New Twilight

Chapter 25

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Laying Himself Bare

"Scared of what?" asked Edward quietly making his way to Harry. Going at a 'human' pace, relived beyond belief that Harry didn't seem disgusted or horrified by that fact. He wanted nothing more than to put his arms around his mate, comfort him but for some reason he knew his touch wouldn't be welcomed. Harry seemed scared of something, so it was best just to lay of for the moment.

Harry sighed sitting himself on the ledge of the window, staring back at Edward. He obviously wanted to know so he might as well tell him. Perhaps if he told Edward what was bothering him, Edward would tell him more about being a vampire. He was terribly curious about them, and their diets and the reason for them. "Do you know what its like to grow up alone?" he asked Edward eventually.

"No, I was very lucky to know both my parents - both sets." stated Edward sadly.

"Then no matter what ya couldn't really understand what this is like fur mi. Ya know I would have loved it if ya all had come into my life years ago. Its got to the stage I suspect the worst of everyone Edward. I either think they are doing things for me because of my 'parents'" Harry couldn't help but grimace in disgust at the words. "They paid for someone to raise me. When I was a very young boy, I er, thought she was my mum that I had two mothers. I asked James and Lily my biological parents, why I didn't live with them. I remembered what they said, and as I got older I realized what they had meant."

Edward just nodded his head in understanding to what Harry was saying.

"Do ya ken what a squib is?" asked Harry his face flushing with shame, he loathed that word and hated it being associated with him.

"Someone born in a magical family without magic themselves?" said Edward quietly, knowing how much the word was upsetting his mate. He could after all hear some of the words his mate was thinking.

"Do you know what usually happens to them?" asked Harry staring at Edward's amber eyes.

"No, I only know of two instances, Peter, Jasper's friend the Vampire that used to be a Wizard. He had a sister that was a squib; they killed her rather than live with the same of having a normal child. Then there's your parents," said Edward the word was bitten out in disgust, they weren't parents they weren't even animals they were lower than anything on the food chain. He would gladly eat them and let them know just how low they were. "Who gave you away; they made a big mistake, because you are a good hearted person."

"Thanks," said Harry his heart lurching how long had he wanted someone to think that of him?

"Why did you move here if you do not want to stay?" asked Edward.

"I wiznie given a choice, they decided for me," sighed Harry shaking his head forlornly. "Ya see…I dinnie exist, at least not in the magical world. They pronounced mi dead ti the world."

Edward sucked in a deep breath at the harshness of that statement.

"They moved me away over here," said Harry, "Big mistake that was."

Edward's face showed his pain at Harry's words.

"Not you Edward, I could never regret ya all - you've been so good to mi. Made mi realise what I've missed out on. It's no you's there's a wizarding family here, in Forks." said Harry reluctantly.

"They live in the normal world?" asked Edward confused, if so why did they get rid of their son.

"Nah, they dinnie usually. Their world is hidden, I widnie even ken how ti get there." said Harry shaking his head. "The only way to get in touch wi em would be through owls. That I've only recently found out." confided Harry, a weight falling off his shoulders each sentence he spoke.

Edward watched Harry tidy up, it seemed to be compulsive, patting down his bed, righting everything to make it straight. He had noticed his house was extremely tidy as well. "Do you suffer from OCD?" asked Edward curiously, it was his turn to sit next to the window.

"Nah, not really…er, you can blame Lily for this," said Harry sheepishly, his hands ceasing in what they were unconsciously doing. "I always got visits from Lily and James…on my birthday and Christmas for an hour at the most if I was lucky. When I stayed with Rebecca it was my room. When I had my own flat it was twice as worse."

"What did she do?" asked Edward narrowing his eyes in disgust.

"She…used magic…to tidy up; despite the fact it was tidy. No matter what I did before she came she always did it. She made me feel like a piece o crap. I've just gotten so used to it I do it without thinking." sighed Harry sitting down on the edge of the bed, his hands wedged together in his thighs.

"She preformed magic despite knowing you couldn't?" asked Edward completely blown away. That was worse than showing off, he didn't know this Lily but when he did he was going to show her how useless her magic truly was against a vampire.

Harry simply nodded his head.

"So why has this wizard family gotten you so upset? Are they harassing you?" asked Edward getting to another point.

"Mr. Snape, he has twins, Tabby and Silver remember them?" asked Harry, knowing Edward probably did.

"I know them," nodded Edward, perhaps it was something to do with the blood that made Harry and the Snape's able to elude his ability to read their minds. He couldn't very well say 'Wizard' thing when Harry unfortunately wasn't a Wizard.

"Silver is a wizard but Tabby is a squib, Snape kept both his children and decided to live in the normal world." said Harry, a tormented tear making its way down his face.

Edward closed his eyes in silent despair and anger, no wonder Harry was feeling angry and sad. It was just horrific to think about it, it must make Harry feel even worse than he already did all the time. To know that not everyone was willing to give up their children, that Snape had been a better father than James and Lily Potter.

"I am sorry," said Edward quietly, not knowing what else to say. He had lived for a very long time, yet he couldn't say anything to comfort his mate. It was a very despicable situation, Carlisle would have been better at this than him.

"He's offered to teach me," said Harry.

"I'm sorry?" asked Edward completely stunned and confused.

"Apparently there is something squibs can dae…they can be a part o the magical world." murmured Harry.

"Is that a bad thing?" asked Edward, once again wishing he could read his mates blasted mind. So he could figure out exactly what was going through his mind.

"It's no ma world, it doesn't matter what I can and can't do there," said Harry.

"Why do I get the impression you DO want that?" asked Edward able to glean that at least from his mates mind.

"I want ti prove em wrong, ya know? I want em to regret getting rid o mi?" sighed Harry.

"That's extremely natural," said Edward nodding his head in agreement. "What's stopping you?"

"I'm not sure how they wid react, I cannie defend ma self fi magic ya ken." stated Harry bluntly.

"Do you seriously think me or my family would let anything happen to you?" asked Edward incredulously.

Harry simply shrugged wondering what vampires could do against magic?

"Harry if you want to be taught by Snape, do it, you are in America…your family is in the United Kingdom - how could they know?" said Edward soothingly.

"It's not as simple as that; I'm so angry and ashamed when I see him. Not really at him but at the situation, I mean he kept his child, I was given away, and I'm ashamed because he knows who I am. I unfortunately look exactly like James…" grimaced Harry. The only difference was he didn't need glasses and his hair was tidy, for most part and much longer than his. "He knows I'm not magical, that I'm a squib." the word was said with a lot of distaste.

"He cannot pity you Harry, he's raised his daughter without magic. What kind of magic can you do?" asked Edward wincing at how insensitive it sounded. He really should have thought about that sentence before speaking.

"Potions, it's a bit like our chemistry, making 'hings to help people." explained Harry quietly.

"I see," said Edward curious himself now.

"Aren't vampires a part o the magical world?" asked Harry after a few seconds of surprisingly comfortable silence.

"Well according to Peter they loose their magic, so no I'd assume not." said Edward, "I cannot say for certain, the best person to answer that would be Snape."

Harry sighed again, it seemed as though that's all he was capable of.

"We hadn't heard of the magical world until Jasper told us, Jasper must have heard Peter talking about the magical world. About the Potter family at least, that's when he went to make a call." said Edward.

"What's it like…being a vampire I mean?" asked Harry curiously.

"How do you mean?" asked Edward.

"What's it like?" shrugged Harry unhelpfully.

"It's excruciatingly painful, being turned into one. Once you are bitten, it takes three days for the venom to turn you immortal completely. After that, you have to put up with the constant burning in your throat when we are around humans. Once turned some of us, we get what we call 'Gifts' abilities." said Edward.

"What kind of abilities?" asked Harry perking up looking even more interested.

"Well, Alice has the ability to see the future, Jasper is an empath, and he can manipulate emotions. I on the other hand…have the ability to read minds." said Edward eventually.

"Why didn't you know about magic before? If you can read minds I mean I think about it all the time!" said Harry. His mind mulling over everything he had just learned. He suddenly understood how Edward knew he was here. Alice must have told him, he shook his head once more but this time in amusement.

"Who said anything about me being able to read your mind?" asked Edward having to stop himself pouting. It annoyed him to no end that he couldn't read his own mates mind. It was hard to stay annoyed when he saw Harry grinning wickedly. Slowly but surely his mate was coming back. The boy that had been staying with him he meant.

"Really?" he said a teasing glint in his eyes and on his mouth.

"Really." stated Edward wryly.

"Cool," was all the seventeen year old had to say.

"Why di you n ya family live on animal blood? You said yourself that your family wiz different fi others o ya kind so why?" asked Harry.

"It was Carlisle that started it all, he had too much compassion for human life to willingly take one life." stated Edward confidently.

"And you are all orite wi that?" asked Harry surprised.

"Some of us weren't…" said Edward emotionlessly, "Sooner or later we came back though."

"How long did you leave for?" asked Harry with a knowing look on his face.

"Ten years," admitted Edward, slightly surprised that Harry had worked out he was speaking about his own experience. He kept underestimating his mate, when he really shouldn't. It also didn't seem like he was being judged, how odd. His mate truly was a weird one that was for sure.

"What made you go back?" asked Harry, "I'm assuming there is a difference between drinking from a human and an animal otherwise others of your kind would be…wouldn't they?"

"I left blaming Carlisle for suppressing my appetite; I wanted to know what it felt like to hunt properly. To be a real vampire, as I called it back then." said Edward, it seemed as though not only was Harry sharing all his burdens tonight but Edward was also. "I justified it by killing murderers, rapists, people the world would be better off without."

"Good idea," said Harry nodding his understanding, if he had continued the world would indeed be a safer place.

"It wasn't, I didn't see it at the time of course, I was turning into a monster, into one of them." said Edward sadly.

"It took you ten years for that?" asked Harry dryly, "You are slow on the uptake aren't you?" he added wryly.

Edward didn't know what to say at that, he did not like being insulted, especially his intelligence. A vampire retained all information, they couldn't forget anything.

"I'm sorry…continue," said Harry realizing he might have gone too far.

"Human blood is different from animal blood, animal blood does fill you up but…it's not the same as human blood. It's hard to explain…I'd imagine it might be like you giving up normal food for a range of tofu food. It fills you up but lacks the flavour…the taste of normal food." said Edward, struggling to explain to his mate what it was like giving up human blood for animal blood. Meanwhile still trying to get his mind around the fact that Harry wasn't scared or even upset with the way the conversation was going! He was calmly sitting talking to a vampire about his diet!

"I wouldn't know I've never touched tofu food," said Harry screwing up his face.

Edward and Harry spoke through the night, about everything on their mind. Being truthful and completely open and honest, as honest as men could be with one another anyway. They only became aware of the time, when the sun snuck out behind the cloud bank. That was always permanently stuck over Forks; it was very seldom that the sun actually came out.

"So will you?" asked Edward quietly.

Harry quietly mulled over what he was being asked, did he have it in him to go back? Give Severus Snape a chance? Get to know the magical world a little better? Give his siblings a chance? "I'll come back, and I'll give Severus Snape a chance…but I don't know about ma…brother and sister Edward."

"Doesn't it mean something that they want to get to know you?" said Edward getting ready to argue a point.

"It means something aye, I mean it makes mi feel…less hurt at the world around mi. I'm worried that I'll hate em for something they have nae control over. What if I am jealous o em for having magic and I dinnie? What if I hate em because their parents gave mi up? For something I couldn't control?" murmured Harry half heartedly.

"What do you feel for them now?" asked Edward, both of them were laying spread eagle on the bed. Edward was on top of the covers; Harry had snuck under them in the dead of the night when it got to cold.

"Grateful that they want ti ken mi despite no havin magic," admitted Harry, "I have already replied anywi, told em I needed time ti hink before I made a decision. Told them to get back in touch wi mi in a month. Although I had planned on bein' back in Scotland bi then."

"Well at least you have a month to think on it then," said Edward. "Trust me, I was seventeen when I was turned…over the years I've gotten four brothers and sisters. There's nothing like having siblings to speak too, I know they aren't my blood but they are as good as."

Harry smiled softly; he truly did love all the Cullen's. Vampires or not they were the greatest family Harry had ever known.

"I had always imagined…any human being told about the existence of vampires would be freaked out." said Edward too curious for words.

"I kent about the magical world Edward, I've sort of always believed in the existence of creatures…like Goblins, fairy's, all mythological creatures. Not that I spent a lot of time dwelling on it…it's just that I kent the world wasn't just filled with normal people." said Harry. "I kent you's were all strange, I wiz trying to figure out what yas were…but I have ti admit I didnie hink o vampires."

"So the Snape's know what we are?" said Edward it was more of a statement than a question. He found he didn't mind too much, after all they had been there for a year and the Snape's didn't seem bothered about them. Harry held a lot of respect for Snape, without realizing it. Harry respected the fact that Severus had refrained from using magic around the teenager. He never flaunted his ability, when he knew he was in the presence of a squib who couldn't outdo him. He never did what his own parents did in other words. He too found he rather liked the man, especially when scaled beside the Potters. Then he'd gladly run over again and again, until there was no way they could be fixed or magically put together again.

Harry shrugged his shoulders; he wasn't aware of what the Snape's knew or didn't know. "I dunno."

Silence once more reined in the hotel room, as both men sat thinking things through. It wasn't so silent in Edward's mind, as the world around them began awakening. Which meant, he could hear the maids grumbling at the messes. Disgusted at the way they were taken for granted. Humming songs as they got on with their work regardless of the moaning. Listening to the humans planning their days, going for breakfast and every little other thing.

Edward hated places like this.

"Come on, lets go home." said Edward softly.

"I need to ring a taxi," said Harry, wrongfully assuming Edward had ran here.

"My car is parked out front, no need to worry," said Edward. Perhaps Harry running away had been the best thing to happen. The suspicion had washed away; he was no longer defensive - yes - it had been the best thing to happen. Now he and Harry could truly concentrate on getting to know one another even better. Becoming the mates they were destined to be.

If the Potters did come they couldn't get near Harry - he'd kill them first. He was NOT going to let his mate get set back by those arseholes.

I dont know why but i am deeply unhappy with this chapter :( both chapters 24 and 25 i'm thinking about reading it over and then deciding what to do. I might delete them...what do you think of them? honestly? i dont know it just doesnt seem to sit right with me its very weird its as if the chapter isnt meant for this story ya know? hm well its entirely up to you what do you think? does it seem to flow okay? hopefully everything will get back to normal soon...R&R PLEASE