A/N: The following three chapters will have this as they theme. Because as you know I like my account here I will try to keep this as clean as possible from things which would cause me problems, but those who want to know more please go to my Adultfanfiction account and read my fic „Calling in t o the Silence" – it is still in progress, but it will explain most of the things to you or you can ask…
Disclaimer: This song isn't mine…
Protect me from my Nightmares I.
It was one of those rarer nights in Hueco Mundo when the black night sky wasn't filled by the light of the stars and moon, but with heavy dark storm clouds. Icy rain was hitting against the ground and the windows of Las Noches while lightning and wind raged. Most residents of the white palace didn't pay it any mind except three Arrancar who were strolling silently through the endless halls, lighting they way with a lamp.
"Fuck, it is like five minutes after midnight and you two fucking wake me up…" growled Nnoitra in annoyance.
"Well I didn't know that you would act like a scared little girl." said the green haired woman giggling.
"Shut up Neliel…." the blackhead growled in embarrassment.
"Keep quiet we shouldn't wake the others and to answer your question Nnoitra it is since five minutes the twenty-third day of the fourth mon…" but Halibel couldn't even finish as the man darted past her.
"Fuck then why are we walking here like as if we would go on a bloody walk." he said as he nearly sonidoed through the halls till he reached the searched door and opened it.
A bedroom door was ripped open when thunder cracked as three shadows stepped inside.
"Szayel where are you, it is we." Neliel said in a worried tone as they looked around in the dark room.
"Szayel?"
There was no sound which made the three Arrancar exchange worried glances. On this day they would usually hear the sound of someone throwing up, screaming, whimpering, crying and since some while also the sounds of breaking objects. They knew perfectly well that for a Hollow it is painful to exist that is why they feed on souls of the living, but the worst is that while the souls in Soul Society are free from they memories the Hollows can since the second they appear remember they death and on the anniversary of it…
…The dealing with that special black day is by everyone different the ones who had ended they life with they own hands like Ulquiorra or Ilforte felt only depressive on that day and felt the pain of they wounds, those who died in an accident like Lilinette felt only the pain in they body, but the worst was it for the ones who had died a forceful death and even there the reactions were different. It was all bound to how old you were by your death and who or what had caused it. Nnoitra, Neliel and Halibel were exactly because this here in the room of the Octava searching for him. The four of them had spent they time here in one group before getting turned in to Arrancar and they knew about each others deaths and helped with dealing with it. Szayel was the worst he was only a child when he needed to suffer through the worst thing that could happen to a person for three horrible days before death saved him from his sufferings. But each time this day come would the Octava relieve those three days in his nightmares, he would shy away from each human touch and affection, he would close up or become hysteric with panic attacks, refusing to eat or to drink and throw up till it come only blood out. It took the three of them a long time to get Szayel to allow them to protect him from his fears.
"Where the fuck is he?" Nnoitra asked with a worried tone which wasn't so unusual for the two women beside him they knew that the warrior was rather protective about the young scientist.
"I don't know." Halibel answered worriedly.
"We are here." they suddenly heard Neliel's soft tone from the door where she stood, Szayel clinging to her desperately a fresh trail of tears glistering on his checks.
"Szayel." said the other two Arrancar in a relieved tone when the Tercera sat down with the Octava on the bed stroking his back as he sobbed.
"Szayel, it is alright we are here, he will never hurt you again." Halibel said in a warm mother like tone as she also wrapped her arms around the pink haired man.
"You know that we will protect you." Nnoitra added in as he kneeled down in front of the other and placing his right arm on his shoulder.
"Ne…Neli…Neliel…" they suddenly heard Szayel sob as he lifted his head somewhat.
"What is it Szayel?" Neliel asked while stroking through the younger man's soft magenta colored hair.
"Wo…would…y…you a…and Ha…Halibel ple…please si…sing t…that so…song you al…always sang t…to me…?" he asked between sobs while the two women nodded at each other and Neliel started singing the first part of the song Halibel had teached her back then.
I am me and you are only you
We live our different lives
But still the same vision
All the same, what shape and size we are
We keep on moving on
That's what life's all about
I see flowers bloom by your side
And waiting for the sun
It is the sign of hope image of our fate
Neliel's singing seemed to calm Szayel somewhat he was still shaking somewhat from fear, but at least had his sobbing stopped and Nnoitra whipped his remaining tears away. It always caused a strange pain to him to se the Octava suffering like this on this cursed day since the minute it starts.
Sun sets where ever you may be
And rising up again
But the sun I see only sits in dark space lighting up your world
Break the silence I'm feeling deep inside
Shooting stars will light our worlds apart
Wishing we can be together you and me as one forever
I want to chase the seasons on the move
Want to smell the rain changing into snow
Everything I want to do with you is still in the future
This moment in time be my dream keeper
Finishing the first part of the song Neliel fell silent as Halibel's warm tone filled the dark room.
Sora ni mau hanabira tooku de hibiku aoi nami no ne
Fuini shinjirareru kono sekai ni afureru inochi
Itsuka I wanna be by your side ryoute wo hiroge
Kusa no ue de kaze wo atsumete
Komorebi to sunshower sou kanpeki na
Ichinichi ga heiwa ga zutto tsudzuku youni
Yubi ni furete itai kara zutto soba ni itai kara
Te wo tsunai de iru dake de kanjirareru
Futari ga tsunagatteru koto subete ga mimamotteru koto
Hakanasa no ue ni saita shiawase wo tsumuide yuku
Sou mirai e
Yubi ni furete itai kara zutto soba ni itai kara
Te wo tsunai de iru dake de kanjirareru
Futari ga tsunagatteru koto subete ga mimamotteru koto
Hakanasa no ue ni saita shiawase wo tsumuide yuku
Sou mirai e
As the song ended they noticed that Szayel had fallen asleep again, but they knew from experience that the nightmares will not end till midnight comes and so they will stay here with the Octava trying to protect him from the nightmares of his past as best as they could…
…then this was the only thing that could at least ease the pain…
Owari