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Rated M for language, mention of drugs and adult themes.
Jade's POV
Winter break is almost over and today Gaby and I are taking a plane to New York to spend New Years by ourselves.
A lot has happened this past few weeks.
The social worker has been by the house three times to check on me and also keep us updated on the advances on my father's case. Jensen and Nikki had to sue him for Gaby's injury as assault so they could petition the court for my custody. The date for the hearing is set for the first week of January. First time I'll be confronting my father in a month after he hit me.
Christmas was great, I'm driving again thanks to Grandpa's gift. He surprised me with a completely restored 1963 Mercury Comet, black with red leather interiors, beautiful. He also bought Cat a car, a pink Volkswagen New Beetle, it's so 'Cat'. She will get it when she get's back from Idaho.
But the best gift off all was Jensen and Nikki's two tickets to New York and all paid long weekend for Gaby and me. I'm excited to spend this time just with her, it feels so amazing to be in a relationship, I've discovered a totally different side of myself in every way. I'm nice to the whole family but I'm especially good to her. We haven't fought ever since that night about Cat. Well, we've had arguments but not fights, Ash's advices worked like a charm.
After that weekend on the beach Ash and I started to message each other a lot. She was checking on Gaby through me; she said she didn't want to hover all over my girlfriend and that she was perfectly fine with annoying me; something that at the beginning bugged me like crazy but in time I have come to enjoy.
She might not look it, but Ash is very much like me in a lot of ways, which is comforting. She understands when I tell her that I'm annoyed by something and is not trying to make me love everything or become a saint. We mostly complain about things we hate, which is AWESOME! We also talk about people we love, Gaby and Beck. I'm glad to say that I have a friend in her, even if she is Gaby's ex.
"Jade sweetie, are you ready?" - Nikki comes looking for me to take us to the airport.
"Yes, sorry I forgot the phone charger"
"Let's go, you are going to be late"
Jensen and Nikki drop us at the airport and we board the plane. Not much to do here, Gaby and I are taking this time to write our final assignment for Writing class, thankfully is a solo assignment, but is nice to bounce ideas with her from time to time.
Four hours later we land and are greeted by our chauffeur and he takes us to Gaby's parents penthouse in Manhattan.
"Nice place"
"It is, right? I want to move here someday, see if I invade and conquer like the living room" - Gaby mocks her own bold idea, I just shake my head.
"This is way better than going to a hotel, I mean we can be alone and make all the noise we want" - I approach her from the back and kiss her long and uncovered neck as we both stare at the incredible view.
"How about we first settle in and go to eat I'm starving"
I turn her around and give her a small kiss and rub her nose with mine.
"Let's go"
Tori's POV
It's been good to have some days apart from everyone, Beck travelled to Canada to spend Christmas and he is returning Sunday night to spend New Year's together, so, it's been just me and my bed.
Andre called and we agreed to hang tonight and watch a movie; he will be here in a little more than an hour, but I just don't want to get out of bed. I've been thinking none stop about Jade, I'm just tired of thinking.
I'm up, maybe the hot water will numb my thoughts. 45 minutes later I walk out, my skin almost scorched by the warmth of the water. I get dressed quickly, Andre will be here any minute now.
"Tori, Andre's here" - Trina yells from the living room.
"I put some make up on and grab my purse, a jacket and head downstairs"
"Hey Girl, ready to go?"
Not really, I just want to get back in bed.
"Hey Andre, let's go"
"Are you OK?"
"No, she is not, but she is not telling me or anyone else, maybe you can get her to talk, she's been curled up in bed for days" - Trina says as she picks up her car keys and leaves, "Have a nice night!"
"Wow, want to talk about what's going on?"
"I don't know if I should, Andre, is not an easy subject"
"Tori, you can talk to me about everything, you know that?" - Andre sits down and motions me to sit next to him.
"Ugh, I don't know"
"Is it Beck?"
"No, he's great. It's… it's Jade"
"Tori" - Andre sighs, "I thought you were passed that crush"
"So did I, honestly believed that I was. But you know what I did to get over her"
"Yeah, you convinced yourself that Jade would never actually be in a relationship with a girl because she was straight and you would have her friendship instead"
I shrug my shoulders.
"And now that you see her with Gaby it's eating you up"
I nod without speaking a word.
"Tori, you couldn't have known, not even she knew"
"Yes, but I had so many chances to let her know my feelings and I never took them, she was straight, that was that and I wanted to at least be her friend"
"Tori, but you can't change what you didn't do, you can only work with what you have in the present and you have Beck"
"I know Andre, and I like Beck so very much, it's just that I…"
"You still love Jade" - He looks conflicted.
Beck is his friend as well, I'm practically putting him in a position of lying to him.
"I don't know what to say to you. First of all Beck is a good guy and he genuinely likes you and second, Jade is in love with Gaby… to tell you the truth I don't see a way out for the last one" - He pauses and takes a deep breath, "As for the first one, if you are feeling like this maybe you should break things off with Beck"
"Andre, I like Beck, I don't want to break up but how can I not wander about Jade, when I see her having the dream I had for us with another girl" - I don't want Andre to think I don't want to be with Beck, but I need him to understand that I see someone else living MY dream and I'm conflicted.
"I get that Tori, but are you going to do something about it? Because if that is what you are thinking then you should consider that you must be fair with Beck and break up. Then consider that Jade is the happiest she has ever been and you will not only lose a friend, you'll lose any possibilities with her and Gaby, Beck and Cat's friendship for sure"
"I know Andre and I promise I won't do anything at all. I just can't help being sad about this" - Yeah I'm really jealous, angry and depressed by this, sad is the PG-13 version of my feelings right now.
"I know Tori, but give it time, it will eventually pass. Remember also that you enjoy being with Beck, I have seen you very happy with him too"
"And I am, don't get me wrong, I'm happy with Beck, I'm just sad" - I lie again, if I could change Beck for Jade I would in a second, I wouldn't even think past the first time.
"I'm here Tori if you want to talk, I only ask that you are fair with Beck, after all he has nothing but good intentions with you" - I nod accepting what he asks of me.
I know that's true, but I need Beck to distract me from all of this. I actually like him a lot and I don't want to hurt him but he is the only one that takes my mind of things.
Tuesday night - New years
Jade's POV
NY
Gaby and I prepare to go out and watch the Ball Drop from Times Square, by now it's all filled with people but we are not there to watch the show. We just want to experience the magic of NY on New Years.
The whole weekend has been incredible; we have gone to some Broadway shows being Beautiful and Wicked contenders for our favorite one. We visited some local Coffee Shops inventing our own Coffee Tasting tour around the city, we have done the typical tourist taking cliché pictures of us and we've gone clubbing a couple of nights. We've also spent a good amount of time at the apartment talking, laughing, and 'other' activities, but most of all, enjoying all the time we had just for each other.
"You know we have school the day after tomorrow, right?"
"Sure Jade, we are going to school the day after tomorrow; we would have to be in LA for that and we a flying back that day"
"Nice way to start the year, skipping school" - I rub my hands together; it's a cold night out here.
"And since when do you care about school?"
"I don't, quickly Gaby hit me! I'm going insane"
We both laugh.
"I wander what the guys are doing back home"
"I know Beck had plans tonight… you know kinky plans with Tori" - Gaby gives me a smirk.
"I can't believe they haven't had sex yet"
"Well, not everyone can share the same bed with their girlfriend every night"
"True, but Beck has his RV and we all know exactly what goes on in there" - I say casually.
"Thanks for putting terrible images on my head Jade"
"Oh come on! Like you didn't know we had sex"
"Yes, I know, but when you say it I actually visualize you in Beck's RV… and I don't want the image of my best friend and my girlfriend having sex, thank you"
"Hahaha, deal with it! I already have those images from every time you and Ash tell a story about your relationship"
"It's not my fault you have become such great friends"
"Who could've thought… but I have to say, you have incredible taste in women" - I smile raising my eyebrows teasing Gaby.
"I know right? What am I doing with you?"
My mouth drops, surprised and amused by what my girlfriend just said.
"This is what you are doing with me" - I grab Gaby violently from the waist pulling her to give her a big kiss.
People all around us start clapping and cheering. We break off the kiss embarrassed, but I quickly start bowing to the people as if I was in a play.
"Hahaha, I love you" - Gaby whispers shaking her head and smiling, without even realizing what she just said. But I heard her and my heart starts skipping so fast.
"I'm going to get some coffee, do you want one?" - I say trying not to panic.
"Yes, please"
She just said she loved me, but it was so casual, she didn't even notice she had said it.
I've loved her from some time now; I just didn't want to say it before I knew Gaby felt the same.
Oh God, tonight is the night! Tonight is the night I tell her how much I love her.
I'm freaking out!
I thought I would have some time to plan this. I have not more than 20 minutes until midnight.
I push my way back to Gaby with both cups of coffee and by now we only have 5 minutes.
"I was starting to get worried"
"Sorry, the line was huge and there is a lot of people here"
"5 more minutes! I'm excited Jade, our first New Years together!"
Our 'first' that's right! And I plan on having many, many, many of these with her.
We have less than 2 minutes now, what shall I do? Should I tell her before or maybe after the kiss? I don't know! After, after is better, I don't want to miss the kiss if she is surprised.
Less than a minute now we are holding hands looking at each other shivering for the cold and nervous as hell.
30 seconds, we face each other and smile. Bah, who cares how I say it, everything is just perfect right now, my nerves disappear and I embrace my girl at 10 seconds to go.
I see straight into her eyes, 5... 4... 3... 2... 1...
I lean in quickly and we kiss, her lips are cold but her breath is warm and delicious, we kiss slowly and passionately. We break the kiss for a second and I feel the words just go out of my mouth right into hers.
"I love you"
We kiss again; I know she heard me because her fingers press hard against my hips.
We pull back and she says it back to me.
"I love you Jade"
I smile and give her a peck. Nothing else matters around us. This is magic and I'm lucky enough to be a part of it.