything."

Her tone was sour as she replied, "Yeah? Well, I have a feeling most girls can just fuck their boyfriends without having any problems. I feel incredibly breakable or something. It sucks."

I laughed humorlessly. "Do you really think every couple has a perfect sex life?"

Bella shrugged as her cheeks turned a beautiful shade of scarlet.

I gently pulled her chin toward me. I continued, "Bella, that's actually really far from the case. Nobody is perfect, and sex is different with every couple. I know you don't believe it, but I would and will wait forever for you to be ready, if that's what you need. We have all the time in the world."

Bella looked up at me with painfully beautiful eyes. She whispered, "I want to try."

"To be perfect in bed?" I asked dubiously.

She shook her head. "No, I want to try . . . to make love to you. I need you. I need this."

I kissed her softly in response, not pushing it too far. The truth was that she really was breakable, and she had the cast to prove it. I was more than willing to be gentle, but I've never had to be gentle with any girl in the past and was worried that I'd get caught up in the moment. It was easy to not think with your human head when you were fucking a girl.

My dick was so hard that it hurt, more than eager that it would finally be able to feel Bella.

I grounded myself in the moment, pushing my mind away from my burning desire to fuck and focusing on making it special for Bella. It wasn't supposed to be about me. Everything was about her, and I liked it that way.

Bella moaned as I kissed and nibbled on her neck while I rubbed her nipples outside her shirt. She was already shaking with pleasure, and it took all my willpower to not just shove my cock inside her right then and there.

Calm the fuck down, I growled at my dick internally. He was more than pushing my limits, he was taking over my mind.

I continued kissing and biting Bella's neck and I slowly traced the soft skin on her stomach until I reached her panties. I hesitated right above her crotch and looked at her expectantly. She pushed her entire body up so that my hand was exploring her soaking pussy through her panties. I gently traced it until I found her clit, where I made small circular movements with my thumb. I started slowly and gently, then began to play with it faster and harder.

Bella moaned so loud that it would be a miracle if no one awoke from it. In a quick and sudden movement, she slipped her panties off and pushed my hand back to her bare crotch.

Bella gasped as I lowered myself to her holy land and started licking and sucking her clit. Her legs were shaking with pleasure, so I took it up a notch and slowly entered my ring finger inside her while I continued licking her. I peeked up at her to make sure it was okay, and was pleased to see her eyes roll to the back of her head as she forcefully grabbed my hair.

After a minute of leg-shaking pleasure, Bella whispered breathlessly, "Please fuck me Edward."

My cock was extra pleased to hear those magic words. I pulled my boxers off quickly and lied on top of Bella, my dick twitching right outside her entrance.

"Ready?" I whispered, not as hesitant as I was earlier but still wary.

Bella nodded and shut her eyes, as though she was bracing for the unexpected.

She didn't tense up this time.

I eased inside her slowly, ready to pull out whenever she looked uncomfortable or told me to stop. But instead of wincing, she slowly opened her eyes and fucking grinned.

I pushed myself in and out of her slowly, breathing heavily and trying not to be a minute man. I really did feel like I was about to splooge right away because it was better than my dick had ever felt, but I forced myself to think about dead puppies to extend my performance time.

Bella softly moaned and grabbed my back, digging her nails in my skin. I gradually quickened my pace until it was steady and both of us were panting.

Suddenly, being inside her was just too fucking sexy for my dick, and it betrayed me. I came harder than I ever came in my life. Seriously, that shit felt like gallons.

For once, I was the one blushing.

Instead of being disgusted with me like she should have been, Bella kissed my lips sweetly and wiped my damp forehead with the back of her palm.

After catching my breath in awkward silence for a few minutes, I was able to mumble, "Sorry."

Bella rolled her eyes at me and hissed, "Oh, please!" I was more than embarrassed until she continued with lust-filled eyes, "Wanna go again?"

Of course, she didn't have to ask.

A/N: Yay! They finally did it! Am I officially a smut peddler?