Suki rushed into the hospital room where Michiru stood, seeing Haruka laying with an iv in one arm while one was bandaged up.
"this is all my fault." Suki sobbed, collapsing down against the hard tile floor. Michiru gently helped her to her feet and over to a chair.
"No Suki...what you said may not have helped but she was feeling down ever since school started." Setsuna stated as she glanced toward the waiting room.
The doctor walked in and began to talk to Michiru softly discussing the need for a blood transfusion.
"I know I've got the same blood type. I'll do it." Suki stated gently as she whispered, shaking at the fear of needles but wanting to help her friend.
Suki eased back onto the bed as she glanced over at her unconscious friend, not diverting her eyes from the bandaged wrist.
Why could I ever do that? What have I done? She was my best friend and she has been through so much, how could I just walk away like that...she knew why.
These thoughts whirled through her mind as she watched the needle penetrate her skin. She wanted to cry and she wanted to do anything to help her and when an distraught Hotaru was carried in by Setsuna she felt worse. She felt a hatred toward herself and was hoping that Haruka could forgive her for this.
"Michiru I...I never meant to cause this." she whispered as she sat up, trying hard to not look at the needle less she'd pass out.
"just stay calm, its almost done." Michiru stated kindly then sat beside Haruka, who winced in her sleep.
"As long as I don't look at my arm or the blood I'm okay." the dark haired girl answered as she closed her eyes and leaned back.
As soon as the doctor removed the needle she leaned back and closed her eyes, feeling a little weak.
"Go on to sleep, you'll feel better later." Michiru stated and Suki did and managed dozed off.
Haruka's eyes slowly opened, her vision slightly blurry.
"you're awake?" Michiru whispered softly as she ran her hand through the girl's hair.
Haruka could see the dried tear stains on her lovers face and gently reached up with her good hand before whispering "I'm so sorry Michiru...I." she began however a gentle smile cut her off.
"you worried me love, not to mention what Hotaru thought when she saw you being packed out." she stated gently then added "you need rest, you have lost a lot of blood."
Haruka sighed and glanced over at Suki, noticing the blue band tied around her arm.
"Did she..." Haruka began as tears welled in her eyes.
"She was worried to death." Setsuna replied kindly as she entered the room with Hotaru who ran to Haruka and carefully climbing into the bed and hugging her parent.
"Careful Hime-Chan." Michiru warned gently, giving her daughter a soft smile.
"Don't worry, she can't break me." Haruka replied kindly as she carefully hugged her little daughter and whispered softly.
"I'm so sorry my little firefly. Can you please forgive me?" she whispered and Hotaru curled close against her and whispered.
"Only if you promise never to hurt yourself again!" she replied and Haruka chuckled then whispered softly
"I will never do anything that will worry you or your Mommy again."
Michiru smiled softly at this and then leaned down and kissed both of her girls on the cheek.
"I'll hold you to that Ruka." Michiru retorted then gently took Hotaru from the blonde's arms as she added "Now we all know you're going to be okay I'll take Hime-Chan and the girls downstairs for a bite to eat." she stated softly before walking out.
"Do you think that its okay for me to be in a room alone with Suki? I mean after she acted today..." she began however Setsuna retorted softly.
"You have half her blood running through you so I'd say it is very safe."
Haruka glanced over at the sleeping teen and recalled her reaction to her earlier that day.
"but how she acted earlier." she whispered however the time guardian only sighed and replied.
"She's not use to your effusive behavior. Her first thought was that you where a pervert or trying to make a pass at her."
Haruka was hurt by this however when she looked over at the sleeping form of Suki she smiled.
"just give her time Haruka, she was so upset when she came in she had to hold back tears. The amazon girl's where furious with her for all of this." Michiru stated gently as she walked out of the room.
Suki slowly awoke and glanced around the room, her arm was too sore to move but she forced herself to get up and walked over to a sleeping Haruka and gently traced her hand over the bandaged area.
"I'm so sorry." she whispered, tears beginning again.
To her surprise a gentle hand reached up and caressed her cheek, wiping away the tears that where flowing.
"hey, it's not like you to cry. I'm fine." The Silky voice of the tomboy stated tiredly and to her surprise Suki hugged her.
"you're fine, you tried to kill yourself and its all my fault!" she snapped and Haruka laughed softly and returned the hug.
"How's your arm? I heard what you did for me and I wanted to say thanks. I know you're scared to death of needles." Haruka asked, rubbing the girl's back.
Suki pulled away and sighed as she replied softly "I...I just had to be a jerk." Suki began however Haruka sighed and replied gently.
"I know that you thought that I was a pervert but I could never see you as anything but a sibling. Heck we grew up together Suki and you know all my secrets, even the ones Michiru would beat me if she knew. I would never try to flirt with you, you're basically my sister." the butch stated seriously but kindly.
Suki only nodded, too ashamed to reply.
"would you stop beating yourself up if I promise to never try this again?" the blond tried and Suki sighed and shook her head before replying.
"Maybe if you'd Knock me upside the head." Suki answered and Haruka chuckled and replied.
"I'll hold you to that once I get my strength back."
However around that time Cerecere and the others walked in.
"I'm glad you're okay." Cerecere stated softly and Haruka smirked.
"Thanks brat. But right now I am concerned for Suki...I think that besides giving blood she fell and hit her head." the blond retorted jokily.
Cerecere glared over at Suki and retorted "Why would I be concerned for that Bitch?" she snapped.
Suki sighed but chose not to say anything to the girl, feeling that shes deserved the harsh words. However Haruka gave her a look before saying quietly but firmly.
"is that any reason for you to speak to your guardian? Sure I wont sugarcoat it, she did hurt my feelings pretty badly but I have a feeling that anyone would if a freaky lesbian was to kiss your hand."
Suki sighed and retorted "you're not a freak, though you did freak me out."
Cerecere retorted then replied firmly "Well I'll never forgive her!"
Haruka sighed and wordlessly reached over and gave the young girl a light bop on the head, her expression one of disapproval. "everyone makes mistakes little one." she pointed out carefully.
Cerecere glanced up at her and was surprise by seeing Suki standing with her back toward them, though unknowing to anyone in the room that tears where trickling their way down the shadow guardian's face.
Great I push away everyone that I have ever loved...no wonder everyone thinks I'm a freak. Even Mom thinks I'm strange and now the only people in this universe that accepts me for who I am hate me.
She thought bitterly, wishing that she could just disappear.
Haruka noticed how the dark haired girl was acting and sighed as she glanced over at the young girls.
"go find Michiru and tell her that I said for her to take you guys and Hotaru out for ice cream or something." she stated gently.
Once the girls had left the room Haruka glanced over at Suki and sighed.
"want to talk about it?" she asked gently, being able to tell something was getting to the slightly younger teen and wanted to provide comfort.
"not like anyone could help." Suki growled, trying to keep her tears under control.
"you're acting like you did when your brother slapped you. What's going on?" Haruka stated a bit more forceful.
"That's the point Haruka! Why is it that everyone I love finds a reason not to care for me?" she sobbed.
"I know your mother loves you." she stated softly as she forced herself out of the bed and over to where the other girl was standing.
"You only know the half of it! Every since my Papa passed she has found a reason to ridicule me! My brother never loved me and even when I think I have finally convinced the girls to trust me and I felt like I have a family again I shove my foot in my mouth!" Suki cried, turning and burying her face into the tall blonde's chest.
"Hey, look at me." Haruka requested as she carefully held the other girl to her chest and then once the girl had managed to at lease glance up she continued "You do have a family...we may not be related by blood but you're my sister in every other way and I know that those girls think the world of you. They're just a little taken aback right now."
Suki couldn't believe that the girl that she had caused to want to commit suicide was holding her tight and saying such kind things to her.
Pulling away the eclipse warrior found her voice and found herself wanting to apologize again
"Haruka...I..." she began however the blonde pressed a finger to the girl's lips and stated firmly but gently
"don't even say anything Tsuki. I forgive you and I'm sure that everyone else will too."
with that Haruka pulled the brunette back into a tight hug and kissed the crown of her head.
"You just have to trust us Su, that's all."