Fitz was in the middle of his security meeting; they were debating what interrogation methods to use on Farrokh, who was being held at the base in Iraq. He was confused as to what significance Olivia held to him and why the men Gerry hired gave her to Farrokh to begin with. If they knew about their relationship, they surely would have made it public or at least demanded a ransom but instead they kept her hidden for months, he knew it had to be something else and he really wanted to hear what Olivia had to say before he went forward with Farrokh.
In the middle of the meeting in the oval office, Tom came to summon him, he didn't exactly have to say anything, he just gave Fitz a nod and Fitz immediately adjourned the meeting and quickly walked over to Tom.
"Did something happen? Is she alright?" he asked quickly.
"Sir she's awake."
"She's awake?"
"Yes sir."
"What are you waiting for Tom, let's go," Fitz said as he hurried through the door.
Within 20 minutes Fitz was at the hospital, hurrying down the hall to see her. As he was nearing her room he was surprised to find Abby, Huck and Harrison sitting in the waiting area instead of in her room.
"Did she fall asleep or something? Why are you waiting out here?" Fitz asked Abby.
Abby opened her mouth to answer but then didn't, Fitz was confused.
"The doctor kicked us out, they are waiting for the psychiatrist to examine her," Harrison said.
"Why do you have to be kicked out for that?"
Fitz didn't bother waiting for an answer, he headed to Olivia's room door and as he got closer a female doctor appeared and tried to block him.
"Mr. President, I'm sorry, you can't go in there?"
"Lady, get lost," Fitz said dismissively as he walked past her and opened Olivia's room door.
When he walked in, she was sitting up with her back against the mountain of pillows on her bed, staring at nothing in particular. She didn't seemed to notice that he was in the room, she just kept staring blankly, crying.
"Livie?"
She jumped, seemingly frightened by the fact that he was in the room. Fitz stepped back a little, he was troubled by the fact that she didn't seem to recognize him at all.
"Liv, it's me, Fitz," he said softly.
He stepped a little closer and she jumped back.
"I'm not going to hurt you," he said with his hands up.
Immediately Stephen and two other doctors burst into the room.
"Mr. President, I'm going to have to ask you to leave," Stephen ordered.
"What happened to her?" Fitz asked, ignoring Stephen.
"Mr. President, you have to leave right now," Stephen said again and this time, he personally led Fitz out of the room and they were followed by the doctor that had tried to block Fitz from the room. The only doctor left in the room with Olivia was the psychiatrist.
"I'm Dr. Caroline Jennings, but you can call me Caroline. I'm here to help you, you don't have to be afraid, no one here will hurt you," she said softly.
"I'm here to help you figure out what's going on, I know you're scared and confused, and I know you might be in slight pain so let me know if you need more painkillers."
Olivia didn't say a word, she just stared at the doctor.
"Olivia, are you in any pain, do you need painkillers?"
Olivia still didn't respond.
"Olivia please, you can talk to me, this is a safe environment."
After half an hour of trying to get a response from Olivia, Dr. Jennings decided to take a different approach.
"Okay, Olivia just sit tight for a moment, I'll return shortly,"
Dr. Jennings exited the room and was immediately swarmed by Stephen, Fitz, Abby, Harrison and Huck.
"What's going on Dr. Jennings?" Stephen asked.
"She won't speak to me, she's obviously very afraid, there's a lot of trauma there. After two months of isolation she needs to see familiar faces so I would recommend that you guys keep her company."
"So we should all sit with her?" Abby asked.
"Yeah, just interact how you would normally and eventually she'll feel comfortable enough to open up," said Dr. Jennings.
By the time they went back to Olivia's room, she was standing by the window, Stephen ran over to her.
"Liv, are you crazy, you need to rest, you can't be standing by yourself like that,"
He held on to her hand and she pulled it away. She still had the drips hooked up to her arm and her IV stand was right beside her, Stephen held his hands up to show he meant no harm.
"Let me help you back to your bed," he suggested.
Dr. Jennings walked over to Olivia and pushed a chair behind her so she could sit and look through the window and then pulled Stephen away.
"She's weak, she needs to be in bed," Stephen insisted.
"She's also been stuck in a room for two months, she needs to see outside, it will only help."
Stephen nodded and walked over to Fitz, Abby, Huck and Harrison, they all stood by the door, unsure of what to do.
Dr. Jennings walked over to them.
"Act normal, your presence in the room is enough to comfort her," she instructed.
They all stood looking at each other wondering who was going to try and talk to her first.
"I'll talk to her," Abby said quietly as she walked over to Olivia and knelt next to her.
"Hey Liv, it's me Abby, your best friend," she said nervously.
Olivia was still staring through the window, Abby looked at Dr. Jennings who encouraged her to go on.
"I missed you, I mean we all really missed you - you know what, you must be hungry, what do you want to eat- it doesn't matter I'm just gonna go out and buy everything you like and then we could decide."
Just then, Abby took off crying, Harrison went after and caught her half way down the hall.
"Abby what's wrong?"
"I'm a terrible friend, I shouldn't have left her there, I should have stayed with her because she would have stayed with me."
"Abby if you didn't escape you would have died and she still would have been there, you know that," said Harrison.
"I know, I just- I wish I could have helped her but I couldn't so now I'm gonna go buy her food or whatever I can find that might make her feel better."
"Okay, just hurry back okay."
"I know, I will."
Harrison let her go and went back to Olivia's room.
He sat quietly on the small couch with Fitz watching Olivia, ever so often she would move or cough but for the most part, she was still.
Abby came back an hour later with bags of food and snacks.
"Hey Liv, I brought food from this mexican place down the street, I know how much you like mexican food. Stephen said you should start eating solids."
Abby tried to hand her the food but Olivia didn't take it.
Abby placed it on the windowsill.
"Okay, I'm just gonna leave it here and whenever you're ready, you can eat it, okay."
Abby pulled up a chair and sat quietly beside her.
Fitz had to leave at noon to take care of White House business but was able to come back late in the night.
He found Abby sleeping on the couch and Olivia was still by the window.
He walked over slowly and sat in the empty chair beside her. He still hadn't said a word to her since he saw her earlier and he still wasn't sure what to say so he just sat quietly beside her and continued reading his briefings.
He tried to stay up waiting for her to sleep but when she didn't, he found that as tired as he was, sleep wouldn't come. It wasn't until 6 in the morning that he dozed off for a almost on hour and woke up to the sound of soft sobbing.
He looked over to Olivia who was sitting exactly as he had left her when he fell asleep, only she was crying.
He instinctively tried to reach out and comfort her but she pulled away and turned her face away from him. He had no idea what to say and as he was trying to decide what to do Dr. Jennings walked in.
"Good morning Mr. President."
"She crying, I- don't know what to do," said Fitz immediately as the Dr. walked in.
She nodded.
"Can I have the room?" the doctor asked.
"Sure."
He looked at Olivia one last time before he woke Abby and they both went to stand in the hall.
Dr. Jennings walked over to the chair beside Olivia and sat down.
"Olivia can you tell me why you are crying?" she asked.
After a long pause, Olivia answered.
"I- don't know if this is real or if I made it up in my head? I can't tell anymore," she said as she tried to sniffle her way through an intelligible sentence.
"This is real, I promise you, you didn't make it up? You were rescued more than a week ago, you are at the James Madison hospital in Washington DC, you are in America and the people who were holding you prisoner have all been captured," she paused, "Olivia can you tell me what you meant when you said you can't tell if something is real or made up?"
"Can I have some water?"
"Sure, absolutely."
Dr. Jennings walked quickly to the door and called Stephen who had just arrived for his shift.
"Can I have some water for her?"
"Sure, one sec."
Within seconds Stephen was back with a bottle of water and gave it to Dr. Jennings. She brought it back to Olivia. Olivia took the water and eyed it suspiciously and then handed it back to the doctor.
"Is there a problem with the water?"
"I'm just not thirsty anymore,"
"Can you tell me what you meant when you said you can't tell if something is real or made up?"
"I don't know."
"I read your file Olivia, you have an infallible memory, do you think being held prisoner for so long is what caused you to not know."
"I don't know," Olivia said as she shook her head.
"Okay, let's start with something simple; why don't you think this is real?"
Dr. Jennings watched as Olivia stared through the window and more tears began streaming down her face.
"It's just that I've been disappointed before, I had dreams like is before and I believed that I was rescued before but I was dreaming or hallucinating and I don't want that to happen again."
"I promise you, you are not dreaming. Look outside, look at all those people down there, this is real."
The doctor paused.
"Can you tell me what happened to you?"
Olivia took a deep breath.
"They kept me in a white room, there were bright lights shining from the ceiling, there was a shower, it was white, so was the toilet and sink. There was no bed, just the floor and it was always cold."
"What was that like for you?"
Olivia felt a anxiety attack coming on from the flash of memories that came back from her experience in the room, she started heaving uncontrollably.
"I- I don't want to talk about it anymore," she stammered.
"Breathe," Caroline said as she rubbed her back gently.
"Your memories are going to be intense, so intense that you may feel like your still there, you have to reign them in or shut them out."
"I can't!"
At this point she was crying hysterically and everyone outside the room could hear.
Fitz was standing halfway between Stephen and Olivia's door.
"What's going on in here?" Fitz asked nervously.
"You can't go in there, let the psychiatrist handle it," Stephen warned.
The elephant in the room was why Fitz seemed so attached to Olivia. It puzzled Stephen, Harrison and Huck who had arrived to the hospital just minutes before. Harrison kept asking Abby what was going on but she deflected as much as she could, Huck kept his questions to himself.
"Is she going to be okay? I mean, in your professional opinion?" He asked Stephen.
"Her physical injuries will heal, mentally though, I'm worried. According to the army doctor, they used white torture and the mental impact of that on a normal person is detrimental so I can't imagine what it did to Olivia. Her brain is hyperactive at best, she's constantly calculating, thinking, doing multiple things in her head at once and she needs constant stimulation or else she'll consume herself, I can't be sure how bad until I hear what the psychiatrist says but based on the fact that she didn't even seemed to recognize any one of us or maybe she just didn't want to, I don't know, I need the evaluation to know how bad it is."
"Do you think she'll ever be able to get past this?" Fitz asked hesitantly.
"I don't know."
"All the resources in the world and it still took almost three months to find her," Fitz said more to himself than Stephen.
"I'm not sure what we would've done without your help, she would've still been out there so I'm thankful that you found her at all."
In the middle of their bonding moment Dr. Jennings walked out of Olivia's hospital room. Stephen quickly walked over to her.
"What's going on Dr. Jennings?" Stephen was the first to ask.
The doctor pulled him aside from everyone and spoke with him for a few moments and then excused herself.
"What did she say?" Abby asked as Stephen walked back over to them.
"She doesn't want you guys seeing her, not for the rest of the day."
"Why not, yesterday she said she needed to familiarize herself with us. I don't think she should be alone at a time like this," Fitz retorted.
"She isn't, Dr. Jennings will be examining her for the rest of the day and most likely until she leaves the hospital. You guys should go and get some rest, I'll let you guys know if anything comes up."
"Stephen come on, I'm a doctor-" Abby protested.
"I know Abby but you don't work at this hospital, I do and Olivia is my patient, I can't let you guys see her because that won't help her right now, I'm sorry."
Abby sighed.
"I want updates every hour, on the hour," she demanded.
"I swear," Stephen agreed.
Abby was about to walk away with Huck and Harrison but then she stopped.
"Can we just see her?"
"Abby no."
"Fine," she said as she strutted off.
Stephen turned to face Fitz who'd didn't seem to indicate that he had any intention of leaving.
"Mr. President, I'm sorry, I can't let you see her either."
"Just let me see her for a moment, I won't say anything to disturb her, I just need to see her then I'll leave."
"I'm sorry, I can't-"
"I'm asking nicely Dr. Finch."
Stephen realized that it was really a question, he shrugged and took Fitz to her door. Stephen opened the door slightly and moved aside so Fitz could see inside.
She was sitting by the window, staring outside. She didn't notice that the door was slightly open or if she did know that it was open, she didn't care enough to acknowledge it. Even though he couldn't see her face, he could tell she was still crying because she kept wiping under her eyes.
"Sir?" Stephen called quietly to break Fitz's attention away from her.
Fitz closed the door quietly.
"Thanks Dr. Finch."
"No worries Sir."
Fitz gave Stephen a polite nod and then headed back to the White House.
Olivia felt someone staring at her but she didn't want to face anyone as yet so she pretended not to notice. Moments later, she heard the door open again but this time it was Dr. Jennings.
"Olivia, I'm back," she said as she walked to the window.
"Where did you go?"
"I needed to make some preparations for you with the nurses that's all?"
Olivia turned around to face her?
"What preparations?"
"Don't worry, it's just logistics that's all."
Olivia nodded and turned back to the window.
"We sent your friends home, they'll be back tomorrow."
Caroline waited for her to respond and when she didn't, she decided to press on.
"Olivia now that we are alone, is it alright for me to ask you some more questions?"
"How often were you fed?"
"Does it matter?"
"It does, we need to know the conditions you were kept under, that will help us to determine how to help you. We can take it one question at a time, you answer the ones you feel comfortable with and any you don't want to answer we can skip, how does that sound?"
Olivia nodded.
"Okay, how often were you fed?"
"They fed me pills and supplements, sometimes they would give me rice."
"Just rice?"
She nodded.
"You said they kept you in a white room, did they ever let you out?"
She shook her head.
"Olivia were you ever sexually assaulted?"
She shook her head again.
"Are you sure? Did you ever blackout, could it have happened then?"
"It didn't- at least- I- hope it didn't, I would've known."
"Your chest x-ray revealed that you have three broken ribs, how did you get that injury?"
"They kicked me."
"Did they hurt you often?"
"I- don't want to talk about it anymore."
Dr. Jennings paused.
"How do you feel Olivia?"
"What do you mean?"
"How do you feel, are you happy you were rescued? Sad, you were taken in the first place? Angry? Grateful? How are you doing?"
Olivia lips began to tremble.
"I feel sad."
"Why do you feel sad?"
"I feel sad that this happened to me."
Dr. Jennings caressed her back.
"That's good, that's a start, admitting your feelings is the first step to healing."
Olivia nodded.
"Doctor, I'm really tired and I'd like to go lay down."
"Sure, I'll let you rest for a while and we can talk a little bit more later on?"
"Okay."
Dr. Jennings helped her over to her bed and once Olivia was settled, she headed out.
