WARNING: this story does contain flashbacks of abuse and harsh language; if you do not feel comfortable with that then I suggest you don't read.
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of the characters or any of the amazing songs-sadly. I don't even own Adam Gontier, but I do think Jacob would sing some of those songs. I do however own Raven the famous singer.
I want to dedicate this chapter to my newest friend BELLA-CULLEN-4EVER and thank her for all the help she has done for me, thanks sis.
P.S. I hate RENEE ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! I love Alice and Jasper and Emmett, he is just too funny
Last Time :
"Yes actually I am, and it's nice to meet a fan like you Nancy." I saw the mother's jaw drop and Nancy just smiled and wrapped her arms around my neck.
"I knew it. Um, do you think you could sign my hat, please?" She looked down shy and her cheeks turned red.
I giggled and nodded. "Sure do you have a marker or something?" Nancy nodded and pulled out a pink marker from her fanny pack. She took off her hat and handed it to me. I quickly signed; 'to my dedicated fan, Nancy. Love Raven Campton'
I gave her, her hat and marker back and she squealed jumping up and down. "Thank you. Thank you, thank you."
I smiled. "No problem, maybe I'll see you at one of my concerts sometimes." She squealed again and ran off dragging her very stunned mother behind her. I laughed looking at the mother, before turning back to Edward. He was smiling at me with such kindness and I swear I could see love in his eyes, but I shook of the thought, wishful thinking was all that was.
"What?" I asked after a few minutes of him staring at me.
"Nothing, but I can't get over the fact at how you're such an amazing person." He shrugged like he hadn't just made me heart soar.
I blushed and looked down. "Thank you, I guess."
We stepped onto the water coaster seat and I watched as the guy checked to make sure mine and Edward's restraints were on properly. The ride was a blast and both Edward and I were soaked by the end. I decided to take off my sweater to let it dry a bit. I heard a sharp intake of breathe and turned around to see Edward staring at my back. I looked and noticed my shirt had risen a bit and you could see my scars.
"Bella, where did you get those?" He reached his hand towards me as if he was going to touch one of my scars, but he pulled back a second later.
"I was in a motorcycle accident." I stated. It wasn't a total lie, but I felt bad for not saying the whole truth.
Edward's face turned hard. "Bella, you're lying to me. I know for a fact that one of those scars is from a leather belt. I saw the same scar on one of my dad's patients and Carlisle explained to me he was beaten with one, so don't you lie to me. Now, what really happened?" He demanded.
I looked down and thought of the best way to say my dad beat and raped me for almost thirteen years . . . . . . . . . . . .
Chapter 24 (EPOV)
I frowned staring at Bella's back. She had covered her bare back again, but I saw what was underneath and I could still see it when I blinked. She was looking down glaring at the ground. She looked upset, but also like she was calculating something.
I went over to her and wrapped my arms around her shoulder. I kissed the top of her head and leaned down so my lips were at her ear. "How about we talk about it later, you know, when you are ready? I do not want to pressure you into anything." I said trying to make her happy again.
"No, no, I want to tell you, you deserve to know, it's just hard to start. You think we could go somewhere else, where we can talk alone?" She avoided eye contact with me and focused her attention on a speck on my shirt.
I nodded. "Sure, maybe we can go to the park again and talk?" I asked.
"Sure, but do you think we can walk, it's not far and it will give us more time to talk." She said.
"Of course," was my simply reply. We started walking through the carnival back to the entrance and out the gates. We walked long a sidewalk that only had two other people walking on it.
"Um, when I was born my parents, Renee and Charlie, were not really in a position to raise a child. Fresh out of school, a new job that Charlie wasn't quite settled with yet and when you throw a baby into that kind of mix, it gets hard. Charlie started drinking to help release some of the stress and Renee was forced to stay at home and take care of me.
"Eventually Charlie started beating Renee, he didn't touch me actually he was an amazing father, hard to believe really, before my fifth birthday. The night before I turned five Charlie started beating me, and the next day he hit me before I went to school." She paused and I couldn't help but feel the overwhelming dread and anger inside me. "I went to school came home and we celebrated my birthday like any other family, except for the glares Renee and Charlie were sending each other. Me, Jake and Jasper played Candy Land until around nine and then we had to go to bed. When I woke up they were gone, mom had taken Jasper and left without a trace.
"Charlie tried to stop drinking and raise me like a normal father would, but then he just couldn't do it anymore and started drinking again. At first it was just a smack here or a kick there, but as time went by the beatings got worse. By the time I was seven he would beat me every night.
"Whe-when I was ten he thought I had told someone about the beatings, but I hadn't an-and he decide as punishment he would ra-rape me." She had full on tears streaming down her face. I stopped and spun around pure anger and sadness covered my face. Bella, my Bella, was hurt so much by someone that was supposed to love her unconditionally.
She was beaten and raped by that man and he didn't care. I wrapped my arms around her small trembling form and she cried into my chest. I could feel her tears soak through my t-shirt, but I paid little attention to that. She needed me right now.
"Shh, shh, Bella, he's gone now and he can't hurt you anymore I promise." I had never really been one for violence, except when need be of course, but I could stop myself from wishing Charlie to the deepest pits of hell and to rot for all eternity for what he did to Bella.
"I know, but that doesn't stop the memories from over running me when I sleep, or the painful thoughts when I see myself in the mirror, and it definitely doesn't stop the tremors and shuddering when near men I don't trust." She said, but her voice was muffled in my shirt.
"No, it doesn't, but it can help you in time, they say time heals all wounds, but that's not true, only what's done in the time given can help heal. Bella, what Charlie did was awful, worse than awful and I wish I could have known you back than so I could have helped, but I will settle for helping you right now, but the question is will you let me?" I asked pulling back so I could see her face.
She looked at me, eyes red and puffy, cheeks red and tear streaked, but her eyes never left mine. I kept my eyes on her asking, no begging for her to let me help her.
"Yes, Edward, I will let you help as long as you do not tell anyone about what I said. Jacob knows, but I don't want everybody to know until I'm fully ready, promise?" She asked gazing at me.
"Of course, Bella, I promise." She leaned in and kissed me on the lips and I kissed her back with so much emotion I felt her crush herself to me more.
Okay, I'm done with this chapter R&R, please, so sorry I haven't updated in a while something came up that had to be dealt with before I could write.